Miss, reach out

No.20 three beats: heart knot

After entering university, Xia Yanran found that she spent more and more time going out at night.In the past, she was a good girl, and she was satisfied with immersing herself in her own world every day, and she was not interested in the outside world.

But in college, there are often things that make her have to make choices, such as working part-time, such as going out at night.

Sui Yi once asked her why she was so diligent, and she still took a part-time job when she already had a lot of courses.Xia Yanran replied at the time that she wanted to make money because she wanted to buy small skirts and cosmetics.

In fact, it is not only because of the troubles of these ordinary girls, she is a person who even needs to pay the tuition fees by herself.

Fortunately, the tuition fee of W University is not high, and the major she chose is the least expensive in the art department. There are many people who go out to work part-time in the university. If she doesn't say anything, no one will doubt her motive.

So Sui Yi didn't know that Xia Yanran was busy with schoolwork and a part-time job, and also received a lot of commercial painting drafts.

She can be so exhausted during this time and can't do without her annoying clients.

Xia Yanran's family was not perfect, and her cowardly mother made her growth full of ups and downs.She finally grew up, and her mother finally left that suffocating family under her persuasion.

Xia Yanran never told anyone about these family affairs, she didn't want people to know about her incompetence, and she didn't want others to think that she was worthy of sympathy. The only person who knew about this was only one person.

That is Zhuang Fei.

Xia Yanran came to the place agreed with Zhuang Fei as promised, looking at the lakeshore where the two often came a year ago, she remembered that photo.

The photo that was taken to participate in the competition and eventually gave up.

And the ending of her and Zhuang Fei was also caused by this photo.

"Yan Ran, long time no see." A gentle girl came from behind, Xia Yanran turned her head and saw Zhuang Fei in uniform and the man standing beside Zhuang Fei.

That is Zhuang Fei's boyfriend, and also a partner in starting a business together.

Xia Yanran smiled lightly, her eyes soft.

"Long time no see, Senior Sister, and Senior Chen."

Chen Yueke nodded, Zhuang Fei patted his hand, the two looked at each other, and Chen Yueke's calm voice sounded.

"Talk, I'll come pick you up later."

Zhuang Fei: "Well, let's go." Before leaving, Zhuang Fei stepped on his feet and kissed Chen Yueke's side face, Chen Yueke also lowered his head in cooperation, stroked her hair, and left.

Xia Yanran was shown a face and shook her head helplessly.

"You are really a model couple, so loving."

"Haha, he's just trying to save me in front of others, but privately he keeps talking about my problems." Zhuang Fei shrugged, walked over and took Xia Yanran's hand, and said softly.

"Yan Ran, how are you doing lately?"

Xia Yanran smiled, looked past Zhuang Fei's face, and looked at the lake behind her, her eyes were stained with the rippling scene.

"I've been fine all along, otherwise why would I come out to see you."

Zhuang Fei looked at her quietly for a while, the corners of her mouth moved slightly, she lowered her head to look at the weeds on the ground, and only after a while did she suddenly say something.

"Yanran, what happened before is because I was sorry for you."

Xia Yanran didn't look at her, but her heart skipped a beat, she couldn't help but think: finally here she is.

She had already known what kind of person her senior was, and it was precisely because of her clear understanding that she fell in love with her without hesitation.

If Zhuang Fei said that he is not an upright person, then no one in this world is qualified to be upright.

Maybe she will be confused and troubled for a while, but when time passes, she will still choose the method that is most in line with her inner principles, and strive to achieve the rules in her heart, that is, not forgetting her original intention and sticking to morality.

When the incident broke out last year, so many people in the news agency felt worthless for Zhuang Fei, and so many people abused Xia Yanran behind the surface, Zhuang Fei didn't say a word.

Obviously because of her, Zhuang Fei lost the chance to participate in the competition. That competition was so important to Zhuang Fei who was preparing to start a business, but Zhuang Fei never blamed her.

This was the most gratifying thing for Xia Yanran during those days.

Comfort yourself, at least you didn't put your feelings on an unworthy person.

Zhuang Fei's words made Xia Yanran's past that she didn't want to mention vividly.

The first thing that comes to mind is the photo she took of Zhuang Fei by the lake.

As the sun was setting, Zhuang Fei stood in front of the lake and looked far away, which became the scenery in Xia Yanran's eyes.

Then when she handed over the work to the collector, she was very bloody, and someone turned to the photo album in the memory card, an album full of Zhuang Fei's photos.

Xia Yanran has two memory cards, one is used to store work photos, and the other is specially prepared for Zhuang Fei.

At this time last year, something happened to her family. She didn't have time to go back to school, so she asked her roommate to help send the memory card to the news agency. Unexpectedly, her roommate took the wrong memory card and exposed her secret.

This was a mistake, as long as Xia Yanran replaced the memory card in time, it would be fine.But God seemed to be teasing her, that day this memory card happened to be handed over to Du Juanming, and Du Juanming took this opportunity to use Xia Yanran's photo as a demonstration for those who were going to participate in the competition, the moment he clicked on the album, The big screen was full of Zhuang Fei's faces.

