summer and roses

After watching the movie that day and saying goodbye afterward, Mucha's mood was very complicated.

Lin Zhan thought that his face was darkened because he was teased by You Yi in public, so he consciously separated the two of them, so as not to show off his martial arts in the street.His nerves were tense all the way, until Mu Xia waved to them and got into the taxi, then he let out a sigh of relief.

"What's the matter, Lin Zhan?" You Yi said, he is very good at observing the ups and downs of other people's emotions, "You have been bitter and bitter since just now, is it because the movie is not good or Meng is not easy to bully?"

Caught off guard by being named, Meng actually heard the contempt in his words, and immediately rose up to resist: "Hey!"

Lin Zhan shook his head, laughed self-deprecatingly and said, "I was afraid that you and Mucha would fight. Mucha seems easy-going, but I always feel that his character...has a sharper side."

You Yi was immersed in unwrapping the glass wrapper of a candy. Hearing that he ate the candy, he thought for a while and said slowly: "It's a little bit, it's okay, I won't have any conflicts with him for no reason."

Lin Zhan: "The conflict between you and Xu Wenke is inexplicable."

You Yi slapped Lin Zhan on the back of the head, was stopped by the sharp-eyed Lin Po, and gave up angrily, but still said: "That's not a conflict, it's just a small conflict, don't meddle in it - let's go, see you tomorrow night."

After he finished speaking, he kicked the small stones on the side of the street, put his hands in his pockets, and left the other three with a chic back.

Lin Po, who was standing still, tugged at the corner of Lin Zhan's clothes, and said worriedly, "The more he behaves like this, the more I feel that there is something wrong. Why don't you ask Xu Wenke another day?"

Lin Zhan surrendered with both hands: "Grandma, please forgive me, I won't go."

Ringo: "Trash."

After the three of them said a few more words, the bus that the brothers and sisters of the Lin family were going to take stopped, and after saying goodbye to Meng Ran, the two also walked away.The route of the bus was going straight forward, and Lingo was sitting by the window, leaning against the glass that had been scratched for too long, and saw the figure of Youyou walking with his head buried in his eyes gradually being lifted out of sight.

The east-west streets are particularly magnificent at sunset.There were no heavy clouds on this day, and the golden-red light cast long shadows from behind. The outlines of trees and the noisy ruts merged into a beautiful oil painting.

Youyou turned a corner, the voices of people and the horns of the car were far away, he walked around a few alleys familiarly, and walked into a residential area that looked a bit old but was neatly decorated.

He took out the key and opened the door, walked to the balcony and opened the curtains, covering his nose to dispel the musty smell that had been left unoccupied for a long time.

In the three-bedroom apartment with a simple and comfortable decoration style, he walked towards the calendar hanging on the wall. There were still two weeks before the promised day when his parents would come back. He sighed and threw his schoolbag on the ground casually.

All the changed clothes were left at school, and the house was deserted.You Yu took out the beer from the back of the Coke can, took two sips after pulling out the tab, frowned, leaned against the edge of the counter, and looked around for nothing to eat.He bowed his head and thought for a while, then put the beer can on the counter and walked out.

You Yi ordered a nearby fried rice takeaway, and began to slowly tidy up the mess left over from last week - the dust on the tables and chairs had to be wiped off, the sofa covers were removed and stuffed into the washing machine, the floor was swept and mopped, a bunch of trivial things were waiting for him.

Waiting for the takeaway to arrive, Youyou sat cross-legged on the carpet between the sofa and the coffee table, found a disc of "The Two Towers", stuffed it into the DVD player, and ate while watching it with relish.

This is his weekend: his parents often go on business trips because of their scientific research, and they stay in the tropical rainforest for half a year. He can only take care of a deserted home by himself.

The last sunset light leaked in from the window, and the community was full of family reunion laughter and laughter, as well as the smell of cooking from the kitchen.You Yi threw the leftover fried rice into the trash can along with the lunch box, and silently turned off the TV.

