The morning sun of our boyhood

Wu Tong didn't know whether it was because of Tao Xi's push, or because of his father's surprise at the last moment, or because of the curiosity of not living with his father for so many years, that made him agree to his father to go home with him.

Although they are father and son, the atmosphere is really a bit weird.Wu Tong dawdled around looking for something to do, watching his father unskillfully busy in the kitchen out of the corner of his eye, feeling very complicated in his heart.

For so many years, he has neglected his mother and himself. His thoughtfulness at this moment should only be hot for 3 minutes!

The next morning, Wu Tong woke up and found that his father was no longer there without any surprise.He snorted coldly, put on his clothes with difficulty and went to the bathroom, and was surprised to find that the toothpaste had been squeezed and placed on the mouthwash cup; after washing, Wu Tong came to the dining room, and was surprised to find that the breakfast was ready and placed on the table After breakfast, Wu Tong was worrying about how to go to school by bike, when he heard the horn sound suddenly - it turned out that his father hadn't left and was waiting for him in the driver's seat.

For some reason, Wu Tong was a little restless that whole day, and he didn't feel relieved until he came home from school and saw the pair of familiar yet unfamiliar leather shoes on the shoe rack.

Dad came out of the kitchen when he heard the noise: "Are you back? Wash your hands and eat."

Wu Tong went back to the bedroom expressionlessly, leaving his father behind.After a while, he came out again, changed into a set of home clothes, sat down at the table, and was dumbfounded at the plates of black things on the table.

His father explained embarrassingly on the opposite side: "Dad hasn't cooked much, I asked Xiao Wang to teach me on the phone just now. Why don't we order takeaway?"

Wu Tong said lightly while eating: "Whatever." Wu Tong's father called Xiao Wang and asked him to order takeaway.

Wu Tongqiang asked calmly: "Why are you so free these days?" He had already made full mental preparations during the day, and when he was about to come back, he was greeted by an empty room.

Wu Tong's father said: "I put off my work, otherwise I won't have time to take care of you."

In my impression, even if the sky is falling, my father will not let my father say this sentence-I put off my work.Everyone, it seems, is changing.

Wu Tong didn't speak, but for the first time in so many years, there was a slight warmth in his heart.

Wu Tong's father was always smiling in the company.The past day and night have been the intimacy between father and son that has not been seen for a long time.Although Wu Tong still rarely talked to him, let alone smiled, he could feel that his son's attitude towards him was slowly changing bit by bit.

In the middle of the meeting, he suddenly felt his heart sink.Under the surprised eyes of other executives in the conference room, he hurried back to his office, frantically looking for the document in his briefcase, but he couldn't find it.Just when he was sweating coldly, he suddenly heard a familiar cold voice: "Are you looking for this?"

He turned his head, and it was Wu Tong who was standing at the door of the office, holding the document he was looking for - Ms. Jian Yaqing who died a week ago voluntarily donated □□yanjiaomo.

Jian Yaqing is the name of Wu Tong's mother.

From the discovery of the document to the way to his father's office, Wu Tong still held a glimmer of hope in his heart, hoping that all this was just a big oolong.Now seeing the scene of his father looking for something eagerly, the light of hope in Wu Tong's heart was completely shrouded by dark clouds.

The father and son looked at each other in silence for a long time.Wu Tong's father felt that his mouth was a little dry, after much deliberation, he finally spoke with great difficulty: "Wu Tong, I'm sorry I didn't tell you all this time."

The tone of Wu Tong's father makes Wu Tong feel dizzy, because this tone shows that this document is true, his mother... Wait, this is impossible, because his mother sent him an email a few days ago!

Dad said helplessly: "That was from me. I sent all the emails after she lost consciousness. I'm sorry!"

Wu Tong was silent for a while, and then broke out: "I'm sorry? Why did you do this? What happened to my mother? Why didn't you let me find her? If it wasn't for this document that I saw , are you going to hide it from me for the rest of your life?" Before he knew it, tears were streaming down his face.

"Wu Tong, I didn't mean to hide it from you, and the matter is not as simple as you think..." Wu Tong's father's explanation was interrupted by Wu Tong: "What's wrong with my mother?"

"Gross syndrome."

