The morning sun of our boyhood

About Sha Wan, it is a long story.After Yu Feng left, Changjun Middle School ushered in a cruel monthly exam.An Mi originally wanted to pass this monthly exam, to test the students' true skills and concentration, and to catch those who didn't study hard during the shooting of the reality show, but she really caught them, but she didn't expect that person at all. - Sha Wan.

Sha Wan is the monitor of Class One (Sixth) of Senior High, and has always been an excellent student. In this monthly exam, Sha Wan's grades slipped from the top of the grade to the bottom of the grade. It is no exaggeration to describe it.

An Mi asked Tao Xi to investigate the matter, and Tao Xi arranged for Qing Cheng to find out the reason for Sha Wan's soaring grades.The reason for choosing Qingcheng is because Qingcheng is also a girl after all, and she and Sha Wan are both academic masters, so they should have more common language.

Qingcheng found Sha Wan in the stands, and Sha Wan was sitting there alone, holding a notebook in his hand, which was full of stickers and writings about Yu Feng.On one of the pages, there is also the precious Yu Feng autographed "To Xiaowan", which is the autograph Li Zi asked for for her last time.

And she herself couldn't muster up the courage.When the person I like is right in front of me, I don't know why, I feel confused and timid in my heart, I can't think, I can't speak, the whole person is lost in his overly charming aura, although I also hate myself for not living up to it.

When did you start liking Yu Feng?

That was one day when I was in junior high school, I happened to catch a glimpse of Yu Feng's performance being played in a roadside video store.I don't know why, but I, who always thought chasing stars is stupid, was attracted all of a sudden.Because of his handsomeness, because of his natural and unrestrained dancing posture, and because of his shy smile at the end of each song.

After returning home that day, I applied to join Yu Feng's fan club.This is a beginning, slowly, the closer you get to him, the more you are attracted to everything about him that is both complex and simple.But she never told anyone this secret, because her status as a fan of stars was seriously inconsistent with her image of a good girl and top student.

Knowing that Yu Feng was going to record a program in Changjun, he was so happy that he was going crazy. When no one was around, he locked himself in the bedroom and frantically jumped, screamed, and sang, but in front of people, he still pretended to be indifferent look.

The longer I wear this mask, the more I don't know how to remove it.Yu Feng finally came, and the students all went to ask for autographs, and Li Zi dragged him away.When I met my idol so closely for the first time in my life, I was completely bewildered, as if the world around me disappeared, leaving only Yu Feng and the hand that signed his name...

Then, Yu Feng left, what else did he bring to himself besides reluctance?It was strange, it was disappointment, a deep disappointment in myself.

Yu Feng's appearance was like a ray of light, suddenly illuminating his ordinary life.Yu Feng is so outstanding, his life is so wonderful, but what about himself?It seems that he will only live the life of the so-called "student master" in the ordinary days day after day.How can such a self deserve Yu Feng to take another look?The intersection with Yu Feng in this life probably only happens in fantasy!

A rare opportunity to meet her idol face to face, but in the end, Sha Wan only realized how big the gap between her and Yu Feng was, and she began to feel depressed.

Sha Wan murmured to Qingcheng in the stands what she had never told others: "I just now understand that chasing stars is a lonely journey. There is no reward for giving, there is no end to unrequited love, and there is no way to change forever." As good as he is—am I being ridiculous for saying that?"

Qingcheng didn't mean to laugh at her at all, but looked at Sha Wan seriously, and said: "Yu Feng's work looks glamorous, but it is actually very hard. The reason why he doesn't look tired is because this is his dream." , is the same as Ban Xiaosong’s dream of reorganizing the baseball team. Dreams do not distinguish between high and low, but you can’t live without dreams.”

Sha Wan was stunned for a moment, this was the first time she understood Yu Feng from this angle.

Qingcheng then relayed what Yu Feng had once revealed to her: "Yu Feng said that the goal of his efforts is to bring hope to the perplexed, rather than simply taking him personally as the ultimate meaning of your life."

Sha Wanruo realized something.She only saw Yu Feng's superficial excellence and brilliance, but she didn't expect that this was paid for by how much sweat and persistence behind the scenes, and the reason why Yu Feng put in so much sweat and persistence was not just a The appearance of an idol also has a kind of spirit, a kind of positive energy for progress.If I not only failed to understand his original intention, but also fell into depression after approaching him, wouldn't all Yu Feng's efforts become meaningless?

