Acknowledge

It must stop, even Ji Jiuxia said so.

It turned out that he didn't dare to face it. This distorted mentality was already so obvious to others.

He really... really had thoughts about Gu Xiaomeng that he shouldn't have, he didn't want to, not at all!

But... But he has been looking at Gu Xiao like this for more than ten years, how would he know when he was wrong?He doesn't even know, how can he change it?

No wonder, no wonder he likes Gu Xiao approaching, gets tired of Gu Xiao forcing him to find a girlfriend, doesn't like Zhao Qingqing...he likes Gu Xiao...

The abnormal kind of liking...

Tears filled his eyes unconsciously, he looked at Ji Jiuxia in panic, and asked at a loss: "Ji Jiuxia, I don't know what to do...I know it's wrong, but...I don't know what to do... You teach me... woo...you teach me..."

Ji Jiuxia gently helped him wipe away the tears all over his face, hugged him distressedly into his arms, and comforted him softly: "Don't be afraid, don't be afraid... Gu Xiao may not understand, as long as you don't say it, you will always fade away." Okay, you just need to think about your life goals, you know?"

"Hmm... um..." Gu Xi nodded again and again. In this matter, he had no one to talk to, no one to rely on, and he was still at a loss when he thought about it. He could only trust Ji Jiuxia.And no matter whether Ji Jiuxia is just comforting him or not, he still needs a support to get through this hurdle, otherwise he will not get through.

In the quiet air, only Gu Xi's deep and shallow sobs remained, and Ji Jiuxia didn't say anything unnecessary, just hugged him quietly.

Suddenly, there was a violent "salsa" sound from the grass beside me, and a white mass broke into sight.Then came a familiar female voice, "Nian Gao, come back soon!"

Before he realized that he was about to leave Ji Jiuxia's arms, Zhao Qingqing was already staring blankly at Gu Xi and Ji Jiuxia who were hugging each other, and then another person ran up, Liu Ning, looking at them both with the same ashen face. I don't know where I went.

"Gu...you, you guys..." Zhao Qingqing spit out words in surprise.

Gu Xi quickly jumped away from Ji Jiuxia's arms with a guilty conscience, and looked at the two of them awkwardly, but he couldn't think of any excuse for a while, hugging each other in the holy place of tryst at night, what other possibilities could there be?

Finally, Zhao Qingqing pulled Liu Ning: "Let's go find rice cakes quickly, and we will go find Xiaoxiao later."

Liu Ning glared at Gu Xi, and followed Zhao Qingqing to the depths of the path.

Gu Xi's head exploded into a mess, and he was a little ashamed. He was afraid that Zhao Qingqing would tell Gu Xiao, what would Gu Xiao think of him if he found out, would he be disgusted by Gu Xiao for his previous actions, and would he be disgusted by Gu Xiao again in the future? Xiao hated it, Gu Xiao finally admitted him.

He is still reluctant, he is not ready to leave Gu Xiao...

Suddenly he was patted twice on the shoulder, and Ji Jiuxia assured him, "She won't tell Gu Xiao."

"Really?" Gu Xi trembled.

"Believe me, she doesn't want Gu Xiao to know more than anyone else...you might like Gu Xiao."

With Ji Jiuxia's affirmation, Gu Xicai heaved a sigh of relief.

When the tears on his face were almost gone, Gu Xi walked slowly back to the dormitory. He made up his mind that if Liu Ning asked anything, he would confess to him.

Before reaching the dormitory, Gu Xi saw Liu Ning looking out with his elbows on the fence at the top of the stairs. He walked over silently, like a child pleading guilty, "... Liu Ning."

Liu Ning looked at him with a sullen face, "Let me just ask, are you?"

"No." Gu Xi said with certainty.

"My father married my mother and had me just to be with another man. Then he didn't even save face and ran away with that man. I was only 10 years old at that time! My mother was forced by him Suffering from depression, I haven’t recovered yet, how good my home used to be, it was ruined by gays! So I hate gays, you know!? This time I believe you, but if one day I find out that you are, this dormitory , with you and without me.” When he came back from G University, he happened to run into Zhao Qingqing, Zhao Qingqing knew Xu Qian, and when he heard that he and Gu Xi shared a dormitory, he followed him to F University, because Gu Xiao came to F University.

Silently following Liu Ning to the dormitory, Gu Xi was surprised to see someone who he thought had left with his girlfriend, and when that person saw him come back, he complained unhappily: "It's too late, I wanted to I'm going out to play with you!"

Gu Xi couldn't clean up his emotions for a while, so he could only ask Gu Xiao with an unprepared expression: "Why do you come here when you have time, don't you want to accompany Zhao Qingqing?"

"I can't stand being with her all day long. She came here to find me just now, which shocked me." Gu Xiao pretended to be in shock, "Later, I said that I would celebrate your achievements and let her gone back."

Gu Xi put the backpack away, poured a glass of water to drink, and said, "Actually, you should go back with her, so I came all the way to find you."

"If the girlfriend wants to love my brother, then she doesn't have to?" Gu Xiao asked amusedly, and took out a small wooden box from his pocket, "A gift."

It would be a lie to say that there is no surprise, it was the first time Gu Xiao gave him a gift, and it made him so happy that it felt unreal.

