Disillusionment

The days were okay, but they went on.

Then one day, Ji Sui was kidnapped.

The cell door was roughly kicked open, and a bloody boy was thrown to the ground by several greasy middle-aged men.

The man in the lead looked around at the boys and girls kneeling and sitting around with their hands and feet bound, and laughed ferociously.

"Hehe, the quality inside is pretty good too. It's enough for the masters to have a good time, hehehehehehe!"

The boy was originally as quiet as a corpse, but when he heard the man's disgusting laughter, he suddenly twisted his body and struggled to get up.

no!Don't let their dirty hands touch those kids!

Be sure to stop them!

Even... even if you do that kind of thing in front of them, it doesn't matter...

And it's not the first time it's been seen by the people it least wants to be seen...

With the dim lights in the dungeon, those boys and girls recognized his appearance clearly. The boy who was tortured to the point of losing his human appearance turned out to be the one who was still in the sun a few days ago, smiling softly while smiling softly. Brother Ji Sui who gave them lectures in a soft voice, watched them fight, and listened to their gossip.Their elder brothers were covered with scars, and blood was splattering wantonly through the white shirts. They were so eye-catching, making the eyes of the boys and girls sting as if they were about to shed tears of blood.

Ji Sui supported the ground with one hand, and tightly held the man's trouser leg with the other, begging in a low voice with his head raised.

"Please let them go, I will take good care of you, you can ask me to do anything, I have received special training, I can make several adults happy! Please let them go!"

While talking, Ji Sui freed up one hand to quickly unbutton his shirt, while the other hand still held onto the man tightly.

Ji Sui opened his clothes, showing his perfectly curved collarbone, exposing his bruised but alluring chest.

Everyone present was so shocked that they couldn't speak. After a while, those men came back to their senses and swallowed their saliva belatedly.

"Brother Ji Sui...don't..."

"No! You bastards!"

They're already in high school, and they know what's coming.

"It's okay, don't be afraid, turn around, don't look."

Ji Suichong and the others smiled softly, his voice was as gentle and reassuring as ever.

He murmured "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid" in a low voice. He was obviously comforting others, but it seemed to be comforting himself.

The past flashed before his eyes like a tidal wave. He seemed to have returned to the hell that never saw the light of day. He was put on the shackles that pierced his joints, injected with drugs that made him unbearable, and was ridden by more than a dozen men. He covered his body, held disgusting things in his mouth, was penetrated by dirty things, and covered his face with sticky things.

He was so scared, so scared that he wanted to leave everything and run away, away from these people, away from this prison, and even away from this world.

But he dare not.Because once he ran away, those poor children would be left to suffer.They're still young, and they're still clean.He's been soiled himself, so he knows how it hurts, both physically and mentally.

Anyway, I'm already so dirty, I'm not afraid to get a little more dirty.

Just let yourself take it all on.

Turning back to the man, Ji Sui raised his head and put on a flattering smile.

"They don't know anything, and they definitely can't serve you well. I'll show you something interesting."

Ji Sui grabbed the man's waist and knelt up straight. His face slowly approached his body, and he skillfully opened the man's zipper with his teeth.

"Hey! Let's see what tricks you can do!"

"No, Brother Ji Sui!!"

The children's voices were already crying, and each call pierced Ji Sui's heart like a knife.

He can survive no matter how painful it is, but he doesn't want those children to see his most filthy side, they will despise him, hate him, he will lose them, and suddenly he will turn back to himself alone, become To become the loneliest self is the greatest torture for him.

But, that's a million times better than them being tortured.

Look no further.

do it.

"Ah! Ah! Ahhh! This, this little, little bitch, is really, really fierce!"

"Brother, please have fun first, I'll go over there to play with those students."

no!Don't touch the children!

Be sure to stop them!

"Uuuuuuu..."

Ji Sui was still working hard, but his hands grabbed the man's leg.

"What are you doing..."

Ji Sui took off his pants three times and five times, staring at the man with a pair of big eyes alluringly.

The man licked his lower lip.

"Yo, this is really cheap, I can't do it without you!"

"Well……"

Ji Sui let out a muffled snort when the man thrust in, but he quickly adjusted his state.

"Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!"

The two men were spitting out obscene language while fucking. These high school students were bound hands and feet so they couldn't plug their ears, so they could only close their eyes tightly not to look at the Shura field where they were supposed to be tortured.

"Hey hey hey! You're so cool, change me, change me!"

Another wave of release.

The pain as if his body was being torn apart gave Ji Sui a creepy sense of familiarity, and tears flowed down uncontrollably inadvertently.

That's right, at that time, my father and the others did the same.

Only they had inserted a thick red-hot steel needle into his penis from the tip, and another through his two pouches.

They were afraid that the liquid they left in his body would flow out, so they specially inserted the whole candle with the candle holder into his body.

The pain now is nothing compared to that time. Why did he cry at this level? Back then, no matter how tortured his father was, he stubbornly kept silent.

I have really lived a comfortable life for too long, and I even forgot what I am.