Qingcheng went on to say: "Life is so long, we still have a lot of time to slowly find the direction, but when we have not yet determined the direction, we should try our best to take the road in front of us well. After all, in the student period, the most important task is to study .This is our current job, and it is as important as Yu Feng's job."

Sha Wan thought deeply because of Qingcheng's words.

Qingcheng went on to say: "You can't reach a thousand miles without accumulating steps, and Rome was not built in a day. If you feel that you are not good enough now, and even the things at hand are broken, wouldn't you be getting farther and farther away from the goal of excellence?" ?"

Sha Wan and Qing Cheng sat together in the stands for a long time.The sky was getting dark, and when school was over, the twilight closed, and the day was over again.Day after day, every day is ordinary, but extraordinary.Because all great things are accomplished and forged in this seemingly ordinary day after day.

Ban Xiaosong, Wu Tong and Yin Ke knew about this, the four of them thought for a long time and decided: the program prepared for Sha Wan will still be on.She needs such a program, which is a farewell and a beginning—a farewell to the confusion of the past and a firm beginning to the future.She needs to use such a form to see Yu Feng no longer just as an idol, but as a better person and a goal to study hard.

Then, there must be a planB.In other words, what should I do if Yu Feng doesn't come by then.The best way is to find a B corner (substitute) like the crew did.But in order to make B-side prepare more seriously, we can't tell him it's B-side.

The most suitable candidate is of course the class teacher Tao Xi.Didn't he always boast that he is a Maiba singer?

Right now, Maiba Singer is rehearsing his repertoire for the school celebration performance intoxicatedly in the office. For this singing, he also specially designed handsome dance steps, and he is going to be completely handsome when the time comes. Students who have eaten Xiaoxianrou can experience the charm of mature men.

He was busy, and Ban Xiaosong, Qing Cheng, Wu Tong and Yin Ke were also busy for him.In order for his unconvincing program to appear in the program list, Ban Xiaosong, Qing Cheng, Wu Tong and Yin Ke had to sell themselves to the program crew.

Ban Xiaosong dug out all the piano boy skills at the bottom of the box, and he was practicing in a corner of the rehearsal hall.There were little stars in the eyes of the senior sister on the side, and she exclaimed: "Ban Xiaosong, you can also play the piano, you look like a prince!"

It was rare for Ban Xiaosong to fart: "I am a prince." After playing for a while, he lamented, "Senior sister, I haven't touched the piano for a long time, when will I practice this?"

The senior sister also pretended to sigh: "Oh, then I have no choice but to cancel Teacher Tao's program."

Ban Xiaosong immediately changed his words: "Don't, don't, I'll practice!"

Yin Ke in the prop group is like a duck to water.With both color and art skills, he became the idol of the props group. The juniors and seniors greeted him with care, and someone handed him a paintbrush for a while, and poured water for him for a while.

Qingcheng was valued by the president and asked her to be in charge of all stage design.Firstly, she learned to paint; secondly, she was the only girl among the four "prostitutes", and girls were always more careful than boys.And the planning of the stage design this time has to be related to the calculation of funds. The student union really felt that the calculation was too much, so it was pushed to Qingcheng.

But these are nothing compared to Wu Tong's tasks.What he wants to challenge is the male lead in a stage play; that's all, he also needs to act in a love scene; that's all, the key is to act in a love scene between him and a cactus!The stage director called it love across races!

When Ban Xiaosong, Qingcheng and Yin Ke heard the news, they almost died of laughter. Ban Xiaosong rushed to agree: "Yanyanyan! This role is tailor-made for Wu Tong!"

Wu Tong glared at Ban Xiaosong, and said with a smile: "Wu Tong, you see that you are born with the face of a leading actor, so it would be a pity if you don't act." These words sounded nice, but Ban Xiaosong suddenly interrupted : "No, no, it's a face that is infatuated with cactus." Qingcheng immediately got to Ban Xiaosong, and the two hit it off immediately.

Yin Ke was not idle either, he didn't know whether it was out of good intentions or narrow-mindedness, he took the initiative to help Wu Tong practice the "ancient European style of speaking".So Wu Tong became like this:

Ban Xiaosong accidentally hit the ball on Wu Tong, Wu Tong said, "You stupid human being, you can't feel the pain in my body, don't you have any regrets in your heart?"

