Acknowledge

Gu Xi buried his face in the pillow hard, thinking about the sadness of these years, and once again tried his best to sort out the entanglement between him and Gu Xiao. He wanted to find a way to make each other less painful, but he couldn't find it no matter what.

How can I face Gu Xiao when I wake up tomorrow morning, I have been tortured by longing for so many years, how can I be as cruel as before, but if they are not cruel, what can they do...

Early the next morning, Gu Xiao didn't get up until Gu Xi was about to finish cooking the noodles. After washing up, he sat down slowly at the table to eat noodles with Gu Xi.

Gu Xi waited silently for Gu Xiao's reprimand, but unexpectedly, Gu Xiao neither turned cold nor lost his temper, instead he said some unashamed words as usual, occasionally touching Gu Xi.But the more Gu Xiao was like this, the more his heart became more and more frightened, and he always felt that Gu Xiao's not being angry was more terrifying than being angry.

After breakfast, Gu Xiao cleaned up the guest room by himself, and Gu Xi stood far outside the door watching him busy, feeling extremely uncomfortable.

Gu Xiao tidied up, glanced at the person outside the door out of the corner of his eye, and beckoned to him. When he stood in front of her with a look of self-blame for something wrong, Gu Xiao held his face and kissed him. "I don't blame you. I was too anxious. I ignored you and had your considerations. I couldn't accept it all at once. So in the future, let's take our time. I won't mess around until you really want it, okay? "

Gu Xi seemed a little moved, and nodded slightly with his lips pursed.

Gu Xiao's heart moved, and he pressed a kiss on his forehead.

"Then I'm going to work." Gu Xi said.

"Well, come back soon."

With Gu Xiao's guarantee, Gu Xi's restraint became much less, and he no longer resisted Gu Xiao's approach so much. He didn't hide when Gu Xiao hugged him, but just continued with the matter at hand, and sometimes even actively adjusted his posture. Make it easier for Gu Xiao to hug.Gu Xiao was overjoyed by this, but at the same time couldn't help but feel ashamed. It turned out that since his return to now, Gu Xi has always suspected that he was plotting wrongdoing, and thought that every time he approached, he had malicious intentions.Well, although his intentions were not pure.

But seeing that Gu Xi is about to take his annual vacation, half of the cohabitation honeymoon he planned before returning to China, and Gu Xi is still tepid, and there is still a light bulb that sticks to Gu Xi all the time Now, even if he wants to take the opportunity to go too far.Gu Xi didn't want to make it public, and he was restricted everywhere when he returned home. What should I do...

The first step is to get rid of the light bulb first!

This morning, Gu Xi had already gone to work, Gu Xiao pinched the child's face, and discussed with him, "Silly, do you miss your father?"

"Think about it!" the child shouted excitedly, and then his expression became a little tangled, "But Uncle Ji said that I should not go home for a few days, Dad is too tired to rest, I will disturb Dad at home. "

"This bastard surnamed Ji..." Gu Xiao muttered, and then began to coax the child: "Uncle Ji said for a few days, right? Then you see, you have been at Uncle Gu's house for several days, shouldn't you be able to go back?" Are you home?"

Xiao Sa calculated carefully, thought about it, and felt that what Gu Xiao said was very reasonable, so he shouted happily: "Yes, I can go home now!"

"Well, you're finally a little smarter," Gu Xiao was relieved, "Then I'll take you home, okay?"

But the child said: "But I also want to be with Uncle Gu."

"Your Uncle Gu will be very busy in the next few days, and he doesn't have time to accompany you. You can go home first and pick you up when Uncle Gu is free, okay?"

"Ok."

Gu Xiao smiled and patted the child's head with a successful trick, "Let's go, I'll take you back. By the way, where is your home?"

Ji's Group.

When Ji Jiuxia heard that a person named Gu Xiao came to him with Xiao Sa, he wondered if someone with the same name and surname had kidnapped his little idiot. Personality sucks.Walking hurriedly to the reception room, he saw the mature man leaning against the table and teasing Xiao Sa boredly, he was tall and no longer childish, he really believed that this man was the person Gu Xi had been thinking about for five years .

Gu Xiao actually came back.

Ji Jiuxia's heart was filled with anger, and he walked over in a few strides, picked up Gu Xiao's collar and punched him before he could speak.

Gu Xiao was caught off guard and staggered a few steps to the side, holding onto the table next to him to barely stand still.He raised his hand and touched his cheek with the back of his hand, frowned and said angrily, "Are you fucking sick?"

"Why did you come back?! Why don't you f*ck stay abroad forever?! He's fine now, why are you f*cking back!?" Ji Jiuxia yelled at Gu Xiao.

