Mu and Lu

Until now, Mu Qing finally felt ashamed when he recalled the past. This feeling made him loathe himself, and an uncontrollable expression of disgust appeared on his face.

It was a hug that stopped the negative thoughts that kept spreading in his heart. Lu Yun held him in his arms and said distressedly: "Don't do this, Mu Qing, don't be like this...

"I hate you, I like you... like you..."

These words were said almost subconsciously. After Lu Yun realized it, he hugged Mu Qing even tighter. He didn't want him to go. He liked him, even loved him. He had never been so sure.

Mu Qing's heart was greatly shaken. Of course he had thought about Lu Yun's liking, but he never expected that one day he would be able to get it.

After a while, Mu Qing firmly pushed him away, and said with a trembling voice, "I don't believe it."

***

During the Spring Festival of senior year, Zhang Nuheng asked Lu Yun and Lin Mi out. Lin Mi didn't want to go to the bar, so they went straight to the barbecue stand.

Among the three of them, only Lin Mi planned to take the postgraduate entrance examination, and she didn't know how the topic changed, but suddenly it changed from the postgraduate entrance examination to Mu Qing.

"When will my junior Mu Qing come out? I miss him so much!" Lin Mijiu drank a little too much, blushing on the table and said, "I have never seen a man like him since graduating from high school." The child..."

Zhang Nuheng glanced at Lu Yun, and found that his expression was normal, and turned back to Lin Mi: "Come on, don't keep thinking about it, he doesn't like yours."

Lin Mi propped her head up and stared at him, chomping on the meat skewers.

Lu Yun was so used to the feeling that there was no Mu Qing around him, so that when he saw Mu Qing again, he was still in a daze and didn't know how to react.

***

A few days after meeting with Zhang Nuheng and the others, Lu Yun was called out to be gay by his old friend.When I came out to everyone, I was with this friend. When so many people opposed or were not optimistic, the existence of the same kind was their courage to come out to others.So among his many friends, this person is stronger than Zhang Nuheng, even though he was very reluctant to get close to that place, he still agreed to go.

After he took his seat, his friend just raised his head and greeted him, and then went on to have a sweet time with his little boyfriend.There are pairs and pairs around, only he is alone.

Originally, he could also flirt with a man he had never met before, but since Mu Qing left, those things that originally attracted him seemed to have lost their interest overnight, and it was boring to think about it.

Turning his gaze, he found Chen Yanzhe, next to him was Xing Yi, the two of them had been together for so many years.

Xing Yi also saw Lu Yun, he snorted and hugged Chen Yanzhe tightly.

Lu Yun couldn't figure out why he and Mu Qing hadn't seen each other for more than three years since those two could get together.

Qin Su was quite conscientious, and after confirming that he had arranged everything for his little boyfriend, he was willing to walk away and sit down next to Lu Yun.

"Why do you sit so far away?" Qin Su asked for a glass of ice water.

Lu Yun took a sip of his wine, glanced at him and said with a smile: "Why, didn't you only order spirits before?"

Qin Su shook his head, his eyes kept falling on his boyfriend who was holding a cup in his hands and sipping juice, and said, "It's not good for your health, Xiaoqing doesn't like it."

At first hearing the word "Xiaoqing", Lu Yun was a little dazed, and said: "Xiaoqing?"

"Xiaoqing, Liang Xiaoqing," Qin Su turned his head to show off to him, "isn't it cute?"

Lu Yun saw that his eyes were full of the man named Liang Xiaoqing, and couldn't help but said, "It's not like you haven't dated cute boys before."

"Xiaoqing is different. We were together in the third year of high school. The four years were not long or short. There was not a day when I didn't want to be with him. If one day we were separated," Qin Su paused. Thinking about it makes people breathless, "I think, I can't imagine what I will be like, and the rest of my life without him seems to be meaningless."

It's rare for Lu Yun not to be sour. He used such literary words as "the rest of his life".

The two were silent for a while, and then Qin Su calmed down and said, "Speaking of which, I haven't seen you for so long. You have changed a lot. You used to go to bars to make yourself single?"

Lu Yun took a sip of his wine and stared at the dark table with lowered eyes.He didn't want to tell anyone about him and Mu Qing except those who knew the truth.

Fortunately, Qin Su didn't intend to ask anything at first, and hurried back after drinking half of a glass of water, saying that he was afraid that Xiaoqing would be bored.

Looking at Qin Su's appearance, he didn't seem to find it bothersome and boring. Lu Yun thought about it, if he and Mu Qing were together, he would probably enjoy it.

***

After Lu Yun washed his hands in the sink, he turned around and was about to go out, when he suddenly heard someone behind him say coldly, "Please let me go."

