All men are like my ex

Looking at this scene, Shi Yinan didn't feel any jealousy in his heart, but he is actually a very jealous person.

In the past when he and Bai Yichen were still in college, Bai Yichen smiled and said a few words to others gently, he was so jealous that his blood flowed like magma.

This is probably because he hated the promiscuity of his father and mother since he was a child. These two people who also like to cheat really defile the sanctity of marriage, so he doesn't like women. After he has someone he likes, he possesses them Desire is also very strong.

But Shi Yinan couldn't help thinking that if Bai Yichen hadn't met him, maybe Bai Yichen wouldn't have committed suicide.

Bai Yichen is different from him, he is not someone who only likes men.If Bai Yichen hadn't met him, he might have waited for another person who redeemed him in the dark and gave him warmth, light and love. If that person was a woman, then they would get married and have a child, whether it was Boy or girl, they will all be happy.

Instead of choosing to commit suicide while waiting with no end in sight, as it is now.

Shi Yinan chose to stop by the side of the road, silently watching them play.

But in fact, he opened his lips several times to call Bai Yichen, but he just couldn't say a word.

He stood silently under a tree like that for about ten minutes, until Bai Yichen sent the little boy away with a smile, then he slowly walked towards the young man and appeared in Bai Yichen's vision.

As soon as Shi Yinan moved, Bai Yichen quickly spotted him.

The tall man was wearing a black suit with a black lining, and his tie was no longer tied, but the tie pin that Bai Yichen gave him in the morning was still pinned to his collar. The people were in sharp contrast and looked out of place, so Bai Yichen tentatively waved at him through the mask.

Shi Yinan quickly walked up to Bai Yichen, never mentioning the scene he just saw, just pretending that he had just appeared, he hooked his lips and took off Bai Yichen's mask, and said in a low voice: "I found you gone."

The man spoke, his low and deep voice was familiar and charming, which made Bai Yichen confirm that this person was Shi Yinan.

Bai Yichen looked at him with a smile. When the mask was taken off, a few strands of his hair were caught. With the mask gone, it floated twice in mid-air and then fell down, sticking to his fair face.

But Shi Yinan didn't know why, and felt that he seemed to see an indescribable despair and sadness in Bai Yichen's smile.

"How did you find me so quickly?" Bai Yichen pulled the mask back from Shi Yinan's hand and played with it, "I thought you wouldn't recognize me."

"How could I not recognize you?" Shi Yinan ignored the people around him, lowered his head and stamped on Bai Yichen's forehead, "If it's you, of course I can recognize you."

He did recognize it, but just watched it silently for a long time.

He looked down at Bai Yichen, who was seriously playing with the mask, the young man's brows and eyes were extremely gentle in the bright light, and the slender eyelashes seemed to have stardust jumping and shining into his eyes.

Shi Yinan didn't know what kind of thought flashed through his mind at that moment, he only knew that he asked a somewhat strange question: "Then if I put on a mask, would you recognize me?"

Hearing his question, Bai Yichen immediately raised his eyes to look at Shi Yinan, he held the mask and stretched out his hand to compare Shi Yinan's face, covering his face, then frowned and shook his head in distress, Said: "I don't recognize it."

"Little villain." Shi Yinan didn't pay attention, thinking that Bai Yichen was joking, he ran his fingers through Bai Yichen's soft hair, and rubbed it on his head. This is what Shi Yinan often said to Bai Yichen when they were in college. action to do.

Shi Yinan was taller than Bai Yichen, when they were still young, when Shi Yinan stroked his hair, his movements were charming and lingering, and the next moment he would press the back of his head with a suffocating kiss, Bai Yichen Yichen has a thin skin, always flushes with embarrassment after being kissed, and refuses to look up at Shi Yinan for a long time.

But now there are many people in the playground, Bai Yichen was afraid that he would really press him for a wet kiss, so he gently slapped Shi Yinan's hand away, and said, "You are so old, and you still touch my hair. "

"You are only 26, I am one year older than you." Shi Yinan said dumbly, "How old can I be?"

Bai Yichen sighed: "That's too old, I'm going to be 27 soon..."

"Yes, yes, Mr. Bai is getting older, so he has to eat three meals a day on time." Shi Yinan took his hand, "You haven't had lunch yet, let's have lunch first."

"Okay."

Bai Yichen let him lead him, and when he left here, he looked back at the jumping machine.At this moment, the jumping machine is rising, and the people sitting on it are sighing, but it is estimated that they will have to scream in a few minutes.

Shi Yinan didn't take a look here just now, Bai Yichen thought, he probably couldn't recognize where it was.

They chose a themed restaurant at random in the playground. The dishes in it tasted very ordinary, but the decoration in the restaurant was very childlike and cute. They met several cute children on the first floor. Fortunately, their dining place In the private room on the roof, you don't have to worry about the noisy children, but you can also enjoy the beautiful scenery of Zhou'an Park.

After sitting down, Bai Yichen stuck his chin and continued to look at the faintly visible jumping machine outside the window, while Shi Yinan stretched out his hand and pulled off his collar, heaved a sigh of relief, and said, "It's still clean upstairs, the children downstairs It's giving me a headache."

Bai Yichen turned to look at him when he heard the words, sipped his saliva and said with a smile, "I think it's quite cute."

"Cute?" Shi Yinan doesn't like children, "It's obviously noisy."

