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Promise moved at the end of June.

The original roommate quit the rent, and said to her before leaving: "Promise, this city is so big, its excitement and loneliness have nothing to do with me, now I'm going home, you have to live well." Only twenty At his early age, his eyes are full of vicissitudes.

This is a first-tier city in the south, smelly of copper, cold-blooded, prosperous, and lonely. Every day, tens of thousands of people flock in, and tens of thousands of people escape.

Xu Xu doesn't know when she will leave here. She was born in a small town with simple folk customs. Her grandfather studied abroad for a few years before the reform and opening up, and she paid special attention to the education of her children. Her grandmother was born in a red family, a generation of revolutionary fighters.They attach great importance to their children's education, and the Ying family is one of the few well-educated families in the small town.

She was admitted by the city's key university with the city's No.1 grade.

She doesn't like this city, it rains all year round and is warm and humid.She also didn't want to go back to the small town, have a son and raise a daughter, and waste half of her life.

So after graduating from university, she applied for a teacher in a key high school under the recommendation of her mentor to teach Chinese for senior students.The child who just entered high school from junior high school is not stingy, and only calls her "Sister Xiaoying" when she sees her. The teacher who entered the school at the same time as her complained that the group of students were not big or small. In the era of the teacher's name, being willing to call sister Xu is already the highest standard of courtesy and way of expressing their love.

"Miss, we're here." The taxi driver stopped the car steadily.

Xu promised to pay the fare without hesitation, and then got off the taxi.

She arrived in a high-end residential area, not too far from the urban area, not too far from the school, with complete infrastructure, and the rent was correspondingly high.

The day before yesterday, she inadvertently browsed this community on a rental website. Everything met expectations, but the rent was prohibitive.Just when she was going to look at another house, she suddenly saw an advertisement for shared renting.The owner's co-tenancy requirements are concise and to the point: single, female.The location and layout of the house are excellent.The homeowner's self-introduction column has only one name: Beam White Light.

Xu promised to immediately send his contact information and name to the mailbox left by the other party.The next day, she received an email from the other party, with only one address and no time to meet.

Teachers from the same school doubted the authenticity of the shared rental advertisement.Maybe the homeowner has some strange hobbies, maybe it's a wretched uncle?What if I promised to share the rent and was cheated of money and sex?But she was determined to go her own way.

Sure enough, she was stopped by security at the entrance. "Miss, who are you looking for? Non-community personnel are not allowed to enter."

Xu Xu handed the copied address to the security guard: "I'm here to see the house, and this is her address."

The security guard glanced at the address, and immediately showed respect. He didn't ask any more questions, and opened the door: "Miss, please."

Xu Xu nodded to him and walked into the community.Perhaps because of the weekdays, there are very few people in the community, and it looks very deserted.She searched for more than ten minutes before she found the place written on the address.

She rang the doorbell, and soon the door opened, and a man stood in the shadow behind the door, looking at her.

A girl in her early 20s, with long wet hair hanging on her shirt, with clear bones and pale lips.

"Hi, I'm promise. I contacted you in email."

Shu Baiguang was silent, turned and went back to the room, Xu Xu followed in softly, and closed the door smoothly.

A movie was playing in the living room, and the beam of white light didn't mind that there were more people. He nestled back on the sofa, his legs were bent, his slender chin was buried between his knees, and his eyes fell on the screen.

Promise to stand by the sofa, not to stand, not to sit.I had no choice but to look at the screen. What was playing on the screen was the old Hong Kong film "Kung Fu", a classic nonsensical comedy.The acting skills of the older generation are very substituting, and Master Xing was very handsome when he was young.

She is a generation born on the tail of Hong Kong's golden decade, and the great changes in the mainland are just a few vague fragments left in her childhood.Before she went to high school, she would watch TV and Hong Kong dramas and movies on CCTV every summer. Later, the glory faded and the best era of a generation came to an end.TV dramas filmed in mainland China have become popular all over the country...

The Hong Kong film was coming to an end soon, and it wasn't until the screen went completely black that a beam of white light looked at her: "I'm hungry."

Xu Xu was scratched in her heart, she walked into the kitchen, quickly took out the fresh vegetables from the refrigerator, washed them, peeled them, shredded them, and put them into the pot.An hour later, she finished her first meal in the new house.The former roommate worked night shifts every day, and she took three meals in the school cafeteria by herself.

"Is it delicious?" She stared at the eggplant with a beam of white light on her lips, only to see that she took a small bite, then raised her eyes and nodded to her.But the next sentence knocked her down: "I will cook three meals a day from now on."

"Isn't it to your taste?" The mood fell into the dust.

"No, I hate washing dishes." In Shu Baiguang's logic, it's fair for one person to cook and one person to wash dishes.