So it was spread out.

And then, when Xia Yanran came back exhausted, Zhuang Fei had already lost the qualification for the competition, and everyone in the news agency knew what she was thinking about Zhuang Fei.

As the president of the news agency, Zhuang Fei naturally has the ability to handle affairs. Because she wants to start a business, she has always had a goal. She is a top student and a celebrity in school.As soon as Xia Yanran's incident broke out, the school leaders immediately disqualified Zhuang Fei and Xia Yanran from the competition on the grounds that it would cause adverse effects.

At that time, Zhuang Fei had already made a lot of contacts, and the studio was slowly being established. She only needed a famous achievement to get the funds she needed to bet, but because of this incident, her sponsorship suddenly lost hope .

Without reassuring grades, no one in this society is willing to help you for free.

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In the end, it was Xia Yanran who influenced Zhuang Fei. Xia Yanran was accused and abused, and she was willing to do so.Only Zhuang Fei, she felt extremely ashamed.

Zhuang Fei didn't comment a word on this matter, and still dealt with club affairs as usual.And under Du Juanming and Xiaoyue's handling, the number of people who hurt Xia Yanran was reduced to the minimum as possible.

Wen Biyu was also in the club at the time, she knew Xia Yanran's thoughts a long time ago, although she looked down on her cowardly appearance every day, but when someone hurt Xia Yanran, she was the first to jump out and scolded those people bloody .

Because of this, many people also quit the club angrily, defending Zhuang Fei, and wantonly slandering Xia Yanran.

Xia Yanran watched all this in silence, and quit the club not long after returning to school.

She sent her mother to a mental hospital on her front foot, and her life was shrouded in great malice on her back foot.

During that time, she was alone in the dormitory. She didn't even want to answer Zhan Yajing's words. She didn't go to class for two weeks, and finally went to ask for two weeks' leave suddenly, packed her things, and took the last belongings , I went to Suzhou alone.

It was also at that time that she found that she could no longer pick up the camera.

She was originally attracted by Zhuang Fei's serious appearance immersed in front of the SLR, which made her want to learn photography.

Zhuang Fei accidentally learned about her family situation, took special care of her, and helped her a lot with tenderness, which made her fall into this tenderness completely, and developed feelings that she shouldn't have.

But now Zhuang Fei no longer contacted her, and she also caused Zhuang Fei to get into trouble, so she no longer dared to take Zhuang Fei to the bottom of her heart, and then she didn't have the courage to face photography.

As soon as she picked up the camera, she would think of Zhuang Fei telling them with a smile that as long as she got a ranking in the competition, she could get sponsorship. At that time, her eyes were bright and she was full of hope for the future.

Then the screen changed to Zhuang Fei walking out of the office with a pale face and no words.

Xia Yanran burst into tears, feeling increasingly disgusted with herself.

Why does her liking make the people she cares about so unfortunate.

How could she, who hurt Zhuang Fei like this, have the face to hold the camera and take pictures of those scenery.

She became more and more silent, but she was unwilling to completely abandon photography after all, so she began to try live broadcasting, recording her life and her state of mind live.

After all, people are kind to lovely people.On the Internet, she learns from others to shoot short videos, because she has photography and post-production foundation, her videos are pretty good, and people's kindness to her also makes her feel more relaxed.

Hearing that Zhuang Fei accepted Chen Yueke who had been chasing her for two years, Xia Yanran felt much better.

Fortunately, at this time, Chen Yueke was still willing to stand by Zhuang Fei's side. Fortunately, Zhuang Fei was guarded.

So she went back to school and started a life alone, no longer touching any past people and things, quietly earning money and studying, quietly doing what she can.

Her father didn't care about her long ago, and her mother went to a mental hospital. From then on, Xia Yanran needed to be self-reliant, so she chose to work part-time.

Then she met Sui Yi, a person she never wanted to get in touch with lightly.

The memory ends here, and there is a scene of Zhuang Fei bowing her head in front of her.

Seeing that Xia Yanran didn't speak, Zhuang Fei gave a wry smile and continued.

"No matter what, Yanran, you didn't do anything wrong, but at that time, to be honest, I was a little confused." Zhuang Fei paused, raised his head and looked deeply at Xia Yanran.

"Except for your thoughts... I think more, but I can't accept it. You will ruin me directly... No, I think this is because I want to find a reason to make myself feel better. In fact, I know it all. There's nothing wrong with that."

"Your intentions are not wrong, and it is not wrong for me to have such a scandal, but when things hit me, my first thought was, why, I have encountered such a thing, why did you shoot me, so I don't want to face you. When they insulted you, I pretended not to see it, and even felt relieved, and then let gossip hurt you unscrupulously. I... I know that you are also a victim, but I... …sorry……"

As she spoke, Zhuang Fei's eyes turned red, her voice was a little choked up, and she continued intermittently.

