wild cranberries

After the meeting was over, it was time for Qingyi Night Market to set up stalls. In a food street on Mingxi Road, nylon outdoor tents were set up one by one, and a dim yellow hanging lamp was lit.Most of them sell spicy crayfish, which are piled brightly red into raised mountain buns, placed in basins, and the tangy aroma is mixed with the water vapor of Wunan River.

The students came in twos and threes, some side by side, and some one behind the other.Peng Xiaoman swung his bicycle and followed grandma, and grandma Xiaoman kept her pace fast. If Peng Xiaoman was distracted and kicked a stone or was told to say something obscene, he would have to take a big step back when he raised his head again. .Li Yuan pushed her own red mountain bike, watched his back, and silently stood side by side with Li Xiaoxing.

The hot evening wind dried his crotch in a blink of an eye.

Li Yuan is not a child with many things that can be questioned or questioned by parents. If you want to know things, you should be well-organized and clear; There is a handle.Li Xiaoxing often does not see his sense of accomplishment as he grows and progresses day by day, questioning whether his mind and worldly experience can teach Li Yuan, but at the same time feels that friendship is weak and blood is not thicker than water.It's okay as usual, but after the divorce, this division became more and more obvious.

Sometimes she wants to explain or defend, but she doesn't know how to do it, and when she sees the slightest resistance from Li Yuan, she will feel frustrated.She always believed that divorce would not be an unforgivable mistake, and it would be harmful to her children; but for herself, she could not spend her whole life in a relationship full of holes.Lin Yixiong's family is her lifelong nightmare, and she cannot escape.

She came to the parent meeting, of course it can be said to be a disguised way to please Li Yuan.

"Let's have a meal with mom, do you think there is anything you want to eat?"

Li Yuan stopped under a sycamore tree and saw Peng Xiaoman walking away three meters away. She hesitated, stared at Li Xiaoxing's pink mouth, and said, "I'm afraid my dad won't be working overtime today. He might be waiting for me at home."

Still perfunctory.Sometimes Li Xiaoxing is a little annoyed, annoyed that a child of this age can't say "yes" to the simple request of the parents.She hesitated for a while, and wanted to say "I'll call him to report", but then she didn't want to talk to Lin Yixiong, so she begged and smiled at Li Yuan: "Call your father, mother won't keep you long, ah?"

Li Yuan pursed her lips and nodded, lowered her head and put the car on the side of the curb.

In the tent, under the hanging lamp, there were a few huge moths flying around, and it hurt when they hit the clothes, and then left a trace of phosphorous powder, which was shiny.Li Xiaoxing took the greasy menu, opened her eyes and asked Li Yuan what she wanted to eat, Li Yuan casually said "whatever", seeing her frown very quickly, she groaned helplessly for a while, and ordered a Dry pot cauliflower, and a plate of Qingyi's famous drunken flower crab.

Li Yuan could see that Li Xiaoxing was not used to such a greasy place, where the chef's spoonfuls of oil almost splashed on the tip of her nose.She wasn't like this before, she didn't have these poor problems.So Li Yuan thought amusedly, why bother?He bowed his head and drank the free astringent old tea prepared by the food stall, couldn't hold back his sudden joy, and let out a brisk snort.Li Xiaoxing looked at him suspiciously, but he didn't speak.

Li Xiaoxing unwrapped the paper towel and persistently wiped an old stain on the square table, first fast, then slow, and then mechanically, she said with a smile: "The seat you are sitting, I think, is a bit too far away from the blackboard." Bar?"

"I can see clearly, the last physical examination, one was 5.1 and the other was 5.2."

"That...well, your class teacher said that you have always been stable, and you are very optimistic about you, but your personality is a bit casual. You should pay attention to the details, and don't let these small things affect your study."

"Oh, I see."

"Your class teacher also said." Li Xiaoxing held the lunch paper in the palm of her hand and rolled it from her left hand to her right hand, "the school will have make-up classes during the summer vacation in August. Good students are called to apply as much as possible. Underachievers depend on their own circumstances. Mom thinks, You have to report one."

