The little wolf dog who has a crush on him says he has broken up

At this moment.

Yao Zhen walked out of the hotel with his coat in hand. The rain had subsided, and the wind was blowing a few steps away, and the night was about to cool down.

Xiang Changning's heart is very quiet.

Walking in the rain with an umbrella, the wind blows a little bit cold, and the warm baby stubbornly exerts the heat on the old wound.

During the rainy Ching Ming season, at least he was the saddest among passers-by.

Rans, on the other hand, just ordered a high-strength mixed drink at the bar.

He walked to the corner alone with a wine glass in his hand.

The moment Li Yan, the person in charge of the personnel department, dialed the phone, her heart skipped a beat.

Ran Si's voice was sleepy: "Hello? You're still alive, you can't work, just talk about what you have, and listen to me if you don't have anything—"

Sure enough, the hunch was right, Rans was not normal today.

Li Yan, who worked overtime in such a big company, sighed, waved to the newly recruited secretary, "Get off work, I'll tell him."

The little secretary thanked the stars and said, "See you, Sister Li."

When he picked up the phone again, Ran Si's side was already out of control.

"Fuck|he|mom|why, am I not good to him? Is there anything you can't try? Heartbeat—"

Li Yan: "Mr. Ran, you are drunk."

"Get drunk, hang up if you don't listen to me."

After a long time, Li Yan sighed: "Why do you, Ran Si, this happens every year, is it because the new female secretary is not pretty or the woman you liked last time has small breasts, you say, I will improve it, and I will find it for you again." .”

There was also a pause on the other side. After a long time, Ran Si's voice was lonely: "Do you think I have drawn this in recent years?"

"Then what are you trying to do to Chang Ning, a doctor, good-looking, and then? Are you friends? I just broke up recently. If you like this kind of sadomasochistic relationship, let me try it with you. I also have Ccup!" Li Yan was going all out.

"...don't make trouble."

Rans: "I am, I am, I am upset!

"You said, he was so miserable back then, more than 20 and [-] yuan, I could afford it when I was young, so what if I just took care of it, is it worth it for him to sell a house in his hometown? Should I be together? I didn’t say that I fell in love with |bed|. Why can’t he figure it out..."

Li Yan despaired: "If you like miserable ones, I can find them for you..."

While Ran Si was sad, he said honestly, "You really are one of the top ten employees I've ever seen."

Sighing, pouring wine: "It's different, really, you didn't see him at that time.

"He found the cemetery for his parents. He also asked me about the feng shui direction. When the relatives were crying during the burial, he just stood there and waited for his parents to be cremated. When he was holding the urn, he had that expression on his face." What kind of ashes, I thought he was holding his life.

"His aunt is such a hypocritical person. She treats him as much as she treats her daughter in front of others, and she clings to her daughter in everything. When it comes to her daughter, she will buy everything. Any girl should be proud and dress beautifully. Changning will definitely not I will argue with my sister, it is better for boys to dress plainly, are they all stupid to be human? In the third year of high school, I was afraid that Xiang Changning would be a burden to his family.

"Recently, this woman really deserves everything she finds out. At the beginning, Xiang Changning's mother became a vegetable and lay in a hospital bed for a month. She said that people are going to die sooner or later. If you don't want to borrow money, let it go. She even came to tactfully persuade Xiang Changning Don't spend all your money, why think about the future? Is this what people can say?

"I went there a few times and thought we had something, and told Xiang Changning to take care of himself, fuck|he|damn|."

"Fortunately, he passed the competition in high school and won the first prize. Otherwise, he would not be able to pass the university entrance examination after half a year of rehabilitation."

"When he was most short of money in college, he didn't use what his aunt gave him. In order to make money, he didn't go to class to work as a tutor, and he didn't go to class to win the national award... Do you think the person I miss is particularly outstanding?"

Li Yan: ...

Li Yan really didn't know how to explain to her boss at the moment that it was impossible for Qinggao to bury his parents with "support" money.

but.

