What about the brother who slept with his friend?

Xia Yichu and Ren Yuyan sat opposite each other in the coffee shop, the scene hadn't been this formal for a long time, between them.

Ren Yuyan looked at Xia Yichu with a complicated expression. To this day, he still has not been able to digest the news. When did his best friend and his brother get together? There is no sign, no reason, no expectation. , two people are together, as a straight man, he has two homosexuals around him, and both of them are his closest people, the most important thing is, he actually feels a little more indescribable sourness in his heart, rationale unclear,

Xia Yichu looked at Ren Yuyan as usual, as if all his secrets had not been exposed, he was calm and composed.

"You guys, how, how come," Ren Yuyan thought for a long time, and finally spoke. "How can you be gay?" Looks like nothing, they look like other men, neither posing like women, nor sissy, just like all men, how can they be gay Woolen cloth?

"I have always been." Xia Yichu said frankly.A long time ago, he simply didn't have the courage to tell anyone around him, even his best friend.

"But you don't look like it," Ren Yuyan said.Ren Yuyan looked at Xia Yichu's thin face, his fair skin made him look younger than his actual age.

"There's nothing like it." Xia Yichu smiled wryly, everyone in this society demonizes homosexuality too much. "I have always been, from the time I was born to when I became sensible, I discovered that I am different from other men, that is, the person I like is of the same sex, but I am not a pervert." Xia Yichu emphasized.He has always known that he is not a pervert. It was Ren Yuhan who gave him courage and gave him the courage to face this society.

Ren Yuyan lowered his head. He had known Xia Yichu since middle school. He had always claimed that he was Xia Yichu's best friend, but he didn't know the biggest secret.We are together every day, but we don’t notice anything strange about Xia Yichu. Now that I think about it, Xia Yichu has many suspicious details. Every time he has physical contact with Xia Yichu, Xia Yichu seems so unnatural. He has always been Xia Yichu just It's just that I don't like to be close to others. Also, Xia Yichu will never take a shower with them, and always keep a distance from everyone, because I have such a secret in my heart, and I can't tell it to anyone. No one It can be shared, all the time, with trepidation, for fear of being attacked by this society.

Such a Xia Yichu, he finally understood why Xia Yichu always had so much sorrow in his eyes, and as his good friend, he couldn't share any of it with him, really, he was too incompetent.

"But, why my brother?" Ren Yuyan asked puzzled, there are so many people in this world, and in his impression, Xia Yichu had only known his brother for a short time. "A person like my brother, he is always too good and mature, never let the elders worry, he can plan his life very well, indeed I have been behind my brother, I can only see The view of his back makes me feel very hard, but I also feel that such a brother has a sense of distance. My brother is too serious, and he always has a straight face to everyone. Until now, when I talk to my brother Carefully, he is a person who is not easy to get close to. He is born with an aura of being superior to everyone, which will make people very annoying. He also speaks. He always looks like an order, but everyone will always do what he says. But he has never been a caring person, he will not pay much for his emotions, all the time, he has too many girlfriends, how many women have been pestering him, I can't remember, he likes A person never insists on it for a long time, soon, a lover is a very boring thing for him, although I don't know how long you have been together, but I know that my brother is not such a person, Xiaoxia, I I just don’t want you to be hurt, my brother, he, he doesn’t like men at all, maybe he has been living abroad, his mind will become very open, and then he happened to meet such a you, I think it’s very fresh, so we will be together Forget it, he won't pay much for his feelings." Ren Yu said sincerely.

But Xia Yichu still had a calm face, he couldn't see any change in his mood, after waiting for a long time, Xia Yichu finally spoke. "I know, what you said is right, and I also know that Yuhan doesn't like men at all. I knew from the beginning that we have never concealed our hearts. From the first meeting, whether it is me It's still him, we are all together with the mentality of giving it a try, until now, we are also holding the mentality of giving it a try, maybe tomorrow we will feel that we are not suitable for each other, and then we will break up, but it really doesn't matter, really It doesn't matter." Xia Yichu said lightly, using his usual flat tone.

Ren Yuyan looked at Xia Yichu in front of him, he felt as if he had never known Xia Yichu, but in front of him was clearly the Xia Yichu he knew, the tough and stubborn Xia Yichu he knew, the one he knew who always knew so clearly The Xia Yichu who wants what he wants is the Xia Yichu who can go on without hesitation as long as he decides.

He saw the firmness in Xia Yichu's eyes, and wanted to compare his panic, Xia Yichu looked calm.