Xiao Sa was frightened by the sudden conflict between the two adults in front of him, he didn't dare to move, and stood on the chair stupidly, at a loss.

"Why don't I come back?! Gu Xi is my younger brother, it's not up to you to take care of us!" Gu Xiao also yelled back. He knew that Ji Jiuxia must blame him for letting Gu Xi stay here all these years. There is no audio, but is there anything he can do?Gu Xi was like that back then, could he stay?As long as there is a way, how could he endure not going home for several years and not seeing Gu Xi?

"You know he's your brother? Then why don't you know how much your brother cherishes his family? Why don't you know that your brother is not born gay? Why don't you know that twisting your brother's feelings for you will make him feel bad? How painful is it?"

Gu Xiao was taken aback when he heard that, yes, he knew it all, but he couldn't help but do that.

"Xiaoxi always thought that you didn't know anything. In fact, he was the one who didn't know anything. I once lied to him and told him that you just found it new and curious. I lied to him that he was the only one who thought that way. He has room to turn around... But you, you know that the result of him continuing to sink will only be more painful and helpless, you still have to continue!"

Gu Xiao shook his head, sarcastically denying Ji Jiuxia's words, "Why do you say me, you are the one who started first, right? No matter what I do, I have never said anything to him, and just because he is my younger brother, the two of us How close is it, isn't it justified?" He was never sure that Gu Xi would like him, on the contrary, for a long time he just suspected that Gu Xi liked Ji Jiuxia.

"Who will start first, you know better than me, Gu Xiao, from the first time I saw you snatching the number plate behind him, I knew that your mind was not simple, and don't ask me why I understand, I was born Gay." Ji Jiuxia said calmly.

Gu Xiao gritted his teeth and stared blankly at the ground. What Ji Jiuxia said scared him.Maybe he really didn't understand, maybe he didn't dare to face it, he never dared to think about it, not long after Gu Xi came to him when he was a child, he started to be abnormal.He has given himself a lot of explanations, it is curiosity about new things, it is the domineering childishness, it is the desire to protect the elders, it is the desire to monopolize that has been cultivated since childhood, it is maintenance, it is not admitting defeat, it is not reconciled... ...It was the mixture of various innocent thoughts that caused his feelings for Gu Xi to be biased.

No matter how much I warn myself, I can't hate him, so I can only bully him non-stop, deceiving myself with actions, but in fact I don't want to bully him too hard, and my heart softens when he wrongs me.He should resist, but he is reluctant to let go of any opportunity to get close to him, so he likes to tease him at home, thinking that it is just to show his parents, but in fact, it is not necessary at all, it is just his thinking.I hugged him in the hospital not because the bed was too small, not because it was cold, but because I couldn't bear it.

I can ignore my own thoughts, but also to stimulate him, so I choose to follow the trajectory of ordinary people and have a girlfriend naturally.I understood in my heart that a person like him who is only interested in books would not fall in love so easily, so I safely encouraged him to have a girlfriend.

In fact, I was very conflicted in my heart, that is, I hoped that he could understand, but also hoped that he could not understand.If he understands, then he will have a chance to fight for it; if he doesn't understand, then he can continue to be confused and continue to fool him, and he won't be snatched away by someone.

Can't let go, no matter how he hides from himself or resists himself, he can forgive him unconditionally, as long as he is willing to nod his head.I have never been subdued, never listened to, never compromised easily, but I have never been able to beat him, no matter how strong I was at the beginning, I will only compromise with him in the end.

What gives him the right to choose, as long as it is Gu Xi's decision, as long as Gu Xi should never change his decision, he can only accept Gu Xi's decision.

These years, even if it is suffering, even if it is hopeless, I still keep watching.

No wonder, no wonder!

He actually fell in love with Gu Xi...for so many years.

"The one surnamed Ji...how did you know...you are gay?"

Ji Jiuxia smiled, "Why, are you starting to doubt yourself?"

Gu Xiao moved his throat, "...how did you know?"

"Probably when I found out I was only interested in men."

"...but I've never been interested in anyone except Gu Xi."

When I didn't know how to love, the person in my heart was Gu Xi, but when I knew how to love, I just went with the flow of love.

"If the person kissing you is a man other than Gu Xi, would you feel sick?" Ji Jiuxia asked.

Gu Xiao didn't answer, but immediately frowned in disgust.

"Then, will you feel sick when you kiss a woman?" Ji Jiuxia asked again.

Gu Xiao's frown deepened, "I have a girlfriend, what do you think?"

"Then you are not." This is Ji Jiuxia's conclusion.

The intense confrontation slowed down, and Xiao Sa quietly asked, "...Uncle Ji...Uncle Gu Xiao...Why are you fighting?"