The moment Lu Yun heard the voice, it seemed that all the senses in his body went on strike, his mind went blank, and he stood motionless at the same place. He felt that if someone poked him now, he would fall down without any resistance. Down.

It took him a while to regain his strength and turn around.

There was a tall man standing in front of Mu Qing, if it wasn't for Lu Yun himself being tall, he wouldn't have seen Mu Qing's distracted eyes and blushing face.

Lin Mi always said that Mu Qing is warm and warm. In Lu Yun's memory, Mu Qing is definitely not as warm as other people see through the filter of love. He will also make a little awkwardness, but it is far from being as indifferent as he is now. .

That man was drunk, Lu Yun easily pushed him away, allowing himself to completely appear in front of Mu Qing.

"Mu Qing..." Lu Yun's throat suddenly choked up, and he couldn't say anything else except these two words.

Mu Qing glanced at him quickly and then looked away, unwilling to reveal any strange emotions.

He turned to leave but was caught by Lu Yun.

Lu Yun's hand was trembling, he felt it, he felt that the other party tried desperately to grab him, but he could only hold it loosely.

Feeling Lu Yun's emotions, Mu Qing also became agitated, biting the back of his hand tightly to prevent his grievance from being too obvious, but his trembling shoulders had already betrayed him.

"Why did you... take so long to come back?" Lu Yun took a deep breath to calm down, and asked him without moving.

Mu Qing let go, and replied with a soft snort, "It's none of your business."

"Let's go out and talk." After speaking, he pulled Mu Qing and wanted to go out, but Mu Qing suddenly shook off his hand, glanced at him lightly, and said, "That's it."

As soon as the two left, there was only one drunk man left in the bathroom.

***

After being hit by Lu Yun, Mu Qing went abroad for more than three years. Naturally, he came back during this period, but he was not in City A. Soon after the incident, their family moved to City B in a neighboring province, so Lu Yun could not find him. he.

This time he went back to City A without telling his family. Mu's father and mother wished that he would never set foot in City A again, but Mu Qing couldn't bear it.It's not that no one has pursued him in the past few years, there are men and women, but he has not agreed to any of them, and he is not even willing to give it a try.

"Why?" someone asked him.

At that time, he smiled and shrugged his shoulders like a European and American, with a relaxed and harmless appearance, but there was a faint answer in his heart, but he didn't want to touch it and think about it.

"Let's make up." The original silence was carefully broken by Lu Yun.

Hearing this, Mu Qing stopped, and turned back to stare at him complicatedly, the look in his eyes made Lu Yun flustered.

"Why, why do you want to reconcile?" Mu Qing restrained his true emotions and said deliberately, "Is it because I am good enough and active enough in bed? You have many such bed partners, and you shouldn't be reluctant, or you Haven't played enough yet?"

Lu Yun shook his head, wanting to say that he has been waiting for him for more than three years, always remembering his sentence "I don't believe it", but he opened his mouth, but he didn't say anything.

Just when Mu Qing was thinking about how to break the silence, Lu Yun moved, kissed him lightly on the lips, and said when they parted: "I want you to believe that the current me can give you the feelings you want .”

Mu Qing was suddenly a little shy, how did he know what kind of relationship he wanted?

Lu Yun raised his face with his hand, and looked at him with a smile, that smile was as handsome as when they first met, less stubborn and more affectionate.

***

Mu Qing said "I don't believe it" back then because he really didn't believe it. Lu Yun was true, it was too hard for people to believe, but he also knew that the other party would not deceive him. unwilling?

He wanted to give each other a chance, but he didn't want to give it too easily. He wanted Lu Yun to like him for a long time, so he had to take a gamble to see if the other party really liked him enough to change himself.

Fortunately, he won the bet.

He and Lin Mi have been in contact for more than three years, and Lin Mi went to make a good relationship with the rotten girls in Lu Yun's class and formed a comrade-in-arms relationship, so the information she provided to Mu Qing was quite accurate—— Lu Yun has always been alone.

***

"My parents don't know yet, we can't let them know..." Mu Qing curled up in Lu Yun's arms and murmured. Lu Yun looked down, but he was still in a deep sleep.

He knows what happened back then, although the road ahead is bumpy, but Mu Qing is so rare, he will never let go.

-end-

The author has something to say: I really don't know how to write novels, but I just write when I feel like writing...

It's a goofy little white essay...

I don't know if anyone will watch it?If there is, it will probably be very tangled. There are too many psychological descriptions, and the writing is very naive. In fact, I am also eager to improve, so if someone reads it, don’t dislike me too much (*/ω╲*)

Originally, I wanted to write about Liang Xiaoqing and Qin Su, but the more I wrote, the more I wanted to add them to the main text and become the main characters...