"So you are not afraid of getting hurt at all?" Ren Yuyan asked, even if Xia Yichu likes a man, so what, Xia Yichu will always be his best friend, Xia Yichu will always be the beautiful person in his heart, but, he doesn't think Xia Yichu's choice to be with his brother was a wise decision. He has known his brother for too long, he is so clear about every emotion of his brother, he also knows his brother's temperament, of course, he is too Knowing Xia Yichu now, he doesn't think the two of them can go on for a long time, Xia Yichu is so firm in this relationship, but he doesn't want Xia Yichu to get hurt.

"I'm afraid." Xia Yichu said, he smiled wryly, and said: "I've always been afraid, I've never been a brave person when it comes to feelings, and I don't care about any feelings, in relationships, I've always been alone , I will not give myself, maybe I have not encountered it before, so I feel that I don’t need feelings at all. Now that I have met, I know that no one can be alone in feelings, no one, can’t be afraid of this Too much, tomorrow I will go abroad with him for a while, after all, it is time for me to take the first step, this time I have the courage to tell you this, I have never thought about it." Xia Yichu said. "Yuyan, thank you, I hope you will continue to support all my decisions as always."

Ren Yuyan looked at Xia Yichu silently. After a long time, Ren Yuyan finally nodded helplessly. He knew that Xia Yichu had a stubbornness in his bones that did not match his thin appearance, and the things Xia Yichu decided would not change again.He looked at Xia Yichu, but his heart was in pain, an indescribable pain.An indescribable feeling, today, he seemed to see a glimmer of light, he seemed to grasp the tail, as if he knew what he had never known in his heart.

"Xiao Xia, in fact, in fact, I..." Ren Yuyan couldn't say anything. In his murmur, he vaguely remembered the night when he bent Xia Yichu's delicate face and wanted to kiss him. He has always been fascinated by Xia Yichu. With vague emotions, even now, he knows that Xia Yichu is different, different from any other man.Maybe homosexuality is really not a scourge. He just happened to meet such a wonderful person. For that person, he can choose to ignore all the rules and regulations in this world, ignore his gender, and only see this person, and nothing else. arrive.

Xia Yichu interrupted Ren Yuyan, he said lightly: "Actually, I have always envied you, you can have a family of your own, be so happy with your own wife, you will have children in the future, you will become a father, You will have the most beautiful things in this world. With you like this, I hope you can bless me, just like I did when I bless you all. Although I don’t know how far Yuhan and I can go, but this time, I don’t want to back down anymore I want to work hard for my own life." After he finished speaking, he smiled softly.

Ren Yuyan's words stuck in his throat, he thought, he knows, some words, he really can't say it now, the boy passing by the stadium, the glimpse of his sweat on the stadium, and then the boy walked slowly Far, there is another person waiting for him in the distance, God favored him, let him meet Xia Yichu one step earlier than Ren Yuhan, but he himself didn't seize the opportunity, he understood too late.

However, even if he really understood what was going on in his heart, what would happen afterwards?What can he do afterwards? Does he himself have the courage to be with Xia Yichu regardless of the eyes of the world?He doesn't know either.

Don't know or won't?

He can't give Xia Yichu what he wants, so even if he already knew the feeling in his heart, so what, he will never be the person Xia Yichu chooses, he is not as brave as Xia Yichu, nor as brave as Ren Yuhan.

No one can tell, he is always inferior to his elder brother, on the road of life, he is always one step behind his elder brother, many things are destined in the dark.

Perhaps it should be said that what kind of person you are, you will meet the kind of people. Ren Yuhan is destined to meet Xia Yichu, even if they have nothing to do with him at all.

Xia Yichu packed his luggage. Actually, he didn't have anything to pack. He didn't have many clothes, and even less things he needed. Besides, Ren Yuhan was there with him. He knew that Ren Yuhan would prepare for him everything he needed. OK

He has asked for leave from the store for a while, and everyone is curious why he always asks for leave during this time, he just said lightly that he needs a vacation.Xia Yichu's work performance has always been good, so asking for leave is easier than others. This time Xia Yichu went back to the store to ask for leave, and the clerk said that the man who often came to eat pastries would ask about Xia Yichu's news every time he came.Xia Yichu guessed who it might be, it should be Nobita, he didn't know when Nobita started thinking about him, he just hoped that Nobita could get rid of his thoughts as soon as possible, and it would be good if he figured it out, he and everyone else There can be no more results, because he is now too, and he can no longer see other people in his eyes.