Ji Jiuxia glanced at Xiao Sa, and felt guilty picking up the trembling child, "Little idiot, uncle didn't fight, uncle was just playing around."

"But you guys are so fierce..."

"The one surnamed Ji, these years...has he really, never mentioned me?" Gu Xiao thought of what he asked the child.

"Yes, I never mentioned it," Ji Jiuxia confirmed the child's words, "He just tends to look at something and be in a daze for no reason, and then his eyes turn red."

There is no need to ask anything, Ji Jiuxia's words have already finished Gu Xi's life in the past few years.Gu Xiao only felt that his chest was congested. Although he knew that Gu Xi would miss him too, every time he heard about Gu Xi's situation from others, he would still tremble with distress.

Taking a step forward, Gu Xiao bypassed Ji Jiuxia and Xiao Sa, and walked out of the reception room silently.

When he got to the door, Ji Jiuxia called him back, "Gu Xiao, if you decide to come back, don't let him alone again."

Back home, Gu Xi hadn't left work yet, so Gu Xiao found some medicine to wipe his face.The one surnamed Ji was so cruel that the corners of his mouth were bleeding.Looking at the bruised and purple face in the mirror, I wanted to laugh a little, alas, I deserve it, why did I have to hide from him for so many years?It's good to come back once or twice in the middle, anyway, it's more than five years... No, after careful calculation, it seems to be almost six years. After being cruel for so long, that person doesn't seem to have a long memory.

Gu Xi has simply made up his mind to suffer like this for the rest of his life, no matter how much time he spends, it is all wishful thinking.No, he can't wait for him to figure it out, he must resort to means, even if he cheats, he must be tricked, otherwise this life will definitely pass by like this!

But the flag was only set up the morning before yesterday, how can Gu Xi be forced to agree?

Xianhui cooked the meals, Gu Xiao waited for Gu Xi to come back on the sofa. Ten minutes later, Gu Xi fulfilled his expectations by inserting the key into the keyhole, opened the door within five seconds, entered the door at a speed of about 10 meters per second, and walked in front of Gu Xiao within four seconds.

"What's the matter with the face?" Gu Xi asked anxiously, bent down to take a closer look, he was a little short-sighted, and couldn't see clearly from a distance.

Gu Xiao put his face up on purpose, and replied with a bit of coquettishness: "I hit it, it hurts so much."

"Did you apply the medicine?" Gu Xi turned around to look for the medicine box, "How can you bump into this, don't you fight with someone?"

Gu Xiao sat obediently and waited for Gu Xilai to rub the medicine on him, and said pitifully, "Slippery foot, hit the corner of the table."

Gu Xi was dubious, sat next to Gu Xiao, dipped his finger in the ointment and applied it lightly, "Where is Sasa?"

"He said he missed Dad, so I sent him back."

After hearing this, Gu Xi asked hesitantly, "Your face...was it Ji Jiuxia who slapped you?"

Gu Xiao put his arms around Gu Xi, and muttered twistedly: "How do you know?"

"So you fought with him?" Gu Xi exclaimed, "How old are you?"

"It was he who hit me, but I didn't hit him!" Gu Xiao defended, and said bitterly, "He is really kind to you. I was really dumb before, and I didn't see that he was sincere to you."

"Don't talk nonsense, he has his own home now, and he also loves Xiao Xun."

"What about you?" You love me too, would you like me to be your destination?

Gu Xi pushed Gu Xiao's hand, "It's finished, let's go eat."

Following closely behind Gu Xi, and sat down on the other side of the table, Gu Xiao asked, "Do you think I look like a wife who is waiting for her husband to come home?"

Gu Xi glanced at Gu Xiao and ate quietly.

"I can cook, earn money, and do housework," Gu Xiao listed his virtuous and great deeds, "Gu Xi, marry me."

The chopsticks bit Gu Xi's mouth, and he didn't let go for a long time.

"We go out together at work, and I come back half an hour earlier than you every day, and we have dinner together when you get home, and we stay at home together in our spare time, I can do housework, you can lie on the sofa and read, and you can go out for a walk if you have a long vacation, We will go home and live together for two days on weekends. Do you like this kind of life?" Gu Xiao said slowly, watching the man's head lower and lower, and finally almost fell into the rice bowl.

Together, how can we go home?Can the family accommodate them?

Gu Xi admitted that he was too moved by Gu Xiao's words, but he still didn't dare!He is cowardly and timid, he dare not gamble or fight hard, he only dares to live peacefully.

"Xiaoxi," Gu Xiao put his hands on his clenched hands, and asked gently: "Tell me, do you like it?"