Lucid dreaming

He didn't understand why Ke Xi held this thing, even he himself didn't know where he put the cream gun last time, how could Ke Xi find it out?Taking a closer look, there were more than a dozen silver air bombs scattered on the carpet, as well as two crushed packing boxes.Six boxes of air bombs were laid out on the coffee table, one of which had already been unsealed.

He picked up one of the shell casings and looked at it carefully, leaned over again, held Kosi's seemingly unconscious left hand, slowly opened the fingers he was holding, and saw a deflated balloon.

It seems that since he went to chase Du Hang, Ke Xi has been playing with this air bomb.

Obviously he didn't go for a long time, and Ke Xi was injured again, how could he remember to find these things?

Thinking about this question was beyond the scope of his mind.Li Zhaowei let go of Ke Xi's hand, carefully supported his shoulders, made him turn sideways, and lifted up his home clothes.A bruise was clearly visible on the pale back.He lightly touched the bruise, but fortunately, the bone underneath was intact, and Du Hang's table knife could not stab Ke Xi's spine.

Once, when Ke Xi first moved in, one month later, he could still see scars that had not completely faded and turned pale yellow.It took him so long to keep Koshi smooth and without marks, and now Koshi has bruises on his body again.

Ke Xi suddenly let out a violent coughing sound like drowning.

Li Zhaowei hastily turned Ke Xi over. Ke Xi was no longer insensitive as before. The eyeballs under the thin eyelids moved slightly, as if chasing some invisible phantom, or as if his entire face was numb and unable to move. Make bigger expressions.

Li Zhaowei looked at him worriedly, stroked his forehead lightly, and asked him, "Ke Xi? Ke Xi, are you awake? Has anyone been in this room just now?"

Ke Xi looked at him in a daze. Under his half-closed eyelids, the pupils shrank and then enlarged, then shrank and enlarged again, and his voice was indistinct: "Brother Yan? What's wrong with you?"

Li Zhaowei touched his hair, which was soaked by the rain.He asked again, "Has anyone been in this room just now?"

Ke Xi ignored it, and asked again: "Brother Yan, what's wrong with your face?"

Is his appearance so much different from before?Li Zhaowei raised his hand to touch his face again, but found nothing unusual.Glancing at the dried blood on his fingers, he reacted a little.Most of his face was covered with dried blood.

He rubbed it a few more times, but nothing came off.The wet wipes at home were all placed in the cabinet in the bedroom, and he didn't have the strength to get them, so he turned his head so that Ke Xi could only see half of his relatively clean face, and said, "It's nothing, I accidentally hurt it."

"Does it hurt?" Ke Xi asked blankly like sleepwalking, "Would you like something...to relieve the pain?"

From the corner of Li Zhaowei's eyes, he saw Ke Xi raised his right hand, and the cream gun gleamed coldly.The traces of the car accident came back to life just now, he endured the pain and pressed the cream gun, and said, "Ko Xi, you look at me, what's wrong with you?"

Ke Xi shook his head lightly, and said, "Come on, Brother Yan."

His hands trembled rhythmically, and Li Zhaowei let go in surprise. Seeing him clumsily pull out his arm, stretch out his hand, take a brand new air bullet from the air bullet box on the table and twist it on the cream gun, with a still in his mouth. Muttering, like talking to himself, said softly: "It's very fun, it doesn't hurt at all, Brother Yan, do you want to try it too?"

Cosi pulled the trigger, and with a loud bang, the balloon inflated slowly.He gazed at the balloon with a warm and happy light in his eyes.

Li Zhaowei had only seen that light once, after the first time between him and Ke Xi, he knew that there was not only a lonely self in the world, the happiness that flowed with tears.When the balloon was inflated to seven or eight percent, Ke Xi nimbly squeezed the plug and sucked the balloon, then leaned to his nose and took a deep breath.The brilliance of happiness faded away, and a faint, unknowing smile appeared on his face.

Li Zhaowei checked the ingredients in the gas bomb, but forgot the scientific name, but only remembered that the nickname was laughing gas, which can be used to relieve pain. It is said that foreign dentists do not use anesthetics before pulling teeth, but let patients inhale some laughing gas.Li Zhaomin also gave them a performance of inhaling laughing gas and then spoke, making a Donald Duck-like voice.

Logically speaking, he shouldn't have any worries, but the uneasiness in his heart inflated like a balloon in Kosi's hand.He asked again: "Ke Xi, did anyone come here just now?"

Ke Xi said in a daze, "Du Hang."

Li Zhaowei was taken aback: "Du Hang is here again?"

"Photographs," said Kosh.These four words are vague, like talking in a dream.