"Speaking of which, I met a little boy in the playground today. His name is Xun Xun, and he looks very much like you."

"Looks like me?" When Shi Yinan heard the words, he immediately knew that what Bai Yichen was talking about might be the little boy who was playing with him just now, but that boy obviously didn't look like him.

Bai Yichen nodded and said, "Well, it's very similar to you."

Shi Yinan laughed, thinking that Bai Yichen was joking with him, shook his head and said, "There are very few people like me, if so, it must be some unknown illegitimate child of my father, right?"

This can be said to be malicious speculation, it is not difficult to hear the master's dislike for children.

Generally, long-lost couples may think of an illegitimate child when they hear their lover say this to them, and feel that this is a temptation from their lover, such as whether they cheated on them during the separation.And when Bai Yichen said this to him, Shi Yinan's first reaction was also an illegitimate child, but it wasn't his illegitimate child.

When Bai Yichen saw that Yi Nan was so reticent, he finally stopped being euphemistic and asked him directly: "Yi Nan, have you ever thought about having a child?"

When Shi Yinan heard this, the fingers resting on the table trembled slightly, but the movement was so subtle that no one noticed.

When he went to the company in the morning, he thought about it for a long time, and what he thought about was about Bai Yichen's suicide.

Over the years, he was afraid that he would not be able to restrain his love for Bai Yichen, and would give up everything in Huacheng and come to Nancheng to find him, so he deliberately did not pay attention to the news about Bai Yichen. In the company, his Subordinates and colleagues only thought he was a serious, indifferent, unsmiling boss. Except for classmates or neighbors who had witnessed their love, no one knew that he had a male lover who fell in love with him a few years ago.

And the classmates have gone their separate ways after graduation, and the neighbors have already left the place after the demolition of the rental house. Nancheng said it was big or small, and they may never meet again, and it is not certain that they will meet again. recognize each other.

Because no matter how deep the relationship is, it will be diluted with time-time is the end of all glory and loneliness.

Shi Yinan knew this truth, so he felt that Bai Yichen would gradually forget himself. After all, he left so resolutely and indifferently at the beginning. Anyone with a bit of self-esteem and integrity would hate him as an "ex" to the bone.

For such a "predecessor" to commit suicide, most people would not think that Bai Yichen was affectionate enough, they would only think that he was stupid.

Bai Yichen is not a fool, so Shi Yinan thought that he would gradually forget himself, but he still chose to return to Nancheng after he became famous, not because he loves Bai Yichen so much, but because he loves Bai Yichen so much. Because Bai Yichen was his first love.

First love has a unique memory for everyone, not to mention that first love is a white moonlight in everyone's heart, like a cinnabar mole, who will let it go?

Shi Yinan has never felt much real "love" since he was a child, whether it is family affection, love, or friendship.He admits that Bai Yichen is the only person who makes him feel strong love, such passionate feelings, as if he is the only light in Bai Yichen's life, if he leaves this beam of light, Bai Yichen will be Fatigue died in the dark.

This greatly satisfied him, which was also the reason why he was so infatuated with Bai Yichen.

So when he came back, he wanted to continue to be watched by Bai Yichen with such deep eyes.

When he came back, he didn't have a headache at all and wondered whether Bai Yichen would hate him, or if Bai Yichen really forgot about him, what should he do if he had a new lover? He felt that he had enough capital to call Bai Yichen fall in love with him all over again.

In the end, Bai Yichen really still loves him that way, he has kept almost all the memories about him and him, the gaze he looks at him is still hot and expressiony, and it hasn’t changed after more than 1000 long days and nights——Bai Yichen Dust really loves him.

While being satisfied, Shi Yinan was indulging in Bai Yichen's gentleness, he began to think that's it, there's nothing wrong with being with Bai Yichen for the rest of his life, let's forget about the four years of separation, anyway Nobody cares.

But the scar on Bai Yichen's wrist, and the scene he saw today of Bai Yichen playing with the mother and child, clearly reminded Shi Yinan that those four years were not that simple.He didn't know how much pain was suppressed behind Bai Yichen's gentle smile to him, and he didn't know how painful Bai Yichen was before he chose to commit suicide.

He knew Bai Yichen's past, and knew how he was a person who wanted to live hard.

But he made Bai Yichen choose to commit suicide.

He was the one who forced Bai Yichen into a pitiful but unsympathetic person in the eyes of almost everyone, because he was stupid, he didn't love himself enough, and he gave up his life for a scumbag. Serve it right.

He was the one who forced Bai Yichen to become such a person - a person who deserved his death.

But obviously the one who did the wrong thing was him, not Bai Yichen, but it was Bai Yichen who was scolded, not pitiful, sympathetic, or even scolded for what he deserved.

Yi Nan was thinking about these things when he went to the company in the morning, and he was also thinking about it on the way back from the company, but he couldn't think of any answers, and he didn't know how to do it, because he found that he might really fall in love with Bai Yichen.

Because of love, he is so dazed and helpless, he has committed a lot of crimes, and he doesn't know how to face Bai Yichen.

He feels that the only thing he can do now is to talk to Bai Yichen well, love him well, and try his best to make up for the four years he missed—even if these actions are insignificant, they are the only things he can do now.

Shi Yinan gritted his back molars tightly, which made his face a little distorted, he forced himself to smile as usual, and replied to Bai Yichen, "Of course not, I just want to be with you, how could that be?" have children?"