They took turns galloping on him, and when one was tired, another was replaced, and the next was tired, and the rest rested again.Ji Sui worked hard to cater to the wave after wave, accepting all the liquid they left behind, on his hair, on his face, in his mouth, on his chest, on his belly button, and on his thighs On, more, in his body.Ji Sui no longer remembers how much he swallowed, nor how much he accepted below.He only knew that his whole body was now covered with a layer of sticky liquid, his facial features and scars could hardly be discerned, and a disgusting stench filled his mouth.After every slight turning over, a mixture of fluids from more than a dozen people flowed out.

Ji Sui almost collapsed, but he was just lying on the cold ground and panting slightly.

This level is nothing at all.

Ji Sui turned his back to the children, quietly without any ups and downs, and couldn't see any expressions.

……I did it……

They...are not soiled...

So, come and save us...

Time passed by, and finally, the half-closed door was kicked open again, and Lian Zicheng rushed in with several people holding guns.A few people easily tied up the men who had collapsed and threw them outside, and the rest of them quickly helped the children untie them.

"Go and see if anyone is hurt!"

As soon as he heard the familiar voice, Ji Sui was so excited that he forgot his current state, endured the pain of his lower body being torn apart, and hurriedly propped himself up, as if he had grasped a life-saving straw, his eyes were shining with hope. To that man named Lian Zicheng.

"Zicheng..."

He held out his hand, waiting for him to pull him up as usual.

However, the moment Lian Zicheng heard the reputation and looked at Ji Sui, he was stunned, and then, having seen all kinds of internal organs and corpses before, he vomited out uncontrollably, and he didn't even have the courage to take a second look. Landing on the boy's body, he covered his mouth and ran out without looking back.

Is that his Ji Sui... Impossible, his boy, with such a clean smile, so sunny, so gentle, how could it be this filthy thing in front of him whose face can't be discerned!

Ji Sui was also stunned, the smile froze on his face.

He tremblingly looked towards the direction of the door, where the rescued children and the hunters who came to the rescue gathered. They were either disgusted, or frightened, or shocked. Jie's things got on them, and some even bypassed Ji Sui and ran out of the prison the moment they were rescued.

No one dared to step forward to pull him up until the whole rescue was over.

"He has just experienced that kind of thing, and now he may not be mentally stable. For his and our safety, let him calm down inside first, and then transfer."

This was the last and only sentence Lian Zicheng left to Ji Sui before the cell door was closed heavily and the heavy lock was fastened.

Ji Sui's outstretched hand was still hanging in the air, and there was a buzzing in his head.

"It's okay, we won't dislike you!"

"It's over! You're not dirty now! We won't be afraid~"

"You have to be confident, why do you always have low self-esteem, you are not dirty, you are our favorite brother Ji Sui!"

When he met those children for the first time, they comforted him like this, every word echoed in his ears, the tone was so firm, every word was so clear, like yesterday.

However, when they really saw how dirty they were, they completely forgot what they had said.

Sure enough, there should be no illusions from the very beginning.

Everyone loves to be clean.

No one can stand dirty garbage that smells rancid.

No one will accept themselves.

In this life, the world is so big, I am afraid that there will be nowhere to live,

Ji Sui laughed suddenly, until he choked, and laughed until he burst into tears.

Tired from crying, he put on his clothes silently, wiped off the sticky liquid on his face, moved his body slowly, turned his back to the outside, and sat down quietly leaning against the corner with his face facing the wall.

Can you give him a knife, let him dig out his brain and heart, let him cut open every major artery, let him die like this, even if he can't die, temporarily forget all this before the organs regenerate good.Even if it's only for a moment, let him experience the feeling of being carefree.

Why me, why me.

Why did I do so many things, but in exchange for such a result.

Can you go back to the beginning, back to that day, the day when he was a clean human being.Then he made a new choice. This time, he would not save his mother and younger brother, but he would not live alone either. He would die like that, forgetting all his troubles.Then reincarnate without any worries, and be a clean, ordinary human being.

Oh, don't expect too much.

Now I can't even die, let alone go back.

Fortunately, fortunately, the children are still clean, so it's worth it...

Zicheng, Zicheng said that he would pick him up when he calmed down, but until the end, he didn't come back to look at him again.

He didn't make trouble, he just cried a little.

Why didn't you come to pick him up?

He waited, waited, waited for a long time, and when he saw the figure again, it was already half a month later, but the researchers who came to pick him up were those researchers from the association.

When they came in, Ji Sui still maintained that posture facing the wall.Don't look at them, don't make any sound.

"You have never hurt anyone. It is a violation of the rules for us to lock you here. But you were once a member of the association after all. We hope you can help complete this experiment. After that, we will let you go and stop interfering any of your life."

"..."

"But the experimentation process might make you a little uncomfortable."

"..."

"We need to take all your organs."

Ji Sui still didn't speak.The air seemed to freeze.

"...Will I be completely free?"

"I promise."

"Come on, take whatever you want."

The more you take, the better, and the slower he recovers, the better.Let him forget everything, even if he is like a madman.

"..."

"You better take my life."

Two weeks later, Ji Sui, who had been disemboweled, was randomly thrown on the mountainside in the outskirts, without any measures to stop the bleeding, and without any sutures.Brain, eyes, viscera, spine, nothing remained but a pale skin sac of limbs and ribs.

For freedom, these are nothing.

Days, weeks, months, years, decades, what should grow will grow back.

For freedom, he can wait, no matter how painful the process is.

He has survived the past ten years, so what is he afraid of now.

He has nothing left to lose.