Protagonist, wake up

Mother Jane lowered her head.

Her child hugged her leg, begging her in a low voice.

Jane's mother thought a lot last night.Ruyan's past was as clear as ever last night, from the small, red and crumpled cries in her arms, to the young man who turned into a green bamboo, those memories that she had either forgotten or blurred, all flowed like a cloud mind.

When he was not yet born, she walked slowly through the crowd with her belly outstretched, carefully protecting her round belly; when he was one year old, the man who hadn't turned bad lifted the child up high and happily picked up the stubble To pierce his delicate skin; when he was older, she hugged him and taught him to write his name stroke by stroke, stayed up late at night to sew countless pieces of clothes for him, and tried her best to protect him when the man beat him down ; when he was a teenager, they traveled around the city with scars all over their bodies, trying to find ways to send him to school; listening to the doctor tell her about the child's psychological scars in the hospital, and holding the manic child for several nights without knowing what to do Feeling sorry and tired.

Now that he was twenty, she could finally take a breath, but she still couldn't rest.

Now that I think about it, it has been 20 years.

The 20 years of hardships and hardships are still vivid in my mind, as if in just one night, her child has grown up and is about to fly away.

Yesterday she sat quietly in the darkness, her heart setting with the sinking sun.

At that point she just wondered, what went wrong?Although he was blaming Jian Zhu and the boy he had never met in his heart, the resentment was followed by reflection on himself.She thought about it for a long time, alone, until finally she thought of it and shed tears.

Then there was a rare cowardice in my life, and I didn't dare to let the child turn on the light, for fear that he would see her reddish eyes and self-blaming expression.

Jian Zhu silently hugged his mother's leg, not knowing what to say for a long time.

After a long time, he felt a warm hand gently land on his drooping head, stroking it bit by bit.

He raised his eyes to meet his mother's gaze.

He heard his mother say to him, "I'd always rather you hate me now than have a bloody head later."

**

No matter how fast Jian Lanzhou is, it still takes three or four days to travel.During these three or four days, Jian Zhu, mother and son, had several calm talks about his problem.

In the unremitting persuasion, Jian Zhu could see that her mother was loose, but she did not let go until the end.

Jian Zhu finally compromised: "Mom, he is already on his way. Whether you admit it or not, can you promise me to see him first?"

Mother Jian's mood has calmed down a lot, she thought about it and agreed to her son's request.

It just so happened that she also wanted to meet the man who abducted her son.

The waiting time was long, and Jian Zhu even felt that his melancholy emotions, which had not been improved for a long time, were starting to get out of control again.

Sometimes he looked a little, but his eyes were not focused, and when he recovered, he found that he was unconsciously pinching or tearing something.Many times his palms were almost bleeding.

He would keep calling Jian Lanzhou irritably. If the train signal happened to be bad and he couldn't get through, his restlessness would reach its peak.The reason why Jian's mother didn't dare to get angry all the time was because of his mental state.She even saw his pathological dependence on Jian Lanzhou, even if he could not be contacted for two days, he would be on the verge of going crazy.

Since dating Jian Lanzhou, Jian Zhu has never been unable to contact him again.But now at home, he had to suppress himself desperately.

This caused Jane's mother to have a subtle feeling for Jian Lanzhou before they met.

It was almost late at night when Jian Lanzhou arrived in their area, and Jian Zhu insisted on going out to pick him up despite Jian's mother's objection.

As he walked through the rows of trees downstairs, he saw an unexpected person.

The girl with amber eyes was standing quietly between the trees like a cat. When Jian Zhu looked over, she did nothing but said in a very ethereal and strange voice: "Time is running out." After she finished, she quickly disappeared from Jian Zhu's sight.

Jian Zhu was at a loss, but the sound quality left a deep impression on him.

When you think about it, it feels a bit like listening to a synthetic beep.

But then he put all these aside and eagerly went to pick up Jian Lanzhou.

Jian Lanzhou stayed in the hotel for one night, and found a high-end hotel to treat Jian's mother to dinner the next day.No matter what to say later, the etiquette should not be spared.