That's wrong, he doesn't remember Li Zhaomin falling asleep after performing Donald Duck.But his head hurt more and more, and he really didn't have the energy to continue to question Ke Xi.

Li Zhaowei stood up staggeringly, and dragged his legs to the bathroom to treat the wound.It's just a little dizzy, it's nothing, he has already told Manager Huang that when the wind outside stops, he will go to deal with the wreckage of the car.He just remembered that Manager Huang was very surprised and asked him what he was doing driving out in this weather.But he doesn't remember how he answered it, he may have passed out briefly, or he may have lost his memory.

The blood on his face was not as serious as he thought.After washing with facial cleanser, the blood stains turned into bloody water and flowed down one after another.

The reflection in the mirror turned into Zhou Mingyuan for a while, himself for a while, and Ke Xi for a while.

The light should be turned on, the room is so dim, and the texture of the beautiful butterfly tiles can't be seen, only a gray patch, like the continuous bloodstains on the concrete floor in that rainy day.

Li Zhaowei couldn't hold on any longer as his head became dizzy, and his legs softened and he sat on the cold ground.There seemed to be another bang, bang, bang in the living room.He rested his head on one hand and took out his phone with the other.

The phone seemed to be flooded, and it didn't turn on after a few presses, and the room was getting darker and darker. Li Zhaowei felt cold on half of his body.

He belatedly thought, tiles are so cool.

So warm.

Li Zhaowei slowly opened his eyes.

For several minutes he didn't know exactly where he was lying.The light is too dim, like the rain at the age of 14.Then he realized that this was Moon City.

There was a bang, bang, bang.He turned his head to see that Kosi was sitting next to him, concentrating on pulling the cream gun and blowing up a balloon.Li Zhaowei's mind was in chaos, and countless fragments of memories were flying in his mind.He watched Kosh put the balloon under his nose and take a deep breath, then smiled in a trance.

Li Zhaowei closed his eyes for a while, thinking secretly in his heart, master, master, guest.where am I.By the way, where am I, meaning, where am I?

"where am I?"

As soon as the voice came out, I was startled by my own throat.It seems that when he passed out, someone dug out his throat and wiped the toilet, and then thoughtfully dried it at high temperature after wiping.He wanted to cough a few times to get rid of the unknown lump in his throat, but in vain it made his throat hurt more and more.

Ke Xi didn't answer at all, Li Zhaowei lay down again to recover his strength for a while, watched the dizziness on Ke Xi's face gradually dissipate, gritted his teeth and asked, "Do you like this thing very much?"

Kosh smiled and nodded at him.

With his smile, Li Zhaowei fell asleep again, and his dream was also filled with the sound of the cream gun thumping.When he woke up again, the room was a little too quiet.He looked sideways, and saw that Ke Xi was sitting on the ground next to him, with his head on the edge of the bed, Li Zhaowei couldn't see his expression clearly in the darkness.

"Turn on the light." Li Zhaowei said.

Ke Xi jumped up and looked at him: "Are you awake?"

His voice was back to normal.Maybe the memory just now was just an illusion.Did he really see Kosh playing with the cream gun?

"En." Li Zhaowei said with difficulty, "What time is it?"

Koshi glanced at the alarm clock: "06:30 p.m. Would you like something to eat?"

It was fine if he didn't say anything, but when he talked about eating, Li Zhaowei suddenly felt a convulsion in his stomach.It seems that I haven't eaten for a long time.

"I'm a little hungry, let's order a takeaway."

Ke Xi nodded, got up from the ground, and went to the storage basket at the door to get the takeaway order.As soon as he stood up, several things fell from his body with a clang.Like little chunks of metal.Li Zhao moved his fingers slightly, his arms were as stiff as two wooden sticks, but he was conscious anyway.He stretched out his hand to touch it with difficulty, and he touched the cold, finger-sized cylinder.

It's an air bomb.It turned out that what he saw was not an illusion, but something that actually happened.

Li Zhaowei listened to the indistinct voice in the living room. After a while, the voice stopped. Ke Xi poked his head in from the door and watched his expression. After a while, he opened the door with a tray and walked in. He filled two glasses The tray of water was placed on the bedside table and he was helped to sit up.

He never turned on the light, but sent the water to Li Zhaowei's mouth by touch.Cool water flowed into the throat, like a spring flowing through scorched soil.Li Zhaowei drank both glasses of water and wanted to drink more.

"In a moment," said Cosi.He fumbled with the tray and put the glasses on it, which clattered slightly against each other.Li Zhaowei couldn't help but said, "Turn on the light."

Ke Xi took a deep breath and said, "Brother Yan, while you were sleeping, a manager named Huang called and said he took your car to be repaired. Do you know this person?"

