rainy tonight

Children's Day in the third year of junior high happened to be a weekend, and Fei Dong took Song Fanqing to the playground. Fifteen years old is no longer a child, but when Song Fanqing raised this point, Fei Dong said that he wanted to take him out to play after all, and Song Fanqing agreed to go.

I bought a ticket to go in, and there was a sea of ​​people inside, and it took an hour or two to queue for just one item.Fei Dong didn't have the patience to wait, so he went directly to the ticket office to apply for the two highest-level membership cards, which allowed him to enter preferentially through the green channel.

I often see playgrounds in books, TV shows and movies, but Song Fanqing has never been there. Although his face is quite calm, the light in his eyes cannot be hidden.

Fei Dong could tell, with a smile on his lips, and played with him on pirate ships, roller coasters, and self-controlled planes.

In the evening, they planned to play one last project.

"Let's go play the Ferris wheel," Fei Dong said, "there are fewer people there."

"it is good."

The project requires half of the seats to be activated. They were the first ones to go in. After waiting for a while, Song Fanqing realized that except for him and Fei Dong, the other seats were basically in pairs when the Ferris wheel started to rotate. lovers.

Fei Dong leaned on the back of the chair, squeezed his ears with his hands, and raised his chin: "Look over there."

Song Fanqing followed his guidance and looked over. The sky was inlaid with a few pieces of brightly colored fire clouds. The color was strong, and the edge of the pirate ship was coated with a layer of golden orange, which was extremely gorgeous.

He smiled and said, "It's so pretty."

Fei Dong asked, "Are you happy today?"

This is a bit like coaxing a child, Song Fanqing nodded embarrassedly.When he is with Fei Dong, he can always feel more happiness, and he also likes to do any ordinary things with each other, which is a good feeling.The only bad thing is thinking that Fei Dong will have his own children in the future. He knows that he had a girlfriend before, but there is no news during this period, and he doesn't know if they broke up.

Fei Dong wouldn't talk to him about emotional matters, at most he would just mention one thing, and Song Fanqing naturally wouldn't take the initiative to ask, but recently he seemed to be a bit repulsive, but he didn't know how this feeling came from. .

Song Fanqing withdrew his gaze and looked at the person sitting beside him.

Fei Dong looked out of the small window, the afterglow of the setting sun outlined smooth lines on his face, portraying the deep eyebrows and eyes to be strong and handsome.

Song Fanqing felt that his heart was beating faster, and he asked aloud, "Godfather, do you want a boy or a girl in the future?"

Not understanding why he would ask such a question, Fei Dong put his head on his hands and said with great interest, "Why do you ask this suddenly? Do you like younger brother or younger sister?"

Song Fanqing pursed his lips and said in a low voice, "It doesn't matter whether you like it or not, it's fine."

Fei Dong chuckled twice, bowed his head and whispered in his ear, "Then Xiaoqing might be disappointed, godfather doesn't plan to have a child, you are enough."

"Why?" Song Fanqing asked in a daze.

"I'm a non-marriageist. For the time being, I can't think of what I will look like after marriage, or what the meaning of marriage is. How to put it, you may not understand why. In short, I will not get married, and I don't plan to find any surrogate. So it’s impossible to have children.”

Song Fanqing nodded silently, and Fei Dong said again, "Will you give me a pension?"

When he was speaking, his eyebrows and eyes were vivid, Song Fanqing's heart moved, and he said seriously: "Yes."

"So nice."

After returning from the playground, Song Fanqing felt that his mood became more stable every day, as if he had thrown away some burden and felt lighter.

During the class break that day, the representative of the Chinese class handed out the monthly exam papers. Song Fanqing was holding it in his hand and was about to see how many points he got for his composition when his arm was bumped by his deskmate.

"Song Fanqing, please do a test for me."

"What test?"

"It's just a psychological test."

"Just do it directly, why do you want me to do it?"

"No, I just want to refer to it. It can measure a lot of things. Do you want to try it?"

Unable to resist her request, Song Fanqing tried to do it.

3. Please think of a person in your mind, a person who is good to you and you want to be good to him.

What emerged in his consciousness was Fei Dong's face, and he continued to do it.

Test results: 1 is your most important friend, if your answers to 2, 5 and 8 are the same, it means you are a family-oriented person, if the answer to 3 is different from 1 and 2, you are the first The first reaction is him/her, he/she is the one you have a crush on...

Seeing this, Song Fanqing's heart skipped a beat, suddenly feeling unreal.

His first reaction was to think it was absurd, but when he thought about it further, he vaguely felt that he had caught something, and absently returned the phone to his deskmate.

He doesn't believe in the so-called psychological tests, many of which are made up by people and are definitely not the truth.

It was just that sentence that made Song Fanqing realize something, and he was in a trance for the whole morning, which led to being named and criticized for the first time because of distraction.

After thinking about it for a few days, the fog in my heart became thinner and the answer behind it became clearer and clearer.

He should have fallen in love with Fei Dong, but this kind of love should belong between men and women, or, did he have some kind of disease?

There are a lot of information on the Internet, which can tell him everything he wants to know.

When I walked out of the Internet cafe, it was already dark.Song Fanqing felt a sudden urge to run to meet Fei Dong, but he hadn't decided what to say when he saw it.

Fei Dong gave him the key to his own house, but Song Fanqing didn't go in.He stopped when he reached the door and called Fei Dong, but he didn't get through, so he waited quietly at the door.

He stood there, thinking that it would be too abrupt to come here like this, most people like the opposite sex, so is he going to confess to Fei Dong directly when they meet?That could lead to an immediate breakdown of their relationship.

Song Fanqing waited anxiously for Fei Dong's car to arrive, and before he called for the exit, he saw a person sitting in it by the light on the side of the road, leaning on Fei Dong's arms, a good-looking young man man.

Song Fanqing opened his mouth, but couldn't make a sound.

He saw the familiar laziness on Fei Dong's face, he hugged and kissed him relaxedly, and said a few words in a low voice, both of them laughed, and they both looked good.

There is an open space beside the villa, and there is no one else but him.He stood at the door for a long time, and when the two of them were about to get off the car, he came back to his senses, turned around and ran away.

He didn't stop until he got to the tree by the side of the road. Passers-by were coming and going, and their eyes were only cast there for a moment, and then quickly moved away. No one noticed what kind of turmoil the boy under the plane tree was experiencing in his heart.

He didn't know how to describe his mood, astonishment, shock, and other strong, unnameable and painful emotions were stuck in his throat, like a choke in his throat.

After an unknown period of time, a leaf fell lightly on top of his head, and Song Fanqing raised his head in a daze, looking up at the dense crown of the sycamore tree above his head.The bright orange light of the street lamps shone on the densely packed leaves, forming an incomparable color, like a medieval oil painting with a mellow texture.

He felt dizzy, confused, and at a loss in that dreamlike color.

No matter how precocious he is, he is only a boy close to 16 years old.Everything that he experienced that day seemed to be a little too much, making his thinking and emotions chaotic, and he couldn't figure it out.Only one feeling is clear, and that is heart-filled loss.

It turned out that he really fell in love with the other party, but at this moment, he didn't have any chance to say it.