The promise decisively dismissed: "I will finish it together."

Shu Baiguang pondered for a moment, then said calmly, "The clothes at home?"

"I wash and I dry."

"floor."

"I sweep and drag."

"It's fine if I come." Xu Xu interrupted what she was about to continue: "I will do these things, and I can take good care of you."

As if she had been waiting for this sentence, Shu Baiguang smiled slyly: "Then I will trouble you to take care of it more, promise." The promise's name, she dragged on for a long time.

Xu Xu lowered his head and answered her softly: "Okay."

The next day, Xu promised to live in Shu Baiguang's house.On the first night, the second night, and the third night, the beam of white light works like a cat, sleeping day and night.

She usually goes out at eight o'clock in the evening and comes back at two or three in the morning.Going out must be exquisite makeup and sexy clothes.When he came back, his temples were disheveled and his eyes were hazy.

Then I fell asleep on the sofa as soon as I entered the house, and when I woke up a little at five or six o'clock, I got up and went back to the bedroom to take a shower and change clothes, and came out to have breakfast with Xu Xu at about seven o'clock, then turned around and went back to the room to continue sleeping until seven o'clock in the evening Wake up on time for dinner, change clothes and put on makeup after eating.

Xu Xu was silent for three consecutive days, and on the fourth night, she set the alarm clock in advance and got up at midnight to cook the hangover soup. When the hangover soup was almost ready, a beam of white light came back.

When I opened the door, there was a beam of white light. I didn't expect the light to be on at such a late hour. At first I thought it was a thief, but later I realized it should be a promise.

She looked for the light, walked to the kitchen, promised her back was facing her, her long hair was simply tied up, she was busy tearing the chicken, her back showed the gracefulness of a housewife.She was worried that Shu Baiguang would be hungry after waking up, so she cooked some goji berry chicken porridge, which filled the room with a delicate fragrance.

A beam of white light leaned against the kitchen door, her eyes were gentle and tired, and after a long time, she said with a half-smile: "Promise, what are you doing?"

"You're back." Xu promised to serve her a bowl of hangover soup, and handed it to her naturally: "Drink the hangover soup, it will make you feel better." Hangover headaches, when she was a child, she used to see her mother serve her father who was drunk after going out to dinner, She also learned to take care of drunk people.

"I don't like it." Shu Baiguang pursed his lips, with the same expression on his face as a child who hates taking medicine.

Promise scooped up a small spoonful and handed it to her mouth: "Just take a sip, I've been cooking it for a long time." His tone was aggrieved and pitiful.

Shu Baiguang was dazed, swallowed subconsciously, and commented: "The taste is okay."

Promised with crooked eyes, he just stood there and fed her half a bowl of hangover soup: "Okay, you're so good."

She put down the bowl, took out a big white rabbit toffee from her pocket, tore open the blue and white packaging, and handed it to Shu Baiguang.

A beam of white light bit one end of the candy, and the candy was contained in his mouth as soon as his tongue rolled.Xu Xu was about to withdraw his hand, but her fingertips were sucked by her, her teeth were sharp and cold, and a beam of white light stared into her eyes, her face full of innocence.She bit her lower lip, restrained her expression, her face was flushed with heat.

After a few seconds of contact, Shu Baiguang loosened his teeth as if nothing had happened, and said vaguely: "It's very sweet."

Xu Xu's eyebrows twitched, she changed the subject, and said in a gentle voice: "Go and take a bath, and sleep well tonight. If you are hungry, you can have porridge."

This time Shu Baiguang didn't make trouble with her, and obediently went back to the bedroom.

After waiting and waiting in the kitchen, the beam of white light still did not come out, Xu Xu was worried, but no one answered when she knocked on the door, so she opened the door and barged in.

The desk lamp was turned on in the bedroom, and she saw a beam of white light lying in the bed at a glance, slowed her breathing, and walked over.

Shu Baiguang slept deeply, and her makeup had been washed off, revealing her originally beautiful facial features, like a bunch of white moonlight, gentle and tranquil.

She half knelt beside the bed, her fingertips lingering on her delicate face, her eyes were sad: "Bai Guang, what can I do for you?"

A beam of white light seemed to feel something in the dream, and it rubbed against her warm palm, breathing evenly.

"Patta" promised that the back of her hand was cold, and she recovered, only to realize that she was crying.She hurriedly wiped her eyes, stood up, and quietly exited the bedroom.

In mid-July, the promised school was officially closed. She stayed at home every day, either watching dramas or reading novels, going to bed early and getting up early, and eating three meals on time. People in their 20s enjoy the leisure of older people in advance.

But she didn't relax for a few days, and she was pulled out of the house by a beam of white light that couldn't be seen, and she nicknamed it: walking the street.

