Jiang Li

Although Jiang Li and his party were detained in Yinyan City, Gui Chenxue did not restrict Jiang Li's personal freedom.He didn't even bother Jiang Li anymore.

On the third day when the rumors in the city gradually dissipated, Gui Chenxue finally appeared in front of everyone again.

He invited Jiang Li to have a drink in the peach grove of Hanshan Temple.

Gui Chenxue went there alone, and so did Jiang Li.Probably we both know that today is not suitable for other people to be present.

The peach groves are full of fragrance in June, one tree is shady and the other is shade.

In June when the peach blossoms were falling, Gui Chenxue, who took off her mask and changed into plain clothes, knelt and sat alone under the peach tree in Hanshan Temple. Feng Zhong waited patiently for Jiang Li's arrival.

Before Jiang Li's carriage arrived, he just quietly recounted the past bits and pieces between him and Jiang Li, with neither sadness nor joy on his face, making it difficult to figure out.

At noon, Jiang Li arrived late.

Seeing Jiang Li, who was dressed in snow-white and covered with a green shirt, walking alone among the withered peach petals on the ground, Gui Chenxue's eyes flashed in a daze.He had seen this scene before and replayed it countless times in his dreams.

Jiang Li lifted the hem of his clothes and sat on the ground, quite a bit of the demeanor of a celebrity in the Wei and Jin Dynasties.

Gui Chenxue has been looking at him, seeing that his expression is as calm as a breeze and the moon, and the smile on the corner of his mouth is elegant and modest but not friendly.When he looked at him, his expression was so calm that it scared him.He vaguely had a bad premonition in his heart, but he refused to continue thinking about it.

Gui Chenxue added a glass of thin wine for Jiang Li, pushed the wine cup in front of Jiang Li, and made a gesture of invitation.

Jiang Li picked up the wine cup.

It just so happened that a piece of peach blossom petals drifted from the top of his head, swirling and falling into his wine.There are small ripples on the clear and mirror-like wine, which is very poetic and picturesque.

Gui Chenxue looked at Jiang Li.

Jiang Li took a sip of the wine while holding the peach petals.Gui Chenxue looked at him and thought silently in her heart, her face was flushed with peach blossoms.

At this moment, Gui Chenxue was finally sure that the young man in front of him was indeed the Jiang Li he had been looking for.It's just that he still can't figure out the question about bone age and birthmark.

Or, he had guessed in his heart.Just seeing Jiang Li alive and well, he didn't want to delve into it, because it was a possibility he couldn't bear.

After drinking for three rounds, Gui Chenxue finally spoke.

"I'm glad to know you're still alive." He said softly to Jiang Li.

Smart as Jiang Li, upon hearing this, he immediately understood that Gui Chenxue had confirmed his identity.And it's obvious that he just learned about it, otherwise he wouldn't be so excited.

The only time he might reveal his identity recently was on the night of worshiping his parents.Gui Chenxue probably used the string of red sandalwood beads to find the Jiang Family Ancestral Hall.

Gui Chenxue knew that Shen Shaohao's matter was related to him, but he did not take any action. It is impossible for Shen Shaohao to influence his thinking, so it must be because of his "Jiang Li" status.

Jiang Li's thoughts turned, and he just nodded lightly on his face and said, "It's a fluke. I'm also very happy that you can live."

Gui Chenxue was taken aback for a moment, but in the next second, he was almost excited.

"Are you... happy that I'm alive?" I thought you wanted me to die!

Jiang Li said calmly: "You are a loyal minister and good general. Your presence will benefit the common people."

Gui Chenxue said tremblingly, "Then... what about you?"

Jiang Li said: "The grievances between you and me have long been settled."

The implication is that he will no longer cling to the grievances and enmities with the two of them.

Gui Chenxue choked for breath, subconsciously clenched the wine cup, and said in disbelief: "You and I, it's over...?"

"Lin Hua bids farewell to Chunhong, and the deceased will never return." Jiang Li picked up a ruined peach blossom at his feet and crushed it absently at his fingertips. He looked up at Gui Chenxue, "The flowering period is over, don't worry Self-harm."

The corners of Gui Chenxue's eyes tightened, and her voice became hoarse: "No! In March next year, spring will still be warm on the South Bank. Although the peach blossoms bloom and wither, they never truly disappear!"

Jiang Li shook his head: "The new stamens on the branches are not the old fragrance. Besides, there are thousands of fragrances in the world, why should Mr. Gui be obsessed with this?"

"No, this flower is the only one that moves my heart!" Gui Chenxue leaned forward and grabbed Jiang Li's wrist, not allowing Jiang Li to drop the petal.

He stared at Jiang Li closely, and his voice was full of sadness: "Last night, I still have a dream in my heart. You are like a peach blossom, which touches my heart. Missing you makes my heart flustered. Your determination makes me feel sad. I feel sad!"

Jiang Li sighed: "The fate is gone, so why talk more?"

