【From the Snake】Go back and come

That night, Zilai also felt that he was facing the biggest test in his life.

"I only have one set of bedding at home, so I can only wrong you to squeeze me." Orochimaru said while tidying up the bedding.

What if the person I love wants to sleep with me?Which quickly to the point of view, very urgent.

"No, I'm the one who troubled you." Not wronged, not wronged at all.

Jilai has never felt that lying on the tatami is a kind of torment.

A punch away from Orochimaru, he felt himself stiff with tension.

Orochimaru lay on his side with his back to him, and Jiraiya tried hard to get himself to sleep quickly, but the tragic discovery, I don't know whether it was because he was in a coma for too long or was too nervous, or a combination of both, he is now very awake.

"Jiraiya." He heard Orochimaru call his name.

"What's wrong?" He tried his best to sound normal.

"Would you mind saying a few words?"

"How come? I didn't feel sleepy after sleeping for too long before, haha." He laughed a few times, hiding his embarrassment, "You too, why are you being polite to me instead?"

"I..." Orochimaru thought about how to speak.

"At that time, when you came to me, you said you were going to let go."

"I don't know why I'm so scared, I've never been so scared, and I feel overwhelmed for the first time."

"So I told Dou, if something goes wrong, I will return the earring to you, so that you don't forget me."

"At the beginning, when I knew the news of your death in battle, I never admitted it, thinking that you are so stupid, how could you do such a thing?"

"Until I see your grave, I can't fool myself anymore."

"After you left, it took me a long time to fall asleep every day." Da Shewan trembled slightly, "My mind is very messy, I always think about some past events, sporadic fragments."

"When I saw Sasuke and Naruto returning to Konoha, I suddenly realized that I have nowhere to go because you are gone."

"This is the first time I regret it. I never regret chasing my dreams, but I regret that I hurt you, and I regret that I traded the art of immortality at the price of hurting you. I clearly know that you have had a hard time."

"When I found you, you were covered in big and small injuries."

"I know you fought for the village and the little devils, but did you let yourself die because of me?"

Orochimaru's voice choked up as he spoke.

Jiraiya felt sad when he heard what Orochimaru said.

Sorry to scare you and make you sad.

I was in pain, and have always been.

But I never blamed you, I would be puzzled, confused, desperate, and tired, but I never blamed you.

Because, I love you so much.

Orochimaru heard a rustling sound coming from behind, and then he was hugged into a warm embrace.

His back was leaning against Zilai's warm and solid chest, and the powerful heartbeat was transmitted through his back to his limbs and bones. He felt their hearts beating in unison, and the sense of reality made him unable to hold back tears anymore. .

The night covered up everything, and in the darkness, he could finally stop hiding and reveal his heart, even if he didn't dare to look into the other person's eyes, even if he didn't dare to tell Zilai face to face.

Jilai also felt the opponent's slight tremor, he tightened his arms, and raised his hand to cover the opponent's eyes.

He felt a cold liquid hit his palm.

"I've always been here." He hugged him tighter.

"Go to sleep." He put his chin on the neck of the other party, and comforted him softly in the other's ear, "I won't leave again."

He felt that the person in his arms gradually stopped trembling, and his breathing gradually stabilized.

Are you asleep?

"Good night, Orochimaru, have a good dream."

In the afternoon of the next day, Sasuke, who was setting up work in Anbu, received a report from his subordinates, "Minister, Jiraiya-sama wants to see you."

see me?Sasuke was a little confused. "Understood, I'll go there now."

"What do you want from me?" Sasuke respected this man from the bottom of his heart, not to mention that he was also a mentor whom Naruto treated as a family member.

By the way, does this count as seeing the parents?Sasuke groaned.

"You and Naruto..." Jiraiya stared at Sasuke for a while and said.

"I will take good care of Naruto, please don't worry." So it really is meeting the parents, right?

"No, no, I don't doubt this. I just wanted to ask you how you are doing." Zilai also quickly explained, his expression was too serious to make people misunderstand, "I came today to ask you for a favor."