He took a short break, propped himself up, and fumbled for his homework absently.

When the exercise book was opened, a light and fluffy piece of paper fell out, You Yu was taken aback for a moment, and instinctively grabbed it.The lower part was crumpled by him, and when it was flattened, a naive doraemon came into view.

"You idiot..." he murmured.

But You Yi himself didn't realize that when he saw the doraemon, from saying goodbye to his classmates to finishing his meal, he finally changed his expression, it didn't matter, the indifferent expression disappeared, and an imperceptible smile appeared instead.

He naturally thought of Mucha.

This strange transfer student never seemed to take his studies seriously. Every day in class, he either slept or scribbled.He doesn't talk much, but once he speaks, he can be pissed off by Mucha within three sentences—oh, gender man, hobby man.

It's really weird.

You Yi made a "tsk", wondering why he was thinking of him at this moment, quickly got him out of his mind, and hurried to the kitchen to get the half-drunk can of beer.

The doraemon was placed there, reluctant to throw it away and unwilling to look at it, it was very annoying, and I couldn't finish my homework, You You simply slipped to the study room to turn on the computer and play Warcraft.

A friend from the online game guild asked him why he hadn’t played for so long, and he vaguely said something was wrong, but he didn’t admit that he was a high school student who lived in the school—boys have self-esteem, if the average age is younger than the guild members, he will return to the game in the future. how to mix.Fighting in the virtual world, the time always passes quickly, and when You Yi came back to his senses, it was almost twelve o'clock.

When he was a student, it was difficult to have a few irregular schedules. He had no intention of staying up late, rubbed his hair and said he was going to sleep, and turned off the game cleanly.Youyue is not a bad sleeper, doesn't procrastinate, and has almost mature self-control. Because of this, no matter how poorly he studies, his parents can rest assured that he will be at home by himself.

"It's so boring." He thought, lying on the bed after taking a shower, scrolling through Moments.

Ringo posted a group photo of several people watching a movie and having dinner, and replied to everyone with a smile below.Meng was actually the most active, and Lin Zhan only gave a reserved compliment.

Upholding the mentality of "Like = Read", You Yi also gave a like to Ringo's circle of friends.

And not long after he finished liking, a notification popped up on his phone, and Lin Zhan pulled him into a group.You Yi took a closer look, and almost burst into tears from the laughter of the group name, "Eating and Drinking Squad".

Several people who ate and drank together this afternoon were all there. Just as You You entered, a strange avatar made a sad frog expression, probably not at him, it just happened that they were just chatting.He clicked on the big picture, and the person's profile picture was a cat, a bit like a certain internet celebrity, with two words under it: super fierce.

You Yi thought for a while, then typed and asked, "Muchia?"

Super Fierce Cat sent another sad frog toasting to express his acquiescence.

He laughed with a "puchi", and happily added Super Fierce Cat as a friend.The other party passed by in seconds, You Yi sent a firework emoji, and then clicked on Mucha's Moments -

Then I was dumbfounded.

This friend only shows the circle of friends within three days.

You Yi thought: Fuck you.

Adding friends does not speak, only one emoticon after another stops in the chat box.The same is 150 reserves, You You always feels that Mucha's emoji pack is much richer than his. Anyway, every time he tries to mock Mucha, the other party can pick up and mock him more than three times.

You Yi was defeated, and typed: "You are amazing."

Mucha was not polite to him at all, and the reply was full of contempt: "Of course."

You Yi: "At home?"

Mucha nodded Shiba Inu, and then said: "You must be lying down if you can fight with me in idleness. You keep staring at your phone, and your mother doesn't care about you? It's not good."

He typed extremely fast, and a sentence could be sent several times. If he changed his temper in a hurry, he might be suffocated by the frequency of his chatting on the spot.Reluctantly, You Yi's personality is not too intense, so he waited leisurely for a long time, and when there was nothing to say, he slowly typed and chatted with him, briefly explained the situation at home, and said with a smile: "Are you envious?"

