Pastoral Song [Farming]

Makino didn't know what he was thinking, or he didn't think about anything at all.

long time... long time...

There was a "boom" in his ear, he wondered if the sky outside was blue and the river was clear.The smoke and dust billowed, and he was buried under the ruins in a mess.

Oh, it collapsed...

So what... just collapsed...

Yeah... just collapsed...

It just ruined his world, his pillar, his hope, his motivation to live... that's all...

If the ruins can bury themselves, can the pain go away?If possible, he is also willing.

That year the doctor asked him:

"Why did you decide to come here?"

"I want to live well."

"power?"

"Mom and Dad."

"Makino, do you know what is the scariest thing in this world?"

"Disease."

"Wrong, illness is physical pain, and demons are psychological pain. As long as you want to live, you are not afraid. This is desire. The most terrifying thing in the world is: no desire, no desire, no attachment, no worries, no worries, no worries. I'm self-sufficient, that's not a person, that's a stalk."

"A monk has no desires and no desires."

"Pursuing sentient beings is also a desire, and promoting Buddhism is also a desire."

"Orphans have nothing to worry about."

"How do you know that relatives you haven't seen are not caring, and future expectations are not caring?"

"don't know."

"You don't need to understand, you just need to remember that your illness will be cured. Because you are a kite, not a floating cloud; a kite has a thread, but a floating cloud has no roots."

He now understands that there is no root or wireless, drifting with the wind, letting the sky be wide and wide, and there is no place to bury him.

But where should he find the person who is willing to lead him?

Makino admits that he is a fragile and fragile product with extreme insecurity, and the great idea of ​​using himself as a spiritual pillar will never be realized in him.He is a common man, a coward who needs support and support to go on.

Even if he has already tacitly accepted the fact that he can't go back, even if he deceives himself, he is still willing to think that tomorrow, the day after tomorrow, and the day after tomorrow can hear familiar voices and see familiar things, otherwise he really doesn't know how a foreign species of himself exists here. live in time and space.

But the gears of fate are sometimes ruthless and shameless, taking away all the thoughts of some sesame and mung beans, that kind of loneliness, powerlessness, suffocation and pressure, he can't breathe, and Tiejiaguan is nothing more than that.

It wasn't until there was a faint sound in the courtyard that Makino fell asleep again without realizing it.Putting clothes on indiscriminately, I heard someone knocking on the door: "Brother Jiang? Brother Jiang? Are you at home?" The voice sounded like a girl.

Pushing open the door and going out, he squinted under the glare of the sun, his tear-filled eyes were red and swollen, and the strong light made him feel even more uncomfortable.

"Tian Yu! You, why are you still at Brother Jiang's house?"

Before Makino could figure out who it was, he slowly turned his head in the direction of the sound, his eyes were still a little blurry, it seemed to be a pretty little girl named... Tian Lili.

This Tian Lili is the great-granddaughter of the seventh master. She has a beautiful life and a good family condition, so she is inevitably a little arrogant.

It is well known that Tian Lili likes Jiang Ye.To be precise, most girls and boys in Futian Village like Jiang Ye.

It's not that Tian Lili's mother didn't try to tell Jiang Ye about her, but she never succeeded.

Yesterday when Tian Lili came home, she heard that Jiang Ye had gone to see her great-grandfather.She thought that there was no hope, but at this moment, her mind suddenly opened: Grandpa is an elder in the village, and almost everyone in the younger generation listens to Grandpa and sells him some face.I'm so stupid, my great-grandfather has been left idle all this time, it's really a waste of money.But it's not too late to get this opportunity now, so I hurried to find my great-grandfather to explain my little thoughts.

The Seventh Lord had plans in this regard. Among the daughters of the younger generation in the family, Lili was the only one who was beautiful and clever. If she married Jiang Ye, she would definitely be able to help the family.But Seventh Master also knew that Jiang Ye was not something he could handle casually.If he comes to the door rashly, if he is rejected, he can't afford to lose this person.

