Ten years of life and death

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It is said that Feng Shaomin returned to the concubine's mansion, but he had nothing to do. He polished the inkstone, spread out the paper, and drew with his fingers. On the white paper, a human figure was outlined. A graceful woman with half a cup of tea It was reflected on the paper, Feng Shaomin admired his masterpiece, his eyes gradually became melancholy, how did she draw the appearance of Tianxiang?

Strolling to the window, Feng Shaomin shook his head, thinking of the scene in the Princess Mansion just now, he couldn't help blaming himself, Princess Tianxiang sympathized with Feng Suzhen, but he said such hurtful words just now, it was really a waste of reading the sage's book, no Yes, no.

"Master Li, Mr. Li is here," someone reported outside the door.

"Let him come in." Feng Shaomin put down the painting in his hand and pressed it on the inkstone.

"Brother Feng, I'm so excited." Li Zhaoting saw the painting in Feng Shaomin's hands as soon as he entered the door, and said with a smile: "I just went to the Princess Mansion to look for you, but you are not here, so I came here."

"Brother Li, what can I look for?"

"This morning when Xing'er came to the palace and said that the princess had woken up, the emperor was very happy. Qian'er had saved the princess before, so the emperor wanted to accept Qian'er as a goddaughter, and he had to choose a date to enshrine her."

"Then Shaomin wants to congratulate Brother Li. My sister-in-law's kindness to the princess for saving her life, I will definitely keep it in mind. When the princess is better, I will definitely come to the door to thank you."

"Brother Feng is serious. I came today to ask Brother Feng to let the emperor take back his order." Li Zhaoting finally stated the purpose of this trip.

"Why?"Feng Shaomin asked.

"To tell you the truth, since the fall of the national teachers and the crown prince's return to the East Palace, I have the heart to retreat. I am a bloody man, and I should serve the country. However, Zhaoting is a scholar. His official career in the past few years has been difficult. It made me understand the old prime minister's words, power, fame, and fortune are nothing but the smoke and clouds of the past, and living an ordinary pastoral life with the one I love is what I yearn for the most."

Hearing Li Zhaoting's words, Feng Shaomin's heart ached, and he lowered his head to look at Tianxiang's portrait, "In this world, is there anyone who doesn't want to live an ordinary life with the one he loves, Mrs. Sister-in-law is really lucky"!

Li Zhaoting approached the desk, saw the portrait of Tianxiang spread out, then looked at Feng Shaomin, and smiled, "Brother Feng, in fact, I have been envious of you all these years."

Feng Shaomin didn't look up, because her eyes were already wet. Hearing what Li Zhaoting said, she couldn't help asking, "Why did Brother Li say that?"

Li Zhaoting reached out and moved the inkstone away, picked up Tianxiang's portrait, and looked at it carefully, "Brother Feng loves the princess, right?"

"Don't talk nonsense." Feng Shaomin was a little sullen, and he raised his head and stretched out his hand to snatch the portrait.

"Brother Feng, why do you have such an expression?" Li Zhaoting looked at Feng Shaomin's angry face in surprise, and asked in puzzlement.

"It's nothing, I just remembered an old friend." Feng Shaomin realized his gaffe, turned his face away, and the warm wind came in from the window, shaking the unpainted white paper on the table.

Some things, if not spoken out, will suffocate people to death, Feng Shaomin frowned and looked out the window, "Once upon a time, I had a childhood sweetheart, Ms. Li, and I always thought that the two of us would grow old forever, But after a change happened, the two of us never met again, but now, she has become someone else's wife, and I have become someone else's husband, Brother Li, do you think this fate is cruel?"

"It turns out that Brother Feng still has such a past, does the princess know about it?"

"If the princess knew, I wouldn't have the life to stand in front of you and talk about these old feelings." The words that had been held in my heart for a long time were finally said, which made Feng Shaomin feel a lot better.

"That's natural. According to the princess's temperament, how could you allow Brother Feng to have other women in your heart?" Li Zhaoting smiled and returned the painting to Feng Shaomin. "But now it seems that Brother Feng may have another woman in his heart." ".

"You mean princess"?

"Is there anyone else?"Li Zhaoting glanced at the painting in Feng Shaomin's hand.

"Then Brother Li has a place for Miss Liu besides Miss Feng in his heart?"Feng Shaomin asked back.

Li Zhaoting walked to the table, took a pen, and wrote three words on the undrawn white paper, "Some people, some things, some feelings, can only be put here forever", Li Zhaoting put down the pen, touched the heart Fang Fang continued: "I have already lost the affection of Suzhen, and I can no longer bear the affection of another woman."

