[Black Basket] Hello, world

People know themselves through self-definition, romantic or realistic.

In the past, I was an extremely idealized existence due to too much depression. In order to resist the orders that I had to obey, I did anything that would make the fixed crowd unpleasant within the bottom line, even if I didn't want to do it.I am deeply disappointed to have become verbal friends with some strange people.We smoked and drank together to damage our young bodies, slept in class to make up for the consumption of staying up late, and even formed a band to sing on the street.

I know that these people have the same throbbing heart as mine, which is bound in chains and forced into the dark room.In order to wake it up, even if it can only take a breath of ideal air, we do some cool and romantic things and perform them perfectly.I don't know, these behaviors bring more pain to myself and my loved ones, and most of the behaviors themselves are just the product of pure self-consciousness expansion.In order to gain short-term freedom, one has to endure a longer period of suffocation.I thought I was swimming fast, but I was actually sinking in a bottomless pool.

But one thing I didn't understand then, and probably don't understand now, was I happy?Do I take ideal solace from all the deviant, that this is how my life should be?The only thing that is certain is that strong emotions are continuously sent to the brain, rushing through the blood, every molecule is screaming, jumping into the fire in my chest, and being cast into colorful iron blocks.It slowly solidified and made me gradually ignore everything, including people's emotions.

until I met her.

She is somewhat similar to Bai, very cute, and when she smiles, she will reveal two shallow pear dimples.At that time, she was entangled by her ex-boyfriend, and her hair was grabbed and pressed to the garden and pressed to the brick wall.In the first week of high school, I came to this secret garden for the first time, alone.

"What are you doing?" I skipped the thinking stage, rushed forward, grabbed the boy's collar and pulled it back violently.The girl squatted on the ground, and the boy glared at me with an angry face. He was obviously frightened by my unexpected interruption. Few people arrived at school so early.

"You take care of yourself." He looked at the girl, almost gritted his teeth, and then gave me a quick glance, fleeing from the weed-lined garden path.

The sophomore girl's expression was almost crying, her voice trembling.Well, I don't know if everything she revealed is true or not, even though I can reproduce the scene of that encounter now, I still won't change my decision.

"It's fine." I turned and left.The good mood of the early morning is gone, and I don't have the energy to coax a crying person.

Who knew that I was entangled by her, now let me recall the process of becoming a close friend with her, I really don't know how to describe myself back then, was a black cloth covered in front of my eyes?A few days later, she came to my class, and then blocked the door of my class at noon every day. I was very impatient at first, but then I got used to it. Seeing her smile, watching her smile after eating very spicy food Strange expression—biting his lower lip with his mouth pouted, his round eyes narrowed, and his light eyebrows raised to both sides.I would lean over and pinch her face, or flick her forehead, and then I would think, this is really a pure and lovely girl.Now, I think, if I had another chance to see her, I would make her regret that she had a face that was too cute and looked too different.Readers, don't worry, I'm a gentleman who only punches people in the face who hate me.

After so long, the tone of talking about this matter can be so relaxed that it seems that it has not caused much impact, the wound is scarred, and it has been wrapped in wheat flour and fried many times.For a while, during the days and nights when I couldn't see the world clearly even if I opened my eyes, I kept replaying it all, re-examining the whole process from the beginning to the betrayal.God, how can I see both sides of her as a friend, I hope that doesn't affect my family too much, but think about it.I told her all the things that no one told her, and she was about to print it into a booklet and distribute it to the whole school. If she did this step, it would be worth mentioning.Rumors are as terrible as hammers, swords and arrows.

Reason finally enters the stomach on an empty stomach, and it is so delicious that I have no friends. This also relies on my previous family education. I used to pursue romanticism while adhering to strict regulations.

Whether I like or dislike a person, I won’t say it directly, and always keep a certain distance from them. I was going to reluctantly abide by these rules. enough.

"I'll come and fetch you home, remember we always loved you," said the father, leaving Rain out of sight.

