Orange Savior

What he said to Liang Xingzhuan was just his catharsis. At that time, Liang Xingzhuan just happened to be a life-saving straw for him when he was drowning. A passer-by, so he talked about his depression without any scruple. The boy he liked only found out later that Liang Xingzhuan was the first person in his life to come out of the closet. Chen Feng would think that after everyone turned around and left, this secret would be annihilated In the sea of ​​people, it is not the case.

Unexpectedly, Liang Xingzhuan found Chen Feng's home not long after. It was a Saturday. He was not wearing a school uniform and was sitting in the living room. When Chen Feng walked in, he almost didn't recognize him. Sensitive, it is difficult to remember what a person looks like.Later, they found a quiet place to talk. In fact, Liang Xingzhuan came to apologize, and it really surprised Chen Feng again. He didn't think Liang Xingzhuan said anything that needed an apology in the park.

"I'm sorry, I got agitated that day and said some nasty things." Liang Xing turned his face sincerely, and others thought he had committed some crime.

Chen Feng didn't take it seriously, and said, "You don't seem to have anything to apologize for, and I didn't take your words to heart."

"That's good. In fact, I didn't mean that. I was a little too radical."

"I thought I would never see you again, so I said it casually."

"No, I really want to be friends with you."

"Why?" Chen Feng was puzzled.

Liang Xing turned silent, "You remind me of someone. In fact, the time I spoke to you was not the first time we met. Before that, I had seen you. That day you stood outside the iron fence of the basketball court for a while. I saw you cry."

Chen Feng's face changed, and the panic that the secret was revealed was written all over his face. How long ago was that?

"Who do you think of?" Chen Feng immediately changed the topic.

"My brother, the way you looked that day, I really think of my brother, but after seeing you, you don't look like you anymore." Liang Xing saw Chen Feng who was crying that day, and he only wanted to comfort this man who looked like his brother , make up for the original.

"Then, where's your brother?"

"not here."

Chen Feng vaguely felt that his brother should be an untouchable topic, so he fell silent.

After that time, Chen Feng and Liang Xingzhuan officially became friends. It was also during the New Year in Beijing that year that Chen Feng found out about his brother.

After the new year, Chen Feng's illness has improved a lot. Before that, he rarely met with Liang Xingzhuan. There would be gatherings once or twice a month, and they would just stop and go in the city. Liang Xingzhuan would take Chen Feng there Stroll around Beijing's scenic spots and historical sites.On the fifth day of the lunar new year, Chen Feng and Liang Xing went to Houhai for a stroll, and heard him talking about his brother for the first time.

Liang Xing stopped.

Liang Xingzhuan smiled and said, "Actually, when I heard you say you were gay, my heart broke down, and it happened all of a sudden. I thought, did I hit a ghost?"

"why?"

"So, you really look like my brother!" Liang Xing turned around.

Chen Feng smiled and asked, "Where does it look like?"

"It looks very similar at first glance, and my brother also likes boys. He is just like you, so he is actually very special."

"There are too many boys who like boys, and I am not special at all."

The wind in Houhai is so strong that it hits clothes, skin, and blood. They tremble from time to time, trying to shake their bodies.

Get rid of the coldness attached to the body.

"No, you are very brave. In fact, when I first knew that my brother liked boys, I felt disgusted, but it was only because we never knew him."

Liang Xingting, Liang Xingzhuan's elder brother, if he was still alive, he should have finished college and entered the society by now. He was eight years older than Liang Xingzhuan, and committed suicide during the summer vacation of the year he finished his college entrance examination. In the bathroom, he slashed his wrist three times, which was fatal.

It was also three years ago that Liang Xing turned around. Because he was moving to pack his things, he discovered Liang Xing's diary, a thick plain white notebook, filled with things about his high school, almost three years long.

The entire diary contained all the reasons for life and death. It took Liang Xingzhuan a long time to understand. He read it many times before he understood what his brother said. Only then did he realize that the brother in the diary was the real him.

The last day was the day before the suicide, and there was only one sentence in the diary, which was: Jiang Hongran, I understand.

It has been five years since that day, which is almost one-third of Liang Xingzhuan's 15 years. Half of his life lives in the light of his brother, and the other half lives in the shadow. will be longer.

So he wants to know the answer.

This Jiang Shuran, Liang Xingzhuan memorized his name stroke by stroke by heart, even in the sixth grade of elementary school, he already knew the meaning of "Huran".

However, it goes, but it just comes.Describe the appearance of being unrestrained, detached, or free.

"It turns out that my brother likes boys like this."

Liang Xingzhuan has always wanted to find Jiang Hongran, and wanted to know why his brother left without saying goodbye?But in the past three years, I have written countless greetings to the mailbox left in my brother's classmates, but I have not received any messages, even if it is an automatic reply. He seems to have disappeared from the world, just like my brother, except, He is gone, brother is dead.

