wild cranberries

I'm so uncertain", Xu Ming suddenly felt depressed and lost. No matter why he hesitated or wavered, it was a pity.

Because you choose not to take the opportunity when you get it, it is a kind of reckless waste in itself.

Xu Ming hummed "somebodyicankiss" in a low voice against the microphone, glanced at Li Yuan across the coffee table, saw him lift the mask, lowered his head and pinched the bridge of his nose.

You Kaifeng was also slightly surprised. During his sophomore year in high school, Li Yuan was clearly still a cynical boy who was desperately trying to escape from Qingyi. He wasn't full of enthusiasm, but he hardly wavered about the future.His growing tenderness and indecision make people inevitably bewildered.Connecting many trivial roles and causes and effects, You Kaifeng cleverly led the clues to Peng Xiaoman, figured out Li Yuan's softening, and couldn't help laughing at him in his heart.

Pretending to be like you, there is still a day.

The atmosphere only heated up when the cake was being cut. I decided to smash it, but the waiter interrupted the plan by saying, "This shop prohibits smashing cakes and dirtying equipment, and you will be fined."Honestly, each person eats together, and the music accompaniment is turned up to the maximum.Lu Qingyuan jumped to Xuming's side again to humbly ask for advice on how to play Xiaoxiaole's four hundred levels; Zhou Yiqing and Xuming snuggled together and whispered in the dim light; In the stomach, You Kaifeng accompanied him, and finished the dozen of Budweiser with him.

It was nearly twelve o'clock, so the birds and beasts scattered.

When You Kaifeng was a child, he often wandered with You Jian among various banquets. Drinking is a skill that he lit up in the third year of junior high school.If you really drink too much, the quality of the wine is good, and it is the one that you can find home and sleep at a brisk pace.

Gou Zhong Qi was in charge of taking the disabled back home, called a Didi, put Lu Qingyuan's left arm on it, and took Zhou Yiqing to say hello and farewell.Xu Ming half-supported the door, silently stared at Li Yuan, who was lying on the sofa, obviously drinking a little too much, for a while, not at ease, and said to You Kaifeng, "You have a lot, I will send you two back first." let's go home."

It's next to Wunan River, don't turn around and be careful, we have to send a corpse-hunting team to the river to hook you two tomorrow morning.

"Okay, don't worry." You Kaifeng smiled, "I'm sober and forced, I opened the overnight bag again, if it doesn't work, I'll sleep here with him overnight."

"Call me if I have something to do." Xu Ming didn't insist, and whispered in his ear.

"to make."

"Come on for the art test, be happy."

You Kaifeng stretched his arms, and gave him a bear hug: "Thank you, my buddhist squad leader, for sharing your encouragement with you, and sharing your encouragement with you."

After closing the door and returning to the private room, You Kaifeng leaned close to Li Yuan, who was lingering in a deep sleep with his eyelids closed, with multicolored spots on his face, frowning for a while, and didn't speak for a while.After a long time, he squatted down and smiled with drooping eyelids: "Damn it, what a fucking comet hit the earth...Stupid."

He stretched out his hand and wiped away the tears that flowed down Li Yuan's temples.

Facing the huge mirror in the bathroom of the station, Peng Xiaoman wiped his face with water, barely washing off a third of his tired face.He frowned, winked, pouted, and did some expression exercises.Half of it is because Yungu is also swept by cold air, and the temperature continues to drop, and half is because of Peng Junsong's infection. Peng Xiaoman is also struggling with the seasonal flu these days.

My nose was stuffy, my tonsils were swollen like a tumor, I lay dead at home in a daze for several days, I had a fever intermittently, and I swallowed a bunch of pills and granules, and it took two days to get better.You Kaifeng called suddenly, and Peng Xiaoman spoke in Yungu dialect with a voice of tobacco and alcohol, which made You Kaifeng almost think he dialed the wrong number, "Xiao, Xiaoman, right?"

"Yeah." Peng Xiaoman swallowed, his throat burned so that he frowned: "Master Kai."

"You... I'm afraid it's not the voice-changing period?"

"Then I might have to go to the hospital to check for testosterone." Peng Xiaoman glanced at the phone screen, and at twelve o'clock, "I have a cold. Call me so late?"

"I miss you, you don't come back all the time, I want to hear your voice." You Kaifeng giggled over there.

"That's over, I'm in my voice-changing period." Peng Xiaoman put his phone in his neck sideways, turned his hands behind his back to get water from his bag, and laughed along with You Kaifeng.

"Look at WeChat, I'll send you a photo."

"what?"

"Come on, come on."

Peng Xiaoman took away his phone and clicked on the WeChat message.A candid photo of Li Yuan catches my eye, her nose is as tall and beautiful as usual, her head is slightly tilted inward, her eyes are closed, and there is a shiny mark on her temple.

With mixed flavors and an unusually sour taste, Peng Xiaoman stared at the screen for a long time, not knowing what to say.Even if You Kaifeng didn't explain when, where and why at all.

"Master Kay?"

"Hey." You Kaifeng responded.

Peng Xiaoman leaned on the sink and asked, "Why is he crying?"