Li Zhaowei nodded, slightly surprised.Did Manager Huang already know about this?

Ke Xi's breath sounded like a slight smile, and said, "My name is Su Yun Tun."

Wanton is also good, you can drink a bowl of hot soup.Ke Xi's voice suddenly became hoarse: "It's the first time I ordered takeout, did you order sushi? I wanted to order sushi, but that shop is closed..."

Li Zhaowei raised his head, the light in the living room was on, and a light came in from the door, drawing a white line clearly on the carpet.There was a bit of Kosi's battered trousers in the white thread.Li Zhaowei always hated the thing from that dormitory and wanted Ke Xi to throw it away, but Ke Xi kept it all the time.

"Why are you wearing that dress?"

"I'm going back," Cosi said.

Maybe I heard it wrong, but the real cold and numbness crawled up from Li Zhaowei's fingertips.Although sitting in the warm quilt, it seems to be back on the concrete floor under the heavy rain.

"why?"

Ke Xi said quietly: "I don't want to cause trouble for you. It's not a good idea to stay here. Du Hang will keep making troubles, what account, what photos. You chased out in that kind of weather, and you were injured, all because of me... I know you like me..."

His voice has been trying to be calm, and when he said the last sentence, the calm voice finally broke like the trembling water.

"I like you too."

Li Zhaowei turned on the desk lamp with his backhand, and Ke Xi turned his head the moment the light came on.Li Zhaowei reached out and grabbed Ke Xi's wrist, and there was another sharp pain in his shoulder.He gritted his teeth, trying to turn Kosh around, but Kosh looked at the door very stubbornly, a stubborn muscle tensed in his neck.

"Look at me." Li Zhaowei said in a low voice.

Kosh turned his head slowly.He cried, his deep black eyes were full of tears, and his eyelashes were glued into black silk lines by tears, like the dirty eyeliner melted away by sweat when they first met.The cheeks and the tip of the nose were suspiciously red, and even a large group of allergy-like red spots appeared on the neck.

"And I'm homesick. My aunt and uncle are very good to me. If I don't go back, she will be worried."

He knows that sometimes, when facing the truth, he chooses to lie, not because he is confident that the logic of the lie is complete, but to give the conversation an excuse to move forward.It's just that under the steps of others is a flat land of indifference, but under his steps is a cliff with no bottom to be seen.

Ke Xi once said that he could not imagine the life without him, how could he imagine the life without Ke Xi.Next to the eccentric neighbors every day, in the polite Bailu Middle School, in the hostile 33 Middle School, in the noisy and small life, only Ke Xi knows that his hands are stained with blood, and he can hug him without any worries.

Kosi suddenly leaned over to gag his mouth, wrapping his hands around his neck.His figure is a little smaller than boys of the same age, and it seems that he can fit into his arms tightly when hugged tightly.Touching Koshi's back was like stroking his own chest through his clothes.

The heart is beating under the hands, and the touching skin is painful because of burning. If every complete person was cut in half before birth, and spent his whole life looking for the missing self, then when it was Li Zhaowei's turn, this knife would surely He didn't chop off neatly, but he dug out a piece of the human figure in the chest inch by inch.

"Don't leave, or your legs will be broken." Li Zhaowei said in a low voice.

Ke Xi chuckled, his thin chest and Li Zhaowei's heart vibrated together: "We can see each other at ordinary times, we are in the next class, we have many opportunities to get together, we go to recite vocabulary together between classes..."

"You can also recite vocabulary at my house." Li Zhaowei said.

Ke Xi wanted to say something, but when he opened his mouth, he said a completely different sentence: "I'm going to wait for takeaway at the gate of the community."

Li Zhaowei was startled: "Isn't it going to be sent to the lobby?"

Ke Xi's eyes flickered, and finally he only showed a smile. He slowly and unresistingly opened his hands around his waist, and said again: "I'm going to wait for the takeaway at the gate of the community. Just wait a moment, okay?" ."

Understanding what he meant, Li Zhaowei felt a thin layer of tears welling up in his eyes.He blinked hard, trying to hold back the layer of tears, but the tears seemed to have their own consciousness, lingering in the eye sockets and refusing to go away, like a convex lens, blurring the whole world.

"I don't eat, I don't want to eat anything. I'm not hungry. Don't go, you said, you will stay with me."

"I didn't." Ke Xi said, "What I said was, if my uncle and aunt bought me with money, I would definitely choose money and leave you. Have you forgotten?"

Li Zhaowei was silent for a moment.He knew he might regret it, he was sure he would, but he couldn't care less about it now.He reached under the pillow and felt the hard, cold, finger-sized stainless steel cylinder.

"Okay, I understand, but at least play this thing with me one more time, okay?"