No one cares, be free.

If it were someone else, they would probably agree to say a few words of envy, jealousy and hatred. He had just sent out the words, and remembered that the connection on the other end of the network cable was not a relationship, but Mu Xia who laughed at himself for not caring for his mother or mother.The three words suddenly became inappropriate, the water was splashed in the sent message, and the withdrawal was too deliberate.

Youyou was a little nervous for no reason, he sat up and wondered if he was too offensive.

The words "the other party is typing" on the top of the chat box disappeared and reappeared, and went back and forth several times, and finally Mu Xia's reply jumped out with a "ding dong": "I'm envious."

He didn't believe that Mu Xia took so long to type four words, but it was not You Yi's turn to say other words.So he had no choice but to pretend to believe in Mucha's evil, talked about him from left to right, and quickly pulled the topic away.

The two of you come and go, You You thinks it's over.In the group, Meng actually chatted with Lin Zhan until what time the next day he would go to school to make up his homework. Lin Po changed the name of the group to "Do your homework first, then eat and drink." Dropped the lamp—he was a little sleepy.

"Sleep first" was typed in half, and another line of words popped up in the chat interface with Super Fierce Cat.

After You Yi finished watching, the drowsiness was gone, and he wanted to pull Mucha out of the screen and beat him up on the spot.Is this man on purpose, and every time he tries to slip away, he can be dragged back?

Mucha said: "We share the same illness and have one more thing in common. I think we are destined."

You Yi recalled the sentence that came to mind just now: "Oh, let's cherish this relationship by connecting with the Internet. It's not easy for you to come to study here, I hope you can graduate smoothly."

Mucha first said "Get lost", then asked him: "How do you know I'm far away?"

Youyou took a screenshot of his profile page and sent it, almost innocently said: "Aren't you from Antigua, I have no culture, what kind of place is this, in the Pacific Ocean or the Indian Ocean?"

Mucha sent a bunch of "..." and added a sad frog, and then said, "Actually, I don't know either."

Youyou almost laughed himself out of breath under the blanket, he rolled around twice, clutching his belly and laughing sorely, he managed to calm down his breathing.In the same words, it is very interesting for Mucha to say it, I don't know what's going on.

"Okay, I'm going to bed." Seeing that he didn't reply for a long time, Mu Xia typed, "Good night."

In the dark, the phone screen became the only light source in his room.And in this light source, Mucha sent him a greeting without beginning or end, You Yi felt sore, threw the phone aside, turned over and covered his head with the quilt vigorously, deliberately ignoring the words other meanings included.

Of course the boys wouldn't say goodnight to each other at the end of their chats, they weren't so pretentious, he and Meng Ran were so close that they could only wear a pair of pants, and after so many years, Meng had always said "Brother You begged me to sleep".

You Yi doesn't think it's Mu Xia's sensitivity due to a certain sexual orientation, and he doesn't want to remind himself that it's been a long time since he heard good night from someone who is close to him.

For as long as he's been on his own—or at least he thinks he's—the only one who's ever said that to him is his mother.

But because of work and long jet lag, his mother also forgot this simple greeting.

The word "good night", You You once thought that it was the direct source of getting rid of the nightmare and getting a good night's sleep. He cares a lot about these things, but it's just such a little persistence.

You Yi thought: "Damn it... what can I do?"

He really slept well that night, ten hours of dark and sweet dreams, and woke up without remembering anything.

The next day, I was alone. After waking up, I went to the community for morning exercises. After running, I bought soy milk fritters from a well-established store outside the gate, ate two steamed buns, went home to take a shower, and then sat at the desk to do my homework.

Frankly speaking, You You's grades are not that bad, he just doesn't want to study, the homeroom teacher knows this very well.Lucky Cat has taken him with him since the first year of high school, and has moved him countless times with affection and reason, but he has no choice but to play the piano to the cow.

