Still in love [entertainment circle]

Seeing Song Yan's peach-like eyes, Yu Rao was stupefied.

She was holding a lipstick in her hand, her rose-colored lips were opened, revealing two rows of white teeth, and the branches of her smile trembled wildly.

"What can I use to wipe?" Yu Rao finished laughing, her willow eyes gleamed, she looked at Song Yan and said, "How about I wipe some with my mouth?"

This is a deliberate joke, Song Yan will be a fool if she can't hear it.

Her ears were hot, and she reached out her hand to touch her cheek, secretly hating herself for being dumb.

Eyes aimed at Yu Rao's mirror, inside was her slightly flushed face, like a... girl with a spring in her arms.

Seeing that Song Yan was shy, Yu Rao couldn't continue teasing her.

Standing up and moving the stool to the bed, Yu Rao sat on the bed by herself, then patted the stool, and said to Song Yan, "Come here."

Song Yan stood where she was, staring at Yu Rao's bright wrist that was slapped on the stool, hesitated for two seconds, and finally gave in, walked over and sat on the stool.

Song Yan's lips had just been put on makeup, so Yu Rao didn't use makeup remover, but directly dipped some moisturizing water on a cotton pad to help Song Yan remove her lip makeup.

After Song Yan sat down, Yu Rao approached Song Yan.Her slender legs were slightly spread, leaning against Song Yan's legs.

Yu Rao leaned forward, the distance between the two was relatively close, so close that Song Yan could see Yu Rao's slender eyelashes one by one.

Yu Rao first took a lip pencil and carefully outlined the contours of Song Yan's lips.

With one stroke, it becomes a rose-like red, which is in stark contrast with Song Yan's delicate and fair skin.

Song Yan sat on the stool, feeling happy and embarrassed, her emotions were very complicated.

Yu Rao traced it carefully, her lips parted slightly, and her mint-flavored breath sprayed onto the tip of Song Yan's nose.

The cool mint fragrance and the warmth on Yu Rao's lips formed a soft fragrance.

This fragrance is like a pair of smoky jade hands, hooking Song Yan, luring her to go to the happy place in the world that day.

After finishing liplining, Yu Rao used lipstick to fill in the color on her lips.

"Okay." After finishing the work, Yu Rao said with a slight smile on her lips.

Only then did Song Yan lean back and distance herself from Yu Rao.

"I contacted Mr. Chen yesterday, and he said that there is a class today. Originally, he asked me if I would like to experience the feeling of class. I can go back to school and listen to a class. I thought it was not good for you to show up, so I said that I would wait for him to finish class." We can chat for a little while."

"Did you tell him that I would go?" Yu Rao asked.

Song Yan shook her head: "No, I plan to give him a double surprise."

It was already nine o'clock in the morning when the two of them finished fiddling.

After going out, Song Yan went to a bun shop near her home to buy some buns and soy milk.

Yu Rao stood a little far away. She was wearing a mask and hat, and ice sleeves on her hands to cover her tightly. If she walked down the street with her head down, no one would recognize her.

After all, Yixiang's township is very small, who would have thought that such a small place would have a big star that almost everyone in the country knows?

The buns were still warm, and the two of them ate while walking, just like when they were young, they would buy two buns and eat while walking when they had no time to go to school.

Song's father and Song's mother were buried together, and a large cement floor was made into a coffin.

Putting up the tombstone and decorating it neatly is the home of Song's father and Song's mother.

"When I was young, I went to visit the graves of the older generation with my parents, but I couldn't find a cemetery. Because a year passed, the grass on the graves grew taller than me. Fortunately, the graves are all made of cement now, and there is no need to mow the grass. It's gone." Song Yan took out the prepared incense burner, burned a few incense sticks and lit it.

"Mom and Dad, it's been a long time since I saw Ah Rao. I brought her to see you today. You have spirits in the sky. You must bless us in good health and make Ah Rao's career smooth sailing." Song Yan clasped her hands together and said to the tombstone.

Yu Rao stood aside and watched Song Yan, and felt relieved when she saw that there was no worry between her brows.

Song Yan didn't say much, after paying respects to her parents, she quickly came over and asked Yu Rao, "Come here and tell me, is there anything you want to say to my parents?"

"Have you finished talking to your uncle and aunt so soon?" Yu Rao was a little puzzled.

Song Yan smiled and said, "What's the matter, I came back to see it when I was on vacation."

Time is a very effective medicine.After so many years, what should be let go has long been let go.

People want to move forward, and Song Yan has long overlooked this point.

Holding Yu Rao and crying that day was just a rare way of venting emotions.It's not that every time she mentions her parents, Song Yan always looks uneasy.

Yu Rao didn't feel the feeling of losing a close relative, and it was understandable that she couldn't understand Song Yan's heart.

Taking two steps forward, Yu Rao was walking towards the tombstone, and Song Yan made room for her to come over and say a few words.

Following Song Yan's palms together, Yu Rao closed her eyes and said, "Uncle and Auntie, long time no see. I'm so sorry that I haven't been able to spare time to see you for so long. I will visit you often when I have free time, please bless you." My sister and I will be able to go smoothly."

I didn't stay in front of the tombstone for a long time. In less than half an hour, the incense burned out as soon as the mountain wind blew.

The mountain was very quiet. If the two of them didn't talk, they could only hear the occasional chirping of birds and the sound of the wind blowing leaves.

However, in fact, there are far more creatures in this mountain than what they heard.

After collecting the things, the two of them prepared to go down the mountain.

On the way, I also met an old lady from a neighbor's house. She came to see her husband alone.

