Xiyang Mourning

Hello everyone, my name is Cheng Xi.

I was originally a vengeful scumbag who abused a loyal dog, but...

What I never expected was that I fell in love with my little loyal dog.

What I didn't even expect was that my little loyal dog didn't want me anymore...

Ok, everything is back to the topic. (Please disregard everything above, it's just a dress rehearsal. Listen up, it's just a dress rehearsal.)

I am Cheng Xi.

After listening to the story, now please allow me to make you laugh with a few little secrets.

That day Zheng Yang came to me with that document, and I went back to the room to look at it. Those things inside made me feel sad and guilty, and I even hoped that those things inside would be borne by me.

Those thin sheets of paper contained everything that my Zheng Yang had endured, and I knew about it, such as being framed by Qin Haoling in order to save me, because I was framed by Qinglin.

There are also things I don't know, such as Qin Haoling telling Zheng Yang that he saw the affair clearly, such as being given a psychological hint that I dislike him when Zheng Yang was confused.

What does that represent?

That means that every time I appear, it hurts him and reminds him of the hurt he has suffered...

So what qualifications do I have to look forward to the future with him, what right do I have to presumptuously use love to keep him.

No wonder, no wonder Zheng Yang is in so much pain, he kneels down and begs for my departure...

Our future was obviously buried with my own hands, and I covered our future with little damage with my own hands...

Holding those pieces of paper that made me miserable, I cried, roared, and cried until I was exhausted in the room.

People become extremely sober and crazy after venting everything, like me.

When I was exhausted both mentally and physically, and when all my emotions were vented, my heart clearly spoke of my madness.

I slowly sorted out these materials, and an idea came to my mind.

"If most of Zheng Yang's pain comes from his unwitting psychological suggestion, what if I clear it? What if I break it?"

I believe that Zheng Yang's spirit will not collapse because of an injury, and I believe in his love for me even more.

When that idea was spinning crazily in my mind, I saw the forgotten piece of paper next to the cunning foot, I picked it up, and it was an idea that coincided with mine.

It says that Zheng Yang and Zheng Yuan are willing to cooperate with me and provide me with all my needs, provided that Zheng Yang gives up his attack on the Qin family.

I looked at the conditions above and fell silent, hesitating.

I know what this means to Zheng Yang, it means that Zheng Yang will give up taking revenge for himself.I know how difficult and painful it is to make such a decision. In the beginning, I just didn't want to give up, so we got to this point.

I opened my eyes and looked at the ceiling all night, I saw my eyes swell, and I saw an unreal feeling in the entire range of vision...

Finally, I called Zheng Yang at four o'clock in the morning, and I said I agreed, and he seemed to be expecting it.

I also think this is within my expectations. Now that I think about it, I actually made a choice at the very beginning, and the thinking that night was just to make myself feel better, leaving a feeling that I have struggled countless times before doing it. It's just a deception to make a decision.

Let me be selfish again, I really can't bear the pain of Zheng Yang and I for the rest of our lives, just be selfish!Anyway, it's not the first time, I comfort myself like this.

Then I went out, and I went to Zheng Yang's company.

Because it is the early morning of autumn, it looks desolate, and the wind is a bit strong, which makes me feel cold to the bone, but it's just the inexplicable madness in his heart.

I stood there with my head up for a long time, and when the sun couldn't stand it, I lowered my head and looked around.

I don't know what's the point of doing this. I've made up my mind and come here to play a bitter drama that no one watches and no one knows.

While laughing at myself, I saw someone walking towards me, so I left and went shopping.

When I went back, Su Chang had already arrived. Looking at her, I felt that I was really not a qualified boss, so I nodded to her.

Su Chang didn't answer, but just looked at me worriedly, I couldn't even imagine what it would be like to stand outside like a lunatic for so long without sleep.

So I went upstairs to take care of myself, and even took some eye drops to make myself feel better.

Then I put away those documents and that piece of paper, and went downstairs to ask Su Chang to borrow something to wipe on my face to make me look more energetic.

I looked at the face that satisfied me, and jokingly told her that I would give her a salary increase. I don't know why I am in a joking mood, maybe everyone is like this, and I can't help the cold humor.

I know I'm going to put them on my heart, not just my face, today.

I took the dishes from the cafe upstairs, and after I finished the meal, I took out a familiar lunch box from the cupboard, and there were many similar lunch boxes in the cupboard.

I thought I could keep sending them away, so I bought a lot, as if I could give them away for a lifetime...

Carrying the familiar lunch box, I arrived at Zheng Yang's company neatly dressed with a spirited outlook.I went directly to the elevator without saying hello to the front desk, and when I came outside Zheng Yang's office, I just nodded to Secretary Ye, and then took a deep breath outside the door before entering.

I looked at Zheng Yang with his head down processing the documents, feeling a little guilty and looking forward to it.

Guilt and my purpose, looking forward to our future.

I felt him trembling, so I walked over and tried to smile softly, then reached up and stroked his hair.

He raised his head after all, and he called me master, and I was glad that it made me feel like he belonged to me, that he was mine.

I said well, I opened the lunch box and pushed it in front of him, I said sorry, I said it was the last time, and I told him not to blame me.

Of course I know he will listen to me, that's why I made such a confident request, I know.

After Zheng Yang finished eating, I finally got to the point.

I asked him if he was dealing with the Qin family, I told him to stop, and I admitted that it was because of Qin Haoyu.

I looked at him and it hurt.

I want to hug him, kiss him, tell him the fucking cues, tell him I'm done, take revenge, whatever you like.

It's just that I can't, it's a requirement, it's my own choice.

I covered his eyes and I said stop crying because of me.

I should just give him smiles and make him happy instead of tears and make him sad.

At least in the future, in his future with me.

I walked for a long time before I broke out in a small alley.

He cried and told me that he can give me everything he has, but I don't want everything from him, all I want is him, he is a liar!

I happen to know that I am also, collude, collude, what a beautiful idiom, after all, they are together.

After venting, I stood up and walked out. I had my chosen path and my destination.

What he doesn't want to give me, and I will let him give me what he is willing to give me.