King Jack Sue

As the old saying goes, standing at thirty, establishing a family and establishing a career should be a new situation, but Gu Xuan got a thunderbolt news this year - he was diagnosed with advanced gastric cancer.

Gu Xuan didn't believe it at first, but after repeated reexaminations, he found that the diagnosis was correct. He was indeed in the late stage of gastric cancer, which was the root cause of the disease left over from the early years of his business.Seven or eight years ago, life was hard, I was too busy and had no money. Sometimes eating was a problem. How could I pay attention to my stomach problems? Then I took medicine intermittently in the next few years. I thought the disease was almost cured, but unexpectedly it developed like this Seriously, it became an advanced stage of gastric cancer.

Holding the report, Gu Xuan sat alone outside the hospital corridor for a long time.

It was so sudden, he never thought that he would get sick, let alone die.He confidently thought that he still had a long time to complete his career and accompany someone.

But I don't want to turn into ashes in an instant.

He said that he wanted to be with Yan Ci and take care of him for the rest of his life.

He couldn't bear to say goodbye and didn't want to die.If he dies, Yan Ci, that idiot, can't bear it, he's all alone, what should I do?

Gu Xuan's eyes were dry, he leaned back and simply closed his eyes, trying to restrain the urge to cry, but even though his brows were furrowed and his hands clenched into fists, he couldn't restrain it.

The hot liquid fell down his face and hit his heart, teaching him to see the cruelest word in the world, death.

The sky was getting darker and darker, Gu Xuan didn't go home even on the moon, he sat in the hospital very late, until Yan Ci came to him in a panic: "Why are you sitting alone on the phone and don't make calls? Pick it up, make me worry for a long time, is it fun!"

Gu Xuan didn't speak, just looked at Yan Ci silently.

When he was in college, Yan Ci did a lot of running around. When he remembered that one thing was another, it was Gu Xuan who went to look for him every time. Afterwards, the two of them got together, and his temperament still remained the same. Running around, Gu Xuan still had no choice but to look for him.

In the future, when I am gone, who will look for him and take him home?

"Aci," he said in a hoarse voice, "don't run around anymore, I'm afraid I won't find you..."

Yan Ci choked: "I know... But I don't run around, and you can't worry me by running around."

Gu Xuan smiled, with suppressed tears in her eyes: "Okay, don't run around."

He couldn't tell Yan Ci, and he didn't dare to tell Yan Ci, he was afraid that he would cry, that he would be sad, that he would fall into despair and pain from now on, although he was destined to make him sad and painful.

He had no other choice but to procrastinate one day at a time, more than one day at a time, and every day seemed to be stolen from heaven.

He began to teach Yan Ci a lot of things, the logistics market, the operation of the company, the changes in the market, and what he knew. He told him that after he left, Yan Ci could make a lot of money and live a better life by learning these things. .Yan Ci was very surprised why he had to teach him this. Gu Xuan said that the company might need his help in the future. Yan Ci rolled his eyes and wanted to pretend to be dead.

Gu Xuan spent less and less time busy with business, and spent more and more time with him. Within a year, he actually took him to many famous scenic spots. Yan Ci laughed and laughed all the way. ground pain.

Passing K City, Yan Ci expressed that he wanted to go back to school and Gu Xuan followed him.I haven't gone back to school for many years. Apart from expanding the scope of the school and adding a few buildings, there are no major changes.

The road is familiar, and there is still a bamboo forest in the depths of the small garden, which is inaccessible and verdant.Back then, he liked staying here very much, and he stayed here for four years.

On a rainy night, he passed out drunk here, was brought home by Gu Xuan, and then returned home with him for the rest of his life.

Yan Ci suddenly smirked.

"What are you thinking, laughing so silly"

"I miss you."

"miss me"

"Yes, I think about how good-looking you were before," Yan Ci smiled: "Do you still remember that the first time I met you was when you had a debate. I was late at that time, and I bumped into you on the road, and I Knocked off your pen, and then you reached out to pick it up. At that time, I was thinking, wow~ Whose hand is so beautiful, it must be playing the piano, and it turned out that you really played the piano. "

Looking at his face, Gu Xuan felt that the old things were like a net, coated with honey and poisoned, densely entwined in people's hearts, so when he tightened, every inch of the tightened place was sweet and painful.