He took the small wooden box carefully, Zheng Jianqi also ran over excitedly, curious to see what Gu Xiao sent, and kept urging Gu Xi to open it quickly.

It was a transparent glass-like house, and every piece of colorful and delicate furniture inside could be moved, but in order to prevent them from being in a mess, Gu Xiao did not know what kind of transparent thing was used to hold it down so that they could all be moved. Can stay in place.

"It's so beautiful, Gu Xiao, where did you buy it?" Zheng Jianqi asked excitedly, but Gu Xiao didn't answer him, just looked at Gu Xi quietly.

Gu Xi's eyes were clouded uncontrollably. He didn't buy it, and he couldn't buy it anywhere.Because these little things that are so familiar are their home.

After holding back bitterly for a long time, Gu Xicai asked Gu Xiao without choking up, "You did it?"

"That's right." Gu Xiao looked at Gu Xi as if asking for credit, "During this time, the girls in the class liked to play glue, and I followed suit when I was curious. I originally wanted to wait for your birthday to give it to you, but I didn't expect it to be so soon. It’s done, just in time for your defense to end, so let’s treat it as a celebration gift.”

"Gu Xiao, you are amazing, thank you for having the patience to make this thing! Such a small one..." Zheng Jianqi sighed, "Hey, do you really not think about my sister?"

"Otherwise, you can ask Qingqing, if she wants to break up, I will consider your sister." Gu Xiao said.

Zheng Jianqi pouted at Gu Xiao, let out a "hum" like a tantrum, and went back to his seat to find Zhang Hang to continue playing games.

Gu Xi carefully put the lid on the small wooden box, and put it on the cabinet in an upright manner. In order to prevent it from being dropped when taking things, he even pushed it in.

Gu Xiao couldn't understand, so he asked him: "Why hide there, don't you like it?"

Gu Xi smiled lightly, and answered him: "I like it very much, so keep it well."

"If you put it away, you won't be able to see it, what logic?" In Gu Xiao's view, it is completely meaningless to put this kind of thing for setting the scene away.

Gu Xiao stayed overnight as a matter of course, and hugged Gu Xi to sleep as usual, but Gu Xi was not so nervous anymore.Once you choose not to avoid those things that make you anxious all day long, you can no longer be afraid.Since you can't avoid it, it might be better to face it calmly. At least the pain in the clear is calmer than the struggle in the hazy. As long as you don't go crazy, you can control yourself.

Ji Jiuxia is right, it must stop, Gu Xiao doesn't know it, but he can't pretend he doesn't know it either.Even if they took [-] steps back, they would not be able to get there.

Gently covering Gu Xiao's hand on his waist with his palm, Gu Xi leaned in front of Gu Xiao, it was the first time he dared to indulge his thoughts, he told himself that this was the last time.

Gu Xiao put his head to his ear, rubbed it lightly, and finally found a comfortable position, slept there, breathing lightly and shallowly.Knowing that he was still asleep, Gu Xi turned his face to his side, his foreheads were almost touching, and his loose bangs were already tangled into a mess.

"Gu Xiao, thank you, I like it very much, I really like it..." In order not to let the other roommates hear, Gu Xi said softly, tears welling up in his eyes again.

"Don't say thank you." Gu Xiao moved his head forward, and his forehead touched Gu Xi's, "Sleep."

Gu Xi couldn't help laughing, but he didn't dare to make a sound, he could only turn over with a grin, and squeezed into Gu Xiao's arms, and Gu Xiao also opened his arms to let him penetrate.

This time is fine, let him rest in Gu Xiao's arms with peace of mind.

The intertwined breath is sweet, hot and crisp.

Doing these things after facing up to your heart is both sweet and painful, but even if you eat a stomach full of bitter dregs, you still want to taste a little bit of honey.

At that time, I wanted to just sleep on this little bit of honey, but the other person got up suddenly, pulled him up, got out of bed hurriedly, and dragged him out of the dormitory without any explanation.

"Gu Xiao?" Gu Xi was puzzled.

There was no response, and the dark corridor was unbelievably quiet. When he reached the corner of the stairs, Gu Xiao pressed him against the wall forcefully, kissed him heavily as soon as he lowered his head, and frantically plundered his breath like a wild beast.He was just taken aback for a moment, but he didn't refuse, and obediently endured Gu Xiao's desire.

He can see himself clearly, so he naturally knows that Gu Xiao's impulse towards him is not simply the idea of ​​"trying it out" or "playing around", let alone the absurd words Gu Xiao gave him before. Can't tell.He doesn't know how far this feeling has developed in Gu Xiao's heart, but he believes that it can still be obliterated.

Like Ji Jiuxia said, Gu Xiao might not understand it, he might think it was just for fun, or he might have been deceived by his own rhetoric, in short, as long as this layer of paper is still there, they can turn back.

He thought that all he could do at that time was try not to get close to Gu Xiao, try not to let Gu Xiao think in the wrong direction.

He thought that Gu Xiao was different from him, that Gu Xiao had a girlfriend and a thread that could hold him.

He thought that one day, Gu Xiao would be able to forget these erratic thoughts and walk the right path.