guarding you for seven years

No matter how many times I go back to the past, I still choose to meet you, even if I can't accompany you to the future, even if my body is covered with bruises, even if my heart is full of pain, even if I have nightmares, these seven years are already everything in my life. ---summer green

the first year

It was a summer, Xia Lu stepped into the high school gate, the sun was dazzling, Xia Lu stood in front of the teaching building, a little disgusted and a little embarrassed.What disgusts her is that her father got her into this famous experimental middle school in the city, but what makes her sad is that this middle school really deserves its reputation, and the teaching buildings are like this... Xia Lu squinted her eyes and started searching for words to describe the teaching in front of her. building.

Xia Lu walked into the campus slowly, feeling a little dazed and melancholy. She would rather enter an ordinary high school than this experimental middle school, but her father's order was inevitable.

However, this middle school did bring her an unforgettable touch of green in this life, and it also took away the happiest years of her youth.

The day I met Xiao Zi, it was raining heavily. It was almost September, and it still rained all the time. Xia Lu stood under the screen of the newsroom to hide from the rain. Seeing Xiao Zi's distressed appearance, Lu handed her coat to Xiao Zi without hesitation. The two strangers met in this heavy rain, and Xia Lu was always wondering why she gave Xiao Zi the coat. Zi, this question troubled her throughout her high school years, but Xia Lu thought countless times that even if she did it again and again, she would still pass the clothes to Xiao Zi, even if she would be bruised and bruised by this person in her later life.

Xiao Zi took the coat in surprise, and said thank you softly.

It rained heavily for nearly half an hour, except for Xiao Zi's thank you, the two of them were relatively speechless. Xia Lu was a quiet girl and didn't think there was anything wrong with such an atmosphere, but Xiao Zi was a rambunctious one. My child, this half hour has suffocated her, she really wants to chat with Xia Lu, but she has a very strange feeling that makes her dare not be presumptuous, Xiao Zi always sneaks at Xia Lu, thin, She's not very tall either, she's a bit dark, and she wears braces. She's really not a pretty girl, but Xia Lu has a pair of beautiful almond eyes, which make her featureless facial features shine.Xia Lu turned her head and found Xiao Zi looking at her. She blinked her round almond eyes, as if asking Xiao Zi with her eyes, what are you looking at?Xiao Zi felt a little embarrassed, "What's your name?"

"Xia Lu." Xia Lu's name stimulated Xiao Zi's ears, just these two words made Xiao Zi a little excited, "Xia Lu? My name is Xiao Zi, you are green, and I am purple." Xiao Zi It seemed to open the chatter box, asking Xia Lu's class, Xia Lu's dormitory, Xia Lu's home, in short, she was the one who asked, and after Xia Lu answered, she was answering her own question again.

This year, a rain, a coat, the two girls met on this campus, and the story of youth began.

Xiao Zi's academic performance is good, and he is in the key class, while Xia Lu's grades are average, and he came in through connections, so he can only be assigned to the ordinary class. Coincidentally, Xiao Zi's dormitory and Xia Lu's dormitory are Diagonally opposite the door.

Xiao Zi and Xia Lu became more and more acquainted, and they often stayed in Xia Lu's dormitory. Where there is Xia Lu, there must be Xiao Zi, and where there is Xiao Zi, Xia Lu is indispensable.

"Xia Lu, the midterm exam will be next month. After the exam, you will be divided into different classes. You should take the exam well and work hard to come to our class." Xiao Zi ate ice cream, and the two sat on the steps in front of the teaching building. Lu sat slightly back, looking at Xiao Zi's side face, a little dazed, and his brain began to wander. "Xia Lu?" Xiao Zi didn't hear the other party's reaction, turned around and saw Xia Lu, and found that Xia Lu was staring at herself in a daze, shaking her hand in front of her eyes, Xia Lu came back to her senses, and said yes.Xiao Zi heard the answer she wanted, and smiled at Xia Lu like a flower.At that moment, one person laughed, but the other person trembled.

In the following days, the two of them stayed together except sleeping and going to class. Xiao Zi would go to Xia Lu's class to tutor her in the evening self-study. In order for Xia Lu to get good grades in the exam, Xiao Zi really After all the hard work, Xia Lu's basics are not bad. In most cases, this girl is lazy to use her brain, but for Xiao Zi, Xia Lu seems to have no resistance. Xia Lu will listen to what Xiao Zi says.