Wu Tong's heart seemed to be frozen by this strange and terrifying name. He clenched his fists and asked, "Why have you been hiding it from me, even not telling me the news of her death? What right do you have to impersonate her and make me look like a Waiting for her email every day like a fool? She is my mother, how can you not tell me about such a big thing?!" He angrily grabbed a vase beside him, smashed it on the ground, and then turned and knocked it away Secretary Wang, who was guarding the door, rushed out.

After Wu Tong was injured, he took a few days off from school. Qingcheng came to visit Wu Tong in his spare time, but unexpectedly, he was blocked by Wu Tong's closed door.

Qingcheng looked at Wu Tong's father, and asked puzzledly: "Uncle, what's the matter? Is Wu Tong seriously injured? If so, why didn't you go to the hospital?"

Facing his self-enclosed son and his daughter who cares about his son's family friends, Wu Tong's father revealed his feelings regardless of face, hoping to find a way to release Wu Tong.

I thought that Wu Tong was only injured physically, but he was also injured in his heart. After learning what happened, Qingcheng fell silent.And Uncle Wu said helplessly: "Wu Tong has locked himself at home for a whole day."

a whole day!How can this work?

Wu Tong's father said: "Actually, I have the key, but Wu Tong can't listen to what I say now." Qingcheng looked deeply towards the door, and Wu Tong's father noticed her subtle expression, and a glimmer of hope ignited in his heart : "Otherwise, Qingcheng, help me go in and talk to him?"

"is this OK?"

"You are his best friend, I think he should listen to what you say."

"Okay, I'll give it a try." Wu Tong's father took out the key and handed it to her.

She opened the door, only to see that the room was quiet and there was no movement at all.She called softly into the room: "Wu Tong?" There was a lonely figure curled up on the carpet beside the sofa.After hearing the voice, the figure moved, and it turned out to be Wu Tong.

Qingcheng walked over lightly, and then sat next to him. Seeing that he had no objection, he began to speak softly: "Wu Tong, I have already learned about your family. In fact, uncle and aunt did not divorce at all. She was already ill before going abroad, but she didn't want you to know, so she chose to leave with a fake divorce. She also asked her uncle not to tell you the truth."

Hearing that all this was his mother's decision, Wu Tong opened his closed eyes and listened carefully.

Qingcheng suppressed the slightly hoarse voice that had already started to be caused by tears, and continued: "Since the fake divorce, uncle has been very contradictory. On the one hand, auntie's condition is getting worse, on the other hand, you want to see auntie, but uncle has agreed. Auntie won’t tell you. Uncle tried his best, but in the end he couldn’t cure Auntie. After Auntie passed away, he always wanted to tell you the truth, but he never had the chance to speak.”

"Why does my mother keep it from me?" Wu Tong's voice sounded dull.

Hearing Wu Tong's reaction, Qingcheng quickly replied: "Also is a very terrible disease, Auntie doesn't want you to see her in such pain."

Looking at the back who fell into silence again, Qingcheng gently wiped away the tears on his face, and said calmly: "Wu Tong, I know you blame uncle for not telling you the real situation of auntie, but uncle is also very sad."

Wu Tong's voice suddenly rose, and he retorted hoarsely and harshly: "He didn't consider my feelings at all, he just couldn't open his mouth! He even pretended to be my mother and sent me emails..."

Thinking that when I read those fake emails, I still imagined my mother's healthy and happy appearance in my mind, but in fact my mother has been separated from me, Wu Tong couldn't stand it.

Qingcheng loves Wu Tong and can understand Uncle Wu's helplessness, but Wu Tong and Uncle Wu have been in a stalemate for several years, so she can only say: "I know you feel uncomfortable, but you still have injuries, remember to eat, no matter what , don’t let your body collapse.” After she finished speaking, she left with the same light footsteps.

Wu Tong didn't make any sound anymore, just hugged the old Walkman in his arms tightly.

Wu Tong's leave of absence expired, but he still didn't come to school. After learning the truth, Tao Xi sent him breakfast. He wanted to chat with Wu Tong, but he was turned away; Xiaosong, Qingcheng and Yin Ke brought dinner and a small pot of green potted plants; when it was dark, Wu Tong's father stayed outside, and Qingcheng also stood outside together for a long time.

But Wu Tong's door has never been opened.

Day after day passed, and Wu Tong still didn't open the door. There was more and more food outside the door. If this continued, his body would collapse.