So he half-jokingly said: "Okay, as long as you can get that kid Jiang Ye to nod, Grandpa will tell you."

When Tian Lili heard this, she was overjoyed.

Recently, rumors spread in the village that Tian Yu had cheated on Jiang Ye.Although she didn't want to admit it, Tian Yu's beauty was a recognized fact. She was afraid that Jiang Ye would be fascinated by Tian Yu's fox.

Early this morning, I begged my mother to take me to the town to buy a new dress, and I came here only when I was dressed up, so I wanted to ask Jiang Ye about it.She believed that Brother Jiang just hadn't discovered his goodness yet.She looks so good-looking, and my mother also said that she has a good figure, Brother Jiang will definitely like her.

Tian Lili came here full of joy, but saw Tian Yu coming out of Jiang Ye's room, her clothes were wrinkled, she looked like she had just woken up, her legs were slightly apart when walking, her eyes were red, and she couldn't even stand up. Look steady.

She had already reached the age when she should talk about marriage, but she had a picky eye and looked down on those who came to make a matchmaking match, so she hadn't settled the marriage until now.

The houses of the peasant households are mostly made of earthen walls, which are not so carefully built, and the sound insulation is even worse.

Although Tian Lili's family is in good condition, it has a large population.Grandparents and parents live in the main room, Tian Lili, her elder brother, sister-in-law, younger brothers and younger sisters all live in the east and west rooms.She used to live in the same room with her younger siblings, but when she grew up, her parents built another room opposite. The younger siblings were younger, so they lived in the East Wing, which was closer to their parents.

Tian Lili's wing room is next to her brother's and sister-in-law's room, not to mention that the beds in both rooms are placed against a shared wall.

At night, the brother and sister-in-law were tossing about something, and every sound of bumping, panting (jiaochuan), and water stains could be heard in her ears without omission.After a long time, from that embarrassing conversation, she also had a vague idea of ​​the privacy between men and women.

As long as you toss about twice at night, the next day my sister-in-law will look exactly like Tian Yu now.

"You, you, Tian Yu, you fox, raccoon, you hooked up with Brother Jiang, right? It must be you, you bitch, I'm going to tell the patriarch that people like you should be soaked in pigs cage."

Makino was still confused, the girl turned around and ran away: "What did I do?"

I went back to the house and put on my clothes again. I poured well water and put a veil on my eyes for a while, and then I felt better, and the pain did not swell.

When I entered the kitchen, I found a drawer on the big pot on the stove. Inside was a bowl of millet porridge and two steamed buns, which had been kept warm through the water, and the firewood had not been extinguished.Knowing that it was left to him by Jiang Ye, Makino's heart felt warm, and he almost shed tears again.

Although Jiang Ye was always indifferent to others, with an attitude of rejecting others thousands of miles away, he was really kind to himself.

After eating, he moved a small stool and sat in the yard. Muye remembered that Jiang Ye said that he would not come back to eat at noon.

"Don't bring up the past again. Life has been full of ups and downs. Even if the memory can't be erased, love and hatred are still in my heart. I really want to break the past and let tomorrow continue..."

Dong dong dong

"Brother Yu, you're at home."

"Uncle Village Chief, why are you here? Come and sit down, I'll pour you a glass of water."

"Brother Yu, don't be too busy. Your father went to my place last night and said he was willing to separate you. I'll come over and talk to you. What your father means is that since the property is not divided, there is no need to sign the paperwork. , just go directly to the town and remove the household registration for you, see?"

"It's okay, Uncle Village, if you don't sign it, don't sign it."

"Then I'll go to the town office to make a note later. I heard you want to change your name?"

"Yes, uncle, I want to have a new start, let's change it to Makino."

"What's your last name?"

"Uncle, my surname is Mu. Since I am breaking away from the Tian family, I might as well be thorough. I just want to live a good life."