Gui Chenxue roared: "When did the fate between you and me end? The grievances between our two families have already been ended, why can't we start over?"

Hearing this, Jiang Li couldn't help showing a hint of sarcasm at the corner of his mouth.

"Start again? Master Gui, why do you want to start again with me?"

Gui Chenxue said anxiously: "Jiang Li, my heart for you has never changed!"

Jiang Li sneered: "It's a pity that my heart for you has already been killed by your own hands! Regarding the bone age of my body, the birthmark that you wanted to check but failed to find, and the tomb on the top of the mountain, these, don't you? Don’t you really understand? You are still deceiving yourself, you deliberately don’t think about it, you dare not face the reality——Ah Yu didn’t lie to you, I’m already dead!”

Gui Chenxue was taken aback: "But you are still alive..."

"No, more than a year ago, I 'died'. After discarding all my profound arts, I fell into a dark disease and became weaker day by day. I hung my breath with decoction and endured for three years, but I still didn't survive." In the past. But death was a relief to me at that time." Jiang Li recalled in a very calm tone.

Gui Chenxue's expression finally showed a hint of panic.

Jiang Li's expression did not seem to be fake, which made him feel terrified.

Could it be that Jiang Li really... died once?

Jiang Li didn't want to say anything at all, but Gui Chenxue showed such affection, it seemed that he was ruthless and ungrateful, which was really ridiculous.

Jiang Li continued: "Gui Chenxue, have you ever understood the sadness and despair in my previous life before I died? The proud son of heaven, once fell into the dust, lost his parents, betrayed his relatives, and lived in a deserted house. The oath of the covenant turned out to be nothing more than honey smeared with honey, and it made my heart ache like twists and turns! The person I loved with all my heart was actually such a cruel and cruel person who trampled my whole heart into the mud and made me lose everything !

"I hate you, but I hate myself even more. Why did you always show mercy to you and hold illusions, which led to wolves entering the house and raising tigers? How dare you tell me to start over! The grievances of the Jianggui family are over. , but what do you owe me?

"The Jiang family is sorry for the Gui family. You want to take revenge. Even though you are going to repay it in an upright manner, and we each rely on your own ability, why do you want to cheat my feelings? Does it hurt my heart and make you vent your anger? Then You've got your wish! You've made your choice, and you've let out such a bad breath, so just keep being upright, so why come here today to put on a show and show me that your infatuation doesn't change!

"Gui Chenxue, if it wasn't for my mother to let me let go of this hatred, do you really think that I don't want to kill you to vent my hatred! Treating you as a stranger with a different surname is the greatest tolerance I can do now, how can there be other possibilities? If you say that, where will my dead relatives be, and where will your parents be! So let me ask you, why do you start over with me!"

Jiang Li really expressed all the grief and indignation in his heart from his previous life in one breath.

Gui Chenxue was left speechless by Jiang Li's series of questions, and was completely dumbfounded.

His heart seemed to have been hit hard by a hammer, and the huge pain grabbed his whole mind.Guilt and sadness, shock and despair, he could only stare blankly at Jiang Li, pale for a while, shaken both physically and mentally, and he didn't know how to respond.

Every word Jiang Li said was the most severe interrogation for him; every word weighed more than a thousand catties, making him unable to bear it; every word was like a knife piercing his heart.

Only now did he know that he had caused such great harm to Jiang Li!He really regretted it!

However, the damage has already been done, no matter how much guilt he feels, how can he say it now?Not to mention brazenly asking for a new start!

No wonder Jiang Li said why should he start over with him!Yes, how could he have the face to ask for a new start!After he hurt him like that!

"It turns out...you and I had a bad relationship in the previous life. It's hard to continue in this life, and...it's hard to chase after it in the next life." Gui Chenxue smiled sadly, with indescribable grief and guilt in his heart.

Jiang Li withdrew his hand.He thought he had said so much, Gui Chenxue should understand.

Jiang Li ordered some wine cups: "This is all about the past. Master Gui, today you might as well just get drunk and relieve your worries."

Gui Chenxue slumped back to his original position in a daze, his gaze straightened.

Get drunk and relieve your worries?How could this little wine relieve his deep sorrow?I'm afraid that as soon as it falls into the belly, it will turn into tears of lovesickness, disturb his heart, and break his sorrow!

He is really a pathetic person, the past suddenly seems like a dream, but life has no chance to start over.Jiang Li has pulled away to leave, but he still can't let go!

Indifferently turning her gaze to the wine cup in front of her, Gui Chenxue showed an extremely bitter smile.

Was his choice wrong?Even at this moment, he still dare not make a statement.

He picked up the wine cup, raised his head and drank it down.

Jiang Li held up the wine cup and watched him slowly sip.

He wasn't worried about what would happen to Gui Chenxue if he got drunk.

Shen Shaohao is a hypocrite, while Gui Chenxue is a real gentleman. Gui Chenxue will always restrain himself, self-discipline and self-examination, and will always be able to rationally weigh the pros and cons.Even if there is a moment when he loses control, he will only close the door and lick the wound by himself, and will never show weakness in front of others.That's why he fell in love with him in the first place.