During the dinner, he gave Jian's mother a string of wooden beads made of Hao'an Shenmu. He knew that Jian's mother had always liked wooden products.

After the meal, Jian's mother's face softened a little, and she still asked people to go to her house to talk.

Jian Zhu was locked outside the door and paced back and forth nervously, not knowing what Jian Lanzhou had said, and when she came out again, Jian's mother's expression turned cloudy.Although it was not sunny, the attitude was more than a little bit better than at the beginning.She didn't say anything to Jian Zhu, but Jian Lanzhou followed behind Jian's mother, and quietly smiled at him like a spring breeze.

Jian Zhu also breathed a sigh of relief.

This toss, New Year's Eve is coming.Jian's mother knew about the situation at Jian Lanzhou's house, and after her attitude eased, she still invited him to stay at her house for the New Year.The two children were flattered, and they worked harder than ever, especially cleaning the windows, ceilings, etc. at home, and even cooking were all done by Jian Lanzhou, which completely liberated Jian's mother.

On New Year's Eve, Jian Zhu got up early to put up the Spring Festival couplets, while Jian's mother and Jian Lanzhou were in the kitchen cooking ingredients and preparing the New Year's Eve dinner.Every New Year's Eve, the family cooks fried sweet potatoes, fried radish balls and tofu, as well as making dumplings and fried fried fruits.Especially for fried fruit, it takes hours from dough kneading to kneading.In the afternoon, Aunt Qian invited Jian Zhu's family to her house for dinner, but Jian Lanzhou chose to stay at home and knead the fried fruit that she had just learned from Jian's mother.

Aunt Qian's family had several children from relatives. Jian Zhu couldn't help but laugh when he watched a group of them pinch and fight with each other, especially after the fleshy face of little sister Wang Helin was pinched and deformed.But after laughing, he thought of Jian Lanzhou staying at home alone, and felt uncomfortable again.

Aunt Qian couldn't refuse the meal, so Jian Zhu had no reason not to go on New Year's Eve.

After a meal until dark, fireworks began to explode outside the window.He finally couldn't help it, and quietly pulled Jian's mother aside and asked, "Mom, you didn't give me an accurate answer at Lanzhou."

Mother Jian snorted, quite arrogant.

"Mom~" Seeing that Jian's mother didn't respond, Jian Zhu took her arm and shook her coquettishly again, "Mom~Mom~" During this time, Jian's mother's attitude was very peaceful, and Jian Zhu gradually let go of her courage. Return to the state before the incident broke out.

"All right, all right," Jane's mother said angrily, "Save it for the Chinese New Year!"

Jian Zhu's eyes lit up little by little, and the smile on the corner of his mouth couldn't stop expanding.

Jian Lanzhou sat quietly at home pinching fried fruit. He was very patient, and the flowers he kneaded were plump and beautiful.

Anyone who has spent more than a dozen quiet New Year's Eves will feel at ease.

When the first fireworks exploded outside the window, he looked up.He didn't know what to think of, and his smile became softer.

When Jian Lanzhou finished cooking the last dish and was about to fry it, he received an unexpected call.

Jian Zhu stood in front of the window, with the laughter of several children behind him.He looked at the brightly lit night outside, and couldn't wait for the news to be sent, so he reached out and dialed the phone.

Almost after two rings, the phone was connected.

"Little Zhu."

"...you have been waiting?"

"En." Jian Lanzhou's eyebrows and eyes slightly curved.

Jian Zhu chuckled lightly.

Jian Lanzhou's gentle voice came from the other end of the phone, "Xiaozhu..."

Jian Zhu interrupted him, "Good news. Well—"

At this moment, Jian Lanzhou's soul was connected by a consonance. He seemed to feel it, but he couldn't believe it.The protracted word "um" was heard in his ears, making his heart instantly feel like a ball of paper that was crumpled up by someone.

"Auntie, is she..."

Unbelievably, Jian Lanzhou's voice was trembling.

Jian Zhu looked out the window, the corners of his mouth kept rising, "Lanzhou."