Every time Xiao Zi whispered the exercises to Xia Lu, Xia Lu would always stare at Xiao Zi's lips, exhaling lightly, with a pleasant smell of jasmine, and even the pores on Xiao Zi's face. Everyone will feel good, but at this time, the outside world is always silent about Xia Lu, except for the faint fragrance of Xiao Zi, Xia Lu can't feel anything. I can't find the east, west, north and south.

Of course Xiao Zi would feel Xia Lu's gaze, and at this moment, she would pat Xia Lu's head without hesitation to interrupt Xia Lu's fugue.This is what Xia Lu hates the most, but she can only endure it, and can't have any seizures.Xiao Zi would seriously criticize Xia Lu for not being serious every time, and then asked Xia Lu to do the topic again, and Xia Lu always wrote out the process and answers accurately. After seeing the results, Xiao Zi He would always smile triumphantly, thinking that he was still very good, teaching such a stupid Xia Lu very well.What Xia Lu likes most is Xiao Zi's proud smile at this time, which makes Xia Lu feel that there is really such a touch of green that warms her heart.

In the mid-term exam, Xia Lu did well in the exam, Xiao Zi decided to take Xia Lu out to play as a reward.If it's going out to play, it's nothing more than letting Xia Lu go shopping with her.In the northern city, the weather in November is relatively cold. Xiao Zi and Xia Lu queued up in the food street for a long time, and finally waited for Xiao Zi’s favorite conch powder. Xiao Zi ate it happily, but Xia Lu didn’t Move your chopsticks, Xia Lu can't eat spicy food, but this conch powder is very spicy, Xiao Zi urged Xia Lu to taste it, Xia Lu looked at Xiao Zi's bright and expectant eyes, she couldn't bear to refuse, and threw a whole bowl of conch powder finish eating.

In the evening, Xia Lu stayed at Xiao Zi's house. Xiao Zi's parents were very enthusiastic and made a lot of delicious food, but Xia Lu couldn't eat anything, and her stomach hurt badly.

Xia Lu lay powerlessly on Xiao Zi's bed, her face was pale, and her forehead was dripping with cold sweat. Xiao Zi's mother found stomach medicine for Xia Lu to take, but the pain was still severe. Xiao Zi blamed herself and sat by the bed, hating herself Xia Lu shouldn't let Xia Lu eat conch powder with her during the day.Xia Lu weakly comforted Xiao Zi, "It's okay, just sleep and you'll be fine tomorrow." Xiao Zi didn't laugh like in the past, but lay quietly beside Xia Lu, rubbing Xia Lu gently with his hands. Lu's belly, to relieve Xia Lu's pain.

The two of them cuddled tightly together, which made Xia Lu a little nervous and unnatural, her body was so stiff, Xiao Zi thought that Xia Lu was in more pain, so she started crying softly, the soft sobs frightened her Xia Lu, Xia Lu grabbed Xiao Zi's soft hand, and said eagerly: "I don't feel pain anymore, it really doesn't hurt anymore, don't cry." Seeing Xia Lu's cute and flustered look, Xiao Zi burst into tears And laugh.

That night, when Xiao Zi fell asleep, his hand was still on Xia Lu's stomach.But Xia Lu couldn't fall asleep for a long time, Xiao Zi's quiet breathing filled the night and beat Xia Lu's heart.The moonlight shone on Xiao Zi's face through the window, Xia Lu couldn't help raising her hand, and gently touched the sleeping man's face.Xia Lu seemed to realize something, but this thought frightened her, and she who was always calm began to become agitated.She quickly took her hand away and looked at the person who was still asleep, but she was in a cold sweat.

Happiness comes in an instant and flows away in an instant.

Xia Lu successfully entered the key class, and the teacher couldn't believe it. This girl who usually doesn't talk much and has no sense of presence can get such a result in the test.

Xia Lu entered the key class, and Xiao Zi was the happiest, as if watching her achievements being displayed in front of everyone.

Since that night, Xia Lu has entered the fear of self-entanglement. She clearly knows that her feelings for Xiao Zi are not only good friends, but also feel ashamed. She wants to avoid Xiao Zi, but Xiao Zi will not let Xiao Zi She avoids, Xia Lu needs to accompany her when going to the bathroom, Xia Lu needs to accompany her when eating, and she has to sit next to Xia Lu for a while after 10 minutes of class. The girl became the same table directly.