Speaking of which, Gui Chenxue is very different from the second son Bie who is full of emotions and has a detached mind.It's strange how he fell in love with these two people with completely opposite personalities.Jiang Li muttered secretly.

What's even more strange is that Gui Chenxue didn't tell him about the string of red sandalwood beads!Isn't the captain of the Golden Armored Guard the most decisive and impartial? Didn't he forget?

He had already thought about how to deal with it, but he didn't even have a chance to use it.

桂府

After returning to her mansion, Gui Chenxue locked herself in the room and did not allow anyone to disturb her.

He reeked of alcohol and staggered unsteadily when he walked. He had never been so drunk.His subordinates were trembling when they saw this, and dared not say much.

Sitting on the ground, leaning against the bed.He spread out his palms and silently looked at the red sandalwood beads in his hands.

"Jiang Li, Jiang Li, Jiang Li...!"

Calling this name over and over again in the bottom of my heart made his heart feel like a knife.

He tightly grasped the red sandalwood Buddha beads in his hand, so tight that the back of his hand was stretched with blue veins.Covering his eyes, tears flowed down his fingers.

"Jiang Li...you don't have love for me, don't you even have hatred?"

Jiang Li's words were still ringing in his ears, and every word pierced his heart like a sword.

That night Jiang Li said that the day of yesterday should not be kept, and all kinds of things yesterday died yesterday.He has already abandoned the past, he will no longer be entangled with yesterday's events, especially him, Gui Chenxue!Their relationship is the part of the past that should die in yesterday!

As he said, the two of them had a bad relationship from beginning to end, so why bother to distinguish cause and effect?There is no cause and effect of who wins and who loses!Between them, no one has ever let anyone down.You might as well let go of this mess of feelings that are constantly cutting and chaotic, and leave them in a clean place.

Now, he has made a choice.Only he is still lingering in the old dream and refuses to wake up!

Jiang Li said that their fate was cut off, so why bother to say more.He told him to give up, don't pester him!

Only now did he know that the saddest and most helpless thing in the world was that he was still lingering in the same place, while his opponent had already turned around and left.

Yes, he is not worthy to start over, and he has already lost the qualification to stand by his side.

The sky was pale, and when Gui Chenxue opened his eyes, he realized that he had been lying on the ground and sleeping all night.The room smelled of alcohol, and the air was icy cold.

So what if you wake up?People who want to leave are still unable to stay, and the reality that must be faced is also unavoidable.

Gui Chenxue cast her eyes on the red sandalwood Buddha beads in her hand, her heart was dark and she was struggling.

What he wanted was not to keep Jiang Li, but how to get rid of this string of red sandalwood beads.

In the conflicts between the two in the past, Jiang Li was never willing to give in.But now that there was such a big hatred between them, Jiang Li gave up as soon as he said he would give up.What a determination this must be!

It seemed that he really decided to forget him and start over with another person.

He wanted revenge, but he never thought of using his feelings to hurt him. His attraction to him was never planned.He never meant to hurt him, but he hurt him anyway.

He lied to his feelings, spent ten years of his life, and even took his life in the end.This is the debt of love that Gui Chenxue owes him to Jiang Li.

However, the laws of the imperial court clearly stipulated that civilians who offend nobles will be killed without mercy.

He is the executor of the laws of the imperial court, and what he represents is fairness, openness and fairness. If he shields him, wouldn't it be knowingly breaking the law and using power for personal gain?This makes him who has always been strict and self-disciplined how to deal with himself in the future?The law is his belief, and he dare not abandon it easily!

For so many years, as the captain of the Golden Armored Guard, he has been dedicated to his duties, impartial and selfless, deeply loved by the people and trusted by the monarch.He worked hard and never dared to desecrate the sacred and solemn laws of the empire.In the eyes of the world, he is an ordinance that interprets the justice of the laws of the empire, and a benchmark for measuring the length of the sun and the moon.He dared not live up to the high expectations of the people.

But Jiang Li finally regained his life, how could he have the heart to take his life again?How could he have the heart to hurt him again!Instead of hurting Jiang Li again, it would be easier for him to kill himself!

Now, fate played a trick on him again, making him have to make a choice between the dilemmas.

Jiang Li, Jiang Li, Jiang Li...!What should I do with you!

——Take advantage of this hard-won opportunity and live according to your own will.The world is vast, I should be like a flying bird swimming in the fish, chasing the wind and the water, free and easy...

Is this the life you most want right now?

In the picture of life you expect, but there is no me anymore!

Free and unfettered, if that's the case...

Gui Chenxue tightly clenched his palms, and when he opened them again, the string of red sandalwood beads had turned into a puddle of powder, blowing away with the wind.

In his eyes, a firmness gradually surfaced in the torrent like a rock.

Between love and righteousness, he finally made a choice.