happy event in pairs

The cold wind in the deep winter blows the dark night clean and refined, even the neon lights outside the window and the car lights on the ring road seem to be extra bright, like starlight trembling reflected in a cold spring.

Xiao Jun stood for a long time in the living room with no lights on, holding the mobile phone in his hand, staring out the window like a statue motionless, lost in thought.

A ding sounded.

"Good night."

The message on the screen was as simple as only two words, but it seemed that the dust had finally settled, which made him unconsciously breathe a sigh of relief.

Yesterday's news came a bit late, he walked around in the study like a sleepy beast for half the night, thinking wildly, did he go back to the dormitory?Are you doing self-study outside?Why are you still up so late?Stay up late to study or suffer from insomnia?Turned on the phone several times to look at the chat page.His fingers hovered over the dial key and hesitated several times.

Today's time is okay, it's past eleven o'clock.

Waiting for Xiaoshuang's greetings in the morning and evening has become the support of Xiao Jun's daily life.When he wakes up in the morning, what awaits him is no longer endless emptiness and decadence.He always wakes up first, standing by the window holding his mobile phone, watching the street lights on the road below go out, and the sky light up gradually, while waiting for the crisp WeChat notification sound.

And at night, knowing that he must be going to sleep before sending a message to himself, Xiao Jun can only fall asleep after waiting for these two simple words.

After waiting for tonight's item, he finally felt relieved and went upstairs to take a shower and get ready for bed.

However, taking a shower is another challenge.

The slightly cool warm water flowed down his body, Xiao Jun supported the wall with one hand, and comforted the scorching heat under his body with the other.The white semi-circular bathtub next to it is obviously empty, but as long as you look over it, a charming picture emerges in your mind: after that night, Xiao Shuang obediently lay on the edge of the bathtub, with her chin resting on her folded arms, blushing He lowered his eyes and let him clean it with his fingers.

Xiao Jun's hand speeded up, and when he climbed to the top, his breath stopped, his abdominal muscles stretched into a clear blocky outline, and hot liquid gushed out in waves, and was washed away by the water.

As the pleasure dissipated, he propped his hands against the wall, closed his eyes and lowered his head. A strong sense of self-disgust surged in his heart, and the deep sea submerged him.

Before going to bed, he picked up his phone, opened the chatting interface with Xiao Shuang, and looked back. Every message had been familiarized by heart, as if it was bouncing in his mind with the vivid expression of a child.

The broken thoughts of talking to myself stopped abruptly on Christmas Eve.After that, there were only greetings left, a simple and neat line of good morning and good night, but Xiao Jun seemed to be able to read the emotions inside.Shy from the start.To the fear and grievance behind.

He lay back on the bed with his mobile phone pressed against his chest, as if this could suppress the regret and desire in his heart.Sometimes he is glad that he has good self-control, and he can be determined to be a "clean" person, but sometimes, he is like a drug addict who has a drug addiction, and wants to abandon all rationality and sense of responsibility. I just want to go to him immediately, rub him tightly into my arms, kiss his sweet lips and tongue, suck his pink chest, and enter into his ecstasy body fiercely.

Xiao Jun tossed and turned on the bed holding the quilt like spreading pancakes, the smell left by Xiao Shuang had long since disappeared, but the scene on the big bed that night seemed to be faded with a pink filter. new.

Just like that well-known mental game, the more you tell yourself not to think about it, the more you can't stop thinking about it.

The thing that had just vented for a short time was hard, rubbing back and forth on the silk sheet, unable to get rid of it, accompanied by deeper and deeper self-loathing, Xiao Jun thought of the way Xiaoshuang arched his shiny white body, and couldn't help but put his hands on it again. Stretched down.

He who has always been indifferent has soothed himself more times this month than in the past few years combined.However, the more eager he is, the more he feels guilty. It turns out that he is no different, just a vulgar thing defeated by desire.

Lu Yu called and asked him to have dinner with him, and asked him how he was preparing for the exam, and if he needed help with high mathematics.

In fact, his academic pressure is nothing. After all, his ambition is not here. He can learn something. He went to an international school all the way, and his English is no worse than his mother tongue. Not to mention, coupled with rich practical experience, Luyu has been in high school for three years, and the foundation of mathematics has been laid very solidly. Although attendance is riddled with holes, if you don’t pursue scholarships, it’s okay to have a middle grade. .

It was only when I received a call from Luyu that I realized that it had been a long time since I saw each other. Luo Xingqi had already returned to the United States after his Christmas vacation, and he was there the day he left.