"Alright then, since you have made your own decision, I won't say anything, I'll go first."

"Okay, thank you uncle, I will invite you and my aunt to have dinner when I settle down."

"Okay, you kid, the uncle is waiting."

Hearing the good news, Makino was also completely relieved.

He himself couldn't guarantee that the words that threatened the Tian family before would come true.To put it bluntly, it was just being forced to such a point that there was no way out.No matter what happens in the future, it would be best if the household registration can be separated.

As for the Tian family, although Tian Yu said that he didn't want to avenge him, he knew that Tian Yu was afraid that he would not be able to live with this burden.Now that I don't have that ability, I'll just remember this for them for the time being.It would be best if the Tian family didn't come to provoke him.If you don't know the fun, don't blame yourself for being cruel and ruthless, and settle the old and new scores together.

Looking at the time, it was probably only one o'clock, and I don't know when Jiang Ye will come back?

He ate breakfast late, and he's not hungry now. I wonder if Jiang Ye brought lunch?It must not be good to eat on the mountain, and you must be hungry when you come back, right?

Sighing, he walked into the kitchen.Mix the dough with warm water and put it on the stove to wake up.Soaked another small bowl of soybeans. When cleaning yesterday, I found a small grinding plate in the utility room, which can be used to grind soybean milk, chili powder and the like.Then he brought a bucket of water to the backyard to water the vegetable field, cleaned the stable for Wuyun, changed the water, and added fodder.Soak the clothes he changed into the basin. Jiang Ye's coat was placed on the stool before he could wash it, so he picked it up and washed it together.

After doing this, the noodles in the kitchen are almost awake, finely chop the shallots that have just been pulled from the vegetable field.Divide the dough into roughly sized pieces, roll them out thinly, apply a little oil, sprinkle the salt with the back of a knife and the chopped green onion evenly on top, use a knife to draw some finger-wide thin strips, and roll them up one by one and put them on the chopping board.

Mille-feuille cakes are the most delicious if they are cooked and eaten right away. If they are left in a stuffy pan for a long time, the cakes will become soft and lose their crunchiness if they are left in a stuffy pan for a long time. , he didn't want Jiang Ye to eat cold food.Roll up the dough, Jiang Ye will go home in a while, and in less than 2 minutes, he can bake a few pads for his stomach.There is no five-spice powder, otherwise the cake will be more fragrant.

Thinking of this, Makino pushed open the door of the utility room, took out the small millstone, washed it by the well and dried it in the sun.When I go to the town again, I will look for other spices, maybe I can grind them into powder and try it. Thirteen incense is so complicated that I can’t make it out.

Habitually looking at the sun, it was almost five o'clock after four o'clock, and Jiang Ye hadn't come back yet, so Makino was a little worried.Although Jiang Ye seems to have good skills, what if he encounters a large beast?In Tian Yu's memory, it's not like no one has ever met a wolf, that's why everyone stopped hunting in the deep mountains...

"When you can't control your cranky thoughts, keep yourself busy; the emotional demons only need to cut off their spiritual food, and if they don't feed them, they won't continue to grow."

"Sing and dance loudly, like a lunatic; empty your head to read and read, like a robot; stop all brain activities, just keep your body busy, believe me, Makino, negative emotions are not terrible."

The blow to him last night was too great, and he couldn't recover for a while.In his previous life, he could call Dr. An for help, but here he can only rely on himself.

After struggling for a while, he finally got up and picked up a bucket of water, and went to the backyard to bathe Wu Yun.

The author has something to say: I don’t know if you guys still remember, but the author set up Makino who had a six-year history of depression in his previous life. This passage is taken from a real patient’s self-report. I hope she can recover soon.

Signing a contract today was a tragedy. The little friend I knew passed the test with [-] words, and the author had [-] words... Sure enough, there is no harm if there is no comparison, so I picked up my fat self and continued to type.