Tao Xi wanted to sing his repertoire to Wu Tong. Wu Tong said, "Whether it's a church carol or a tramp's accordion solo, in my eyes, they are all the same."

Tao Xi was shocked and said: "Wu Tong, are you sick?" As he spoke, he touched Wu Tong's forehead with his hand.

Wu Tong took Tao Xi's hand away and said with a smile, "Thank you for your concern, you stupid earthling."

Tao Xi looked at Yin Ke at the side: "What did you do to him?" Yin Ke shrugged, smiled and said nothing.

Wanting to urge the team members to go home, Wu Tong said, "The night has swallowed the last glimmer of the sun. To go or not to go is a question."

However, no matter how much he prepared, Wu Tong still couldn't overcome the last difficulty in his heart - he just couldn't be affectionate to a pot of cactus!

He couldn't take it anymore while reading the lines, and said to the crew: "No, you guys asked me to say such things to a pot of cactus, this is not playing with what I am."

Yin Ke walked over with a smile: "Then can you tell people that?"

As soon as the words fell, Wu Tong's eyes unconsciously looked at Qingcheng, who was explaining the plan to the members of the student union. Yin Ke followed Wu Tong's gaze and looked at Qingcheng, the smile on his face froze.

Wu Tong once again plucked up the courage to make an attempt, held up the cactus, and looked at it affectionately...

Then he threw the cactus on the ground and said to the crew: "Can you please buy a beautiful cactus?"

The school celebration has begun.The props group led by Yin Ke dressed up the stage beautifully, the stage design led by Qingcheng was also refreshing, Ban Xiaosong's piano accompaniment was smooth and pleasant, and Wu Tong was performing a drama - "Thorn".

The spotlight hit Wu Tong, and Wu Tong confessed affectionately: "I dare not express my love for you, because they will say that I am sick, a serious illness, and love across races is the most obvious symptom. But I don't understand , do they believe that only human beings are worthy of being loved, and all other races are humble and abominable? They don't believe that we can understand each other and fall in love with each other. They can't see every thorn in you, it's you against the whole world Gotta love my pose."

Strange, when the show actually came, it didn't feel so strange anymore.It seems that the stage, lighting, and costumes all have the effect of helping people enter the play. Wu Tong felt in a trance that he really fell in love with the cactus in front of him.Or, the cactus in the hand seems to represent a kind of love that is not understood but cannot be killed.

His performance received warm applause from the audience.Li Zi turned her head and said to Sha Wan who was sitting next to her, "The acting is great! No matter what kind of love it is, you should say it, right? It's not easy to meet someone or something that makes you so crazy , so no matter what the result is or what the people around you think, at least you have to say it? Look, separation means goodbye forever, how sad it is!"

The words she said completely unintentionally hit Sha Wan's heart impartially.

The next program is Tao Xi's solo "Actor".

The curtain opened again, and Tao Xi stood in the center of the stage in a well-designed handsome posture, closed his eyes, and began to concentrate on the song he had practiced for a long time.But after singing a few words, he realized that his eyes were dark, and he opened his eyes in surprise to see that the spotlight was no longer on him.He thought it was a mistake by the field staff, and moved a few steps to the side without showing any trace, trying to move under the spotlight again.

The spotlight actually moved away again.What kind of business is this!Toshi thought.But the performance had to continue, so he chased after him.

The spotlight moved on.Tao Xi could no longer hide his traces, and ran after the spotlight eagerly. If it wasn't for the singing in his mouth, he really wanted to shout: "I'm here!"

The students in the audience were stunned at first, and then burst into laughter because of this strange scene, thinking it was a designed scene.It turns out that Teacher Tao's performance today is not a solo, but a sketch.

The spotlight finally abandoned Tao Xi completely, and concentrated on the entrance behind the stage, and everyone looked there curiously.

There was also a singing voice, and like Tao Xi, he sang the song "Actor".Along with the singing, Yu Feng, wearing a white shirt and black trousers, walked in from the entrance. Under the spotlight, he looked even taller and handsome. He carried everyone's attention and walked towards the center of the stage.

There was enthusiastic applause in the auditorium, and Tao Xi on the stage understood a little bit. He stretched out his finger and pointed at Ban Xiaosong, Qingcheng, Wu Tong and Yin Ke who were hiding in the backstage curtain in warning, and got four A cheeky and apologetic smile.

