Being-Towards-Death

Chi Xiaoyu lay listlessly on the desk, holding a toy phone in his hand, dialing the same number over and over again.

The teacher went around behind her, bent down and patted her small shoulder, and pointed to the door: "Xiaoyu, do you see who is here?"

Chi Xiaoyu took advantage of the situation to look, and all her listlessness was swept away, she jumped three feet high, and ran into the arms of the person in front of her: "Uncle Shi!" She kissed Shi Guyuan's face like a puppy, and called He said: "Uncle Shi! I knew you would come to see me!"

Shi Guyuan pinched her little nose and said with a smile, "How do you know?"

Chi Xiaoyu rolled her grape-like eyeballs nimbly and said, "I think you should miss me."

Shi Guyuan couldn't help laughing, hugged her and explained something to the teacher, and then said to Chi Xiaoyu: "We won't have class this afternoon, what do you want to do?"

Chi Xiaoyu's eyes lit up: "Really! Dad won't scold me!"

"We won't tell him, this is a little secret between us," Shi Guyuan stretched out his little finger, "Do you still remember what I taught you, Lagou?"

Chi Xiaoyu yelled "Hanging on the hook for 100 years must not be changed", and grabbed Shi Guyuan's collar and flung it out; Shi Guyuan had to run two steps and got into the car. The Barbie doll of the coming month is handed over.Chi Xiaoyu screamed, hugged her into her arms, and immediately unpacked and stroked the snow-white wedding dress on the doll; the car was driving on the wide road, Chi Xiaoyu asked curiously: "Uncle Shi, where are we going to play? "

Shi Guyuan was aimless, he just suddenly wanted to see the healthy and innocent next generation who inherited his blood, as if he was another self-washing away the filth and sin, his original appearance.

Chi Xiaoyu's beautiful eyes did not blink, full of expectation and trust.Shi Guyuan had a thought, and said, "Little Yu'er, are you afraid of heights?"

Chi Xiaoyu touched the back of her head with lingering fear. After the concussion, she avoided the climbing fence when she saw it, but she didn't want to embarrass herself in front of her favorite Uncle Shi. Even though her face was pale, she still bravely said: "I'm not afraid ! My favorite is tall!"

Shi Guyuan smiled and said, "Don't like Gao if you like anything."

Chi Xiaoyu didn't quite understand. After all, there was more than 30 years of life difference between her and him.

How scary, people are like mayflies in the world, they live and die at night, only 30 years, in the long river of time, it is only a drop in the ocean, but it is enough to transform people beyond recognition.

Shi Guyuan took Chi Xiaoyu to visit the TV tower, took the elevator to the top floor, the elevator door opened, and the tall glass windows surrounded the floor; this is currently the tallest building in Taoxian City, and you can overlook the whole city from the top floor .

Chi Xiaoyu's eyes widened greedily. It was the first time for her to look at the blue sky, white clouds and sunlight so close to the ground; through the clear and clear air, the ground was a black python-like, painful, twisted and twisted street.Crowds and vehicles forming icy scales are running like little ants in an endless stream.

Shi Guyuan came to her side, gently hugged her, and asked, "Are you afraid?"

Chi Xiaoyu said loudly, "Don't be afraid!"

"If you're the only one here, aren't you afraid?"

Chi Xiaoyu said puzzledly: "Uncle Shi, I have you, I am not alone." Then suddenly realized, "If you are afraid, I will make your braids long, and you can climb down!"

Upon hearing this, Shi Guyuan smiled and kissed her forehead, and said, "You are really my little angel."

Chi Xiaoyu laughed happily, grabbed Shi Guyuan's face like a gourd painting, found a place to kiss deeply, and said, "You are my archangel!"

After thinking for a while, he said, "Dad, too." He drew a "1" with each hand and put them together, "You are the same."

After a moment of silence, Shi Guyuan said nonchalantly, "Is your father okay?"

"Daddy misses you so much, he cried." Chi Xiaoyu said truthfully, "Uncle Shi, please make up."

"Girl, you don't understand," Shi Guyuan said, "Your father and I didn't quarrel."

"Then why don't you play together anymore? I haven't seen you for a long time, and neither does Dad."

"...Adults are big villains, always making mistakes, but have no time to correct them." Shi Guyuan said something that Chi Xiaoyu couldn't understand again, but she didn't interrupt him, and continued to listen quietly, "So girl, can you do me a favor?"

