【Si Pu】A study of the love and death of Apollo

The other side of the dark moon, get to know it, are you afraid of this pure white night

00.

On January 1967, 1, three things happened that were worthy of being written down in the diary by Teak Pu.

One is the death of Apollo 1 and three astronauts. It was originally planned to launch the spacecraft on February 2 and send them to Earth orbit for 21 days. During the simulation exercise for this launch, they died on the ground.

The second is that the father's remarriage has been settled, and the mother can only love him for the rest of the day, the mother's unique love method.Everyone chattered about this marital change, talked about the beatings and collisions coming from the teak house at night, and the beast-like whispers mixed in it, like watching a passage behind the TV, feeling no more guilty about family and tragedy than a The night held up by the birds is thick.Dealing with specious concerns is very exhausting, and Yumupu has almost no energy to grieve, and more of a sense of powerlessness than sadness.The mother had been suspicious about the father's cheating for many years, and it finally came true from the beginning. The couple was morbidly satisfied because of this, and the twins were broken into two by their wrestling, and they were left at both ends of the city. For a teenager with living ability, it is about equal to being separated from each other.

The third was that Yuki suddenly didn't want to call him brother.When he was asked, the child only half-closed his eyelids, with his index finger erect in the center of his raised lips, his eyes were gentle and suppressed, as if he was afraid of waking up something that was sleeping soundly.The two lips were separated by slightly bitter words, but his eyes were sweet.From that day on he just called, Apu, Apu.

At that time, he was still very innocent, purely in love with the moon, and also purely in love with his younger brother.The boy's ears were not cloudy enough to reflect the other side of the long night, so he didn't hear the hysterical cry coming from directly below Yukiji's throat.It seems that everything is fine. He can love and be loved. The blood, flesh and emotions of the twins are boiled out of the same womb boiler. They should be exactly the same, and they should love deeply.

And when he was really awakened by that voice, he had killed two people with his own hands and became one of the seven incredibles.For Teak Pu at that time, it was better to say "everything is about to begin" than "everything is over".

Although it is true that something has become irreparable.

01.

All night long, the sound of wind and cicadas slapped on the window alternately, muddy and undulating.The heat in the room steamed to the ceiling, so that the objects in the field of vision were slightly deformed like syrup.Teak Pu shivered his gray eyelids, and plundered hastily on his mother. In the half-dark morning light, her face was yellow and astringent, because the action of raising her hand to hit him was too hasty last night. Trembling with alcohol-smelling breath, he thought maliciously of the museum female corpse he saw during the school tour.

The early waking of the living does not shine on the half-dead.He twisted his hands and feet slowly to get up, and accidentally tripped over something while walking around the figure lying on the floor, and the next moment he was smashed on the brow bone by a metal product he picked up casually. He ignored it and let the sharp spikes behind him He uttered the sentence "If you keep arguing, I will kill you", and then there was a slight sound of turning over.Of course he knows that this woman always does what she says, and of course she doesn't really cut the people into pieces. She has endless moves to make your life worse than death.When his younger brother was still in this family in the early years, he also tried to resist, and was forced to yell endlessly, and even turned his eyebrows coldly at irrelevant people. When he woke up, he realized that the "death" in his mother's mouth was nothing more than Use teak pu's most disgusting behavior to subtly influence him, turning him into a guy who will hurt his relatives. The bloodiest one in 15 years of life experience came from this way, why bother to conflict with a lunatic.

That is, after that, he restrained himself in the shadow of lukewarmness, doing things no different from ordinary people, going to ordinary middle schools, getting ordinary grades in exams, and loving his younger brother who was no different from ordinary people.

Mother's drunkenness is an irregular sonata.A scherzo-style insult is the first movement, followed by an allegro-style physical activity, and finally ends with a sleeping andante.At the age of six, Yukipo wished the earth was a donut.He always eats a lot, trying to make himself fatter, so that when he is thrown up, he can still protect Asi in his arms.A year ago, Asi was taken away by his father, and he knew that he would not have to worry about losing weight in the future, and since then he has become a shattered walking corpse with peace of mind.Except for the moon and his younger brother, there is nothing he cares about in this world.

