Qing Yan

At sunset, the attendants of Kuntai Palace turned on the lamps, and the whole palace was instantly enveloped in a halo.

"Wuyou, take a rest, don't tire your eyes." Jing Yan stopped writing and said.

Yu Wenrui is good at what he does.She propped herself up from the desk, looked at the scriptures in lower script that she had copied by the light in the room, and she was quite satisfied.

"What kind of person is Yan'er's mother?" Yu Wenrui asked suddenly.

Jing Yan thought for a while and said, "I was young when my mother passed away, and I didn't even have an impression of her voice and smile."

Yu Wenrui said regretfully: "You are so pitiful! I have never seen my mother..."

She changed the subject and said again: "I have heard people say that the British Duke and his late wife are deeply in love with each other. After the lady passed away, she didn't even accept a concubine, and the huge British government has only one concubine. And the Duke of England has no intention of righting her at all."

That side wife is the biological mother of the second son of the Jing family.Jing Yan is quite satisfied with his father's point. Thinking about it, few men in the world can be like his father, right?

Everyone said that Mr. Yingying was a strange man, and he sacrificed his dignity to marry Duan's parents and daughters; everyone said that Mrs. Duan was very lucky. Ken will stay alone for her forever.

However, my father had a wife after all, and there was a deceased wife before my mother. It seems unreasonable to say that he only took a scoop for the mother's weak water.The concept of the world is often like this, a woman is "loyalty" and "righteousness" if she stays alone for her deceased husband; Praise it.

Is the world too harsh on women?

"From childhood to adulthood, I often heard stories about the love between my father and mother." Jing Yan smiled lightly.

"I think Yan'er's mother must be gentle and strong, and her appearance is enough to be called a person who can overwhelm a country and a city?" Yuwen Ruixiao thought about Mrs. Duan's appearance, and his eyes fell on Jing Yan's face, "Yan My son's temperament and appearance must be very similar to your mother!"

"You would think so!" Jing Yan said angrily.

She caressed the scriptures she had copied in front of her, and said with emotion: "Among men, father can be regarded as an affectionate person. But, the word love, after all..."

She hesitated.

"What happened?" Yu Wenrui heard that there was a lot in her words, so how could she not ask?

Jing Yan looked at her steadfastly, and after a while, Fang suddenly said: "Wuyou, I saw Granny Yao today..."

"Where is it?" Yu Wenrui's eyes widened in shock.

"Outside the imperial mausoleum divine way, when I passed by, she was looking... in the direction of Yongling."

"She went to see the queen mother..." Yu Wenrui felt incredible.

"Well, I think she went there to mourn her mother." Jing Yan nodded.

"How is it possible? She's not here..." Yu Wenrui pointed to his head, "...is it broken already?"

Jing Yan sighed: "She is fine...she was already well when she left the palace."

"Then she still left her mother? Did she lose her memory? Don't she know her mother?"

Jing Yan comforted Yu Wenrui and said, "Wuyou, don't worry, listen to me slowly."

"It turned out to be like this!" Yu Wenrui sighed after hearing Jing Yan's narration.

"Poor mother, I have loved her all my life, and she has let her down so much in the end!" Yu Wenrui sighed.

But Jing Yan disagreed: "In matters of feelings, there is no way to say who has failed whom. In terms of disappointment, isn't Aunt Shi the one who has been disappointed?"

"I actually forgot, Granny Yao and your mother are also..." Yu Wenrui was halfway through, not knowing how to describe it.

"Everything is fate, you can't help it at all!" Jing Yan said sadly, "But I admire Aunt Shi's decision even more..."

Seeing Yu Wenrui's suspicious expression, Jing Yan said again: "Aunt Shi knows that she has been in a coma for 20 years, and her medical skills have been used by Yu Wen Chengji to do evil, how many people have been harmed! If it were me, even when I was unconscious After doing these evil things, what she thinks after waking up must be to kill herself to thank the world. However, Aunt Shi has the courage to vow to spend the rest of her life traveling all over the world to save as many people as possible in order to atone for her sins. To do so is to live every day In the pain of self-blame, it takes far more courage than dying!"

"It is indeed a strange woman..." Yu Wenrui said to himself, "It's just that if she hadn't left, the queen mother wouldn't have been like this."

Jing Yan stared at her, knowing that she was saddened by the death of the Empress Dowager.In fact, my feelings for the Empress Dowager are not complicated?

"Worriless," Jing Yan pulled Yu Wenrui's hand, "Aunt Shi loves, not the queen mother, if she is forced to stay in the palace, she will not be happy."

"If you don't love, you don't love, and you can't force it anyway." Jing Yan said again.

Yu Wenrui was moved, climbed onto Jing Yan's hand, and interlocked her fingers, "Yan'er! What would happen if you didn't fall in love with me?"

Jing Yan was startled, he didn't expect her to ask this question.

"I didn't think about it," Jing Yan answered very seriously, "I think my heart has been close to you many years ago, but I didn't know it at that time. I imagined No, what would happen if I hadn't fallen in love with you..."

Before she finished speaking, she let out a low cry, and it turned out that Yu Wenrui had already hugged her tightly in her arms.Jing Yan was only surprised for a moment, then relaxed his body and leaned softly on Yu Wenrui's shoulder.

"How lucky am I to be in love with you?" Yu Wenrui sighed sincerely in her ear.

How could I not be lucky to be in love with you?

Jing Yan said silently in his heart, he just felt that there is nothing more joyful in life than this.

The two hugged each other quietly and enjoyed it for a while, Jing Yan pushed Yu Wenrui away first, and straightened his messy temple hair.

Yu Wenrui refused to just let her go, and simply hugged her, let her sit on his lap, and wrapped her hands tightly around her soft waist.