Qingcheng couldn't care about anything else, took out the key given by Uncle Wu and opened the door.After opening the door, Wu Tong was leaning on the sofa, motionless, with tired eyes staring at the old Walkman in his hand from beginning to end.

"Wu Tong, Wu Tong." He shouted a few times, but Wu Tong didn't respond.Qingcheng walked up to him, knelt down in front of the sofa, and said sadly and earnestly: "Wu Tong, cheer up, stop torturing yourself, your body will not be able to take it anymore." After speaking, a tear fell from the corner of Qingcheng's eyes.

Wu Tong finally reacted, but he just glanced at Qingcheng, without even moving his head.

She wiped away her tears, Wu Tong spoke up, and he said weakly: "Why do you care about me?" Qingcheng's mood has not yet adjusted.He asked again: "Why do you want to control me?"

She choked back: "Because we're friends."

He turned his head to look at her wearily: "friend."

"That's right, friend, I never knew what it was like to be a friend before, and now I know it: when a friend is sad, I feel the same way, even 'on a higher level'"

Wu Tong OS: I don't deserve this from you...

She said with good intentions: "Wu Tong, I know nothing can comfort you at this time, but think about it, does Auntie want to see you like this? She hides you so well, just so that you can Live normally and happily."

He closed his eyes, and a painful voice came from deep in his throat: "Live normally and happily? Now when I think of my mother being tortured by illness, I was eating, drinking and having fun without knowing it, and I can't forgive myself , let alone forgive him!" He was referring to his father.

"I understand you, but if you think about it again, you don't eat, drink or sleep now, and your body is tossed and broken. Who will live a good life instead of your mother."

Wu Tong didn't want to listen anymore, he stood up, Qingcheng was a little surprised, and also stood up.But unexpectedly, Wu Tong used the strength of his tired body to push Qingcheng out bit by bit. Of course, Qingcheng can stop him, but Wu Tong's current state can't face him head-on.

He said: "Get out, don't bother me again, don't let me affect you." I don't want to see you sad for me, I don't want you to suffer the same pain as me, because I will feel more uncomfortable...

At the threshold, he pushed her with all his strength and locked the door behind him.There were steps outside the threshold, and Qingcheng didn't stand firm, and fell straight down, with bruises on her arms, and slight scratches on the back of her hands and ankles.

Wu Tong was startled, and was about to open the door, but he took his hand back, and walked into the house without hesitation from the corner of his eye.

A few more days passed, and some of the food at the door had started to stink.Ban Xiaosong couldn't stand it any longer, ignored Yin Ke's dissuasion, and knocked on the door excitedly: "Wu Tong, open the door! How long are you going to hide? We finally made it to the finals, the team needs you so much, Are you just hiding at home and being a shrinking turtle!"

Yin Ke hurriedly stopped him and advised, "Xiao Song, don't provoke him too much..."

Ban Xiaosong raised his voice: "Why did I provoke him? Isn't what I said the truth?" He stuck to the door and listened, but there was still no sound from inside, so he decided to increase his voice, "Wu Tong, it's a shame that I still thought you were That's great, but you're actually a coward!"

There seemed to be some movement inside the door, I don't know if it was his illusion.Ban Xiaosong made persistent efforts: "Wu Tong, if you don't come out again, you won't have any friends in the future! Wu Tong, I want to break up with you! And Yin Ke! If you don't come out today..."

At this time, the door opened, and Wu Tong stared at him expressionlessly.His appearance was unprecedented, his hair was disheveled, his face was sallow, there were thick dark circles under his eyes, and his clothes were wrinkled after wearing for a few days.

Yin Ke was stunned: "You...how did you make yourself like this?"

Ban Xiaosong's reaction was surprising, he stepped forward suddenly, punched Wu Tong in the face, and knocked Wu Tong to the ground.Wu Tong was not irritated by this punch, he wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth indifferently.

Ban Xiaosong looked at his look like the sky was falling and couldn't keep up his energy, and became more angry, and shouted: "Do you think your mother would like to see you now?! She went to great lengths to hide the illness, not to let You give up on yourself! You don’t go to school, you don’t eat, you don’t change your clothes now! When you look in the mirror, do you still look like a human being? Who are you worthy of?!”