Song Yan remembers that when she was a child, she often saw two old people riding a small tricycle, the old lady sat behind and the old man rode in front, and the two old people were inseparable.

Like flying geese in the sky, there is a pair of geese for a lifetime, and now one is missing, which is unavoidably sad.

The old lady liked children very much. When she saw Song Yan and Yu Rao walking hand in hand, she would often take out some soft candies for them to eat.

Song Yan remembered that she had a tooth, which she ate because of the fudge given by the old lady.

As soon as she saw the old lady, Song Yan recognized her and called the old lady a few times before the other party came to her senses.

"Oh, your two sisters were still so young at that time." Seeing that it was Song Yan, the old lady came over to chat for a few words, and couldn't help but sighed with emotion: "Who would have thought that they are much taller than me now?" !"

"Old lady, how are you? Go up the mountain and find your son to accompany you!" Song Yan was afraid that the old lady might not hear clearly, so her words were almost the same as roaring.

The old lady smiled after hearing Song Yan's words, and the wrinkles on her face became deeper and deeper.

"Okay, don't worry about this."

As the old lady spoke, she took Song Yan and Yu Rao's hands with each other, clapped their hands together, and said, "Time really doesn't forgive people. You two have to be good, don't quarrel! "

Putting their palms together, Song Yan and Yu Rao froze at the same time, one left and one right, their faces turned sideways, and they naturally met their gazes.

It's a strange feeling to say the least.The old lady's old arm seemed to have a force.

After Song Yan and Yu Rao clapped their palms together, Song Yan felt something.It seems that the two will be able to hold this hand forever from now on, and they will never be separated from life to life.

She looked at Yu Rao, on Yu Rao's innocent face, her willow eyes were full of firmness.

The old lady's hand loosened, and Song Yan felt her hand being tightly held by Yu Rao.

She didn't intend to break free, but she didn't give Yu Rao any response either.

Her eyes were not as firm as Yu Rao's. After looking at each other for a while, Song Yan even looked away.

Yu Rao had a panoramic view of all Song Yan's expressions, and a pair of firm eyebrows flashed with hostility.

Yu Rao was angry, angry at Song Yan's weakness, and it was even more difficult to understand what Song Yan was shrinking from.

One thing is obvious, both of them know that they are interested in each other, they like each other, and there is a strong affection that cannot be dissipated!

However, there is always a thin layer of paper covering it, and they are the strangers they are most familiar with, and they can only stand at a certain distance and care about each other forever.

After saying goodbye to the old lady, Song Yan could clearly feel that Yu Rao was not in a good mood.Of course, she knew that she made Yu Rao angry.

But she really didn't dare to give Yu Rao any response, after all this is not a country where same-sex is legal.

If Yu Rao was like her, an ordinary office worker or a small citizen.

Then Song Yan might think, let's stay together, anyway, except for Yu Rao, she can't find a more beloved person in this life.

Even if you have to meet public opinion and opposition, it is nothing more than pressure from a few people.

Supported by the two, they can always go on.Isn't life still the same?

But Yu Rao is a star, a big star.Her public and private life is something people discuss after dinner.

When Song Yan was in the company, even if she didn't watch the entertainment news, she could learn about Yu Rao's deeds from many people.

People who like Yu Rao may immediately become people who hate her because she is relatively indifferent to someone, but such people are still relatively rare.

Some of Yu Rao's small mistakes will not be caught by people all the time, but what if Yu Rao is gay?

Back then she separated from Yu Rao because of the word "gay". If they got back together, Song Yan didn't know how long she could last.

I remember when I was in high school, the teacher gave a lecture, and what I learned that day was Qu Yuan's poems, because the word "beauty" always appeared in the poems.

The teacher explained that the "beauty" was referring to the monarch of the country where Qu Yuan was at that time, saying that Qu Yuan yearned to go back.

A male classmate raised his hand and asked if Qu Yuan was gay.

The teacher's answer was that there was no evidence that Qu Yuan was gay, but this possibility was not ruled out.

Most of the boys in the class said "it's disgusting".Song Yan remembered these "really disgusting" in her heart at that time.

Later when she went to university, she had established a relationship with Yu Rao, and got acquainted with the girls in the dormitory, but they were not very close, so she didn't tell about her relationship with the girls.

That summer, a girl who slept with me was washing clothes on the balcony, and suddenly sneaked in and said that two girls downstairs were kissing.

All the girls in the dormitory said in a grateful tone that they were not gay, except for her who pretended to be listening to music and studying.

But through the earphones, she heard the girl on the other bed say in a slightly gossiping tone, "Wouldn't it be disgusting for both of them to kiss?".

After that, Song Yan gave up the idea of ​​finding an opportunity to tell them about her sexual orientation.

During that time, she secretly called Yu Rao and tried not to have too much physical contact with other girls.

Her university is in the north, and she takes a bath in winter, but she has never been to the bathhouse once.

Obviously, the college entrance examination is over, and the schoolwork in the university is much easier.But she felt that despair was worse than the college entrance examination.

Later, I couldn't hold on anymore.

I don't want to be sneaky and shameless all my life, and I don't want to be called disgusting.He didn't want to suffer for himself, let alone Yu Rao.

Holding the mentality that long-term pain is worse than short-term pain, he proposed to break up with Yu Rao.

As a result, even today, eight years later, I still haven't gotten out of the pain I once suffered.

It would be great if she was a boy, or Yu Rao was a boy.

If it's not Qingmei and Qingmei, but childhood sweethearts, then they must be very happy now, right?

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