He Xuchunqiu

No one would have thought that he spent four years in high school.

When the results of the senior high school entrance examination came out, my cousin's call came as scheduled: "Who is it, did you do well in the exam, do you want to stay in No. [-] middle school or be assigned to No. [-] middle school?"

He Xu held his father's cell phone tightly, and truthfully reported the choice he had made long ago: "Let's continue studying in No. [-] Middle School in the city. After all, the teaching staff is still strong in No. [-] Middle School."

The cousin on the other end of the phone repeatedly nodded in agreement, whoever did well in the exam may be an excellent resource for No. [-] Middle School in the future.

"That...cousin?" He Xu looked at his father who was sitting at the door of the kitchen choosing vegetables, and asked hesitantly, "Is Xu Ran also in No. [-] Middle School?"

"He hasn't called me yet, but it should be about the same..." Cousin's words turned to her expectations and encouragement for her future, "...study hard and get into a key university..."

He Xu agreed in embarrassment, waiting for the cousin to hang up first.

However, until the beginning of school, the end of military training, and the first monthly exam, no one saw Xu Ran again.

Xu Ran didn't choose a school artificially, and the distribution system was not what anyone expected, so Xu Ran's file was put into No. [-] Middle School.

In the time without Xu Ran by his side, what people rejected high school more and more.

When he first entered high school, He Huiren still maintained the learning momentum of junior high school, making great progress all the way, and his grades once hovered in the top [-] of the school.

But whoever gradually loses communication with his classmates can't adapt to the study and life of high school, which is far more knowledgeable than junior high school. Whoever, who regards Xu Ran as a window to communicate with the outside world, has changed back to the silent one. bookworm.

When encountering a problem, I am ashamed to ask it. How can anyone just memorize it by rote and calculate it step by step according to the method of the teacher's classroom and textbook guidance books, even the best knowledge seedlings will be suffocated to death.

First, physics, a cliff-like fall; then chemistry, a continuous slide; and finally mathematics, a catastrophic crash.

How can someone's grades not be too disappointing just by struggling with liberal arts scores.

In the last exam of the first semester of high school, He Xuren walked out of the exam room with a haggard face holding the stool, and his estimation of the score became clearer in his mind.

"Will you go to have dinner outside the school later?" The familiar voice came from not far away again.

Who's eyes were instantly lit up by Xu Ran who was on the flower bed steps of the teaching building. The young man was clean and bright, tall and straight like a poplar, carrying a stool and walking along the staggered crowd at the entrance of the stairs. As usual, he smiled lazily. And sunshine.

He Xuren seemed to have thought of something again, and his complexion quickly faded again.

He is still the high-spirited boy, but I am no longer good.

"Who! You are here!" A loud shout was thrown from the noisy crowd, Yi Cheng, the literary and art committee member, hugged the stool and hurriedly caught up with him, "There are too many people, let's wait first."

Yi Cheng is tall and tall, with a sweet smile, and he is the one who shows the most kindness to anyone in the whole class.

Who watched Xu Ran turn his head nervously, but ran away a second before his vision framed him.

The moment Xu Ran heard someone's name, a pleasant smile appeared on his face, but the sea of ​​people is so vast, where is there someone's figure?

"Xu Ran, what are you looking at?"

"I didn't see anything, I misheard, I thought someone called me."

"It's been a month since you transferred from No. [-] Middle School, are you still getting used to it?"

"Of course I got used to it. Anyway, the test scores are so bad, hahaha..."

Candidates in various examination rooms returned to the classroom like birds returning to their nests, and the entire campus returned to the quiet of learning.

He Xu moved the stool around the teaching building for more than half a circle, but he was the first one to arrive at the classroom.In the empty classroom, only a few people sat in the corner sweating profusely, burying their heads on the desks, panting and crying.

Who would have thought that his dirty feelings for Xu Ran were just an illusion, but when Xu Ran appeared in front of him again, the kind of good feelings that had been accumulated over time came back again.

Anyone probably guessed that he is gay and likes Xu Ran's homosexuality.

Once this conclusion was drawn, He Shu became more and more frightened, because he knew that this was unreasonable.

Who still remembers not long after the end of the high school entrance examination, when I was watching TV with my parents, my mother's disdain and ridicule when I saw a message.

"Hey, there are more and more neuropathy now. When the fire is about to die, I actually called my brother and said 'love you forever', isn't it disgusting!"

"Mom, you mean gay?"

"What kind of homosexuality? It's a pervert! Don't pass on the family line, and still hang out with men, it's really shameless! You deserve it if you burn it to death!"

"But this is their freedom of love, and, how can you say you deserve it..."

"People like them deserve it right. They are mentally ill, and they messed up all the AIDS..."

"Okay, you all don't say a few words. I'm on your mother's side. Anyway, I won't allow this kind of person to come out of the family. It's really an insult to the family."

……

These words, like all kinds of yesterday, are constantly stirring in someone's ears.

I'm a pervert?No one's tears stopped, and the classroom was gradually filled with classmates.

Whoever spent the whole night studying in a daze, had countless battles in his mind.

Back in the dormitory, who asked the person on the upper bunk to borrow a mobile phone, secretly opened the browser, and carefully entered "Is homosexuality a disease?".

Click the search button, and a flood of information floods in.How many people open one after another, gaining praise and criticism one after another.

Some people say that this is an act of mediocrity in the name of love. When human beings can reproduce with the same sex, you will be legal.