Li Yan said truthfully: "After going through all this and still being a doctor, he must be a very good person."

In addition to being excellent, how tough should it be?

Li Yan couldn't figure it out, nor could Rans find it out.

Unlike Ran Si's brilliant lights, Xiang Changning's side is quiet and lonely.

On rainy days, the rain hits the surface of the umbrella, and the ticking sound becomes clearer as the road goes further away.

It is not wrong to walk this road thousands of times when you are young.

Xiang Changning hasn't come for a long time.Along the way, the grievances and bitter memories of having walked this road emerged bit by bit.

Those uncontrollable memories whizzed and circled in his mind, like a blizzard, making Xiang Changning's chest heave and his heart palpitations could not be calmed down.

It was as if ten years had passed backwards on him, and he became that newly bereaved boy again, with severe waist discomfort every day, enduring the sympathetic gazes of strangers around him.

Others praised him for his tenacity and strength.

Only he knows how many times it collapsed inside, and how many times it was forcibly put together by himself.

He bypassed the closed gate, turned to the small side door, and pushed Chang Ning lightly, but it was still unlocked.

Xiang Changning walked through the side door, walked all the way along the alleyway, and after a turn, the space suddenly opened up.

The moonlight dimly sprinkled in this vast world.

The sound of water droplets hitting the umbrella surface disappeared, and the rain stopped.

He retracted the umbrella to Changning, and his sight suddenly widened as the umbrella was retracted.

You can see more clearly, row after row in front of you.

There are high and low, all of which are tombstones.

This is the cemetery where he came in the evening.

The urn of his parents is placed.

Only people in Qianfeng County know that the side door is not locked, and outsiders cannot enter at night, but locals can.

Xiang Changning's footsteps were as heavy as if he was dragging. He walked up to the two gray stone tablets with a deep foot and a shallow foot, and stopped.

Xiang Changning stopped as if frozen.

For a long time, the movement was not smooth and the raindrops on the umbrella were shaken.

The only voice in the open space was hoarse: "It's been ten years, and this year I came back to see you.

"dad"

"mom"

Yao Zhen asked a lot of people on the road, the mobile phone map was not accurate for the location of the small place, and he could barely distinguish along the road to find it. Yao Zhen is not afraid of ghost movies, nor is he afraid of clean places.

Xiang Changning only agreed with Ran Si's joke, but he wrote it down at that time.

No one answered the phone, they left it at the hotel, and Ran Si didn't reply to Yao Zhen.

Presumably calling Rans wouldn't tell him anything.

Yao Zhen just had a strong intuition, and he went there.

There was nothing to make the angry and uncomfortable Xiang Changning run out.

Unless, that's why he came back here.

The rain had stopped on the road, but the wind was getting stronger.

Yao Zhen turned around to find the side and turned in.

As soon as I turned out of the alleyway, I saw the vastness of the sky and the moon like a bow, and the rows of tombstones came into view, which was shocking.

Shocked at the same time, gave birth to two points of awe.

Yao Zhen didn't take a few steps, and bumped into Xiang Changning who was standing An Ran.

Xiang Changning was so quiet that he almost blended into the background.

Ever since Yao Zhen appeared, Xiang Changning had been looking at him, watching Yao Zhen carefully enter the mausoleum area, carefully choose the route to go in, and then raised his head unexpectedly, and bumped into him.

The young man's eyes are clear, even though the lights are dim, only a layer of hazy moonlight and distant lights are left as illumination, Xiang Changning can still imagine the little stars in those smiling eyes.

"Second brother?" Yao Zhen said softly.

After a while, he nodded to Chang Ning: "It's me."

Xiang Changning: "Why are you here?"

"Tsing Ming Festival will cool down a large area tonight. I didn't remind you before I left, so I wanted to find you."

"and then?"

"Then, I'll give you a piece of clothing."

After hearing this, Xiang Changning looked at Yao Zhen expressionlessly, and neither of them spoke for a while.