Xia Lu is tortured by this self-entanglement every day, and Xiao Zi is still discussing with Xia Lu's lower berth about changing dormitories and berths. Fortunately, the school stipulates that it is not allowed to change dormitories casually, and Xia Lu feels that she is going to have a nervous breakdown. No, now her world is full of Xiao Zi, Xiao Zi, Xiao Zi.It was Xiao Zi when she opened her eyes, and it was still Xiao Zi when she closed her eyes. Xia Lu felt that she was really going crazy.

"Xia Lu, why do you eat so little? Have you lost weight recently? Eat more." Xiao Zi put most of the pork ribs on her dinner plate onto Xia Lu's plate. Ribs, swallowed, I really can't eat recently, I only eat a few mouthfuls every time I eat, wasting a lot of food, Xia Lu really wants to refuse, but she can't open her mouth, especially when facing Xiao purple.Xia Lu forced herself to finish eating all the food on the dinner plate. Xiao Zi looked at the empty dinner plate with satisfaction, and happily took Xia Lu's hand back to the dormitory. Just after leaving the cafeteria, Xia Lu felt her stomach was churning , Feeling like throwing up, Xia Lu hurriedly walked to the bathroom, Xiao Zi followed Xia Lu without knowing it.

Xia Lu vomited everything she had eaten at noon, and Xiao Zi was terrified, "Are you stupid? If you can't eat it, just let it go. Why are you forcing yourself to finish it? I vomited everything now, isn't it uncomfortable?" Dead." Xiao Zi looked at Xia Lu who was pale.

"Because you want me to finish eating, so I must finish eating. I will never refuse your request." Xia Lu really wanted to say this, but she just opened her mouth without making any sound.

Xia Lu is still struggling with her feelings for Xiao Zi, and the final exam is coming as scheduled.

"Xia Lu, it's winter vacation. If you don't see me for the whole vacation, don't miss me too much." Xiao Zi sorted out her bags, and Xia Lu stood quietly by the door, watching Xiao Zi busy.

This holiday came just in time, Xia Lu just needed a space without Xiao Zi to calm down.

During the holidays, Xiao Zi would often call and tell Xia Lu about her amusing things. Xia Lu occasionally raised her own opinion, and Xiao Zi would always be amused by Xia Lu's wit.Just after midnight on the first day of the new year, Xiao Zi's phone rang, "Happy New Year Xia Lu, I'm setting off fireworks here, do you have any?" Xiao Zi's voice was full of joy and excitement.

Xia Lu looked out of the window, the fireworks were gorgeous, just like Xiao Zi's smiling face.Xia Lu finally understood, and finally admitted that she likes Xiao Zi, and that Xiao Zi is always around her, which makes her feel a different sense of security.

After a holiday, Xia Lu was no longer entangled, but she was even more afraid to face Xiao Zi calmly.

At the beginning of the new semester, Xia Lu's final grades were very bad, and she was transferred back to the regular class. Xiao Zi was stunned for a moment.Some students in the class were laughing, some were watching the fun, and some pretended it didn't happen. Xia Lu was not very sociable, and besides Xiao Zi, she didn't have any other friends.

Xiao Zi burst into tears, and she came out of the regular class, enjoying the scenery.It's a shame to go back from the key class.However, Xia Lu didn't have much reaction. It was a pity that she looked at Xiao Zi when she couldn't attend class.

Xiao Zi held Xia Lu's hand tightly, "Xia Lu, I will let you come back for the midterm exam." The corners of Xia Lu's lips raised slightly, "Okay." Leave your own things.

Xia Lu became thinner and thinner, and her appetite became less and less. Finally, she felt like vomiting when she saw food. When Xia Lu’s weight dropped to 70 catties, Xiao Zi felt that something was wrong. She asked her mother Doctor friend, it may be anorexia.

Xia Lu knew that her physical condition was really overwhelmed, so she asked for leave to go home without Xiao Zi saying goodbye.Back home, my mother was frightened by Xia Lu. Xia Lu, who had not been home for more than a month, was so thin that only her bones were left. Her mother took Xia Lu to the hospital for an examination, and it turned out that she was suffering from anorexia.

Xia Lu spent the next month in the hospital, missed the midterm exam, and failed to return to key classes.This time, Xia Lu missed an appointment with Xiao Zi because of anorexia.

This is the first year when Xia Lu met Xiao Zi, because of this person she suffered from anorexia, because of this person's grades fluctuated up and down, because of this person's insomnia for countless days and nights, because of this person she began to hate herself, and because of this For the first time, Ren'er let himself have the idea of ​​spending his whole life together.

That year, Xia Lu was 15 years old and Xiao Zi was 15 years old.

The author has something to say: a lot of support for the publication of the new book