Wu Tong sat on the ground motionless.Ban Xiaosong looked at him, feeling sad and disappointed, he didn't want to see Wu Tong like this again, so he turned around and strode away.Yin Ke called out "Xiaosong", but Ban Xiaosong's back quickly disappeared. He approached Wu Tong, put his hand on his shoulder, and said, "Wu Tong, Xiaosong is right. I understand you. I agree with you on this matter, really. Adults often make decisions for us in the name of protection, ignoring that those decisions may not be what we want. But, don't be alone in times like this , I, Xiaosong and Qingcheng will support you, trust us and rely on us, okay?"

Trust, Wu Tong remembered that not long ago, in the game against the Baijing team, Yin Ke compared himself with the secret signal of "trust back".In that game, I tried to trust my partners for the first time, and they finally defeated the Baijing team.

Wu Tong finally made a movement, he raised his head and leaned his body on the sofa behind him, his eyes were still tightly closed, no expression could be seen on his face.Yin Ke knew that Wu Tong still couldn't pass his father's test in his heart, but just like the relationship between himself and his mother, it took time, an open heart, and mutual understanding.After thinking about it, Yin Ke also left, leaving only a room of silence, leaving room for his friends to think.

After an unknown amount of time, Wu Tong finally moved. He bent down outside the door and took the potted plant away.

Wu Tong took the potted plant back to the house and looked at it.Looking at it so closely, it can be seen that it is no longer vigorous, the leaves are all wilted, and the soil has become dry and loose.Wu Tong thought about it, took a glass of water and watered it.

The potted plants that have been drenched in water suddenly regain their energy.At this time, someone came again—Tao Xi.The first thing Tao Xi said when he saw him was: "Have you been beaten?"

The whole world has changed, but the coach is still so nonsensical, which is good!Wu Tong opened the refrigerator, took out a bottle of ice water and poured it down his throat.

"Have you finally figured it out?" Wu Tong shook his head and threw himself on the sofa: "I will not forgive him."

Tao Xi was even more surprised: "Don't you know the real situation?"

Wu Tong said word by word: "Even if my mother asked him to hide it from me, he shouldn't pretend to be my mother and send me emails."

Wu Tong is unreasonably stubborn, and he is quite different from him who is more mature than his peers.Tao Xi became anxious: "Wu Tong, patients with ALS can't even move a finger at the advanced stage, so your father will send you those emails instead of your mother."

Wu Tong's eyes widened suddenly: "Why should he replace..." His words were interrupted loudly by Tao Xi: "Because he is your father!" Wu Tong was silent, only heard Tao Xi say, "He is your father, but I can only care about you in the tone of your mother! Take a good look at those emails. Is his concern for you fake? If he doesn’t love you and your mother, he will try his best to do these thankless things matter?"

Wu Tong was still speechless, Tao Xi pressed his shoulder and continued: "You feel pitiful for being kept in the dark, so isn't your dad pitiful? Have you thought about him from your dad's perspective? While he has to take care of your sick mother, he also tries his best to appease your emotions. What about his emotions? You can only resolve them yourself! Yes, Wu Tong, you are very sad that your mother is gone, but where is your father? Not only is he sad, but he also has to face your accusations. What you lost was your mother, but what he lost now is his wife and son, and he is more heartbroken than you!"

Wu Tong was stunned, he had never thought about it from this angle.When teenagers face adults, they sometimes acquiesce that the other party is an "iron man" in terms of strength and emotion, but they never think that the other party also grew up from a teenager and is also an ordinary person.

Tao Xiyu said earnestly: "You always feel that you are already an adult and a man, but a truly mature person will put himself in other people's shoes, not just yourself. You will only hurt your father's heart if you are so depressed. , even those of us who care about you are very sad, let alone your father! I believe that your mother will feel anxious and sad for you watching in heaven. The Wu Tong I know is not like this. He has ideals and Ambitious, responsible, responsible, where did that Wu Tong go?"

Speaking of this, Tao Xi stood up, and finally said: "I'm going first, think about it for yourself, remember to eat your meal. The baseball team is waiting for you, everyone has worked hard for so long, you really want to be here Give up at a critical moment?"

Tao Xi left.Wu Tong sat on the sofa alone, thinking about what he said.After a while, he stood up, walked into his room, turned on the computer, clicked on the inbox, and read the emails one by one.These recent ones should all be sent by my father after my mother lost consciousness, right?

"Wu Tong, remember to drink a glass of milk in the morning and evening."

"Wu Tong, how is the game going? Be careful not to get hurt."

"Wu Tong, have you grown taller recently? Mom misses you very much."