The two of them had already agreed to go over there to accompany him in Luyu during the winter vacation, so they didn't have any worries about parting. The three of them sat and chatted in the coffee shop at the airport as usual.

Xiao Jun felt that he had made progress, and when Luo Xingqi hugged Lu Yu and kissed his long hair at the temples before leaving, his heart was actually peaceful.Looking at his back as he walked into the security check passage, apart from being a little sad, it was not as unbearable as I thought.

You must know that on the day Luo Xingqi left last July, he didn't even have the courage to send him off to the plane, and he lay at home all day as if his muscles were cramped.

In fact, there was something else in Luyu's way of looking for him for dinner.

He met Xiao Shuang a few times recently, and felt that he was not in the right state, obviously worried. When they were reading together, he peeked at him a few times and found that he was distracted, his appetite had decreased, and he had lost weight.The cheerful light in the eyes was extinguished, and the darkness was like a layer of fog.

Since the last time I met at Xiao Jun's house, Lu Yu had been vaguely looking forward to it. Xiao Jun is not a person who is easy to open up to strangers, and wants to rise from his "acquaintance" to "friend" It is not an easy task to get into the hall, and even enter the room, not to mention that he has always known that Xiao Jun is very sensitive to the distance between creatures. .

But the way he hugged Xiaoshuang so logically that day, inevitably gave Lu Yu a little unusual premonition.

At the same time he was worried.Although Xiao Jun can't get the response from the person he likes emotionally, he never gives up on himself. Sometimes Lu Yu feels that his loyalty and cleanliness have nothing to do with Luo Xingqi, but more like a kind of persistence and defense of his own feelings .

Falling in love with such a person is doomed to suffer.

The only person he and Dong Xishuang knew in common was Xiao Jun, and sometimes the topic of conversation would inevitably lead to him.

Xiao Jun was indeed a well-deserved man of the hour in high school. He looks good, has good grades, and a good family background. The appeal is still unmatched.

In the first year of high school, Luyu was withdrawn and indifferent, and suffered bullying on campus when he first entered school. Luo Xingqi and Xiao Jun supported him all the way through.

After Xiao Jun took over as the chairman of the student union, his only goal during his term of office was to put an end to campus bullying incidents in the school.

He led the team to plan a series of activities, set up a talk center, set up a psychological intervention hotline, organized all students in the school to watch anti-bullying movies in the auditorium, and every semester has an anti-campus bullying-themed activity month.

Until now, Huide still retains many activities left by Xiao Jun, and he is a model in anti-campus bullying...

Luyu often stops suddenly while talking, and Xiaoshuang’s expression is too focused and fascinated, which makes him feel that he is too involved in talking, and has the suspicion of Amway, so he will say to Xiaoshuang apologetically:

"Sorry, did I talk too much?"

Xiao Shuang always looked like he had just woken up from a dream, showing a look of eagerness to hear and a little embarrassed, and said: "No, your high school life sounds very interesting..."

He couldn't hide his liking, so he couldn't hide his sudden sadness either.

When making an appointment with Xiao Jun for dinner, Lu Yu pretended to be casual and mentioned: "I went to self-study with Xiao Shuang yesterday..."

Xiao Jun's heart tightened, and his masseter muscles stretched unconsciously.Lu Yu didn't ignore the flash of pain on his face.

He lowered his eyes and added to the fire: "I don't know if he is sick, but he has become very thin recently."

Xiao Jun didn't answer the question, but Lu Yu knew he listened, because he was in a trance during the second half of the meal.

After counting to nine, there was no snow in the capital, but the sky was overcast and dry and cold, just like Dong Xishuang's mood.

During the exam season, the dormitory opened an all-night study room for the convenience of the students to cram their feet. Therefore, many people chose not to go out without going out. They stayed in the dormitory building all day to study, wishing that they could order takeaway for all three meals.It feels like there are a lot fewer people walking around on campus.

Dong Xishuang was depressed, he couldn't eat well, he couldn't sleep well, and he always dreamed.

It was probably because Xiao Jun's sudden absence from behind closed doors hit him too hard, causing him to always have the same dream.In the dream, he was knocked down by a car, got up and ran after the royal blue car, but couldn't catch up no matter how he ran, he had dark circles under his eyes when he got up in the morning, as tired as if he ran [-] meters at night.

Everyone was busy reviewing, and everyone looked pale, but no one noticed that he was not in the right state.

Only Ji Jiqi, seeing how he looks like he is in decline every day, I feel a little guilty and guilty, after all, people are scolded and run away by themselves.He knew why he was unhappy, but if he didn't say anything, he could only pretend he didn't know, and he couldn't even ask.

