do you lack a boyfriend

"I, I seem to like..."

Da Lin looked at Li Zhen who was hesitant, and his heart skipped a beat.

"what?"

Li Zhen closed the book in his hand, "Forget it, it's okay." He seemed reluctant to say it.

Da Lin is not the kind of person who will let it go. He grabbed Li Zhen who got up and was about to leave, "Who is it? You can't even tell me?"

Li Zhen lowered his eyes and was silent for a few seconds, "You might... feel sick."

Da Lin stared blankly at Li Zhen's eyes, "No, absolutely not." Seeing that Li Zhen still didn't answer for a long time, Da Lin became anxious, "Who do you really like?"

"I..." Li Zhen watched and pulled his hand, "I like You Rui."

Da Lin's hand froze, the stiffness was so obvious that even Li Zhen could feel it.

Li Zhen said: "Sure enough, I still feel disgusting, don't you?" He actually fell in love with You Rui, who is also a man. The three of them have always been good friends. It's normal for him in the middle to feel disgusting.

But Dalin just smiled, "No, it's not disgusting. It's beyond my control to like anyone, I...I can understand."

Not being disgusted by his good friends, this is probably Li Zhen's happiest moment, and his original intention was not to hide it from Da Lin.

"Really?"

Da Lin nodded, "Of course."

That year when they were sophomores in high school, Li Zhen and Da Lin came out alone.

After that, Da Lin asked Li Zhen, "Are you really not going to express your feelings to Baby You?"

Li Zhen said, "As long as I can protect him, that's fine."

Li Zhen also said, "If you like someone, you don't have to imprison him by your side, as long as he is happy."

What a romantic sentence, but to Da Lin's ears, it was like a knife, scratching his heart, very cruel.

"If you like someone, you don't have to imprison him by your side, as long as he is happy." It seems to be saying to him.

Yes, no one can be extravagant, no one should dream of being loved by others, as long as that person can be happy.

……

It's already spring, but the snow in City D is still falling continuously. The open ground is completely covered by snow, and the trees are also wrapped up, making it hard to see its original appearance.

Da Lin was wearing a heavy down jacket and a red scarf, dragging his suitcase into the dormitory from the snow.

The city D where he lives is a city in the northeast, and it is extremely cold in winter, but Da Lin is still a person who is afraid of the cold. He felt that he had lost his mind when he applied for volunteers, so he chose this place.

However, in the year he applied for volunteering, he was indeed in a daze.

On the day when the results of the college entrance examination came out, he surpassed the first line by nearly [-] points. The whole family was happy for him, but he was the only one who couldn't be happy.

Because the difference between Li Zhen and his score is only two points, Li Zhen is two points higher than him.

Before, Li Zhen asked him where he wanted to go in college. He was only a freshman at the time, and he half-jokingly told Li Zhen that he would apply wherever Li Zhen applied, saying that even in college, he would pester Li Zhen.

If only he hadn't been so joking then, he thought.

Sure enough, a few days before he volunteered, he received a call from Li Zhen.

"Da Lin, have you chosen a school? Is there anything you want to apply for?"

Da Lin held the phone, "I haven't watched it yet."

"Really? That's just right. I saw a few very good schools. They are in the same city as You Rui. The resources and teachers are very good. Our score line of 80.00% can be reported!"

Dalin squeezed the phone tightly, "...I don't want to go to Los Angeles." Behind him were the lively conversations of parents and relatives, all of whom were asking him about volunteering.

Li Zhen paused for a moment, then asked, "Why?"

If the three of them go to Los Angeles together, it means that their relationship will remain unchanged, and they will fall into the endless loop of high school again.

If, that is to say, if, he is still the original him, then it doesn't matter even if the three of them are in the same city, but the reality is not as full as the ideal.

Da Lin admits that he doesn't have such a big heart.

Da Lin smiled silently, "I want to go to a northern city and see the snow."

"It's snowing in Los Angeles, too."

"I'm talking about the kind of heavy snow, the kind that doesn't stop falling every day."

"Don't you often cry cold, and dare to go to a place where it snows every day?"

"...I have stayed in one place for a long time, and I want to change places."

Li Zhen over there sighed, and said with a smile: "Okay, okay, then tell me if you find the right one, and report over there together."

"Li Zhen!" Da Lin hurriedly called Li Zhen to a stop, "You, don't sign up with me."

Li Zhen over there was silent for a few seconds, his voice lowered a little, "Why?"

Da Lin explained with a smile: "The major you want to study has better prospects in Los Angeles, and the places I chose are not suitable for you, and..." Da Lin lowered his head, "You said you want to study in Los Angeles. By my side, I always cling to you and rely on you like before..."

Li Zhen hurriedly said: "Then you can continue to pester me and rely on me?"

"...But I want to go there and meet more friends." Dalin felt sad for a while, "So, I can no longer rely on you."

Li Zhen was silent.

The tip of Dalin's nose was a little sour, and his mother's voice came from behind.

"Son, come and see how many schools are here?"

Da Lin turned to the phone and said, "Then, that's it for now."

He hung up the phone, but Li Zhen was silent on the phone for a long time.

At that time, Da Lin went into a daze like this, and applied to the school his mother had chosen for him.

Dalin dragged his luggage back to the dormitory, only one of the three roommates came, Zhang Li, and he came early.

"Da Lin, are you back?"

Zhang Li lived across from Da Lin, and the two sat with their backs facing each other.

Zhang Li has been in the dormitory by himself for three days, and he was so happy to see a living person at last. He dragged Da Lin to talk for a long time, and probably poured all the words of these three days on Da Lin. .

"Da Lin, have you met the person you like this time when you go back?"

Da Lin's hand pulling the suitcase paused for a moment, then turned around and said, "Why are you so gossip?"

Zhang Li stood up from the stool, and he looked 1.8 meters tall, and walked to him, "Have you met? I haven't seen you for such a long time. Did he say anything to you?"

Dalin pushed Zhang Li's face away from his face, "I won't tell you anything he said!"

Zhang Li pulled his hand away, "I said you should change your goal after spending so many years. You look so cute. Look at that crystal clear skin, small nose bridge, and rosy lips. If you grab it with one hand, you have to grab it!" How many veterans are there!"

Da Lin shook his body, "It gave me goosebumps!"

"Hey, have you heard? There is a party in our group the day after tomorrow, it's specially prepared for gays, and it's all people from our school. Do you want to go?"

Dalin paused, "Are there many people?"

"Not only are there a lot of people, but there are also a lot of high-quality men, all of whom are more handsome than others!" Zhang Lixie leaned into Da Lin's ear and said, "Maybe your real life is also there~"

Da Lin pushed him away in disgust, "Don't talk in my ear."

Zhang Li looked hurt, but still couldn't forget the topic, "Xiao Linlin, are you going? Are you going?" Zhang Li said while tugging on Da Lin.

Da Lin put the suitcase away, exhaled, and looked at him, "... let's go."

I've loved someone for too long, and it's time for him to let go.