If everything can come back

Seventeen

A month and a half later, I officially recovered and returned to school. The students in the school were still so afraid of me, only the classmates in the class treated me slightly better.Huang Jianjun came to harass me from time to time, I habitually turned his head away and hit him a few times.

Everything is back to normal, the only thing that has changed is that since that day, Shen Haocheng and I have never spoken a single word.

I put all my thoughts into the exam, maybe I suffered from the pain of the parting, although I blamed myself, I was a little crazy.The teachers were taken aback by my rapid progress, and they all thought I was a fake Ling Zhiyuan.

On the day the results came out, I miraculously scored the highest score among all three, but I was not happy at all.

That's natural, how can I be happy?

The students in the class are all saying, if you have anything to say, tell the person you have a crush on quickly, otherwise you will have no chance after graduation.I have thousands of words in my heart that I want to say to Shen Haocheng, but after all, I can't bring up the courage.

Actually, I'm just a coward.

In a few days, my high school career will officially come to an end.I finally decided that on graduation dinner day, I had to make it clear to him.I hugged the graduation special issue that had just been handed out, and then hid it in a place at home, no longer taking it out to read.

On the day of the graduation dinner, Shen Haocheng, as the school's best student of the year, took the stage to address all the students. His fluent eloquence did not match his usual quiet appearance, and I was shocked.He didn't wear glasses, and his already bright eyes looked even more piercing and beautiful.

When the dinner started, I felt bored, so I left silently and stood outside the auditorium to watch the moonlight.

"The night view here is pretty good."

A familiar voice came from behind, and I turned around to see that it was Shen Haocheng who had no expression on his face.He was wearing a well-fitting suit and vest, and he was slim and good-looking. I couldn't help but praise: "You look so good."

He didn't even raise his head, he was clearly perfunctory me: "You're not bad either."

The two of us lay down on the grass outside the auditorium, looking at the starry sky and counting the stars.The two of us didn't speak for a long time, as if there was only one person from beginning to end.

Afterwards, Shen Haocheng spoke first, and he asked, "From now on... what are your plans? What do you want to do after graduation?"

"Me? I don't know, let's study architecture." I shrugged and replied.

The two of us fell silent again. I couldn't bear this strange yet familiar feeling, so I took the initiative to strike up a conversation: "In the future, will we...have a chance to meet again?"

"I hope there will be no chance in the future."

The answer he gave was beyond my expectation, and I looked at him puzzled.He was finally willing to look at me, but the words he said were like knives, piercing my heart one by one.

"Even if there is a chance, I will never see you again."

After he finished speaking, he left my side and returned to the auditorium, leaving me alone with the cold wind blowing outside.

He still hates me after all.

In the end, I didn't say what I wanted to say, and I planned to take them into the coffin.

I sat up and hugged my knees, trying not to cry.I thought what he said was just angry words, but I never expected that that was the last time I saw him.

Eighteen

After graduation, I successfully won an opportunity to study abroad.Before I left, I didn't tell anyone, except Brother Xiao, no one knew where I was going.

Whenever I was depressed, I would always write a letter to Shen Haocheng, but I never had the courage to send it.I said that I put those letters in a box and kept them for myself to think about. As time went on, I received more and more letters.

One year, I met a girl named Xiaoqin, a Malaysian overseas Chinese.We got along for a while and gradually developed into a couple.We went to the same university and were tired of being together all day.We have spent the whole year together, doing things related to the season in every festival, so happy.

Under the cover of happiness, I slowly let go, and I don't want to mention Shen Haocheng again.Sad things, let it fade with the years.I also thought that I could forget him, but it turned out that I never had.

A few years later, when I came home, I found Xiaoqin was flipping through the box where I kept the letters I didn't give to Shen Haocheng.I was so angry that I asked coldly: "Who told you to touch my things? Don't you know that this is my privacy?"

"I... I just saw that there are so many letters here, so I opened them out of curiosity..." Xiaoqin has a straightforward personality and will not lie to cover up things. At this moment, she is just telling the truth. "You wrote so many letters, why didn't you send them out? In your heart, there is really another person, right?"

At that time, I was overwhelmed by anger and had a big fight with her.This time, the quarrel got out of hand, and finally I proposed to break up.I thought about it carefully, and found that I was just like what Xiaoqin said, I still couldn't let go of the obsession with Shen Haocheng in my heart.Using the excuse of peeking at my personal belongings, I resolutely broke up with Xiaoqin.Since I can't let him go, staying together will not only harm her, but also wrong myself.

Letting go is the only solution.

After a long time, something more painful happened to me than the breakup.I'm back, but he can't see me or hear me anymore.