dream winter

In the following days, Yang Han never came again. Watching TV news, he went back to Linhai City to host the Shengyun Group's major events, while Meng Dongchu was immersed in the casino.The chips in his hand changed batch after batch, and he went down from one gaming table to another, and the right hand that won with his left hand was sold out again. He smoked one by one, and his eyes gradually became sinking.

Meng Dongchu was spoiled by Zhang Peng and other rich second generations when he was in high school.He hadn't gambled money before that, good boy.

During that time, he was extremely irritable.There is no peace at home, and there is no peace in school.Because of his excellent grades, Meng Rui wanted to train him with nonsense, but his stepmother and uncle made Meng Dongchu unhappy everywhere, and the class monitor at school pushed him out. At the same time, Song Yuan would even pretend not to know him in front of everyone, which also made him uncomfortable.

He is a sensitive and thoughtful person, he keeps everything in his heart, and does not feel uncomfortable when he thinks about anything. When gambling, he can let go of all these things, focus on one card, win or lose a game, and the adrenaline will rise sharply The feeling makes people feel happy and forgets their troubles.During that time, he was obsessed with casinos every day, but Song Yuan's brave performance later brought him back.After that, he separated from Song Yuan, and after returning to China, he often went to the casino and was photographed by the media many times.

He put the chips on the gaming table, breathed a sigh of relief slowly, drank alcohol, rubbed his hair, and didn't think about those things.

Finding something to numb your nerves is a consistent choice.

After seeing his mother, he especially thought about going to be sad once in a serious way, find a place where no one is disturbed, and be completely soft and fragile, but things keep happening.

In the beginning, he accepted a TV series to be acted in, and he was absent from the opening conference for no reason. The media reported that he was blacked out, saying that he was playing a big game, asking a high price, not answering dozens of calls, and not professional. etc.The next day the film studio announced the replacement of actors.In fact, Meng Dongchu and the others were notified the next day, and he did not show up, nor did anyone call them.For a while, drafts were flying all over the sky. Meng Dongchu is a popular actor. Some time ago, the topic was so high, the popularity of the public is still there, and there are many fans of passers-by.All of a sudden, gossip forums and microblogs were hotly discussed, and passersby turned black, asking for clarification, and pretending to be industry gossips everywhere.There is no professional team, no connections, and it is impossible to control these comments on the Internet. Even if Meng Dongchu immediately posted a clarification on Weibo, the underground is full of disbelief and abuse.It's more of a fight between his fans and Hei.It is said that it was also on the topic list.

Meng Dongchu put all his chips on the table, took a puff of cigarettes, and waited for the croupier to deal the cards with half-closed eyes.

During this time, he especially wanted to recall all the painful things together and think clearly before breaking up.How could it be that easy, he often got angry or had nowhere to go in the workplace, and thinking about what he had experienced made him even more flustered, and he turned around and pushed open the door of the casino.

Panicked, anxious, restless.

Need to prod, scream, numb the nerves to resolve.

He is full of great fear.The shadow of childhood is lingering, the unstable and uncontrollable life in his eyes is like sailing in a stormy sea, which makes him helpless, panic and fear follow him everywhere, and his sense of insecurity almost overturns his life He is dragged into a vortex.

There was a secure opportunity before him, he could dock, he could anchor.But what he thought at this moment was, I don't want to.I'd be better off at sea.

In this life, he only has himself left.He can't even lose this.

After that incident, it was more difficult to talk about work than before.Before, because he was Meng Dongchu, he was easy to talk about and treated each other with enthusiasm, but he couldn't get along with him, and he didn't turn against you, and he made some good-sounding excuses.

Afterwards, some people didn’t want to see Meng Dongchu at all. The scariest thing was that some jobs had to be finalized and were delayed for a long time. After work, someone came to tell him that this opportunity was given to others, and this happened more and more. Meng Dongchu didn't receive any decent job for more than a month.

One after another, some people made trouble, and it was probably seen that someone was trying to punish Meng Dongchu, and took the opportunity to punish him, so that Xiaosheng from his company would be promoted.It became popular before, and the incidents of not cooperating with work were brought up one by one.