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The irony is that when he read these emails, he only felt his mother's tender care for him, and at the same time decided that his father was just a workaholic and would never be so considerate.Now he knows that these nagging instructions all come from the workaholic in his eyes, from the person who can't express his father's love face to face.Tao Xi was right, he lost his mother, but his father also lost his wife.At this moment, they both lost their loved ones at the same time.

When Wu Tong thought of this, Secretary Wang came, and he asked the other party to take him to the company.When they came to his father's office, the father and son were silent for a long time, and Wu Tong finally said, "Can I go to my mother's cemetery?"

Wu Tong's father was stunned for a moment, and immediately said: "Of course, I will pick you up on Saturday, and we will go together."

Wu Tong lowered his head, didn't speak any more, turned around and walked out.When he reached the door, he paused before continuing.No one saw that at the moment when his footsteps stopped, Wu Tong's mouth moved, as if he wanted to say something, but in the end he didn't say anything.

On Saturday, Wu Tong got into his father's car, and the car slowly drove towards the cemetery in the suburbs.Qingcheng also went there together. After all, the two families are family friends, and Wu Tong's mother also took good care of Qingcheng when she was a child.

On the way, his father looked at Wu Tong, hesitant to speak several times.After the car arrived at the cemetery, Wu Tong suddenly asked his father to wait, then turned around and walked back.

His father stood there puzzled, watching Wu Tong walk to a taxi that had just stopped, and knocked on the window.

Sitting inside were Ban Xiaosong and Yin Ke.Yin Ke asked a little embarrassedly: "You have discovered us a long time ago?"

"I found it at the second intersection from my house." After speaking, Wu Tong was ready to go back.

Ban Xiaosong looked at Wu Tong uneasily, and he returned to his usual expressionless appearance, completely unable to tell if he was still angry at the punch he punched him last time.Yin Ke pushed him, and he plucked up his courage and said to Wu Tong's back: "Wu Tong, in fact, I came today mainly to apologize to you. I shouldn't have hit you that day, so don't be angry."

Unexpectedly, Wu Tong stopped following his words, and said, "I'm not angry, it's me who should say I'm sorry. I came to see my mother today, if you want to see it, come in too."

Wu Tong's father was very pleased: at such a moment, his son was accompanied and comforted by the most sincere friend.Wu Tong's way of dealing with friendship and schoolwork also made him realize that Wu Tong has grown up a lot compared to a few years ago when his wife found out about his illness.In the past few years, my son has grown into a thoughtful and responsible person.He has some regrets. He could have shared and shared more with his son.

I don't know when the sky started to get gloomy, with dark clouds, as if he was also sad for this moment.On the tombstone, Wu Tong's mother has the same delicate oval face and eyes as him, with a warm and brilliant smile, exactly the same as Wu Tong's mother in memory.Maybe the mother made such a decision just to make herself always be like this in the memory of her son!

In order to completely conceal Wu Tong, Wu Tong's mother's funeral was held extremely simply, and Wu Tong's father quietly brought back her ashes from the United States and buried them here.Today, Wu Tong's father can finally unload the burden in his heart, and visit his wife and son's mother together with his son.

Ban Xiaosong and Yin Ke bowed to Wu Tong's mother and stepped aside.Qingcheng knelt in front of the tombstone, and after saying a few words, gave up the seat to Wu Tong.

Wu Tong looked at his mother's photo with red eyes, and said slowly: "Mom, I haven't seen you for a long time. I have grown so tall. If I stand by your side now, I will be a head taller than you." Right. I transferred from Central Canada to Chang County, and my studies have not regressed, and I am still playing baseball. Of course, I am still a pitcher. Although it is a brand new team, it has already reached the finals. The new school is very interesting, and I have met a few Good friends, they treat me very well. I have a good life, don't worry about me. By the way, I also participated in the dessert club. The cake I bake is delicious now. I will bake it for you someday Okay. Mom, I originally planned to visit you in the United States this summer vacation. If you see me, you will be very happy. People say that your son is very handsome, really..."

Qingcheng, Ban Xiaosong and Yin Ke's tears kept rolling in their eyes, Wu Tong finally couldn't help it, cried and knelt in front of his mother's grave, shouting that sentence from the bottom of his heart: "Mom, I miss you so much... "

Mom, I miss you so much, how I miss you growing up with me...