With the wind

In the next few days, we didn't see each other again, just chatting on the mobile phone for a while every day, but not much, because she was afraid that I would be annoying.Nothing changed until the day the results came out.

The results came out in the early morning, and my family members were waiting for our results. I kept refreshing the webpage with my mobile phone, but there were too many inquiries, and the website exploded immediately, and I couldn’t squeeze in every time.

Lin Lin was luckier than me, and soon found out her own results.She asked me how I was doing on the exam.I said I don't know yet.

Lin Lin's score was much lower than she expected.She was a little scared, and didn't know how to hand over this unsatisfactory answer sheet to her family.

She kept asking me what to do?

I can only try my best to comfort her, "Don't worry, if you really can't leave, just go back to school for another year."

"I don't want to repeat."

"Then let's go and apply for a relatively better school."

"Besides, I'm in a mess right now. I'm going out to relax."

"It's okay, don't be afraid, don't be afraid." I've been swiping here for almost an hour, but I still haven't entered.By the time I finally got my grades, it was already two o'clock in the morning.

She hasn't come home yet, and I'm worried.It was a bad night.

"Why aren't you sleeping?" she asked me.

"Reading a novel, why worry, read it for a while before going to sleep." How can I sleep?I am very worried about her. She is outside alone and in a bad mood. I want to be with her.

She sent me some photos of the street in the wee hours of the morning.We just chatted on and off.This night, I stayed up hard and didn't dare to sleep. I was afraid that when she came to me, I wouldn't be able to respond to her immediately.At five or six in the morning, she said she wanted to come and see me.

I said yes.

My parents go to work at eight o'clock and usually get up at seven o'clock.After a while, I can only open the door quietly for her.

I took her into my bedroom, and as soon as I closed the bedroom door, she hugged me.This was our first meeting since that night.

I know she's upset.She was terrified that I was leaving, and she stayed where she was.

And I am very worried about what kind of situation she will face when she returns home.Will there be a lot of ugly sentences, afraid that she will be sad.

I turned around, hugged her gently, and asked her, "Are you sleepy? Sleep for a while?"

"Then you accompany me!"

"Nonsense, otherwise where would I go." I pretended to be relaxed and joked with her.Hope she can be happy.

I was so sleepy that I fell asleep after a while.

When I woke up, it was past twelve o'clock, and I only slept for five or six hours.She opened her eyes in a daze, and found that I was looking at her.She put her arms around my shoulders and pulled me into her arms.I leaned on her shoulder and fell asleep again.

When I woke up again, it was already half an hour later.

I made a few random things for our lunch.

"You go home? Otherwise, your mother should worry about you, and you always have to face it."

"I'll be back in a while." She reached out and hugged me, as if it would make her feel more at ease.

When she left, I hugged her and said, "Don't worry, I'm here." I know, our current relationship, it's very inappropriate for me to say that.But I can't control that much anymore, now is when she needs me, how can I turn a blind eye.

She always has a lot of troubles about the family.Every time she is unhappy, she will say, miss me, if only I were here.

Every time, I simply replied oh....I don't know how to answer this sentence. Could it be that I miss you too?I'm not used to such blunt expressions.

Later, one day she had a quarrel with her family and told me sadly.I feel sorry for her, and I am very angry, even if it is a family member, it is too much.

She said, I am not there, it is crying without tears.

It was the first time that I felt so strongly distressed, so I said: "Lin Lin, I'm so sad that I'm not by your side." This is the only irrational sentence I said after we have been entangled for so long, a sentence that expressed my heart .

For so long, I have never told her that I like you.No.

No wonder she said that day that when she heard this sentence, she was very happy. It turns out that I like her too.But no matter how I tried, I couldn't get a response.

Yes, I don't say how she would know.We are all suspicious people, and we will not give up our sincerity easily. We are always testing each other and proving each other's intentions, but we don't know that every temptation is consuming our feelings.We have come to this point, we are all wrong, no one is to blame.

After the results come out, the biggest problem is to fill in the volunteers.This is really much more difficult than the high school entrance examination.

Holding the thick application list every day, I read it over and over again.Every day, I rack my brains about which school and which major to fill in.

