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Li Xun took the vegetables to the kitchen to cook, Mo Xu followed, helped him choose and wash the vegetables, and then Li Xun wiped his hands for him: "Go and rest, you won't do the rest, just wait." .”

Mo Xu nodded, responded with a smile and went out. Taking advantage of the spare time, he wanted to read the script again, pondering over it, but after searching in the room for a long time, he couldn't find the script. He went to the kitchen, hugged Li Xun, who was cooking, asked him, "Axun, have you seen my script? I can't find it anywhere."

Li Xun turned around and kissed him: "I knew you would forget, I brought it back for you, it's in my room, you go and get it."

Mo Xu secretly kissed him on the back, then let go of him, and went out to find his script in Li Xun's room next door. Li Xun's bag was placed on the living room table, he flipped through it, and sure enough, it was inside. Go, and saw that the desk drawer was not closed tightly, and a corner of the paper was exposed inside——

[Diagnostician: Wang Wei]

He wondered, Brother Xun's stomach disease recurred?He opened the drawer, and there were only some papers and medicines in the drawer. He picked up the medicine bottle and looked, [Ginsenoside RH2] and some other medicines, what are these?Stomach medicine?He took out that piece of paper again, the date was two months ago, and there was a lot written on it densely, he couldn't understand it, but he could understand the most important ones——

[Name: Li Xun

Sex: Male

Age: 28

Auxiliary examination: Chest plain film showed an irregular transparent circle in the gastric cavity, located in the colon segment under the right diaphragm.Upper gastrointestinal endoscopy revealed a diffusely eroded, exophytic mass growing from the subcardia region.

Preliminary diagnosis: The histological features of the mass were consistent with high-grade poorly differentiated gastric adenocarcinoma.

Treatment: The patient was diagnosed with advanced gastric cancer; the patient was offered treatment to relieve his symptoms and died 5 to 16 months later.

Diagnosing doctor: Wang Wei]

His face was pale, this is... the medical certificate from two months ago, two months, two months... What has he been doing these two months?Why didn't you notice it?Li Xun has lost so much weight recently, why did he really believe that he just has a common stomach problem?

The coolness spread from the bottom of his heart to his limbs and bones. Mo Xu tremblingly pinched the piece of paper, his heart was struck by lightning, and his ears roared. His eyes turned black and he fell down on the sofa, like a fish dying from lack of oxygen. He clutched his heart and panted heavily, are you kidding me... Stomach cancer, late stage?

There were panicked footsteps outside the door, the door was opened, Li Xun hurriedly pushed the door in, saw Mo Xu staring blankly at the piece of paper, his mind buzzed, he was found...

He doesn't go back to his home very often, at most he just goes back to deal with some documents and change clothes. Most of his things are here in Mo Xu, and Mo Xu doesn't often go to his place. His things are usually placed very casually. Mo Xu came over to get things, but forgot that his bag was on the living room table, and his medicine and his medical certificate were all in the drawer of the living room table!That is to say, Mo Xu could find it by flipping through it casually. When he remembered it, he hurried over, but it was still too late...

"Li Xun, what is this? I can't understand..." Mo Xu pinched the paper, his face was pale, he looked at Li Xun who was approaching, and smiled ugly, Li Xun's Adam's apple rolled up and down, he Approaching Mo Xu, he wanted to take the piece of paper away from his hand, but he couldn't pull it out. He looked at him and called out in a hoarse voice: "Xiao Mo..." Just one sentence made him want to cry, and he endured it for a long time. He thought he could be strong, but he couldn't help it when he found out.

"Li Xun!" Mo Xu cried and called his name loudly, "You promised me that you would not hide anything from me, you just said it! But what is this? What is this?! Advanced gastric cancer...how could it happen? It's stomach cancer...how could it be delayed to an advanced stage...? Why didn't you tell me? Why did you hide it from me?!" He cried and asked him emotionally, why he didn't tell himself anything, they are not the closest people ?Didn't you already promise?

Li Xun hugged him tightly into his arms: "Xiao Mo, Xiao Mo...don't cry, don't cry, I will feel bad, I don't want to see you sad, I don't want you to be unhappy, don't cry, my heart hurts..." Even though he said so, his face was also full of tears. What should I do? Mo Xu, I still want to be with you for a long, long time, I haven't... seen enough of you... I still love you so much... But I really have no choice but to see you soon...

Mo Xu broke away from him, took the coat he threw on the sofa, and was about to leave when he saw a corner of a cardboard box in his pocket. He rummaged through it, took out a pack of cigarettes, and put it in his pocket: "Don't smoke again in the future, I'm serious this time."

"Okay, stop smoking." Li Xun followed him, trying to comfort him, not wanting to intensify his emotions.

Mo Xu took his clothes and took his hand and walked out the door: "Come on, let's go to the hospital, we are hospitalized now, and receive treatment immediately!"