On the unpainted white paper, the three words Feng Suzhen completely stabbed Feng Shaomin's eyes, and the pain was burning. The person standing in front of her was her beloved, but she couldn't recognize him, but she wanted to wish him peace. Another woman grows old forever, what a joke, what a helplessness!

"Brother Feng, you and I can't bear the affection of a woman. Treat the princess better. As for Qian'er being canonized, please tell the emperor more about Qian'er. Thank you Zhao Ting here."

"Brother Li is serious. My benevolent teacher treated me well during his lifetime. He didn't want his children to have any relationship with the royal family. Shaomin will definitely fulfill his wish."

"Then Zhaoting is quiet and good news for Brother Feng." Li Zhaoting cupped his hands to say goodbye, and passed through the door lintel in a green shirt. Feng Shaomin only took one look, and then he was no longer seen.

Those eyes that captivated Princess Tianxiang but not Young Master Li were full of tears, but they didn't fall, because she had no right to fall when she changed her name to Feng Shaomin. In this world, there will be no Feng Suzhen from now on.

When it was almost evening, the servants knocked on the door of Feng Shaomin's study and asked: "My lord, what do you want for dinner?"

Feng Shaomin rubbed his red and swollen eyes, got up and washed his face, and replied: "Prepare the sedan chair and go to the princess mansion".

When Xing'er brought the last bowl of soup, Tao'er happily looked outside the door and shouted: "Princess, the son-in-law is here."

"Tao'er, the son-in-law is here, you should admit defeat and copy the princess rules a hundred times," said Tianxiang who was leaning against the bed proudly.

"Slave admit defeat, let's go now," Tao'er laughed.

"What are you talking about throwing in the towel"?Feng Shaomin stepped into the door and asked.

"We are making a bet with the princess whether the son-in-law will come tonight, no, the princess has won, and we are going to punish us for copying the princess rules."

Feng Shaomin pursed his lips and laughed, walked to the princess's bed and sat down, "Princess, how do you feel now? Are you feeling better?"

"Why are your eyes so red and swollen"?Tianxiang looked at Feng Shaomin and asked strangely, she had never seen Feng Shao like this before.

"It's nothing, it's just that I read a lot of books, and my eyes are a little swollen. It's not a problem, and it will be fine tomorrow." Feng Shaomin looked away from Tianxiang and looked at the food on the table. "Princess, look at the food. What do you want to eat? Shaomin The people will come over and give you something to eat."

"You guys go down first." Tianxiang sent the three of them away, and reached out to grab Feng Shaomin's face domineeringly, "Tell me, what's the matter? This princess is in charge of you."

"It's really nothing, it's just because I read too many books, princess, Shao Min will bring you some food."

Feng Shaomin was about to get up as he said that, but Tianxiang grabbed her hand, it was cool but warm.

"I'm your wife, if you don't tell me something, who else can you talk to?" Tianxiang took Feng Shaomin's hand.

Tianxiang's words made Feng Shaomin feel sad, "Shaomin just remembered an old friend and some past events."

It's good not to mention it, but Feng Shaomin's eyes dimmed when he mentioned it, and Tianxiang felt very distressed when he saw it, he couldn't help explaining it, and couldn't care about the pain in his back, so he pulled Feng Shaomin into his arms.

Before Feng Shaomin could react, he was pulled into Tianxiang's arms, and just as he was about to break free, Tianxiang's words came over, "We've been married for so long, I never knew what was on your mind, and you never told me, What kind of couple are we like this?"

"I'm sorry", Feng Shaomin listened to Tianxiang's words and remained silent for a long time. After only saying these three words, Tianxiang's heartbeat was close at hand, and there was Feng Shaomin besides her, Feng Shaomin, but she was helpless. Tianxiang's love is too heavy, she can't afford it, and it's impossible for her to bear it.

Feeling some warm liquid dripping on his face, Feng Shaomin wanted to raise his head, but was pressed down by Tian Xiang, "Don't move, I just want to hold you like this, all these years, only at this moment, I feel you It's my son-in-law, but mine alone."

The words have come to this point, it is useless to say more, no amount of guilt, no amount of self-blame, can't make Tianxiang feel better than staying in Tianxiang's arms quietly like this, Feng Shaomin no longer moves, no longer speaks , just being there so quietly, for many, many years, no one has hugged her like this!