His rebellion comes from the excellence of his parents. The more he sees the life of the so-called high-level intellectuals, the more he feels that good grades are useless.His goal is different from Xu Wenke's. The latter is all about Tsinghua University and Peking University, while You Yi always thinks about making do, a similar university, a similar job.

Half of the questions in the math homework are only the first small question, and I have finished writing all the English, although I can't guarantee the correct rate.As for the other sub-subjects, he relied on making up politics and history, and geography mainly relied on Lin Zhan.

Throwing the ink pen away, You You sent a message to Lin Zhan: "Keep the geography scroll for me, don't give it to me."

Lin Zhan didn't reply to him for a long time, probably not playing with mobile phones in cram school.

He leaned back on the back of the chair, thinking that he had quite a wide range of friends.Xueba is like Xu Liberal Arts, hardworking top student is like Lin Zhan, achievement is not good but optimistic and righteous like Meng Yuan, and there is a maverick Mu Xia.

You Yi put Mu Xia in his close circle, thinking, "I don't know if he regards me as a friend."

Without saying anything, he still cared very much about the first boy he met who showed his identity as "the same kind", and put him in a special position.

I'm in the same category as you.

You are no better than me.

You like boys, so do I.

Youyou propped his forehead and sighed with some distress, the sun was shining outside the window, it was a nice autumn day, but his mood was not very bright.

The time when I found out that I was different from Meng Ran was not far from now. You Yi was [-] or [-] years old, and most of his peers experienced the first wet dream. They felt that they were adults, and they secretly passed on the news from other places in the classmate group. Small video little yellow book.Of course You Yi accepted it without exception, and Meng actually gave it to him.

Gathering a crowd to watch a movie is a shameful thing to say. He was extraordinarily calm among several red-faced teenagers, sitting aside with his hands covering his cheeks, and then he was surprised to find that the soft breasts and slender legs of women did not make him feel any impulse.

His panic didn't last long, Youyou went into the study one summer night, turned on the computer to search his situation, and then it didn't take long to accept the reality for the time being.

The education You Yi received since he was a child is full of humanity and excessive tolerance. He reads a lot of miscellaneous books and thinks a little more than ordinary boys.Having come to a conclusion, let's go to deduce the reason. Youyou thinks that the east has a gray belly, fled back to his room, nestled in the quilt, and finally felt a little sad.

He was emotionally vulnerable that morning and felt alone for the first time because of the prejudice of being a minority and being out of the mainstream.

In memory, Youyou realized that it was the first time that he stayed up all night without any warning.

"I don't know what's going on with Mucha." You You thought while biting the yogurt straw, he packed his schoolbag and put the completed papers in it, impatient to let others share his secrets with him.

The weekend passed quickly, and he was sitting on the bus back to school, a little excited to meet Mucha.

You Yi, who is under the age of 17, can't feel the heaviness in the word "similar". He can only drive away the excitement of being alone, as well as fear, innocence, and anxiety about the unknown.

He jumped up the steps three times and pushed open the door of the dormitory. Mucha was sitting by the bed and untying his shoelaces.

You Yi restrained his inexplicably faster heartbeat, put down his schoolbag, and pretended to casually say, "It's so early?"

"Yeah." Mu Xia didn't raise his head, his short hair still didn't grow much, but it looked much more pleasing to the eye than when he just cut it, he put his sneakers away, and lay on his side on the bed, "Mom and Dad had a fight last night , I didn’t fall asleep—sleep for a while, and call me for dinner.”

You Yi said yes, watched him close his eyes, and quickly breathed steadily.

Autumn wind and autumn sunshine, and the coming golden tree-lined path covered with fallen leaves, he stood beside the bunk bed in the dormitory, propping up the iron frame with one hand, staring at Mucha's sleeping face presumptuously.

"It's very stable." You Yi thought, and the hostility in his heart dissipated a lot.

There is still a long way to go as a teenager, but it is still the same as autumn, most of the time is still clear.