There are many pedestrian streets and large shopping malls in Guangdong, which are the best places for leisure and entertainment.The first place Shu Baiguang took her to was the art street located in the south of the city. Most of the old street buildings from the Republic of China period were preserved, incorporating many contemporary elements.Guangdong's urban culture is a combination of classical and modern, the collision of East and West, and a mixture of old and new.

Xu Xu feels fresh, she has been in this city for so long, but she has never walked through it completely, except for the streets near the school, she knows nothing about this city.So I don't know where such an interesting place is hidden somewhere.

Shu Baiguang saw her astonishment, and said forgivingly: "Promise, the most effective way for a person to understand a strange city is to take a bus, get off at any stop, wander aimlessly, and listen to passers-by. The voice of conversation, look at everyone's life, you only know what is plain and real when you experience it yourself." The spirituality between the words is the same as before.

Nine years ago, she took her to walk around the alleys of the small town, and nine years later, she accompanied her to walk through the streets in a foreign land.

Because they were busy before, they almost only talked during meals.Now promised to be free, Shu Baiguang's favorite thing to do every day is to take her around to play.Because of this, she knew a little more about the beam of white light.

Shu Baiguang is a very authentic Cantonese. He has his own contacts and social circle. He can cook good soup. He is familiar with the tea restaurants in the whole city. , enjoy the fast-paced city life.

Xu Xu once thought that if life could go on in such a tepid way, and just stay with Shu Baiguang not far or near for the rest of his life, it would be fine.She is neither greedy nor delusional.

This balance was broken on a certain day in October, which happened to be Bai Guang's birthday.I remember the promised date clearly, I ordered the birthday cake the day before, and I just waited to surprise her the next night.

But in the afternoon of the next day, when Xu Xu came back from school, there was no one with a white light on her left or right, so calling her phone showed that the phone was turned off.

It wasn't until after nine o'clock in the evening that Shu Baiguang returned the call. Just as he gave her an address, the phone was snatched by the people around him.

When she arrived at the hotel, a group of people were eating happily. There were men and women, well-dressed, fashionable, seductive, and everything.

Tonight's protagonist is wearing a long white dress, sitting quietly in the middle, lowering his eyes and smiling slightly, tactfully interacting with the people around him.

This was not the Bai Guang she knew, that girl as cold as moonlight, she shouldn't be sitting with these people.

She went straight in, and walked out of the private room with a white wrist clutched amidst the astonished shouts and curses of the crowd.The force was so heavy that it seemed to crush her bones.

"Promise, what's wrong with you?" Shu Baiguang didn't resist, and let her lead him away.

"Bai Guang," Promise's voice was deep, she let go of Bai Guang's wrist, and slowly frowned: "You and them are not from the same world."

Shu Baiguang smiled heartlessly: "Then who am I from the same world?"

"You know I like you, right?" Xu Xu looked at her with stubborn and uneasy eyes.

"Yes, I know." Shu Baiguang stood under the moonlight, and the white skirt was more than snow: "I like you too, promise."

Hearing these words, Xu Xu finally couldn't restrain herself, hugged her in his arms, and said in a trembling voice, "Bai Guang, I've always wanted to ask you, how have you been doing all these years?"

In Xu's first year of junior high school, a painter came to the town, and he took a girl with him. The girl had the unique and delicate appearance of southern girls.She transferred to the promise class and became her deskmate.

"I am the promise." The children who grew up in the small town are enthusiastic, simple, and treat and consider foreigners with kindness.

At that time, Shu Baiguang was wearing a long white dress, and when he smiled, there was a beam of white moonlight hidden in his eyes: "A bunch of white light."

Xu Xu was amazed by her name, and also attracted by her indifferent demeanor, and took the initiative to bring her into the life of the small town.Naturally, they became very good friends.

Shu Baiguang is different from the girls in small towns. She listens to the sound of tides and piano music in her earphones, and reads foreign classics such as "Hello, Sorrow". She inherits her father's talent and is good at ink painting. , The voice is as clear as water.

Sometimes, promise to stay at her home overnight, she will tell promise about the waves in the south, the night, the food, the city, her childhood, her dreams, which are not part of the bustling town.

Promise often falls asleep peacefully in her narration, and when she wakes up, the sky is hazy, with a beam of white light hugging her waist sideways, relying on her like a child.That was the promised youth.

Later, a sudden change occurred. One night in the third year of junior high school, the painter was drunk, jumped off the bridge with a plop, went down the river, and never got up again.Shu Baiguang became an orphan overnight, and promised her parents to be kind and let her live in Ying's house.

Xu promised that he felt sorry for Zhu Bai Guang at that time, and often said a sentence: "Bai Guang, I will take care of you from now on, and take care of you for the rest of your life. Don't be afraid, I will be with you."