"I have to go back and tell my dad about it."

"..."

Li Yuan peeled the five-spice peanuts in the stainless steel basin, and the peeled peanut shells quickly piled up into a hill at hand.

"That front table of yours." Li Xiaoxing found another topic as if chatting.

"What about him?"

She was pleasantly surprised to find that Li Yuan stopped her movements and raised her head to look at herself, as if she heard a name she cared about on the TV news.She was a little overjoyed as if she had won the bet, so she raised her spirits and continued to follow the topic: "I was with his grandma, and the other parents were left alone for a few minutes. I know there is such a special child in your class."

You Kaifeng said a very penetrating sentence before, so to say-you just pretend, I will tell you, but everyone is a little curious, to see who pretends to be like.You are not interested because you don’t care about this person. If you really want to care about something, you can’t wait to let him make an excel sheet and send it to you.Everything depends on the object.

Peng Xiaoman was not on Li Yuan's mind. He wanted to know because he was special in the ordinary, and he seemed to be disordered in the order.Li Yuan thought so.

"You don't know at the table in front of you?" Li Xiaoxing held on to the paper cup and smiled at Li Yuan. Seeing that the waiter served a plate of kelp, she raised her hand and pushed the edge of the plate in Li Yuan's direction, "Move your chopsticks, It's so late to eat."

"I told him again—" Li Yuan split the sanitary chopsticks into two with a "snap" from the middle, and pinched off the two sawdust on top, "I'm not familiar."

"I'm not familiar with the front and back tables, so is there any familiar one?" Li Xiaoxing couldn't help laughing.

A chopstick of kelp shredded into the mouth, killed the salty one like buying salt: "You don't know if you live in a household."

Li Xiaoxing's expression froze for a moment, then she lowered her head and wrapped the chain around her wrist twice.

"Go ahead." Li Yuan put the ends of her chopsticks into her mouth when she saw her, and looked at her with a gentle expression.Li Xiaoxing squinted her eyes, her overly long false eyelashes were intertwined, making her vision blurry.She suddenly felt that Li Yuan's eyes were restrained and calm, as if sitting a step higher and leaning over to look at her, there was a kind of strange tenderness and pity.She was stunned for a moment, touched the edge of the table, and twirled her fingers, "I heard that the boy's mother has been ill all the time, and he's not from the local area, but came all the way to study."

Li Yuan raised her hand to support her chin, and held the chopsticks a little deeper.

"It's very hard, listening to that granny whispering that meaning." Li Xiaoxing lowered her voice as if she was afraid of being overheard telling her private affairs behind her back, raised the back of her hand to cover the corner of her mouth, and leaned in Li Yuan's direction Leaning over, "Congenital disease and uremia, I poured a lot of money into it to save my life. Fortunately, my father has a good job and can support it."

"Really or not." Li Yuan smiled in disbelief, he usually admired the ability of a woman of this age to falsify truth and falsehood.What goes into the ear is ten, what comes out of the mouth can be hundreds.He pushed the tip of his nose, took another mouthful of kelp into his mouth, and pursed his lips in salt.

"Mom lied to you that you have money to spend?" Li Xiaoxing rolled his eyes at him, still smiling, "Otherwise, why do you think people came all the way from the big city of Yungu to our small place, because the family can't take care of them?" Come on, entrust grandma to take care of it. Alas, the child is also pitiful, the college entrance examination is over, and the parents are not around at home, and this is the situation." Raising a finger to Li Yuan: "Like you, you don't know your blessings when you are in the blessings."

"he."

It took Li Yuan a moment to digest this fact, neither surprised nor surprised.Other people's family affairs are always separated from him by a thick layer, lacking real sense.He raised his eyes to look at the button lamp above his head, then turned out his pair of European-style jackets, and sighed very softly: "He really doesn't look like him, I can't tell."

"That's because he was in charge early, and that's because he didn't want you to know."