He tried his best to smile: "I remember the hand? It looks good, shouldn't it be the face?"

"Hands are so good, but the face is still worse"

"What kind of theory is this..."

"Yan's Theory!"

"A Ci..." Gu Xuan looked at him seriously.

Yan Ci was surprised that Gu Xuan didn't hate him: "Why?"

"I like you." His voice was a little hoarse, and his eyes were a little red.

Some things, even though they have been said countless times, he still wants to say them a few more times.

If I don’t talk about it, I will run out of time, and I won’t be able to talk about it later.

Yan Ci didn't notice anything wrong, so he curled his lips: "You just like it?"

Gu Xuan smiled, but her voice became hoarse: "I love you."

Yan Ci smiled hippie: "How much love."

"Lovely."

"Love is much love"

I love you very much... I only love you in my life, even if I'm gone someday, I still only love you.

I love you very much, I want to be with you for a long time, I want to be with you for the rest of my life, take care of you for the rest of my life, and then when we are all old men, we will hold hands and scare the children on the street.

"I love you so much..." Gu Xuan's eyes began to blur, "I don't want to leave."

"Go what?"

Gu Xuan quickly restrained her emotions: "It's nothing."

Gu Xuan took medicine and had surgery without telling Yan Ci, thinking that he would not expose it in front of him, but it is a terminal illness after all, so how could he not reveal heresy.

In September, Gu Xuan coughed up blood for the first time, coughing uncontrollably, frightened Yan Ci, now Yan Ci knew everything.

He was struck by lightning for a moment, his hands and feet were cold, and his whole body was shaking. He pulled Gu Xuan and wanted to go to the hospital for an examination: "It's wrong, it must be wrong, it's definitely a misdiagnosis, a misdiagnosis..."

But after only two steps, his legs and feet became weak, and he fell to the ground and couldn't stand up: "It's wrong, it must be wrong, these quack doctors, I want to settle accounts with them..."

His voice was trembling and hoarse, his eyes were flushed with fear, like a crazy leopard that had been wounded, he got up from the ground with hands and feet, grabbed Gu Xuan's hand and staggered out.

"A Ci..." Gu Xuan pulled him back, with desolate helplessness and tenderness in his eyes: "I have done this check five times."

Yan Ci stood there dumbfounded, lost all strength, looked at him blankly, and it took a while for tears to fall.

He didn't make a sound, but tears kept running down his face. The mottled tears and dull expression made him look stupid and ugly.

"It can be cured... It can be cured..." He murmured, suddenly he didn't know what he thought of, turned around and rushed into the study, rummaging through boxes and cabinets.

The book was smashed to the ground, and those pens, inks, papers and inkstones that he regarded as treasures on weekdays were also thrown everywhere: "There is a way to cure... There is a way to cure... I have read an ancient prescription before, which records that you can cure The method...Gu Xuan, don't be afraid, I will cure you, and I will cure you no matter how much money I spend...Don't be afraid, don't be afraid...I'll find it right away..."

He searched all the books, but there was nothing he wanted, and he knelt in the mess like a madman, tearing and throwing whatever he picked up: "It's not it...it's not...where did I throw it away, where did I throw it away... "

He looked up and saw Gu Xuan, who was standing by the door, looking at him quietly, with tears in his eyes.

Yan Ci rushed over and wanted to hug him, but felt that his face was covered with tears and snot and his nose was dirty from crying, so he hurriedly wiped it off a few times, and then carefully supported Gu Xuan's shoulder with shaking hands and voice: "Gu Xuan... you Don't be afraid...I will cure you...don't be afraid...those doctors are quack doctors...they are all idiots...don't be afraid, be good..."

He went to wipe Gu Xuan's tears, but he didn't know that he was crying all over his face again, which was extremely ugly.

He is already in his thirties, but now he is acting like a child, stubbornly trying to protect someone he can't protect.

How could Gu Xuan leave?How can you go?The one who agreed to stay with him for the rest of his life, the one who agreed to grow old with him, the one who agreed to scare the children, and the one who agreed to take him home, how could he run away alone?

No, no.

Gu Xuan closed her eyes, pulled Yan Ci into her arms, hugged her tightly, and let the tears flow down: "A Ci..."

He has never hugged him so tightly, every second seems to hug him with his life, but even with all his life, he will not be able to hug this person.