Shu Baiguang just had a smile that didn't match his age, and his eyes were cold: "Promise, when we grow up, you won't think so."

When the senior high school entrance examination was approaching, Shu Baiguang's biological mother found her and wanted to take her back to the south.Only then did Xu Xu know about Shu Baiguang's life experience. His mother disliked his father's poverty, abandoned her husband and daughter, and remarried to a wealthy local family.The painter was disheartened and took his daughter away from home.

"Promise, I don't blame her. She just loves herself more. Dad can't give her the life she wants, and she can't live in this world with feelings alone. Promise, I'm leaving here. Be well. "This is the last sentence Shu Baiguang said to Xu Xu before leaving, and there has been no news since then, as if this person has never appeared in the town.

"Tonight's meal is a break-up meal for me and the group of people. We will forget each other from now on, and we will never see each other again. It's good for you to bring me out so domineeringly, and run away if you mess up the situation. It's too much. .”

"Promise, I haven't had a really happy day since I left the town. My stepfather's family treated me very well, but I'm still an outsider. Last summer, after my mother died of illness, I had a showdown with my stepfather, and since then I have nothing to do with their family. I Very cold-blooded, he has raised me for so many years, but I have the capital to live independently, so I can't wait to get rid of him."

"Those people are all friends I met in high school. They are not from the same world as me. I have always known that, but they are not bad people. They have helped me a lot and treated me really well."

"I miss you very much, I have always missed you. But promise, I dare not look for you, I am afraid you will forget me."

A beam of white light was in her arms, chattering about her life during these years of absence. "Promise, today is my birthday. If you haven't prepared a gift yet, then promise me, stay with me for the rest of your life."

Promise choked for a long time, and then with red eyes, he said to her: "Do you remember when I said to you in the third grade of junior high school, 'Bai Guang, I will take care of you from now on, and take care of you for the rest of your life. Don't be afraid, I will be with you.' You told me: 'Promise, when we grow up, you won't think so.' Now that we are all grown up, I still want to take care of you for the rest of my life. This sentence still counts."

Back then, he promised to be admitted to a key high school step by step, and studied hard in the cold window for three years, and once he was named on the gold list.When she filled out her application form, she all chose universities in the south.She didn't know what she was expecting, she just made the decision.

After several years, she met her again.No one knew that when she saw the words "beam white light" on the co-rental advertisement, she accidentally knocked over the teacup.

She had never been so reckless before, she was afraid, she had misunderstood her name, there were so many people with the same name, how could it happen to be her.

Until she saw a beam of white light standing in front of her, she was thinner and more beautiful than before.At that moment, she almost burst into tears.She dared not ask her if she remembered herself.

She is a promise, promised a beam of white light, to take care of her for a lifetime.

——end

end:

In October, a phone call came from home, and I went back to Guangdong.Living in a tepid city, I can't say that I am familiar or unfamiliar with the feelings here, but there are many memories that cannot be wiped out.

I had only been there for a few days, and just as I was finishing up my family affairs, my old friends came to visit me, even persuading and coaxing me to a certain first-tier city in the same province.I lived there for a short time when I was young, and after more than ten years of absence, things changed and people changed.

My friend and her boyfriend warmly entertained me from a foreign land, and the courtesy of the host is also the same.It was not until the day before I decided to leave that I had the opportunity to know the city alone.

I wandered aimlessly in the city all day, and late at night, I took the last bus, which seemed to end at a well-known art street.

It was past ten o'clock at night when I got off the car, the street lights were warm, and the world was ambiguous.The nights in Guangdong are warmer and more lively than the daytime. Many young people don’t want to go home, they party late at night, and many shops don’t close until three or four in the morning.

Walking all the way along the alleys of the characteristic buildings of the Republic of China, I am no different from those tourists who came from afar. After tonight, maybe the fate with this city will be cut off.

Suddenly, a bookstore appeared in front of my eyes, and there was a signboard in front of the store: "White Moonlight".Through the floor-to-ceiling windows, it can be seen that there are many customers in the store, and the lighting and decoration are also satisfactory.

I stood there for a long time, and finally opened the door and entered.

Thousands of miles away, the silver man is shining, I am here tonight to attend an old covenant.Two years ago, I passed out drunk in a bar, and a person I met by chance watched over me all night. Her eyes were as cold as moonlight.

"I know you, and I heard that you like to collect other people's stories. If one day you see a bookstore called 'White Moonlight', come in and find me, and I will tell you the story between me and her."

"what's your name?"

"A beam of white light."

Promised the white beam of time, once taught lovers to return home together.

The author has something to say: "Promised the white light years, once taught the lover to return home together."