emperor

Have you ever regretted it?

Xie Yi asked himself, he was walking on the blue stone road, farther and farther away from the Hall of Mental Cultivation, this is the road closest to the palace gate, it will not let him walk into the winding gardens, palace rooms, wasting effort and physical strength.

Usually, it only takes him half a quarter of an hour to leave the Palace of Mental Cultivation and leave the palace, but now he feels that the road is a bit long, and every step he takes feels heavy.

regret what?

Xie Yi shook his head, he didn't regret it, he just didn't know how to express his emotions at this moment, he felt lost, stagnant, with emotions surging in his chest, breaking a gap in the high wall.

But this feeling cannot be simply and hastily defined as heartache, why does it hurt?Pain for the friendship between the monarch and his ministers?Pain for the world to be blind?Pain for the sick and the wounded?Or for him?

Xie Yi thinks too much, too carefully. He is the emperor's confidant, a sharp blade for him to drive, and use his wisdom to carve out a path in the intricate situation. big picture.

If he had offended the nobles and polluted human life, if he hadn't thought carefully and thoroughly, he would have died already. Naturally, such a person could see more clearly than the emperor, act more rationally, and would not be blinded by random flowers.

He knew since he was a child that if he wanted to beat his siblings in the boat race, he only needed to support himself in the nearest direction, not to look at the lotus, not to pick the lotus, and just focus on it.

Every time he makes a decision, every choice, he needs to concentrate on it, but what is more exciting than assisting an emperor to stabilize the country and create a prosperous and peaceful world?

He never regretted it, but the emperor made him feel extremely complicated, so complicated that he couldn't distinguish it, and couldn't describe it.

When Xie Yi saw the emperor for the first time, he was riding a horse, wearing black armor, and there was no smile on his pale and stern face.

like what?It's hard for you to describe how a person makes you feel, it's too subjective, Xie Yi thinks he saw a spark trapped under a rock, he doesn't know if he feels right or not.

The horseshoe clattered, and slowly walked through the streets of the capital, Fangshi, to the city gate, to Mobei.

A person who was forced to give up the prosperity and splendor, who was expelled like a beautiful family, was the emperor of Wei. Xie Yi found it ridiculous and unbelievable. He couldn't help but wonder, could this person come back?

Xie Yi joined the First Prince's command and obtained a position that was neither high nor low. He hovered in the eyes of power, lurking, carefully observing the situation and weighing the pros and cons.

When the emperor returned to the capital, Xie Yi couldn't help being a little surprised when he got the news that he was still alive and dared to return to the capital alive.

At the Qionghua Banquet, he saw the emperor, saw, and felt, the hidden sharp iron blood, the eagerness for power and the ambition ignited from the bottom of his heart.

Xie Yi chose the emperor.

It seems that he did not make a wrong choice. The emperor met all his requirements for the Ming Lord. He stabilized the country, stabilized the precarious government, and let the people of Wei enjoy peace.

Even though this process was too long and tormented for the emperor, from the moment he expressed his heart to Xie Yi, he was questioned and doubted all the time.

It's a secret.

The emperor never told anyone this secret, but he didn't hide it, didn't avoid it, but faced his desire and love frankly, without feeling wrong.

He has always supported him like this, but that heart has become more and more cautious as the years go by, and there is no trace to be found.

Xie Yi's refusal was so straightforward, he bet his life against the emperor, bet on his little kindness, bet on his repentance, bet on his enough rationality and calmness, he did a good job, he didn't even need to use a knife, just enough ruthlessness , Enough ruthless words, the emperor was forced to retreat steadily.

Xie Yi still remembers the emperor's repressed panting, he pushed down the table like an angry bull, "What do I need to repent for?" His lips trembled, and his voice became louder: "What do I need to repent for?"

Even if the sky falls, Xie Yi's answer will not change. Courtesy of rulers and ministers, ethics and morality, you don't know that those familiar words from childhood can hurt people so much.

What is wrong is all wrong, even the emotions are wrong, nothing is right, everything is wrong.

The conversation was too long, but Xie Yi did not forget a little detail, the emperor chased him into the garden, he said that I was wrong, I was just joking, I have never liked you, I have a concubine, a queen, And the world, I am the emperor.

He was crying, weak and pale, and it didn't look as simple as he said, but there seemed to be an iron-cast spine behind him, allowing him to support himself.

Xie Yi was silent, turned around, and said nothing.

So how many years have passed?Xie Yi thought, he suddenly felt uncomfortable, he couldn't understand the feeling, it seemed that every time he took a breath, his chest was burning, and there was something blocked in his throat, which made him unable to speak a word.

The little eunuch was a little anxious: "Teacher? What's wrong with Taifu?"

Xie Yi shook his head, he slowly stood up straight, no different from usual.

He went out of the palace gate and returned to Xie's mansion, his wife came up to greet her, this woman was not so beautiful, but very dignified, like a colorless cloud, pure and gentle.

"Mingchen, what's wrong with you?"

Xie Yi paused, held the corner of his mouth, and remained silent.

The shadows and the carrier pigeons took action, shuttling through the huge capital city like the wind.

The master of Xiping Pavilion finally couldn't help it, and carefully handed out the news, the news flowed out of the palace under deliberate indulgence, the water hidden under the calm lake surface began to surge, and finally you could see the slightest ripples on the lake surface .

Through the eyes of the shadow, the emperor saw the change, and he allowed the waves to expand, even in a vague expectation.

Who came into contact with what news, what was used, what was misunderstood, the two sides of the game held their own pieces, and after many years of waiting, they couldn't wait to end the battle.

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