He walked out of the house, his pace gradually quickened, and finally he started to run.Stepping on the rhythm of the morning glow breaking through the indigo night, I came two blocks away before the sky was swallowed by fish.From a distance, I saw Yukiji waiting for him there, with a body slightly taller than himself supporting the old-fashioned Japanese uniform, but the smile on his mouth was still as light as a bird.He was tearing something with his head down, his bent spine raised a crescent-like arc.

Xu Shi's younger brother is concerned about the word "Apu" in every bone and every breath. Before he stepped close, he bumped into him and looked over steadily. His eyes were as bright as frosted glass. Their eyes hugged each other from a distance, and soon the hug was not limited to their eyes.Yumu Pu stretched out his arms, embraced his younger brother who was rushing over, and showed his first sincere smile this semester.

"A Si, congratulations on entering high school."

"Apu can be with Asi again."

Yu Musi buried his nose in his brother's neck and took a deep breath, the huge desire mixed with this rotten and beautiful breath, the corpses of the two feelings were tied back to back, you fell on me, and I dragged you, sinking.And Yumupu just patted Asi's back as usual, the child seemed to have grown taller again, and his strength in hugging people was a lot stronger.

"Not in the same high school."

"But it's pretty close."

Yumupu knew very well that most of his pounce was because he wanted to touch this body sincerely, and the other half was to please his brother.He knew that his brother was guilty of not giving him a good childhood, so he was willing to be a child forever in front of his brother. Before he realized it, he gave up another possibility of his character and behavior, and put a dark heart in his heart. Put it in formalin, bleach it, and then show it to my brother. It would rather it look like it will never grow up.

Because the two brothers are twins, people will always talk about it together. In this case, because of rebellion, one of the brothers will start to emphasize that he is different from the world.But Yuzu almost deliberately turned himself into another Yupu. Every time someone said that he was too similar to his brother, his secret happiness could not be penetrated even by himself, as if he could get closer to his brother through imitation a little.They've always been as good as a jar of maltose and always will be.Yukiji is always not smart enough in front of his brother, he is an unlit beacon, before he thinks deeply about rationality, his emotions have already filled him.

He called Apu in a voice like a rice cake, あまね, sticky, he knew that Asi liked him very much.

But Yu Mupu looked over his younger brother's shoulder and paused.

The sun has risen, and there is nothing to hide under the swollen skylight.Where Si Yumu was standing just now, there was a dead crow left at this moment, the bones were freshly uncovered from the wound, the blood was black and frothy, like a sick dream this morning.

Not the first time.

Yu Mupu exhaled a very long and lingering sigh, and raised his eyes to reach his younger brother's pupil sockets almost like singing a lullaby, his tone was closer to persuasion than reproach.

"Asi, didn't I say that you can't bully small animals casually?"

"But it pecked at me. This new uniform is for Apoo to show, not to break."

The words he wanted to say were gently dissolved in those pupils that were exactly the same as his own.Chaoyang is soft, Yunxia is salty, younger brother Yu Musi's eyebrows are like doughnuts, and his heart can't draw a knife when facing his younger brother.

"...Forget it this time, there can't be a next time, or I won't like Ah Si anymore."

Yukiji then smiled innocently, as if he could truly love at any time, as if he could drown in the sun at any time.He spread his hands in front of Teak Pu's face, which was mottled with a rusty red, as if driving a pile on the heart.

"...Apu, there is no water to wash your hands around here."

The younger brother's voice swayed in his ears, and Yu Mupu suddenly thought of the hoarse siren he saw on the edge of the sea cliff in the fairy tale yesterday.

"Can you lick me clean?"

TBC.

The timeline mentioned in the original work:

On July 1964, 7, at the Summer Festival, Yumu Pu met Yaxun Ningning who went back to the past

On July 1969, 7, Apollo 21 successfully landed on the moon.The next day, Yumupu said to the head teacher Tulong teacher, "I have decided not to go anywhere."

In the same year, Yuki Pu killed his younger brother Yuki Division.The teak brothers both passed away.

Since Apu and Asi wear different school uniforms, it is assumed that they are not in the same school.