Chi Xiaoyu nodded obediently.

"When you go back, tell your father for me that I forgive him."

Chi Xiaoyu blinked and said, "Father will forgive you too, and then you will be reconciled, right?"

"Maybe." Shi Guyuan stared at her face, his eyes were full of turbulent and complicated emotions. There are too many things that Chi Xiaoyu doesn't understand today, "But I know you will forgive me, right? ?”

Chi Xiaoyu said confusedly: "You didn't make me angry, Uncle Shi, I will never be angry with you."

Shi Guyuan smiled and said, "Thank you," he hugged her tightly, "Thank you, my little fish."

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After visiting the TV Tower, the two of them went to the Children's Paradise again, which exhausted their physical energy. Shi Guyuan planned to take Chi Xiaoyu to eat KFC next to the park. Eat sweet and sour pork ribs."

Shi Guyuan looked at his watch and said, "It's too late, isn't there a chorus rehearsal in kindergarten at four o'clock? It doesn't matter if you, the lead singer, aren't here."

Chi Xiaoyu said disappointedly: "So you know."

Shi Guyuan said with a smile: "<The Small World of Truth, Goodness and Beauty>, huh? I will participate in the provincial performance tomorrow, let you relax today."

"Then can I go to your house today?" Chi Xiaoyu persevered, "Or you come to my house?"

At this moment, the two had already entered the KFC store, Shi Guyuan didn't answer, but instead asked, "Would you like some ice cream?"

Chi Xiaoyu's little head was immediately filled with ice cream; to fill his stomach, the two ended their short "truancy trip" and met an old acquaintance when they went out by the wrong car.

Shi Guyuan pressed the window as a greeting: "Mr. Tang."

Tang Jun got a new car, his face was radiant, his hair was glossy with gel, and his voice was floating upwards: "Hey, Mr. Shi, take the children out to play."

Shi Guyuan smiled: "Yes, it's rare to be idle."

"Hey, when you're old, don't worry about it. It's great to do something you like at home." Seeing Shi Guyuan smiling and not saying a word, Tang Jun flaunted intentionally or unintentionally, "The company doesn't need you to hurry up. It’s hot, Hengyu has already signed a contract with the government, Jinbihuanghuang is one of the projects supported by the government, and it’s all given to the policy. Instead, it’s vacated—”

"I don't worry about vacating. It's a big tree with deep roots, and no one dares to touch it. Now that state-owned enterprises are laid off, Taoxian still relies on it to stimulate employment." Shi Guyuan coughed twice. Winter is coming, and asthma shows signs of relapse. After spraying Spray, after a while, he continued, "I'm worried about you, Mr. Tang, I advise you not to hold a large share of Jinbihuanghuang, hold [-]% of the shares, enough to eat and drink."

Tang Jun immediately showed an expression of reluctance: "Mr. Shi, what you said, I did it for Hengyu..."

Shi Guyuan was putting on his sunglasses, and said casually, "I've already arranged this matter. Tang Jun, one day you'll have to thank me, I'm saving you."

"What did you arrange? Hey, don't go, make it clear—!"

What responded to him was the roar of the engine going away. Tang Jun jumped in anger, slammed the steering wheel, and let out a wail from the horn.

In the car, Chi Xiaoyu admired and said sincerely: "Uncle Shi, you are really amazing."

Shi Guyuan glanced at her: "Can you understand, little girl?"

"I don't understand, but I know you are amazing."

Shi Guyuan said: "If you study hard, you will be better than me in the future." He added, "As good as your father—Xiao Yuer, what do you want to be when you grow up?"

Chi Xiaoyu was a little puzzled, but still said briskly, "I want to be a little fish."

Shi Guyuan couldn't help laughing, shook his head secretly, thinking: "I'm not a child who understands life."

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In the evening, on the way to pick up Xiaoyu, Chi Yu, who was restless, received a call that made him even more restless. Song Weibin's words had a weary staccato: "Chi Yu, I'm in a meeting, I ran out of it, Let me ask you, have you looked for Brother Shi? Have you found him?"

Chi Yu opened his mouth, and the blood and guns from that day were replayed before his eyes again, his stomach twitched, and he tied a knot with his intestines; he was tongue-tied: "No...no."