Some people say that true love comes first, and same-sex is innocent.

……

There are two voices in the mind of any person, one is shouting that homosexuality is innocent, and the other is sternly denouncing that it is an act of abnormal disease.

The more you see, the more confused you become.

"Have you run out? It's time to check the bed soon."

"Oh... used up, used up, thank you."

He Xu hurriedly cleared the browsing history and returned the mobile phone to the brother on the upper bunk.

Am I a psycho?How many people dream about this question.

In a blink of an eye, I arrived at the arts and sciences branch of the second year of high school. According to He's father and mother, he wanted someone to apply for science and medicine.But with his current grades, it is unlikely that he can enter the science experiment class. He has no choice but to fill in the liberal arts.

Mysterious and mysterious, who relied on their grades in the first semester of high school to abruptly advance to the top [-] in the liberal arts, and just passed the line to enter the experimental class of liberal arts.

On the day when the rankings for arts and sciences were released, Xu Ran saw someone's photo on the red list of arts and sciences, and found his class according to the information under the photo.

After self-study and school on the first evening of the second year of high school, He Huiren and Xu Ran reunited.

"Xu Ran?" When He Shi saw Xu Ran at the door of the classroom, his face was full of surprise and alienation.

"Who, can we chat alone for a while?" Xu Ran habitually took He's hand.

Who could not refuse Xu Ran, so he could only silently follow him into the school's Lianchi Lake Pavilion.

At night, there is a cool breeze in the pavilion in the middle of the lake, a bright moon above the head, and the sound of lotus and insects all around.Who would think that this place is more suitable for reciting poems and composing poems like "toasting to invite the bright moon, and drinking together to form three people", rather than thinking about the current situation, where the two men sat awkwardly in the shadows without saying a word.

"Didn't you say you wanted to talk to me?" He Xu leaned back in the chair pretending to be calm, but did not look at Xu Ran.

"I want to say that I have transferred from another school." Xu Ran said dryly.

"I know, I saw you." He Xuren couldn't help but look at Xu Ran again.

"I saw your picture. You entered the experimental class of liberal arts. You are amazing, and the sword is not old." Xu Ran threw out words one after another, all very jerky and embarrassing.

"Well, what about you?" He Xuren unconsciously tightened his pants with his fingers.

"I, I study art, and I also applied for liberal arts." Xu Ran caught a glimpse of He Xu's small movements from the corner of his eyes, and smiled knowingly.

Who can't understand: "Why do you study art? Can't you study the main subjects well?" In what person's impression, He's father and mother have always instilled in him that those who study art are dubious and useless poor students thought of.

Xu Ran's expression was a little subtle, he opened his mouth, and could only smile: "It's too late, let's talk here first, let's talk about it later."

"Okay." He Xuren also found that his words were a bit harsh, so he could only walk down the steps Xu Ran gave him.

From that day on, Xu Ran suddenly appeared in someone's life all the time.

Waking up in the morning, Xu Ran was waiting downstairs in the dormitory for someone to attend class with.

In the morning break, Xu Ran gave someone various snacks.

For lunch and dinner, Xu Ran will also hold a dinner plate and share a table with someone.

After self-study and school in the evening, Xu Ran escorted someone back to the dormitory.

Repeatedly, from one point in the morning to this point in the evening.The two were inseparable, like a young couple in love.

Who would think that Xu Ran seemed to like him too, this discovery made him secretly happy as a homosexual.

During the Spring Festival, who would go to visit relatives with their parents, but this year's Spring Festival also completely extinguished the fire of what people's expectations.

On the third day of the Lunar New Year, there was no snow, and the outdoor temperature was still as low as ever.

He Xu knelt down on the floor with tears all over his face, and glared at He Ma, who stood aside with her arms akimbo.

"I am not wrong!"

"You didn't learn well at a young age, and now you're gay! Is that why you want to be a pervert!"

"Gays are not perverts!"

"You still dare to talk back! You are sick! You have learned these things with my money for your education?"

"Homosexuality is not a disease, I am not wrong, and I am not studying to be filial to you on my knees!"

"Is it wrong for you to be filial to us? Your father doesn't leave you any good things? I get motion sickness, and I sell tickets on long-distance buses to make money. Isn't it just to make money for you to study, so that you don't eat poorly and dress poorly compared to others! "

"I didn't say these are what I want!"

"Okay! Okay...you are mentally ill now, I'm going to wake you up today to see if you can cure your homosexuality well..."

Push forward half an hour, who received a call from Xu Ran.

"Who is it, happy new year!"

"Happy New Year, Xu Ran!"

"New year, new weather, I heard that the wishes made in the new year are likely to come true."

"Then what did you wish for?"

"Who, I like you, can we have a relationship?"

"Huh? Stop joking."

"I'm not kidding, who the hell, I like you, and I know you like me too."

"I...I like you—Mom!"

Who was huddled on the balcony to answer the phone was discovered by He Ma's puppy love, but what made He Ma more angry now was that his son was actually in a relationship with a man!

"What happened! Who is it! Who is it!" Mama He dropped the mobile phone to the ground, and Xu Ran's anxious and concerned voice was heard outside the speaker that was touched by mistake.

He Ma's complexion became more and more gloomy as Xu Ran shouted, and she slapped He Xu's face with a slap, leaving red fingerprints in an instant.

He Xu was slapped until his ears buzzed, his eyes blurred, and two lines of tears burst out immediately.

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