His voice was also trembling: "A Ci... calm down, stomach cancer is terminal, it can't be cured, it can't be cured."

Sure enough, Yan Ci calmed down, his body stopped trembling in his arms, and there was no sound, just like a dead body.

Gu Xuan froze for a moment, and the next second heard thin sobs on his shoulder, one by one, getting louder and louder, and finally turned into howling.

"I don't want...I don't want you to leave me. You said you would take care of me for the rest of your life..." He tried to push Gu Xuan, but he couldn't push or beat her.

Yan Ci suddenly raised his head: "Are you punishing me for being disobedient and making you angry? From now on, I will be obedient and not make you angry. Don't get sick, okay?"

He tightly grabbed Gu Xuan's cuff, as if grabbing some life-saving straw: "I won't run around anymore, I'll go home whenever you want; I won't play the piano in the middle of the night, I will never touch it; I will learn what you ask me to learn, and I will never object to your words; I will do whatever you ask me to do, I am obedient to Gu Xuan... I know I was wrong... Don't get sick, okay, don't leave me, okay... I...I will write reviews for you, I will work, I will do budget planning...I, I will..."

Before he finished speaking, Gu Xuan lowered his head and kissed him.

The tip of the tongue is lingering, clinging to death, every inch of breath is a painful nostalgia.

Then he felt Yan Ci's tears falling on his face, and the tears of the two blended together without distinction.

Perhaps ten years ago, they were already inseparable from each other.

Yan Ci finally stopped being crazy and noisy, and quietly, doing what he should do every day, going to the company, writing, and taking care of Gu Xuan, and Gu Xuan still taught him many things.

It's like nothing happened.

In the autumn evening, Gu Xuan was playing the piano in the piano room. The setting sun and the clear sky were his background.

A "Love Letter" is dedicated to the person I love, whether it is the sunset or the wind and the moon, it is a testimony of my love for you.

Yan Ci sat beside him, Gu Xuan smiled at him: "A Ci stretches out his hand, I will give you a gift."

Yan Ci handed him his hand.

He took Yan Ci's hand, looked at it, and stroked it to form a word, Xuan.

He kissed Yan Ci's hand reverently, and then closed his hand together: "Put it away."

For you.

Write three times in a lifetime, only for you.

Yan Ci looked up at him, the word was written three times in his hand.

The first time was at night, in the piano room near the school, he pulled himself to play a song "Love Letter" for himself, so the countless throbs of youth were attributed to the word in the palm of his hand;

The second time was on the Ferris wheel, high above the ground, he said "I like you", which became the heaviest oath;

And then, this time.

He used to think that Gu Xuan didn't like him, and thought that even though they liked each other, they couldn't be together, but after everything was overcome, when he thought they could really last forever, fate played a big joke on him. Take Gu Xuan away from him.

So in the final analysis, their fate is not enough.

Ten years of love in vain.

"A Ci, promise me to live a good life."

"it is good."

When it snowed in December, Gu Xuan passed away.

Yan Ci sat in front of his tombstone and read a poem to him, "When You Are Old".

He stood up in the snowstorm.

The cemetery is lonely, lifeless, and there is no living soul anymore.

For a moment, he felt like he was back in his childhood, the night when the power was cut off, the dark room, the lonely little person who couldn't see clearly.

The things that were finally lost finally came back to me.

Yan Ci burst into tears.

From now on, the old man is probably the only one.

Yan Jingzhi, the author of "The Color of Mountains and Rivers", suddenly published a new book "Memories", attracting countless book fans to urge more onlookers.

The words are deep, recalling the old people, ten years of Qingfen.

Countless people shed tears.

"The happiness of my whole life is bestowed by this person."

"He told me to live a good life, but I still lied to him. Because I have never been a strong person, I'm afraid."

"Fear of eternal darkness and loneliness."

"I miss him and want to be with him forever."

"So, I'm going to find him."

"Goodbye."

Yan Ci pushed open the window.

It was gloomy outside the window, not light, but rain.

The author has something to say:

Ten thousand kinds of assumptions, because of my lack of talent and shallow writing style, I only showed a few weak ones in the end, and the charm of the supporting characters and the branch plot were not developed, which is a pity.

I love Yan Ci and Gu Xuan, love their sweetness, depth and sorrow together.

Then, thanks to the little angels who have been watching until the end, I am very honored to have you with me.

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