Being looked at by Xiang Changning like this, Yao Zhen was a little nervous.

And Xiang Changning seemed to be a little stunned, and nodded slowly: "Then bring it, I will wear it."

"Um"

It was a thick jacket with a zipper, and Xiang Changning felt wrong when he put it on: "This is not my clothes."

Yao Zhen put the umbrella on the ground, stretched out his hand to help him align the zipper buckle, clicked, and the latch was inserted.

Yao Zhen pulled up the zipper smoothly and said, "It's my clothes."

The zipper was pulled down to the collarbone, and as Yao Zhen looked up, the two of them were naturally very close to each other and their eyes met.

Yao Zhen could clearly see Xiang Changning's calm indifference.

Xiang Changning could see him blinking unnaturally fast.

Stretching out his hand to Changning, he grasped the wrist of Yao Zhen's hand that was still holding the zipper with five fingers.

Skin to skin, the body temperature of the two people is very different.

Xiang Changning's voice was already hoarse, and he couldn't tell the difference at the moment: "Why don't you take my clothes?"

Yao Zhen took a tight breath, looked deeply at Chang Ning, and said word by word: "I don't know what kind of clothes you have, I'm taller than you, you're sure I can wear them," with a bit of vibrato inexplicably, " can wear."

Xiang Changning didn't speak again.

Looking at each other, Yao Zhenhua fell silent and pursed his lips lightly.

As for Xiang Changning's subordinates, the pulse of the wrist they accidentally pressed was beating violently, and Xiang Changning couldn't tell for a moment which of the two of them had a more abnormal heartbeat.

For a few minutes, Xiang Changning didn't move, and Yao Zhen didn't look away, as if he wanted to let Xiang Changning see clearly, from his face, from his eyes, into his heart, to see him... suddenly A beating restless heart.

Xiang Changning slowly let go of his hand, Yao Zhen took a step back, and the two of them drew too close a distance.

When Xiang Changning was confused and confused,

From Yao Zhen's cautious retreat, he suddenly became transparent again.

So transparent... His mind was rolling and he couldn't help but open his eyes.

There was silence for a while.

Xiang Changning turned to face the tombstone, with a complicated look on his face, and suddenly asked, "Do you think I'm pitiful?"

The answer I got was gentle: "Can it be a distressed emotion?"

There is no questioning tone in the question.

Like the most meticulous ironing post, it melts Xiang Changning's pain and bitterness in an instant.

Xiang Changning frowned deeply, closed his eyes, let his heart say slowly and calmly:

"Actually, there were times when I didn't want to live."

"For a while, I didn't know why I wanted to live, and I was holding on for someone to see. If I couldn't cry, I felt empty and nothing was interesting. My body hurt every day. I didn't know if I would be able to walk in the future. But I'm not afraid, I just don't know, what's the point of trying to survive every day.

"I come here a lot and complain about them.

"Blame them for not taking me with them.

"Complaining is not resentful of Ren Li's eccentricity.

"I did prepare to commit suicide, and it was all done once and for all.

"But I made a phone call before I died, and I still want to hear the voice I like.

"That person didn't know what I had experienced in a short period of time. We talked about death as the most distant thing, about the emotions of reluctance, and about all kinds of helplessness."

"Then he told me that the writer had written: death is not the opposite of life, but a part of life that lasts forever. The dead will live on in our memories, and when we die, when these memories are scattered and no one talks about them, The dead are completely gone.

"Then I figured it out, my life is the trace of my parents' life

"If I die too, they will completely disappear between heaven and earth.

"So I couldn't bear to die again."

Xiang Changning turned his head to look at Yao Zhen with serious and persistent eyes.

"Many years later, I read a line in a poem that I thought was very apt to describe him.

"It belonged to Tagore.

"'Let me imagine that, among the stars, there is a star that guides my life through the unknown darkness.'"

Slowly but calmly, Yao Zhen heard Xiang Changning's voice say:

"I think he is just such a star to me."