Until Yu Feng stepped onto the stage and nodded to Tao Xi, asking him to join the chorus.Tao Xi understood, raised the microphone, and the two completed the song "Actor" together.At the end of the song, the students in the audience stood up unanimously, clapping and cheering frantically.

Everyone was very excited, but Sha Wan was the most excited.Looking at Yu Feng's figure, her breath and blood seemed to have stopped, only her eyeballs were still instinctively following Yu Feng's back.The screams around her couldn't reach her ears, and her world became blank again, leaving only herself and that figure behind.

I originally thought that the side at the school gate would be my farewell, and I would never have a chance to tell Yu Feng what was on my mind. I never thought that fate would be so generous to me.

An Mi didn't know when she came to Sha Wan's side, and she already knew what Sha Wan was thinking.At this moment, she put her arms around Sha Wan's shoulders and encouraged: "Be brave, go!"

Sha Wan turned her head and met An Mi's eyes, An Mi smiled and nodded to her.Li Zi next to her also showed an expression of sudden realization, and said to her, "Come on!"

Sha Wan took a breath, got up and ran out of the auditorium, and ran back to the classroom to get the notebook.

On the stage, Yu Feng was saying his last farewell to everyone. He said: "I am very grateful to Changjun Middle School and Class [-] ([-]) of Senior High for giving me such an unforgettable experience. I hope that my month here will also be a joy for everyone. Memories. I want to say to my fans, I hope that I can be your role model and guide you in the direction. While you like me, you can also enjoy your own life and move forward side by side with me. Everyone should have their own choices. If you can find your own future path through me, then my existence will have greater meaning. I wish all of you a more exciting and rich life.”

Following his words, the auditorium erupted into applause again, and everyone shouted Yu Feng's name in unison, louder than louder.

Ban Xiaosong was completely shocked by the popularity.Seeing this, Qingcheng thought of the words that Ban Xiaosong teased Wu Tong before, and turned around to tease Wu Tong: "Wu Tong, I found that as long as Yu Feng comes, you will fall out of favor faster than the baseball you throw." All fast."

Ban Xiaosong and Yin Ke on the side laughed.

I have to admit that Wu Tong's face stinks when he heard these words, very stinks.

Sha Wan waited for Yu Feng outside the auditorium, slowly raised her head, met Yu Feng's gentle smiling face, mustered up all her courage and said, "Yu Feng, can I have a few words with you?"

She heard her own voice shake very badly.But Yu Feng didn't take offense, just walked a few steps closer, lowered his head and asked her kindly: "What's wrong?"

Sha Wan vigorously raised the notebook she had been clutching in her hand: "I am your fan, and I have liked you for a long time. This is a gift I prepared for you." She handed the notebook straight out, still not daring to Look into Yu Feng's eyes.

Yu Feng took the notebook and flipped through it, with obvious emotion on his face.Sha Wan watched him from the side, the tension was slowly disappearing.Seeing Yu Feng turned to the last page, she said: "Thank you for appearing in my life, this is very meaningful to me, please persevere, I will continue to support you, and I will continue to support you as you said That way, I can find my own life.”

As soon as the words came out of her mouth, she suddenly felt a burst of relief all over her body, as if a spell had been lifted.The love still exists, but it has just turned from the dark to the bright, from the roundabout entanglement to the upward energy.She found that she was just cocooning herself in the past. There is no contradiction in the life of loving idols, loving Yufeng and loving herself, but should be in a state of harmony.Because I love him, I want to become a better version of myself.It is also because of doing so that he truly loves him with a clear conscience, instead of hurting himself and the people around him in the name of loving him.

Yu Feng saw from Sha Wan's brighter and brighter eyes: she already understood.Nothing needs to be said.The two of them just looked at each other and smiled, feeling the sun-filled love warming each other's hearts.

The manager shouted from a distance: "Yu Feng, come quickly, we have to go."

Yu Feng rushed to Sha and gently raised the notebook in Yang's hand: "I will cherish it, and you have to work hard too! I wish you a better self soon." Saying that, he waved and ran away.

Sha Wan stood where she was, with a smile and tears.There is nothing wrong with loving someone.True love is light and will lead you to a place of light.

In this way, the school celebration was a great success.Wu Tong and the others felt satisfied, except——almost forgot one important thing.Ban Xiaosong rushed back to the auditorium, and came back after a while, handing the cactus in his hand to Wu Tong: "Here, don't forget your lover!"