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exhausted.

Although Mo Ran had doubts, he didn't dare to ask more questions, because if things go on like this, Mo Ran is confident that he can completely settle his suspicions with Yan Moqin on the anniversary day.

In the blink of an eye, April 4st came, and Mo Ran didn't dare to extravagantly hope that Yan Moqin would remember this day, but he still couldn't help being secretly happy alone.

In the afternoon, Mo Ran asked for leave from the company for the first time, returned home early, and took out the ingredients prepared the day before.

Maybe this is not a romantic anniversary, but Mo Ran really put his heart into it. He was looking forward to a kiss, like a sleeping beauty in an ancient castle, waiting for the handsome prince to save him.

Red wine, dishes, no flickering candlelight, no melodious music, but more of Mo Lian's passionate heart.

Moqin, do you know, I have actually liked you for a long time, since the freshmen gave speeches when I was a student, I watched you on the stage from the audience, and since then I have believed that there is a kind of person who is destined to be as dazzling as the sun .

Do you know, Mo Qin, in order to catch up with your pace, I studied hard, but I was so cowardly that I was even ashamed to ask others for your contact information, until I ran into you under the biggest pagoda tree in the school, you A faint "nothing" made me happy for a long time.

Mo Qin, do you know that the bravest decision I made in my life was to leave home and the mother who had been with me for many years, willingly bear the title of unfilial piety, and fill in my volunteers in a completely strange city, but this has It doesn't matter, I have you in that city, no matter how crowded the crowd is, I'm not afraid.

A person, how long does it take to endure before sinking the whole heart, I have loved you for so long, so long that I have forgotten myself.

Mo Ran looked at his watch, it was long past the time for Yan Moqin to get off work, maybe something happened temporarily in the company, Mo Ran always made excuses for Yan Moqin first, and then got up to take the cold food to the kitchen to heat up got hot.

Mo Ran actually had a serious stomach problem, but Yan Moqin never knew it.

In the first few years when I arrived in a strange city, because Yan Moqin and Mo Ran were not in the same school, Mo Ran always ran halfway across the city, and had to take a long bus ride. Standing at the gate of Yan Moqin's campus, I always hoped, It would be great if I could meet Yan Moqin.

Spending too much time on the road, Mo Ran is always unable to eat dinner properly, which is the root cause of his illness. Mo Ran is not a young master from a rich family. It is not easy for his mother to raise him to go to college. Given the decision to leave home, Mo Ran naturally felt ashamed to ask for money from his family anymore, his life was very tight, and most of the poor living expenses were spent on the fare.

Those days were too hard, because Mo Ran's personality was tepid, it was difficult to attract the attention of others, and he didn't have any decent friends. Being able to see Yan Moqin from a distance every day was his biggest motivation in a day.

When people are vulnerable, it is easy to take anything that shines as sunshine for granted, and then desperately follow.

In fact, during these years of persistence, it’s not that Mo Ran never thought of giving up. Until the news of his mother’s serious illness and hospitalization came from home, Mo Ran was completely vulnerable. It is needless to say how sad life was when I was brought up, but when Mo Ran was older, my mother's mental state gradually began to get worse.

Always staring at Mo Ran and calling another name, and sometimes exhorting Mo Ran repeatedly: "Men, you can't believe it."

But the young Mo Ran, just like Zhang Wuji in the book, clearly knows in his heart that the more beautiful a woman is, the less he can believe it, but he still kindly thinks, what if there is really a beautiful and trustworthy woman? ?

Finally, the mother who had worked so hard all her life died quietly. After receiving the news, Mo Ran didn't even have time to go back to see her mother for the last time. Excessive fatigue and haggardness caused stomach problems, and Mo Ran fainted in Yan Moqin's bed. There was a lot of commotion at the school gate.

In fact, when he fell down, Mo Ran closed his eyes, so he might as well not wake up. The only mother he cared about had already left, so what else could he hold on to.

When he woke up, he was in the infirmary of Yan Moqin School.

Yan Moqin sat quietly beside Mo Ran, as if counting Mo Ran's eyelashes.

"Your eyelashes are so long, you look like a girl." Seeing that Mo Ran woke up, Yan Moqin said without hesitation.

But this sudden sense of happiness made Mo Ran blush immediately, sat up on the bed in panic, and then made a very ridiculous move, Mo Ran pinched his face, thinking he was dreaming.

"I didn't expect you to be admitted to the same city as me." Yan Moqin was amused by Mo Ran.

Mo Ran nodded like someone who just woke up from a dream, and then asked in great surprise: "Do you remember me?"

"Of course I remember you, a student who is a year younger than me, I can see you at the school gate every day."