Li Xun pulled him back: "Useless little Mo, it's already at an advanced stage, it can't be cured..."

Mo Xu shook off his hand: "I know it can't be cured! I know! But Li Xun, it doesn't matter if I'm selfish or not, even if it can only be extended for one day, please, please accept the treatment, okay... ?” Please, don’t leave me in such a hurry, please, walk more slowly, stay with me, wait for me...

Mo Xu dragged Li Xun to the garage, ignored him to drive the car himself, and parked the car in front of Li Xun: "Get in the car!" He was so angry that he really wanted to cry with him, but the bitterness couldn't be relieved. He didn't see a doctor, and he didn't receive treatment in the hospital. His hands were shaking, yes, he admitted that he was flustered, he was so flustered that he couldn't even breathe, the panic made him just want to hug him tightly, to confirm his truth, his existence, and his survival.

"Xiao Mo, can I drive?" Li Xun looked at him worriedly, Mo Xu slammed the steering wheel hard, and the car let out a piercing long beep in the dark night: "I'll let you get in the car!!" He couldn't help it. Just yell at him, and then stop looking at his face.

Li Xun sighed, got into the car as he said, and Mo Xu was about to start it, Li Xun took his hand: "Xiao Mo, don't drive, first listen to me, you are an artist now, unlike before, people from places like hospitals It's too distracting, it's over if you get caught by the reporter, and you don't know what you will write scribbled at that time, you really can't go."

Mo Xu pulled his hand away: "Li Xun, do you think I care more about those?"

"No, Xiao Mo, I just don't want all your hard work to be in vain. I don't want you to lose anything because of me."

"What about you?" Mo Xu looked straight at him, "I worked hard, and you also worked hard. We both paid too much. You got nothing, but I got everything. Therefore, because I got too much , I’m going to lose you, right? If so, then, Li Xun, I don’t want any of these, I just want you, I only want one of you…”

Li Xun was still driven by Mo Xu to the Central Hospital. Dr. Wang in the oncology department hadn't left work yet. Dr. Wang was a little surprised to see Li Xun suddenly, because he had always refused to come to the hospital to cooperate with the treatment. Today, he suddenly saw him a little A little surprised, and heard that he was willing to receive treatment, he hurriedly asked the nurse to accompany him to do blood routine gastroscopy biopsy and body examination. Li Xun was taken for the examination, but Mo Xu did not follow.

"Doctor Wang, can you tell me the truth about Li Xun's condition?" Mo Xu sat in the office of Dr. Wang in the oncology department, across the desk from him.

Dr. Wang said with some regret: "Mr. Mo, I am very sorry for Mr. Li's condition. People with frequent stomach cancers are middle-aged, but Mr. Li is still very young. Even if he lives irregularly, he should not be at this age. It is guessed that it is likely that family relatives have had a history of gastric cancer. This group of people has 2 to 3 times higher cancer lesions than the average person. Mr. Li’s special work reasons are his stomach cancer-prone constitution, long-term fatigue, long-term irregular work and rest diet, and frequent smoking and drinking. I don't care too much. I procrastinate as long as I can, and endure as long as I can. As a result, when it is discovered, it is already in the late stage. In the current situation, because Mr. Li's condition has been delayed for too long, he missed the healing period, and now it has developed into a late stage. Sorry, there is no cure, and what can be done now is to adopt conservative treatment and chemotherapy combined with Chinese and Western medicine to prolong life."

Mo Xu clenched his hands tightly and asked with difficulty: "How much longer?"

"Sorry, Mr. Li's situation is really not optimistic. The illness was detected two months ago, but he has been refusing to cooperate with the treatment. If he still refuses to cooperate with the treatment now, the life cycle is three to five months. If he can actively cooperate with the treatment, it is expected to be extended to about one year."

One year... One year left... He let out a long breath, relieving the heavy stale air accumulated in his heart, and he was in a daze. He leaned on the partition of the toilet cubicle in a daze, and put his right hand into his coat pocket He took out a Li Xun cigarette from his pocket and lit it. The smoke was lingering, and the air was filled with the smell of tobacco he was most familiar with. He brought the cigarette to his mouth and took a deep breath. The trachea was inhaled into the lungs, the lungs were numb, the gas suddenly came back, and went straight to the brain, making him dizzy for a while, the gas was congested and wanted to come out of the nasal cavity, he was choked and coughed non-stop, and his body was trembling due to the non-stop coughing He was coughing, his face was full of tears but he still couldn't stop, he squatted by the wall and covered his coughing mouth, he couldn't figure out what is there to smoke, it makes people so uncomfortable , But why did Li Xun like it so much? He gradually stopped coughing, and the cigarette was half burned. He smoked the remaining two puffs, threw it into the trash can, put on a mask, and walked out of the toilet.