"Help?" Sasuke was a little relieved, he wasn't meeting his parents... I knew it after thinking about it!Sure enough, if you stay with an idiot for a long time, your IQ will drop, right?

"Can you, let me see what happened the day Orochimaru revived me? Tsunade said that you also participated, and your Sharingan should be fine... Is this request a bit too much?"

Sasuke was silent.

The tall man in front of him is so cautious when speaking to him, a junior, for the sake of another person.

He remembered the encounter at the Orochimaru base back then.

Want to confirm something?

"It's not difficult, but are you sure?" Sasuke's expression became serious, "Oshemaru gave up the technique of immortality for you, which means that he will no longer have infinite life like us. Naruto told me that he wanted to Grow old with you, I think you know what he means."

Sasuke opened his Sharingan, "What you see may make you feel painful, but I hope that after you read it, you can get rid of many worries. This is just a very simple thing."

Coming out of the scene that Sasuke recreated with illusion, Jirai was also in a trance.

Orochimaru, you...

After thanking Sasuke, he left, and the young man with black hair and different eyes escorted him to the door.

Sasuke is really perceptive, so the Uchiha family are all so perceptive?

He knew what Sasuke meant, and he did have many concerns.

He was delighted to see Orochimaru again, especially when he knew that the other party had revived him, but he didn't know how to continue.

He didn't know if it was right for him to choose to be with the other party.

He didn't know if this was good for Orochimaru.

The most important thing is that he doesn't know the extent of Orochimaru's feelings for him, and whether he can make him happy.

Because he was back, but that person still cried. In his impression, that person would hardly cry.

He doesn't want Orochimaru to feel guilty in this relationship, this is not what he wants to see, he doesn't want him to have the mentality of atonement and compensation, that's too tiring.

But everything was just speculation after all, so he wanted to prove something.

So I want to see what kind of mood you have for letting me come back.

I know now, what Sasuke boy said is right, I have nothing to worry about.

Why don't we start over, before it's too late.

It was dusk when he came out from Sasuke, Sasuke sent him to the door and went to pick up Naruto from get off work, he looked at the back of the young Anbu Minister and chuckled.

He walked back to Orochimaru's house step by step. On the way, he saw a fruit shop selling particularly good apples. Thinking that the man liked to eat them, he bought some and took them home.

Looking at the setting sun, he gradually accelerated his pace.

He felt a warm emotion spread from his heart to his limbs.

He thought of someone waiting for him, of not being alone anymore.

He thought of the man in so much pain, holding his body, crying I love you.

He suddenly realized that he was already galloping down the street that was becoming less and less crowded, holding tightly in his arms the carefully selected apple for that person.

want to see him.

I want to see his smiling face, I want to see the beauty of that man's gestures, the jade earrings in his black hair.

I want to hear him calling himself an idiot and calling his own name in a hoarse voice.

I want to touch him, I want to feel him, I want to be with him, I want him to be mine.

Want to hug him, want to kiss him.

Want to say to him, I love you.

When Jiraiya arrived at the door of the house, Oshemaru was leaning against the door and waiting for him.

The warm wind at dusk caressed his long hair, and the blue jade earrings glowed softly.

In a trance, he remembered the winter when he returned to Konoha from Mt. Myogi. The first snow had just passed, and the world was white and clear. Orochimaru was waiting for him at the gate of Konoha, and he said welcome back. The whole person was not stained with impurities, so beautiful square things.

"Oshemaru!" He called that person's name as he did back then, and walked quickly to that person's side.

"Welcome back." Orochimaru raised his mouth slightly when he saw the apple in his hand. After so many years, he still remembered his preference.

"I'm back." He smiled and followed Dashewan into the door, put the apple in the entrance, and hugged him tightly from behind.

"Jiraiya?" Orochimaru was a little surprised by the other party's active hug.

"I love you." Jiraiya took a deep breath, feeling the trembling body of the other party because of those three words, "Although we are both men, there may be some difficulties, but please stay with me forever." He tightened his arms, his heart beat like a drum, "What you miss can't come back, but for the rest of your life, we start over."