It was a dark day, and my family was arguing every day.The major I wanted to apply for was not recognized by my family, and I was stubbornly unwilling to compromise.Both sides insisted on their own opinions and refused to back down.

During this time, I am very annoying.He didn't look good towards Lin Lin every day.After Lin Lin passed the grade level, it went smoothly and decided to leave.Afterwards, it was relatively easy to apply for volunteering, and I chose a major that she didn't hate.

She asked where do I want to apply for?I'm not sure yet.I don't want to give up the major I want to study, I really don't want to, but I can't refute my family, I can't persuade them.

When it comes to my headache, I said, it's annoying!Play by yourself.

On the day when the school opened the computer room to fill in the report, I didn't go because the volunteer was still changing.

I am physically and mentally exhausted. For the past few days, every day has been black.I even wanted to give up, stop insisting, fill it up and let all these go to hell.

Lin Lin asked me "Are you coming?"

"I won't come, the volunteer has not been decided yet."

"Tell me, which places you reported."

I gave a general idea, and she said, to choose a few schools and apply after me.She wants to go to the same place as me.I know that we are all in a mess now, we agreed to separate, we shouldn't be so impulsive.

After Lin Lin finished filling out the application form, he said to me, "I'll go play with them for a while, you should be happy at home, talk about it, talk about it."

I'm upset and just had another argument.I casually replied to her, "I know, go and play by yourself, don't bother me."

This sentence again.I always said this to her in those days. I didn't mean any harm, but she would feel sad when she heard it.

She really didn't send any more messages.I sat alone in the room for an unknown amount of time.Received a message, I looked at the time, more than an hour has passed.It was a classmate who sent the message. She is now with Lin Lin. We usually have a good relationship.

She asked how I was doing with my volunteering.I said it's not settled yet.

"Hurry up and fill it out, fill it out!"

"Forget it, I won't go today, you guys can play."

She replied apprehensively, "Look at us, it's good to fill it out, if it doesn't work, just flip through it, fill in whatever you find!"

Can this be random?Why don't you do it yourself!I sent an emoticon to her.Then, you come and I fight each other.

In the end, I was defeated.I jokingly said, "You wait, I will let Lin Lin avenge me!"

The classmate replied "Come on, don't bring any fear!"

I also sent a message to Lin Lin, after all, it's a full set of acting.I thought it was over here.Unexpectedly, I received a message from a classmate saying "You are ruthless! I was really beaten! My arms are all red" and sent me a photo to prove it.I looked at the photo and laughed, but I didn't expect the joke to come true.But it's okay, revenge for me.

Lin Lin also sent a message, "I also hit someone, are you happy?"

My eyes were red immediately, and I felt like a vexatious child, but someone accepted everything.I really feel that I am pampered and loved by her.

Before I was finished, we had a big fight.These days I always talk coldly to her, no matter what she says, I am very perfunctory.She wanted to make me happy, and tried many methods, all of which sank like stones to the bottom of the sea without stirring up the slightest wave.She finally had enough of me like this and broke out.

We had a quarrel, and she was already in a bad mood, so she quarreled with me again.I couldn't control myself at all, said a lot of hurtful things, and there was no doubt that I won.

But she asked me, "After venting, are you happier?"

I froze, "Are you arguing with me on purpose?"

"I know you are irritable, and I really don't know how to make you happy. I don't know! So I had a fight with you and let you vent. Maybe it can be better."

I really can't laugh or cry, is it such a casual thing to quarrel?Wouldn't she be sad about what I said?

I don't know if it counts as love, but she really spoiled me during that time.So much later, I heard this song:

What you can't get is always in turmoil

Those who are favored are fearless

I will always think of that summer, of her who spoiled me like a child; of her helpless tone, "I was beaten too, are you happier?"; of those days when I was confident.There was once a person who made me feel confident.

In the end, I was allowed to fill in a major I like, which is considered a concession.The moment I submitted the volunteer, it seemed that I had handed over all the black in the past two days.These dark days are finally over.

In the days that followed, Lin Lin and I returned to the previous state. We communicated through mobile phones, mostly she said and I listened.Our relationship is getting more and more complicated.During this period of time, I began to consciously alienate her, trying to pull our relationship to the established track.