Jing Yan had never been hugged by her like this before, and she blushed immediately, and shook lightly.

"Be good, there is no one else, just follow me..." Yu Wenrui whispered in her ear pitifully.

When Jing Yan heard the phrase "follow me", his body became numb.Soft, so she had to go.

Yu Wenrui was overjoyed, and he put his chin on Jing Yan's shoulder in a hurry, wrapped one arm around her, and wrapped the other around her hair to play with.

Jing Yan looked at Yu Wenrui's obsessed appearance, and recalled the past ten years. Apart from his heartbeat, he felt a sense of joy in his heart, as if the two of them had gone through untold hardships and hardships and finally achieved today's true fruit.The years are quiet and Ruosi, and the pain that I have experienced in the past is nothing to think about.

"Worriless, there is something I want to tell you." Jing Yan said.

Seeing her solemn expression, Yu Wenrui stopped the movements of her hands, and said seriously, "Speak, I'll listen."

"That day, when my mother was dying, she called me to the bed alone..." Jing Yan fell into memory.

When Yu Wenrui heard the words, he straightened his back awe-inspiringly: Yan'er is going to say...

"The queen mother told me at the time that she knew that once she left, she would not be able to stop me from being with you. She said that even if she couldn't stop me, she would not approve of me and you in her heart..." Jing Yan said His voice trembled, as if he was experiencing great torture in his heart.

Yu Wenrui felt distressed seeing her, held her hand, and stroked it gently.

Jing Yan felt a little more courageous, and continued: "She said, Zhe... the spirit of the late emperor in heaven, would never recognize us!"

Yu Wenrui sighed, she didn't know whether it was because she felt sorry for Jing Yan's enduring suffering, or because she felt that the Empress Dowager didn't understand her own daughter, she hugged her tightly and said softly: "My sister has a spirit in the sky, she will be happy that we are together Yes. She cares about you so much, why is she willing to spend the rest of your life alone? "

She said "sister", not "Xiandi", not "Emperor Sister", Jing Yan was very relieved: "I understand Zhe, she will be happy when we are together."

Yu Wenrui leaned over and kissed her hair lightly: "What else did the queen mother say?"

The last thing to say is the most hurtful, right?Yu Wenrui is clear.

Jing Yan's eyes were red, "The queen mother said, my mother, the spirit in heaven, will never forgive me for doing such a thing that insults her old man's reputation, saying that my mother will be ashamed of me!"

Yu Wenrui couldn't help shivering: what a curse this is!Knowing that Yan'er lost her mother when she was young, and she has a deeper bond with her mother than ordinary people, yet she said such words!

"So, you can't take it anymore?"

"Yes," Jing Yan replied honestly, "Even if I believe that my mother has a spirit in the sky and won't blame me, when I think of my mother, I still..."

Yu Wenrui was sour when he heard it, "The empress mother is so wise, and the heroes of the girls are nothing more than that, why can't you think about it at the last moment?"

Jing Yan looked sad.

"Yes," Yu Wenrui asked himself and answered, "She was bound by love all her life, and she couldn't get rid of it. In the end, she was abandoned by the person she loved deeply. No wonder it is so."

As she spoke, she caressed Jing Yan and said, "Everything is over."

Jing Yan raised his face slightly, met her eyes, his eyes were red, and said softly: "Yes, everything is over."

The two people are very close, they breathe and hear each other, thinking about the impermanence of the world, the one they love is actually the one who loves themselves, there is no more fortunate thing in the world than this, suddenly they feel that the other party is more and more cute and amiable, and their eyes are glued to each other Even more lingering, entangled in one place, there is me in you, and you in me, no one can separate.

I don't know who took the initiative, maybe there is a strong longing in the hearts of the two people, attracting each other like a magnet, until their lips meet, tossing and exploring, it seems that they want to engulf each other's soul.

A kiss.

Yu Wenrui still felt that he was not satisfied, and Jing Yan was already weak.

Yu Wenrui hugged her soft and delicate body, and said with a smile, "Yan'er is so delicate, how can I bear more in the future?"

Jing Yan naturally knew what she was teasing, so he was ashamed and said angrily, "What are you talking about!"

Yu Wenrui blinked at her, and said with a smile: "I didn't talk nonsense! For several months in a row, you have neglected me so much, my heart is so sad that it is almost bleeding out! In the future, you still have to make up for it! I?"

Jing Yan gritted her teeth, knowing what her so-called "compensation" was.

Yu Wenrui was afraid that he would really annoy her, so he accepted it as soon as he saw it, and changed the topic: "Thank you for being able to bear it, this matter is bored in your heart. After a long time, you still don't get sick from boredom?"

Jing Yan sighed: "Originally, I didn't want to tell you about this in my whole life!"

"why?"

"The queen mother is the queen mother after all, not to mention that she is gone? I thought that it would be enough for me to know alone. Even if you are annoyed and I refuse to tell you, it will gradually fade away over time..."

"You also know that I'm annoying you?" Yu Wenrui snorted, "Then why are you thinking about it again today?"

Jing Yan nestled in her arms, "It was Aunt Shi who made me suddenly understand."

"Grandma Yao?"

"Well. I heard her talk about those past events and her plans, and suddenly realized that a hundred years of life is just a fleeting moment, and it is fleeting. How difficult is it to find someone who knows and understands? Regardless of others, just talk about mother, queen mother, and Aunt Shi. , none of the three of them got it, and decades of their lives have passed so suddenly, why bother?"

As Jing Yan said, he put his arms around Yu Wenrui's neck, and whispered in her ear: "So, I want to tell you, and even more, from now on, there will be no gap between you and me. I don't want to have a relationship between you and me in this life. Any regrets!"