Until this year, I learned from a good friend with my brother that Jiang Yuran had just returned from the United States and was temporarily living in Hong Kong. Liang Xing got his new email after many attempts, and finally got a reply, so Liang Xingzhuan packed his luggage as soon as he was on vacation. Carrying that plain white notebook, he headed south to spend the New Year with Chen Feng first, and then went to Hong Kong to find Jiang Hongran. He didn't tell Chen Feng about the plan, because when he arrived at Chen Feng's house and saw Chen Feng, he hesitated. After so many years, he wondered if that answer really mattered?He hesitated to know what the meaning of that answer was?There is still hesitation, is the pain of dust settled still worth mentioning?

Or is it more important to see the person in front of you?

I'm afraid I won't sleep tonight.

The wind rages through the streets, as if clamoring with the world.

but you're always you and I'm always me

New Year's Eve.

Gu Chen, who had lived at Chen Feng's house for two weeks, finally packed up and went home for the New Year. After all, it was the New Year, so he had to go back to spend the holiday with his parents.Gu Chen was a little worried, and stayed until after ten o'clock in the evening before returning home. In fact, he just didn't want Chen Feng and Liang Xing to stay together in their apartment.

Since he entered Chen Feng's territory, he was a person who had no desires or desires. He became anxious about gains and losses, and his possessiveness became extremely inflated.

at this time.

On the way home, Gu Chen saw the fireworks gushing out from the dark sky. The flowers in the world seemed to grow the same, but the fireworks that Chen Feng set off for him on the last night of last year were the same as the ones he used to have with him. What you see now is different.

Susie and her childhood friend are having a barbecue and drinking on the rooftop of their home. The two friends are Ome, who has known each other since the first grade of elementary school.

Although the three of them are studying in different schools, when they have time, they will find parties and have a long talk.

Chen Feng and Liang Xing turned to watch a movie program on TV. It was a 90s Hong Kong movie called "Across the World". Chen Feng had already watched this movie. He watched it once when he was a child. Liang Xingzhuan was so fascinated watching it, because it was broadcast in Cantonese, and even asked Chen Feng questions when he encountered unclear subtitles, Liang Xingzhuan finished watching it in one go.

In it, Leslie Cheung said to the prodigal son Chow Yun-fat: "A moment of brilliance does not mean eternity."

New Year's Eve is coming to an end, and before midnight, there are already firecrackers coming out one after another, from different distances, overlapping into people's ears.Chen Feng and Liang Xingzhuan, who had nothing to do, had already gone to bed. When Gu Chen came out of the shower, he saw that his mother was already waiting for him in the room. Gu Chen felt guilty for a moment.

Gu Chen's parents are a couple who can do business to make money and love to play and fight. They are not interested in raising children, but they can take care of Gu Chen well, basically without any trouble, and they can give Gu Chen a good life. Chen has enough freedom. Gu Chen never quarreled with them since he was a child, and his harmony is unreasonable, just like Lu Sen said: "Your house looks like a show in a TV show, it's impossible in reality!"

"Come, come, happy new year, mom will give you a big red envelope!" Mother Gu called her son immediately.

Upon hearing the money, Gu Chen ran towards it like a child, his eyes glowed, he opened the red envelope, and seeing that the amount was really considerable, he said, "Thank you, old lady!"

"What happened to the final exam?"

"No. 11 in the class." In fact, it was already the highest ranking this semester.

Mother Gu patted Gu Chen on the shoulder and said, "Not bad!"

Gu Chen secretly laughed, thought for a while and said, "Then, is there any reward?"

"Are you still young? Do you want rewards?" Mother Gu put away her smile and said in less than two seconds: "I can give you the money to buy a pair of sneakers, but you know, rewards belong to rewards, and you can't build up your studies." In terms of rewards, you should think clearly about your studies. Mom doesn’t want to put pressure on you. You can study however you like, and you can mess around, but you still have to take exams in college. University matters, you can’t mess around. When I don’t supervise you, You are going to be self-conscious! But, I am still satisfied with you. I let you choose your life since you were 12 years old. You can blame me for being irresponsible in the future, but you must also know your responsibility. Mom doesn’t want to Holds you too tightly."

Gu Chen had heard these words before.

"Got it, go to university, don't mess around!" Gu Chen saluted Gu's mother, thinking in his heart that the sneakers he had fantasized about a long time ago are finally available for purchase!

Moreover, Gu Chen started a long time ago, and his academic goal is to be in the top ten of the class.

On the first day of the new year, Chen Feng and Liang Xingzhuan were really bored, so they went to the movies.

On the second day of the new year, Gu