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I don’t know how many times it’s been, I’ve woken up from the boundless cold darkness, full of unwillingness to suffer, struggled, shouted desperately, but still couldn’t leave there, and finally...exhausted, fell asleep again, and then woke up again Come... caught in this terrible cycle...

Let me out!

I desperately slapped the barrier that trapped me, struggling again and again, endlessly with all my strength...it was useless...it was... over

"……Ah"

I sat paralyzed on the ground, unable to do anything about the current situation, and smiled self-deprecatingly

……It has ended

...the existence of Cangye...is over

So, why do you have to struggle in vain...

……

The existence of Cangye has been split into three since birth, rationality, desire, and restraint. They were split to avoid pressure, creating the illusion that three people are supporting themselves, and deceiving themselves.

And I always remember, even if rationality is gradually forgotten and the memory of inhibition is erased, I will always remember everything that Cang Ye has experienced since childhood...

Born in a research institute, her hair was cut off... When she woke up again, Cangye was adopted by people from the church.Inhibition and I are called friends in the mind by reason, because it is completely contrary to the view of inhibition, we are always arguing, reason does not know who to listen to, and cannot hear other people's voices, but he has ours Companionship is enough... until I met nine at the seaside, Cangye had a complete family, we all stabilized, I merged with the restraint, no longer arbitrarily quarreling in Cangye's mind, rationality began to work normally, with Adjust the balance between us by ourselves, everything is developing in a good direction, until nine and Haruka embark on a long journey, Cangye's mental balance collapses again...

So I came out, by maintaining aggressiveness on the surface, diverting the pressure, at the same time, in order to monitor me, Suppression became Cangye's smart companion——Lian, Suppression and I are protecting Cangye in our own way, We were originally born to protect Cangye, but...Only I...Only I...Restraining power can walk outside as Lian, but I was suppressed, but I broke one when I was beating Lime People, rationally regard me as an enemy, a terrifying existence that wants to devour themselves, and grandma too, suppresses me with medicine, only me... I just used my method, in order to protect Cang Ye, why am I the only one suppressed? , It was all to protect Cang Ye, why was I the only one locked up!

... I don't understand, I just want to protect Cang Ye... Countless times I want to tell rationality that I am also Cang Ye, I am a part separated from Cang Ye's body, I should be recognized, I want to return to Cang Ye Ye Xin... What is the rational answer?

He couldn't hear my voice, or rather, he ignored it on purpose, no matter how hard I tried to convey my voice, how much I gave rationality a headache, it was useless...it was all in vain

It's unfair...not reconciled...wounded by such emotions, even though my rationality was splitting my head because of my voice, I didn't stop, as long as he admits it's fine, so, admit it, I'll stop if I admit it , all I want is rational acceptance and approval, nothing more

...for a long time, I thought this way, as long as the rationality admits that I am fine...But, it's different now...It's...It's over

Everything is over, the existence of Cang Ye has no meaning anymore, because... the restraining force has disappeared

……I do not understand

Why? ...The inhibition disappeared... It was his own choice, the self-destruction of his own choice, he was taken away by virus and trip before rationality could stop him, and my power of exposure can only destroy, so the inhibition is like what he wished is gone

why?

Because the inhibition likes Cang Ye

Why does inhibition like Cangye?

Because I have been outside for too long, when I still want to return to Cang Ye's heart, the restraint force may have become an independent personality, and then awakened feelings that should not exist...

Both me and Restraining Force were created to protect Cang Ye, purely for the sake of protecting Cang Ye, so I can't understand why Restraining Force has feelings for Cang Ye... But, people do love themselves It is only natural that there is a feeling of self-love, so does the restraint really understand, what is his feeling for Cangye...?

...I don't understand, and don't need to understand.The restraint has disappeared, and the feelings he has for Cang Ye have caused him to have a disordered cognition of himself. As a restraint, he can't restrain his feelings. In the end, the only way is to let himself disappear.

He disappeared... Cangye's existence is meaningless, rationality, desire and restraint, the coexistence of these three is Cangye, so, if the restraint is gone, is Cangye still Cangye?

...There is no meaning anymore, the existence of Cang Ye ends here...

Cangye was taken to England by virus and trip, his hands and feet were bound, his will was worn down, his rationality was constantly weakened, and I... was completely denied... rationality completely denied me

Before, rationality has been ignoring my voice, fearing my existence, and worrying that I will swallow him... He is very afraid of me and doesn't want to have anything to do with me, but he has to borrow my power——In order to protect Cangye, I Exposure Force

In order for the people in the old residential area not to be brainwashed by Dongjiang, Cang Ye broke into the central round tower alone. To be swallowed by me... no, just admitting me is enough, so...

"it was all your fault"

I said this in his ear, if ideals hadn’t been rejecting me, things wouldn’t have developed like this, so it’s all rational faults

The medicine has already been taken, and because of the continuous use of the power of exposure, no amount of medicine can suppress me anymore. Soon, reason will not be able to deceive itself, and must face me directly... I look forward to that moment

...Rationality didn't think of it, and I didn't think of it, virus and trip...Damn it!Use your strength!Use your strength to destroy them!Why are you confused, why do you want to suppress your own strength, do you just hate me so much?Do you still naively believe that there is a friendship between them at this time?I watched rationality being beaten up by people with psychedelic morphine, virus and trip, to put it nicely, fans?It's just like those people, coveting my power of exposure

Reason did not give up resisting until the last moment, but it was useless. It was the same as calling for reason countless times before. It was useless. Cangye was taken to England and could never return to Bidao

…Exposure is useless to virus and trip, they are two empty shells, rationality desperately recognizes this fact, completely admit defeat, powerless, can only give up…Yes, the existence of Cangye has no meaning anymore, It doesn't matter...it's over

... I finally understand, so it is like this, why the restraint disappears, maybe his feelings for Cang Ye are like virus and trip, he wants to possess, because he is a part of Cang Ye, he can never really get Cang Ye Ye, so in the end the result of the emotional outburst may destroy Cang Ye, the restraint can only choose to disappear, at least to ensure that he will not hurt Cang Ye, but... Cang Ye is still destroyed, if the restraint knows that he disappears What will happen to Cangye afterwards, and will he disappear willingly? I am suddenly curious, but I can’t get an answer, just like I don’t know if rationality finds out the problem of inhibition in time, whether it can prevent him from disappearing

No if, it's over...

I was silent in the depths of the dark consciousness, and rationality, he still struggled at the beginning, unable to give up his self-esteem easily, and finally had to succumb to reality... He, once he is mentally persecuted, it is easy to give up on himself , let yourself indulge in "selfless happiness", virus said so, I also agree with this, it was like this in the period when I was young

Lost restraint, missing a part of Cang Ye, the existence of Cang Ye has no meaning, so it doesn't matter how it is destroyed

Just be destroyed like this, as virus and trip wished, Cangye was destroyed by them and turned into an obedient puppet

really?

No, I know, where is the real Cangye, he didn't disappear, just fell into a deep sleep...

... Rationality escaped from reality, leaving the instinct left outside, falling into a deep sleep... He escaped... No, not just escaping, he denied his own existence, and at the same time, inevitably denied me... ...I...was totally denied

I have always been not recognized by reason, but reason did not completely deny me, he just ignored me and pretended not to hear my voice, so I was only halfway