"Can--"

"Niu Niu." Li Xiao Xing looked at him tenderly and tenderly, and spoke as if to teach. She used too much force all of a sudden, which made Li Yuan feel extremely uncomfortable, so she turned her face and frowned, "You are young, you are so young. You feel sad that many things are not as you want, but no one will leave you sad, it is difficult, but the people who are harder than you are stronger than you, you have to learn from them."

"You say I'm squeamish?" Li Yuan chuckled.

"Did mom say that?" Li Xiaoxing frowned, "When did it actually start? You always have to secretly change the concept of yin and yang when your mother says something. I was teaching you some truths based on facts, but in the end you have to reverse their meanings." Are you accusing me openly or secretly?"

"I do not."

"Don't say you don't have it, don't learn from your father, who will only deny and shirk responsibility when you come up with something!" Li Xiaoxing suddenly raised her decibel: "Always talk to you well and pretend to be good-looking. I am your mother, you want respect me."

Li Yuan put down her chopsticks and did not speak.

After a long silence, Li Yuan continued to ask her: "Actually, I have always wanted to ask you a question."

Li Xiaoxing was startled, then laughed, "Just ask."

"I just wanted to ask, before you divorced my dad." Li Yuan looked up at her, not intending to question her harshly, brushed her forehead hair, and pushed the peanut shells aside, "Just with Uncle Ma right?"

Startled.

"Actually, I don't think there's anything wrong with you being friendly with others. I just think that love can't generate electricity. Not everything you can say is so grand."

Li Xiaoxing stared at him stiffly for a moment, "Are you asking me? Are you sure?"

"So." Li Yuan frowned closer, "Do you admit it?"

Li Xiaoxing lowered her head and brushed away a lock of hair around her eyes.

"As long as you didn't divorce my dad back then, even if you and Uncle Ma cheated mentally, it would be called cheating. You will always owe my dad about this. It's not like he doesn't know, he's not aware of it because you kept him in the dark He never pointed out that kind of person, you should thank him." Li Yuan paused, then laughed: "So sometimes, you think I'm avoiding you, but I'm not, I just don't know how to deal with it you."

"Niu Niu, I—"

"Actually, when I think about it, I don't think it's necessary. You two left after all. It's useless to entangle with these things, but that pimple really won't go away. Sometimes when I see you, I'll think of strange things." Li Yuan He smiled at her almost shyly, "When I think about it, I feel disgusting."

Li Xiaoxing's expression faded away, she blinked, a layer of watery light glistened.

Li Yuan felt comfortable when taking pictures, especially when he said the word "disgusting".Before blurting out, he had a short but thoughtful thought in his mind, wondering if he should change the wording, change "disgusting" into "diarrhea" or "uncomfortable", whether "disgusting" is sharp and straightforward There are too many, and there is always the meaning of bad words.But in the end he didn’t change it, because deep down in his heart he hoped that the parents would also feel the pain directly, so that they could understand right and wrong, and the children were not completely ignorant, not completely ignorant, and not speaking, of course, it was also because they were enduring .

"I'm sorry, Mom."

After that, Li Yuan apologized to her gently, making up for it without knowing what she meant.

I don't know which table next door ordered braised fat sausages. The proprietress passed Li Yuan's table sideways with a full plate, mixed with oily smoke, and a strong smell of fat came to her nostrils.Seeing that Li Xiaoxing suddenly frowned in pain, Li Yuan hunched her back, covered her stomach with one hand and pressed her mouth with the other.

"mom?"

Li Yuan stood up and approached her, just about to ask her what's wrong.

Li Xiaoxing suddenly grabbed the Zongyu paper cup on the table, bowed her head under the table, and let out a retched retch to her mouth.

Zhujiatang, the moonlight is faint, and the evening wind is cool.Grandma Xiaoman took an old cattail fan with loose edges, moved two rattan benches, and sat opposite Peng Xiaoman at the door of the room, holding a criticism meeting in a very serious and serious manner.Nunu suddenly came to the door again, Peng Xiaoman stretched out his feet to block its way to the water basin, hugged it by the waist, and rubbed a ball of fur on his knee.Nunu's body smelled of soap, which was attributed to Li Yuan's frequent washing, clean and fragrant.