Dong Xishuang went to the library for self-study in the morning, and didn't come out until after lunch.Today's efficiency is not high, and the books I read all morning seem to have not entered my mind, but my heart is heavy.

He lowered his head and walked slowly towards the cafeteria, but he didn't find someone in a white car on the side of the road staring at him intently.

Xiao Jun didn't know what he was doing now, after Lu Yu left that day, his mind was in such a mess as if he had hidden a big lump of wool that was scratched by a cat, and he rushed left and right irritably, but he couldn't figure it out no matter what.

His life seems to have entered a dead end, he is in a dilemma, no matter how he goes, it is wrong, and no matter what, he has to let everyone down, including himself.

The only thing that was certain was that he was worried about Xiao Shuang and couldn't bear the thought of wanting to see him.

He went home and changed to a car with a darker film, and parked not far from the dormitory since early in the morning.

Not long after the customary "good morning" was sent, Xiao Jun waited for him.

Xiao Shuang was wearing a beige down jacket and carrying a backpack. From a distance, she was white and thin, unobtrusive.He stood at the door of the dormitory building and looked at the sky, rubbed his eyes childishly and cutely, and walked slowly with his head down.

Xiao Jun watched him getting closer and closer, feeling mixed feelings in his heart, and couldn't help clenching his fists.Luyu is not exaggerating, he lost weight, he is not happy.

The tanned skin of the summer vacation has been completely repaired and returned to its original color. The rounded curvature of the cheeks has been reduced, and the jaw has become sharper and the eyes are bigger. Know the taste of sorrow.

He had a preoccupied look on his face, when he passed by the car, he stumbled and staggered on the ground for some reason, and almost fell, Xiao Jun flickered in his heart, and almost couldn't help but push the car door and rush out.

Seeing people walking into the library, Xiao Jun couldn't help frowning: Why didn't you go to have breakfast?Is it so hungry to study?

After one o'clock in the afternoon, Xiao Shuang came out draggingly when the brief bustling crowd at lunch had cleared up on the campus.

Xiao Jun drove the car and followed quietly, and found that he didn't go to the cafeteria, but ran to the lake and stood there in a daze.

In winter, the lake scenery is bleak, passers-by don't stop, Xiao Shuang stands alone by the lake.

At a certain moment, Xiao Jun wanted to fuck that long pain is worse than short pain, I don’t want him to hurt at all, I want to take him home, I want to hold him tight, I want to tell him not to be sad...

But then what.

The impulse faded, Xiao Jun thought blankly, and then watched him become another self?

Xiao Jun followed Xiao Shuang secretly like a stalker for four or five days. One day, he suddenly realized that his depression symptoms seemed to be cured without any medicine, and replaced by lingering anxiety.

Looking at Xiao Shuang's increasingly haggard appearance, I was anxious, and I was even more anxious if I couldn't see it.Once irritable, I can't control my temper.

One night before going to bed, he was stunned when he habitually wanted to play with the static ball. Besides the dead rabbit hanging on the lamp beside his bed, there was this simple static ball on the bedside table.But two days ago, I found out that the white towel that Xiao Shuang gave me during the military training was folded and placed under the silver-white base of the static ball.

Now that towel is gone.My aunt came to clean it in the afternoon.

Regardless of the fact that it was almost midnight, he immediately called home to ask.

Liu Li was surprised when she received the call, and replied, "It's the middle of the night, just for a towel?"

Xiao Jun's tone was different from his usual calmness, and he was full of anger: "Go and ask Auntie to get up and ask, did you throw it away for me?"

Xiao Jun was precocious and rational since he was a child. Liu Li had never seen him express his anger so bluntly and unreservedly. Although he couldn't understand why a towel was so precious, she hurried to call Auntie and said after a while: "No Throw it away, put it in the bathroom cabinet, in the basket where Auntie put the rags... Junjun, is that towel a limited edition? Auntie doesn't understand, so don't blame her."

"Yeah." Xiao Jun breathed a sigh of relief, "Let's talk about it later, I'll hang up first."

He went to look in the bathroom cabinet downstairs, and sure enough, he found the thin, small, very poor quality white towel in a plastic basket.Clean it up quickly and hang it up carefully.

The author has something to say: Little Theater:

Dong Xishuang: Hey!Why do I always feel being followed recently? Didn't I encounter a pervert?

Xiao Jun: (flicks the small whip in his hand) Tonight I will let you experience what a real pervert is!