"I feel bad. It's my birthday. He drank too much."

"many?"

"Yes, I drank a lot of wine, beer, and bored myself, don't you think it's stupid?" You Kaifeng sat down next to Li Yuan and looked at the little hair on top of his head: "Isn't it pretty?" Like a bloody romance novel?"

"kind of."

"Do you feel distressed?"

Peng Xiaoman was startled over there, and soon smiled: "Master Kai, you are really amazing."

"That nonsense, I didn't say it before, my eyes see too much.jpg." You Kaifeng boasted, holding the bottom of an empty wine bottle, and knocked on the coffee table, making a crisp and charming sound, " In fact, if there is a girl who takes me so seriously and cares about me from the bottom of her heart, I really don't want any ideal future, and I want her. Of course, this idea should not be."

Peng Xiaoman blew his nose and blew one side, feeling suddenly relieved.

"He has only been like this for half a year, so forget it," You Kaifeng rubbed his nose, "Even if you prepare for that, don't just assume that you two will lose everything and end well, people like me can die begging Bai Lai is going to perform, tell you what you are afraid of?"

Peng Xiaoman didn't speak.

"Actually, a long-distance relationship is nothing. Old Gou and the other two are also in a different place. You two are in a special situation. Maybe it will last forever. Don't do nothing and just think blindly there. It's thanks."

"I--"

"Li Yuan should celebrate the New Year alone this year. I don't know if he told you or not. Anyway, it was before you transferred here last year. If you don't come back for a while, I will drag him to our house for the New Year."

"I returned."

"What's the number?"

"I'm at the train station right now." Peng Xiaoman took the bag on his shoulders: "My evening train just arrived at Qingyi South. I called him, but he didn't answer."

"Damn it!" You Kaifeng slapped his thigh and laughed: "What the hell, it's been a long time, he's so sleepy that he can answer your phone, there's something wrong with him, hurry up, go to the fourth floor of the cash drawer next to Lugao, hurry up! Hit it, and I'll reimburse you!"

After Li Yuan lay down in a daze, she felt light and dark alternately in front of her eyes, thinking that something blocking the light came and went.Just like changing personnel and flowing time.

He didn't intend to soothe his worries, it was just that when he was touching the bottle with You Kaifeng, he was thinking about other things.It's quite two hundred and five, really, like a stunned young man who is trapped in love, buys drunk on the street, and sings a song, what the hell is more than love than love.

Not really, not at all.

He didn't want to feel that the relationship between him and Peng Xiaoman became a burden in his consciousness.He didn't want each other to be entangled and sad because of various reasons.Even if the result is not good, I hope it will always be good.Because there are not so many ups and downs, it is easier to let go, and it is easier to think less often in the future.

He slapped his mouth, bah, what did he say, what did not turn out well, what did he let go of.

Nonsense, it can't be FLAG.

Li Yuan turned sideways, her temples were itchy, as if ants had crawled over her.

In fact, I'm still a little lonely. I didn't feel it before. It was because I was eager to run away, and it was only recently that I had the idea of ​​not wanting to be abandoned.Who do you not want to be abandoned by?A lot, dad, mom.But none of them wanted to say it, and none of them wanted to beg.Why beg? You should stay by your side, shouldn't you?

Is it because I am too silent to make you like me, or I am not good enough to make you pay attention all the time and refuse to give up.

But I've always been like this, it's hard for me to speak, I don't know where to start.

If I don't look back often, I feel like I'll forget how to get along with you guys.

Wait a minute, who else is coming.

Peng Xiaoman, tsk, Peng Xiaoman, Peng Xiaoman, Peng Xiaoman.

Li Yuan resented herself in her half-dream and half-awake state, and unconsciously, her weakness was pinched.Peng Xiaoman was not there, and he was wandering in the edge of life and study, walking forward in confusion, like a kite with no one pulling the string, it is okay to go far, and of course it is okay to fall.But without being pulled, it gave a direction and strength to rely on, making the soul active.

Why did Peng Xiaoman become the direction?

How can I convince myself that this is wrong and should not be irrational?

How to cheer up?

How to get him back?

Through the mask, in a daze, Li Yuan felt that she was kissed.This kind of strength and breath is mysterious and mysterious, but it is inexplicably familiar.His eyelids were fighting, and his mind was gurgling as he boiled a pot of mixed bean porridge. Fei Fan struggled to open his eyes, but was dazzled by the lights in the KTV.

After a while of beauty, I saw it clearly. Peng Xiaoman squatted on the edge of the sofa to look at himself, and even reached out to touch his forehead: "Why do you have a cold too? Don't tell me."

"What are you..." Li Yuan stared at him intently, wanting to ask him a question, but her throat was dry and she didn't make any sound at once, so she could only cough hard.

"When did I come back? Tonight, no, it's past twelve o'clock, it should be last night." Peng Xiaoman propped up his upper body, and leaned over to kiss him: "Miss me?"

You Kaifeng, out of sight, out of sight, sings next to the jukebox in his den, singing Xiao Jingteng's cover of "A Dream".