Grandma Xiaoman patted the cattail fan on Peng Xiaoman's head: "Listen to me!"

"Listen, listen, listen."

"Cat down."

"You say it, but it doesn't prevent you from criticizing."

"Tsk!"

Peng Xiaoman slapped a big mosquito on his forearm to death, and smiled at her.

"I was late seven times in a semester, left early twice, was absent from evening self-study once, gave me a fraction of 50 points in the math quiz twice, got caught by the class teacher once for copying homework, and violated school discipline twice." Grandma Xiaoman Ten fingers are not enough to break, so I simply clenched my fist and knocked hard on his forehead: "I think you don't want to!"

"Ah!" The old lady hurt so much from beating someone, and a pink mark appeared on the center of Peng Xiaoman's eyebrows, "Your memory is a little too good, every note is so clear."

"Nonsense, I'm ashamed to sit down, I'm so ashamed, I don't want to remember."

"Then tell you not to go, you must go." Peng Xiaoman raised his eyebrows, and there was no trace of burden in his words.

"Oh, your father entrusted you to me to take care of you, and I will take care of you, eat, drink, scatter, and do nothing else?" Grandma Xiaoman saw the mosquitoes circling around the tip of his nose, so she waved the cattail fan and a gust of cool wind blew Turning over Peng Xiaoman's bangs, revealing a moon-colored smooth forehead, with a red brow closed, "When I was so rare, an old lady in her 70s ran around, and everyone looked at me."

Peng Xiaoman's canine tooth was looming on the edge of his mouth, he didn't speak, he lowered his head and caressed Nunu's smooth and oily back.Hearing what grandma said, depression and nostalgia that I haven't had for a long time emerge.Then he suddenly felt a slight nasal soreness that was fleeting for a moment.It's like smelling someone's stewed sweet and sour short ribs.He looked up at Xingzi, it was much more numerous and brighter than Yungu's.

Grandma Xiaoman suddenly let out a short sigh.She said this at her age, but she felt that it was full of mixed content, as if she sighed the past ten years.

"You can't mess around, Xiaoman."

Grandma Xiaoman smiled, her eyes were like a pair of waning moons, and there were winding and dense layered lines extending from the tip of her eyes, which made people feel that she had a good temper and wanted to get close, "The road you want to walk is always better than your parents Chang, if you don’t work hard now, what will you do in the future?”

Peng Xiaoman looked back at her, confused for a moment, and after thinking for a few seconds, he realized, and then smiled again, "I'm serious every day, okay?"

"Damn it, serious math can give me more than 50 in the test!" Pretending to beat him with a cattail fan again, "I think Xiaoyuan can easily cost one hundred and four, but you are only a fraction, so you are ashamed to return to the front and back desks! "

"Oh, it's not like you don't know that I'm not good at math." Peng Xiaoman raised his hand to block, and shrank his neck back, "I didn't say I study, I mean...I mean I live seriously, striving for every day Be happy and try not to be burdened."

Grandma Xiaoman just looked at him and didn't answer.

"I think our family is very strange." Peng Xiaoman smiled, with the same corners of his eyes, "It feels like anyone can take the first step, just like playing a game."

So I have been accumulating some omens, not for the day to come quietly, too caught off guard and too embarrassed, or too regretful, regretting that I have not even experienced joy from the bottom of my heart, freedom and wantonness, that is simply in vain live once.The remaining half of Peng Xiaoman's sentence was too sentimental and meant parting, and he thought it was artificial, so he didn't say it.

"Nonsense." Grandma Xiaoman glared at him, spat three times outside, and raised her foot to crush him, "Who are you talking about leaving? Curse me, no one will leave!"

Peng Xiaoman turned his head to the side and giggled loudly, there was a slight echo in the quiet alley, "I must pick it from myself."

Calculate the solar terms according to the lunar calendar, that is, Xiaoman has passed and the ear will be planted soon, the green flowers will fall, and the middle rice in the field has entered the stage of turning green, the seedlings are green, and the business is full.There are losses and gains, and when some things disappear, there are indeed some things that are alternately growing wantonly.