In this circle, it is easy to make a person popular, and it takes a few minutes to make someone popular overnight. No job, no exposure, it is fatal for a star.

The number of times he went to and from the casino became more and more frequent, and he often lost tens of thousands, hundreds of thousands, or even more than 100 million a night... The more he lost, the more he wanted to make money.

— with half-closed eyes, the lights of the casino, the intricate game of cards, and the looming figures seemed to spin, spin, spin.What a world it is here.

This is his sanctuary, with noisy voices, ecstasy, too exciting, too intoxicating, very good, let Meng Dongchu know that in the dark, there are still people walking with him, blindly stumbling forward, It doesn't matter whether the family is bankrupt or the wife and children are separated.

On this day, Ah Leng also accompanied him in the casino. He has no job recently and has been hanging out with Meng Dongchu.

Meng Dongchu was tired from playing, so he walked up to him, ordered a glass of wine, and sat down beside him.

Ah Leng moved away from the smoky Meng Dongchu in disgust: "How much did you lose?"

"10,000+. Go win it in the next game." Meng Dongchu said very high. "How can you be sure to ask me how much I lost? I can see it."

Seeing your unlucky face, Ah Leng slandered, wondering where his excitement came from: "You might as well lend me the money and let me pay a down payment."

"Didn't save any money in these years?"

"Money? I don't have a job anymore. Where can I get the money?"

"What? Did the company not sign you?"

"The contract expires and I haven't become popular yet. How can they want me? I'm already so old. If they want me again, they might as well sign Xiao Xianrou. They can't keep a few shows in hand. The newcomers are fierce. .”

Meng Dongchu nodded, no wonder Ah Leng was so idle.

"These days, you stay here and squander money, and I'm looking for ways to make money. I can't help it. I'm not as high as your realm. My realm is probably what you despise. If I were you, Yang Han came so suddenly , I probably just rolled back, I can’t help it, I’m so poor.” Ah Leng swallowed his wine.

Meng Dongchu was dizzy, but he smiled.

"Of course I'm not joking about your aloofness. I actually admire you a lot, you are a man!" Ah Leng said, "I just did it to you, I can't do it."

"I said, how about you being my agent now? I'll pay you when the time comes. You can leave after you find a good job."

Ah Leng felt that Meng Dongchu was very gentle when he said this. "Good! You said it."

Meng Dongchu nodded, then turned to the VIP room.Ah Leng covered his face, it was a big loss to go there.For a second, he realized the responsibility of his manager, stood up and wanted to persuade him to come back, only to realize that he seemed to be too drunk to walk, and in a trance, he saw a sneaky figure, blinking It was gone, he thought he was dazzled and didn't care.

The next morning, Ah Leng was swiping his phone while having breakfast, and almost choked when he saw the news that "the popular movie star Meng Moumou lingered in the casino and lost millions in one night".

They were very careful, and the privacy of that place was relatively high, so they didn't expect it to be exposed.

Meng Dongchu just came out: "What are you looking at? Can you choke after eating breakfast?"

Ah Leng covered his mouth, and held out the phone in front of him to show him.

Meng Dongchu glanced at it: "Well, I was often photographed when I was in Linhai City."

"Brother Meng, you've been keeping a low profile in the Mainland for the past few years. You haven't had sex for a long time. It's devastating to have this broke out at this time." A Leng said, "I said, these recent things are caused by Yang Han. What did you do? Destroying people’s image doesn’t leave a way out.” There are many unspoken rules in the showbiz for alcoholism, gambling, and drug use, and those that really break out must be designed by someone.

"Otherwise, who else do you think?" Meng Dongchu laughed sarcastically, "He wants me to go back and do whatever it takes to achieve his goal. It's nothing to ruin my image."

It's not like he hasn't seen this battle before, and Meng Chengrui tried his best to get him back to the Meng family.When does he lower his head.

"What are you going to do?" Allen said.

"You are my manager, what do you think?" Meng Dongchu sat down to have breakfast.