Mo Ran felt ashamed of being a thief, and dared not look directly at Yan Moqin.

"What's your name?" Yan Moqin asked.

"Mo... Mo Ran." This was the first time Yan Moqin asked his name.

"Mo Ran?" Yan Moqin repeated several times and became more and more delighted: "Can you talk to me more?"

Mo Ran nodded timidly: "Thank you...thank you senior."

Yan Moqin smiled in satisfaction: "You don't have to call me senior, just call me Moqin."

That time, Mo Ran really thought he touched the sun.

It was already 10 o'clock, and Yan Moqin still hadn't come back. In fact, Mo Ran's waiting was not too difficult. After all, he had been used to waiting for so many years, but his stomach felt cramped.

Mo Ran could only force himself to recall some happy things as much as possible to relieve his concentration.

After the care in the infirmary, the two exchanged mobile phone numbers, and even occasionally sent text messages of good morning and good night, but more often, Yan Moqin would let Mo Ran call him to wake him up. Yan Moqin seemed to like Mo Ran very much. Ran's voice, sometimes unreasonably making Mo Ran read stories to him.

But for Mo Ran, there is simply nothing happier than this.

Suddenly one evening, Yan Moqin called Mo Ran to ask him to go out again. At that time, it was past the gate control time. Mo Ran climbed over the wall and went out clumsily, but was hurt by the broken glass outside the wall. When Yan Moqin was around, Yan Moqin was already so drunk that he passed out.

"Mo Ran... Mo Ran, are you here?" Yan Moqin called out.

Mo Ran struggled to support Yan Moqin who was stumbling around: "Moqin, you drank too much."

"Mo Ran, why did you come...?" Yan Moqin frowned, some people said that the more men drink, the more childish they become.

"Sorry, I'm late." Mo Ran hid the wound that he didn't have time to deal with, and wiped the blood on his clothes.

"Mo Ran, sing for me!" Yan Moqin suddenly suggested.

"I...I won't." Mo Ran shied away.

"I don't, you have to sing for me!" Yan Moqin became stubborn.

"I really can't!" Mo Ran was also anxious.

But Yan Moqin was suddenly stunned: "Oh yes... I forgot that you are not him."

"What?" Mo Ran didn't hear clearly.

"I said you, it's really useless! You can't even sing a song." Yan Moqin pushed Mo Ran away.

Mo Ran fell to the ground due to inertia, and the wound on his hand suddenly opened wider.

It was almost 12 o'clock, and the stomachache pulled Mo Ran away from the memories. If Yan Moqin didn't come back, today would be like this.

Yes, he was so stupid, he forgot, forgot that the worst result was not Yan Moqin's impatience and resistance, but Yan Moqin's never coming back.

What day is April 4st?

April 4st is April Fool's Day, and it is also the day when Sun Yat-sen was dismissed from the interim presidency, and Ford introduced an abortion line to mass-produce Model T cars. It was also the day when Hitler was sentenced to five years in prison for the beer hall coup. His brother Leslie Cheung committed suicide by jumping off a building. It's also my...anniversary for you.

Enduring extreme stomach pain, Mo Ran tremblingly dialed Yan Moqin's phone number, but was answered after a long time on the busy speaker, but the other end of the phone was the sound of loud music.

"Moqin, where are you?" Mo Ran asked in a low voice, for fear of making Yan Moqin unhappy.

"The bar." Yan Moqin gave a crisp answer.

"You... when will you go home, today... today is..." Mo Ran hesitated.

"Tell me what it is!" Yan Moqin was impatient.

"It's the third anniversary of the two of us together!" Mo Ran sobbed without warning because of emotional venting.

The other side of the conversation was stunned, and there was a long silence.

"Mo...Mo Qin?" Mo Ran was a little scared.

"Mo Ran, you are really a good brother, then do you still remember that your own brother Mo Yu also died today!" Yan Moqin's voice swept through Mo Ran's eardrums as if he was dying.

For many years, Mo Ran has been playing the shadow carefully, but now he is easily pulled out of the sun.

The stomachache caused Mo Ran to bite his lower lip to the point of blood dripping, but even the pain couldn't hurt his heart.

Just like many years ago, no matter how painful the hand was, it couldn't compare to the pain of being pushed away by Yan Moqin himself, until the wound on the palm gradually healed and scabbed, leaving a scar.

Mo Ran forgot how he hung up the phone, and only felt that he felt an indescribable tiredness now, not sad and angry, but powerless tiredness.

For so many years, the past that he has been trying to avoid has been easily brought up by Yan Moqin, like a balloon rolling on the tip of a knife, even if you