Discouraged, Song Weibin leaned against the wall of the emergency exit and said, "It's over, the procuratorate is about to issue an arrest warrant."

Chi Yu held his breath nervously: "When?!"

"I've violated discipline by saying so much! He's—he's a fucking self-righteous idiot!" Song Weibin yelled in a low voice, angry because of this suppression, "You keep looking for him, you must look for him! Let him turn himself in, do you hear me! As long as he turns himself in, I can save his life even if I quit!"

"What's going on, why is it so sudden, isn't Xu Liwei's case still pending?"

"Smuggling is a certainty, and if you catch it, you will be killed! The boss is waiting for the results at the end of the year. Look at what it's like. If you can catch one, fuck it!" Song Weibin spoke and followed. Like a machine gun, "Okay, I won't tell you anymore, I have to go back. Go find Shi Guyuan, do you hear me, now you are the only one who can persuade him, you must go! I will die first!"

Sitting on the window seat of the bus, Chi Yu was in a daze facing the busy tone, and a great pain rushed in, repelling his few remaining lines of defense—what is right and what is wrong?If Shi Guyuan does not accept punishment for his crimes, then who will pay for the few lives he holds in his hands?But when he thought of Shi Guyuan's destined destination, he was trapped in a suffocation, life would be worse than death.

Emotion and reason, the old-fashioned but ancient grand proposition, Chi Yu did not expect that one day it would fall on him, but he asked himself, he could not be a saint, his selfishness repeated: escape, escape, escape, escape...

He looked out the window at a winter scene he had never seen before. The road ahead was filled with gray mist, and the crows standing in rows on the dead branches were watching him with their black bean-sized eyes.

Living or dead, or innocent, or innocent; his ridiculous reluctance and unwillingness are all out of preference.

He not only loves him, he prefers him - Shi Guyuan is vicious and vicious, but Chi Yu remembers the softness of his tongue under his fangs and the cuteness of his flesh pads under his sharp claws.

Chi Yu got off the car at the entrance of the kindergarten like a corpse, and Chi Xiaoyu ran over happily. Chi Yu restrained his mind, but found that Chi Xiaoyu was a little different from the morning dress, so he asked, "Where did you get this coat?"

Chi Xiaoyu said: "Uncle Shi bought it for me, as well as a small skirt, it's so pretty, I'm going to wear this to perform tomorrow!"

"Your Uncle Shi is here?!"

Chi Xiaoyu got carried away, and put aside the little secret that she had pulled the hook, and focused on making them reconcile: "Well, Dad, Uncle Shi said he forgave you, so you don't want to be angry with him anymore, okay? How about you reconcile?" , Brother Xiaohan and I have reconciled, so you two should also reconcile."

"When did he come?! Where is he!"

Chi Yu looked around anxiously, Chi Xiaoyu tugged at him, and said, "Uncle Shi is gone, I asked him to go home with me, but he won't come back. Dad, tell him to come, come see my performance together tomorrow." .”

Chi Yu ignored this, took out his mobile phone, dialed Shi Guyuan's number, and turned off the phone as usual.Then, he asked Chi Xiaoyu: "What are you doing, he...he didn't do anything to you, did he?"

Chi Xiaoyu gleefully talked about every second of today, Chi Yu took her hand, faced the sunset, and slowly returned home.

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Early the next morning, Chi Yu got up to make breakfast for Chi Xiaoyu, when he suddenly received a call from an intern in the laboratory, the boy said in a panic, "Director Chi, the No. 23 reagent bottle on the medicine shelf in your office is missing !"

"What?!" Chi Yu didn't care about turning the omelet over, hurriedly turned off the fire, and ran to the living room to change into out clothes: "What did you say?!"

Reagent bottle No. 23, cyanide, since Shi Guyuan almost took the bottle of medicine by mistake, as long as Chi Yu leaves the medicine shelf, it will be locked.

"We called the police, the security room is checking the surveillance..."

At this time, the morning news on the TV showed a picture of the Tengkong Group building: "...Tengkong Group has committed illegal and criminal acts of smuggling and trafficking for many years. The current group leader Shi Guyuan..."

Chi Yu turned his head suddenly, Shi Guyuan's photo came into view, and he suddenly had an ominous premonition——

The alarm clock in Chi Xiaoyu's bedroom rang, and it automatically told the time: Today is December 1999, 12, Friday, at 3 o'clock in the morning...