Hey, that's a job for myself.A Leng studied the photos carefully: "The time and place of the news is not clear, and this photo is not clear. You can't see the environment clearly, and the surrounding environment is barely discernible. Your shadow is taken so that your parents can't even see it." I know. Just say that someone blackmailed you, but that person is not you."

"Yo, you still look decent." Meng Dongchu didn't expect Ah Leng to really look like he was going to be a manager.

"I asked my junior to write a draft, and the media will publish it. I may need some money to manage it. Please ask for some navy or something." Ah Leng has entered the broker mode, asking for money.

When Meng Dongchu heard that he was about to take the wallet, he hesitated for a moment and put it back.

"You think that Yang Han made you earn that money, you would rather spend it on gambling, but you don't want to use him seriously, and think that you are still relying on Yang Han if you use it?" Ah Leng became sharp.

Meng Dongchu nodded.

"I said big brother..." Ah Leng felt hopeless, why didn't he realize that Meng Dongchu is such a white lotus person. "Are you sick."

Speaking of which, Ah Leng grabbed the bank card with his hands, grabbed the bank card from Meng Dongchu's hand, and immediately packed his bag and went out.

"Hey!"

"Put away your principles. Now this money can put out fires even if it doesn't put them out. At most, you can remember how much you spent. If you make money later, you can come in." Ah Leng said, took the bag and left.

Ah Leng left, the room was suddenly quiet, Meng Dongchu gave up and left the half-eaten sandwich, his stomach hurt badly.

In fact, he saw the news last night.Forums, post bars, and Weibo can all be seen discussing his most recent posts.Some people have already noticed that he has recently exposed a series of sexual assaults, pointing out that he seems to have offended people, and fans are trying to find loopholes in the revelations and help him argue with the gangsters.Then someone picked up on the old news about Meng Dongchu in Linhai City, accusing him of loving young models, hanging out in nightclubs and casinos, and even taking drugs, so that people would open their eyes to see what kind of person he is.For a while, Meng Dongchu was once again pushed to the forefront of public opinion. "He's just an illegitimate child, his mother can be a mistress, and he's not much better." "Has the times changed now? It's fashionable to take promiscuity." "Don't wash it, it won't be white." "Don't take it Acting is something to talk about, isn't this a matter of principle?" His Weibo became a mess again.

He buried his head under his hands, and heard his deep and shallow breathing becoming more and more clear.He overestimated his endurance.He thought he could still deal with Yang Han the same way he dealt with his father's suppression back then.

Audition occasion.

With a sound of "dong", Meng Dongchu abruptly knelt down heavily.

"You human beings..." Meng Dongchu lowered his head and chuckled, panting, "Hehehe..." His shoulders shook slightly, he whimpered a few times, and then it turned into a chuckle, as light as a feather.She raised her head slowly, with tears in her eyes, but her smile became even more arrogant.He himself has the appearance of a teenager, with a pure face, and at this moment, there is a strange beauty. "He talks about wanting to get better, but he refuses to pay even a little price. And I will pay the price."

As he spoke, he raised the gun and aimed it at his temple.He opened his eyes, big and dark, with tears in his eyes, showing a trace of fear and cowardice, but he tried to open his eyes wide and pulled the trigger.

"Boom!—"

He plays the ultimate boss, Teenage Killer, and this is his last scene before committing suicide.

"Crackling" applause sounded, and the director who disliked Meng Dongchu was the first to stand up.Meng Dongchu slowly got up from the ground.

I felt like I was walking blindly for a while.

Seeking death yourself.

It's such a good feeling to be depraved.

This kind of person enjoys the joy of depravity while desperately trying to survive, pretending to be optimistic and enthusiastic, torturing himself with a pain in the head, feeling that he is walking two ways alone, and there is no end and a dead end at any time.

On top of desperation, walk happily.

It's like he really tried hard in the end, forcing himself to show his true feelings, and the index finger that pulled the trigger of the fake gun still hurt at the end of the performance.

But happy.

The last "bang" made people feel relaxed for no reason.