Life is a ship drifting on the sea, we are sailors, risking being swept into the deep sea by the storm, trying everything to return to Ithaca, staying on the island of Circe, and being attacked by magic for a short time, I waited with pent-up hopes, never thinking that life with the professor would be so fulfilling and make me normal again.

In order to make everyone's life better, I took the lead in entering the stage of work. After two changes in the language environment and the impact of textbooks that I could not understand at all, but after knowing the basic characters, I found that it was easy. I am not satisfied with these, the year of self-study for earning money is very worthwhile.And in those two months, I wondered if my pace was too fast. The current focus is whether to choose ordinary high school life or simply use it as a springboard to enter university.

I chose the former, because of flowers and white, and for the last youth I can enjoy, the sincere friendship between friends.I allowed myself to accept the feelings that came in, not just to smile at innocent kids, so they said I had changed.

Life went on peacefully, going about its normal course until I got a letter after my midterm.

After the test, there will be bonuses for the top three. Although there are not many, this is one of the reasons why I came to Yangquan. There are always generous scholarships for students after exams, school activities, and the end of the school year.It was a novel experience for me, who had never worried about money before, to want it.

When I arrived at school early, I saw that my name was at the top of the list. It was not full, and several catalysts for the formation process were missing from the chemistry paper. I was so sad.Hua is in the top twenty, Bai is in the middle, and I am a little concerned about the big purple-haired man in the back seat.I was a little surprised by the good grades of the tenth year old. I was eating snacks during class, but I was not used to hearing the sound of tearing the packaging bags and brittle things.Generally, when boys get good grades, their parents always classify it as a talent. On the contrary, when girls get good grades, their parents always say it is the result of hard work. I don’t know much about girls. unknown.It must be very hard to stay up late at night to study after training in the afternoon every day.

The professor hasn't come back yet, and it's said that the application procedures this time are more troublesome than expected, but they finally left some time for Leon and me to prepare.Most of the new children, especially those brought back by the professor, have suffered severe psychological trauma. Leon said that the first time I saw him, I couldn't believe there was such a calm child.

That morning, I arrived at school without breakfast, and went on a long-distance run for an hour of reading.The anthology of Borges' poems was so attractive that I sat under the pavilion unwilling to move half a step, and waited until a large number of students came to school with a large glass of water.

Go to the door of the teaching building and open the shoe cabinet. In addition to the slippers, there is a piece of folded white paper lying quietly.After I changed my slippers, I picked up the white paper, looked at both sides, and then opened it. The A4 white paper was folded four times, but it didn't curl up, indicating that it was pressed tightly, and it might be caught in a thick book.

The side I looked at first had no words, but there were pen marks. The person who wrote the note wrote so heavily that it almost scratched the paper.

Turn it over, there is only one sentence on the paper, written in the middle.It says:

Hello, Xue, I'm Jiayun.

I quickly browsed it more than ten times, read it silently, and confirmed that it was written in Chinese.

The blood coagulates, as if the tactile sensation of the cold needle tip resting on the skin is constantly rising. On the contrary, there is a buzzing brain, tinnitus, dizziness, and difficulty breathing.

"Good morning, Snow."

I turned around, the sound of my heart beating drowned out all other sounds, and the figures in front of me became frames of film, dizziness, dizziness, and bouts of dizziness came back and forth in two seconds, the only place my body felt before I lost consciousness was my forehead, He had never hit someone so weakly before, the warmth dissipated through his shirt before reaching his heart.

The author has something to say: Ma Ma is not Lesbian.

Will the description of being so delicious that you have no friends violate harmony?

*The analogy of the hammer, sword and sharp arrow comes from the compulsory subjects from the second year of high school in Yangquan, and some people are selected to go to the church every week to listen to the pastor's explanation.

*The name is Rain and Snow.

* Ithaca (hometown), Circe Island (return blocked by magic) from "Odyssey".

There is no update before September (probably) because I want to move to a place where there are no Internet cafes (so cold)