"Obviously I said to you members with righteous words, stick to the justice in your heart, and don't forget your original intention. But when you were hurt, I was selfish and only wanted to get my own comfort. I had an outlet to vent, and I was a victim. , follow these inexplicable momentum to hurt you, I..."

"Sister Feifei." Xia Yanran interrupted her suddenly, Zhuang Fei was taken aback by being called, and stared blankly at her with red and swollen eyes.

It's been a long time since she heard Xia Yanran call her that.

Xia Yanran's eyes were also moist, but it was not because of this apology, but because of admiration for Zhuang Fei's steadfastness.

In this age of materialism and indifference, how many people can have a clear conscience?How many people can not follow the trend and follow the so-called social rules?

The fact is that too many people have been crushed by life, they have long forgotten who they used to be, the passionate justice they once had, and become the person they hate the most.

Everyone needs to survive, and the beauty of human nature cannot maximize their benefits, and what they may bring may just be knocked down by reality again and again.

In the face of interests, who would stand on the side of morality for no reason?

Putting this matter on anyone, Xia Yanran may not stand here so peacefully. Zhuang Fei only needs to say that she has nothing to do with Xia Yanran and put aside her relationship with Xia Yanran, and more people will stand here. Fei's side, but Zhuang Fei didn't do it.

And now, she ran over to say sorry to Xia Yanran, and said to Xia Yanran that she was not wrong.

Really, too kind and too honest.

Xia Yanran sighed, and handed a piece of paper to Zhuang Fei, Zhuang Fei took it in a daze, and wiped her face.

"Sister Feifei, this is because I influenced you, why do you feel guilty?"

"But I'm so selfish..." Zhuang Fei was a little anxious, Xia Yanran raised her hand to stop her words.

"I know you can't accept the hypocrisy of yourself, but the times are like this. I'm the one who implicates you. It's only natural for you to have those thoughts. Am I the one who dare not even face my own mistakes?"

Zhuang Fei's heart skipped a beat. Xia Yanran's words were so sharp that she didn't know how to respond.

Yes, she who has always said to stick to her heart and uphold justice has also made the usual selfish choices.Thinking about it later, she always looked down on her evasion, behavior and language violation, which made her always despise herself as a hypocrite.

What Xia Yanran said is absolutely correct, this is the most unacceptable version of herself.

She once fell into a long-term entanglement because of this inner conflict.While confessing what he did, he dared not admit his shrinking side.

Now that Xia Yanran pointed out her knot in such a straightforward manner, she calmed down instead.

"You...don't blame me for not caring about you?" Zhuang Fei was silent for a long time before asking softly.

Xia Yanran laughed in a low voice, pulled Zhuang Fei's hand, and shook it. Zhuang Fei looked up at her because she didn't understand, and she stuck out her tongue mischievously.

"Senior sister, you are really different from ordinary people, have you never thought about the things I liked you before?"

Zhuang Fei's breathing was stagnant, Xia Yanran's brows twitched, a little flustered.

"Actually, I don't really understand what they said about you liking me... But after getting in touch with Wen Biyu, I think this should be a normal emotional tendency. I have never understood why our school and surrounding cities care so much about sexual orientation. Something..." Zhuang Fei thought for a while, frowning.

Xia Yanran was startled, and suddenly burst out laughing, her stomach ached from laughing, and Zhuang Fei was startled.

As expected, she was her most respected senior, who didn't care about these prejudices of ordinary people at all, but she herself, who was always afraid of being discovered by others, was quite embarrassing.

Smiling and laughing, Xia Yanran suddenly noticed something out of the corner of her eye, Xia Yanran smiled and restrained her expression.

Zhuang Fei was a little puzzled by her transformation, and asked with her head tilted.

"What's the matter? Huh? That person looks familiar..."

"Sister Feifei, it's getting late. You and your senior should go back earlier. You are currently in the entrepreneurial stage, and you have so many things to do, pay attention to rest." Xia Yanran raised her hand to straighten her head, and said to her.

Zhuang Fei was a little puzzled, but it was indeed late, and she had finished what she needed to say, so she nodded and accepted Xia Yanran's opinion, and said goodbye to Xia Yanran to go find Chen Yueke.

Xia Yanran watched Zhuang Fei leave with a smile.Then he brushed his hair, turned around and walked directly behind a pillar without taking his eyes off it.

The person behind the pillar didn't seem to expect that she would come over suddenly. They moved their feet for a long time, a little flustered, but the surrounding area was really empty, and she couldn't find a place to escape. We had a face-to-face meeting.

Xia Yanran squinted her eyes, looked at the man's terrified eyes with a half-smile, slapped the pillar behind her with one hand, stared at the man closely, and said in a hoarse voice.

"You didn't follow me all the way, Sui Yi?"

The author has something to say: How is it, starting to doubt Gong Shou?Now do you understand why my text is fighting each other?Ranran's explosive power is actually amazing, how can he face life without enough resilience.

However, this is the end of the cowardice, and the next one is Sui Yi, the second-five boy.

By the way, because the update was discontinued yesterday, today I just exploded the number of words, and added 1500+ words, I hope you are satisfied, bow down.