There is a difference between knowing and hearing.

"Okay." He responded very solemnly.

Orochimaru gently touched the opponent's hand with both hands and turned around, looking into the opponent's eyes.

Jiraiya's eyes were extremely bright under the slightly dim porch lights, reminding him of the pair of fiery black eyes under the fireworks of the festival that year, and the intense and fiery feelings almost swallowed him up.

"Also, I love you too."

He felt Jiraiya's arms tighten around his waist, one hand gently resting on the back of his neck, and then that resolute face was getting closer.

He felt his heart slamming into his chest, with life-shaking sounds, like the familiar melody, singing back to back, back to back.

He smiled indulgently.

He closed his eyes.

After the wine is gone, the people are gone, and the lights are bright and bright, and they return home alone.

I want to cry alone, the door opens, and the old man returns with a smile and a song.

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postscript

Thank you little angels for your support all the time. Your waiting and replies are the inexhaustible motivation for me to update the article.

At the end of the article, if you still have time and interest, you can read this postscript.

When I first started writing this article, I started writing this postscript.To tell you the truth, my habit of writing articles is to determine the framework and ending before the start, so before publishing the article, although many of them have not been written yet, the ending has already been reached.

However, Kankan wrote nearly 9 words, which was beyond my expectation.

Writing this article is mixed with a lot of my own little selfishness.As a person who started watching Hokage early, this anime accompanied me through my youth, one year in junior high school, three years in high school, four years in college, and eight years have passed.

How much change can eight years of time bring to a person's state of mind, and how much right and wrong can one experience?Hokage has been in these eight years until the end, and I have entered adulthood from ignorance in these eight years.

In the early years, when I watched Hokage and saw Sannin, I always sighed, but then I looked back at Hokage after watching Boruto, and saw that it was probably the dream of a ninja in episode 602. I saw Naruto smiling so happily at Naruto in Naruto’s memory. Jiraiya and his cold tomb wept without warning.In the animation, Orochimaru looked serious when he saw this scene, and I even felt his anger.

No matter how much you smile and say that the world is impermanent, it is hard to resist the pain of looking at the other party's grave.

At that time, I thought, after all, I still cared about his words, why did I hurt him so much before?Orochimaru is good to Jirai, and Sasuke is good to Naruto, people seem to be self-taught in hurting the person they love the most.

At the end of the Naruto manga, Naruto said to Sasuke, looking at you like that, I don't know why, but my heart always hurts.So can I think that Orochimaru also felt heartbroken when he heard the news of Jiraiya's death?

I have never felt self-willed and hesitant, not decisive enough to cause all this.What else do you want him to do?His decades of life have been involved, so how can he be accused?

He never felt that Orochimaru was a heinous crime. He just pursued his dreams and got lost. He walked too fast and didn't have time to see what was most important.He just didn't have time, so he walked so fast, but it was too late after he died.

Because he is most afraid of death, only death can touch Da Shewan's heart, so that he can see what is true and what is false.

I feel sorry for Jiraiya's desperate gamble, and Orochimaru's solitude.

But I am still not reconciled. I have seen so many partings in real life, and I hope that at least the characters I like in Two-dimensional will have less partings.I don't know why, but I really like Jiraiya, a lecherous uncle, and I can't hate a villain like Orochimaru, who I obviously shouldn't like, and even like it very much.I hope they have a good ending.

So when I saw Tsunade recalling Jiraiya when he was young, I couldn't stand it, and I cried with her on the screen.

So I was also very sad when I saw Orochimaru who was briefly absent-minded and indignant in the face of Tsunade's questioning and Jiraiya's tomb in Naruto's memories.

Thinking about whether I can do it and give myself a favorite ending?So I wrote this article.

Long-winded and long-winded writing here, I remembered a sentence I saw when I was watching fanmanga

—Even if you are burned to ashes, you will not be returned to the sky.

Hey, Orochimaru, do you think so too?