He put down his voice softly, biting every word clearly.

"From now on, you will have a mother."

**

This year's New Year's Eve seems to be very short, probably too happy to feel the passage of time.

Jian's mother couldn't make it through the night and went to bed early, and Jian Zhu and Jian Lanzhou were left for a walk downstairs holding hands.

The firecrackers that should be set off at this point are all set off, and everyone gathers at home to watch the Spring Festival Gala, and there are almost no people on the noisy streets.

There was light snow in the sky, Jian Zhu put his frozen red hand under his mouth to breathe for warmth, but Jian Lanzhou covered it in the next second, and the warmth flowed down his fingertips to his heart.

Jian Zhu saw the cold stars in the sky in a trance, and prayed in his heart.Until now, his studies are going well, his friends are safe, his love is complete, his relatives are with him, and the best things in his life have basically gathered together.

Everything is complete.

Standing on tiptoe, he gently kissed his lover's lips.

Jian Lanzhou looked gentle, he gently took Jian Zhu's hand and walked forward.He was really happy tonight and kept talking to Jian Zhu.

They walked along the long lake, and finally stopped under a streetlight in the middle, because Jian Zhu stopped moving forward for some reason.

There was doubt in Jian Lanzhou's eyes, and Jian Zhu just said, "Lanzhou, let's go back."

Snow started to fall heavily.

Jian Lanzhou reached out to wipe the snowflakes off the boy's face, and finally planned to say what he had held back for a long time tonight before going back.

"Little Zhu..."

"Lanzhou, let's go back!" Jian Zhu ignored his words, and just kept pulling him back in an almost pleading gesture.

"Xiao Zhu, I..."

As if anticipating something, Jian Zhu's muscles all over his body convulsed, causing his facial expression to gradually distort.

He began to tremble violently, and beads of sweat soon spread all over his body.He was so convulsed that he almost fainted, and he tried his best to squeeze out the broken syllables from his throat——

"no, do not want……"

"Please...don't say..."

But Jian Lanzhou was uncharacteristically.He didn't seem to see Jian Zhu's expression on the verge of collapse, and he still said tenderly: "I..."

Jian Zhu felt as if he was imprisoned by an inexplicable force, but his limbs were twitching uncontrollably from muscles to tendons, and there was an impulse in his chest that was about to erupt.The blood all over his body was boiling and concentrated in one place, but his throat seemed to be stuffed with a large ball of cotton, blocking all broken sounds.

His mouth and nose were sore, and the excessive stimulation caused a snowflake-like haze in front of his eyes.

His body didn't seem to be his own, he couldn't move, he could only stand there and watch the young man's brows and eyes gently open his mouth.

He can't do anything.

But I can't, I can't say it!

The panic in his heart was getting bigger and bigger, drowning him like a tide.Jian Zhu was dizzy, her eardrums were buzzing, but her nerves were prickling like thousands of needles.

Finally, all the clamor gathered in his throat, like a flood breaking an embankment, and Jian Zhu interrupted Jian Lanzhou's words with an almost mournful scream.

"Don't! Don't say——!"

Jian Lanzhou paused.

"I love you."

In an instant, all the sounds faded away, and the surroundings faded into empty white.In the blank space, there seemed to be many vague and noisy voices, and it seemed that there was nothing at all.

Jian Zhu was stunned, and in the blank, he heard his heartbeat and blood beating in unison, stirring the nerves from the chest cavity to the eardrum.Finally, at the end of the slowly passing white, he saw a figure coming against the light, followed by the sentence "I love you", which penetrated everything and reached his ears.

The face and voice were so clear that the tears that had been hanging in the air welled up in my eyes.

His world collapsed at this moment.

The author has something to say: I finally!write!Here it is!

In addition, the collapse is really a collapse in the literal sense~

Continuous high-energy warning!

ps: The next chapter starts the fourth volume, and this volume is also the end volume of the book, which basically belongs to looking for candy in glass slag.Of course, I think those who can see here should be relatively strong... Although it may be inertial diving...

(running with a helmet on)