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I opened the door with my mobile phone and ran out without a destination, because I didn't want others to see me collapsed. It was already late at that time. I climbed along a teaching building to the roof of the building, and I squatted on the ground Picking up the phone and watching the news again, I burst into tears.

"Ye Qian! You bastard!" I sat on the roof and shouted to the sky, "Didn't you say that you will always be by my side! You lied to me!"

I have never cried so loudly before. I used to restrain myself from crying so as not to disturb others, so as not to affect others, but now I don’t want to take care of anything anymore. I cry with the loudest voice I can Screaming, yelling, I feel like everything I've built in my body is collapsing like this.

Only I can understand this feeling, as if I am a dying patient, I can live until now only by one breath or one thought, and now the point that supports me is as fragile as a matchstick. It collapsed, what should I do, I lowered my head and cried until my body twitched.

Suddenly felt abnormally awake as if possessed, wiped the tears off my face and stood up, there was no guardrail on the roof, only a small platform, I looked down at the height and said: "Ye Qian, I hate you! "

I stood on the edge of the roof and scanned the campus from top to bottom, feeling that everything was so ridiculous, I leaned forward, a gust of wind blew on my face, I woke up suddenly as if from a dream, I looked down and saw that I was standing on the edge of the roof, and the height below was frighteningly high. A kind of fear of death frightened me and fell back from the roof. I covered my mouth with fear in my heart.

"Wu Wen!" Xiao Xiao didn't know when he came after him, "What's wrong with you suddenly, I saw you ran here for a long time looking for you, and I only knew you were on the rooftop when I heard you yelling!"

"I..." I don't know what to say about that emotion, that kind of collapse is entangled with impulse, obviously there is an impulse to commit suicide but in the end I am terribly afraid of death, my appearance is as pathetic as before.

I couldn't say anything, I hugged my arms tightly and wept silently.

"Man, what are you crying for?" Xiao Xiao suddenly became much gentler.

"I'm sad……."

"what happened to you?"

"I can't tell!" I looked at Xiao Xiao with teary eyes, like a helpless wretch.

Xiao Xiao hugged me suddenly, comforted me and said, "It's okay, everything will pass!"

"It's okay, everything will pass!" This is a sentence I really want to hear now, Xiao Xiao's embrace made my cold body feel warm, I cried for a long time in his arms, his embrace and Ye Qian's difference is a comforting feeling.

It wasn't until I regained my sanity a little that I realized that I was crying like this in front of Xiao Xiao, and I gently pushed him away: "I'm sorry, I lost my temper..."

Suddenly felt a little embarrassment.

"It's okay, are you broken in love?" Xiao Xiao handed me a pack of tissues from his pocket, "There is no grass in the end of the world, you are so handsome that people like you!"

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry!" I took the tissue and wiped away the tears that hadn't dried on my face, and kept apologizing to Xiao Xiao.

"You probably don't have many friends!" Xiao Xiao is now like a very gentle uncle, looking at me kindly.

"No." I'm not in the mood to think about my friends right now.

"It can be seen that even when you are so sad, you come to the rooftop alone to vent!" Xiao Xiao patted me on the shoulder, "I will give you a day off from rehearsal tomorrow, but hurry up and get back to normal, did you hear me?"

"Hmm!" I nodded.

After crying, I always feel empty and firm in my heart. When I returned to the dormitory, I have been lying on the bed and never got out of bed. I have never cried again, and I am not as sad as I was at the beginning. Life has lost the meaning of living, as if Ye Qian really left me...

Sleepless all night, I was thinking about what is the real thought in my heart?Didn't they agree to completely let go of Ye Qian and become another person? Didn't they agree to stop being Wu You and become a brand new Wu Wen?Why did you feel so emotional when you heard the news?

I don't understand, I was sad and heartbroken after being separated from Ye Qian for so long, but I have never felt so hopeless.Did I always think in my heart that we still have the possibility to continue?My brain clearly knows that it is impossible, but why do I still have this idea in my heart?

Shouldn't I just smile calmly and don't care when I see this news?

"I will always be by your side." A memory that did not know when remained rang in my ears, yes, I am so sad because Ye Qian clearly promised me that I would always be with me!

Ye Qian, do you know how many dreams, how many fantasies I thought you were desperately looking for me in a strange city, I even thought that you followed our footsteps like me to find the news of my disappearance, I thought you would appear in front of me one day and tell me "Wu You, I finally found you!"

But you broke your promise, you bastard, you liar!

On the way to class the next morning, the roommate suddenly saw the news on the mobile phone: "Hey, you see that the Ye family and the Lin family are going to cooperate!"

"Hey, the Lin family has been doing really well in recent years. I heard that they stepped on others all the way up!"

"Didn't you see the report saying that you want to marry your daughter to the Ye family? The businessman's heart hurts!"

"Marry to the Ye family? How old is Ye Hua's son now?"

"It's about the same as us, about 19 or 20 years old!"

"Wow, getting engaged so early!"

"Yeah, what's the name of Ye Hua's son!"

"What is it called Ye? Ye Shen?"

"His name is Ye Qian!" Listening to my roommate's chat, I felt uncomfortable all the time, "Let's stop talking about this, class is about to begin!"

"Yes, Ye Qian, Wu Wen, you seem to be from that place too, do you know him a little bit?"

I didn't answer, but felt terribly heartbroken, and walked quickly to the classroom with the textbook in my hand. It's not so much a class as an empty shell. My mind is full of images of being with Ye Qian before, if it wasn't for the constant Stretching my emotions, I could cry on the desk in no time.

I didn’t even eat lunch, so I went back to the dormitory to lie down early, and my roommates asked me if I was unwell. I told them that I had a cold and I would not go to the afternoon class for the time being.

In the afternoon, when my roommate was in get out of class, someone pushed open the door of our dormitory, and Xiao Xiao walked in like the wind: "Wu asked the handsome guy, why didn't you go to class?"

I didn't say a word and continued to lie on the bed and look at the ceiling, like a vegetable.

"I went to your classroom to see you and found that you didn't even go to class!" Xiao Xiao stood on the ladder and put his chin on my bed, "Hey, your reaction to falling out of love is too serious, is it the first time falling in love? ah!"

"Hmm!" I really don't want to be disturbed by others, I want to be quiet for a while, "Senior, I want to be quiet!"

"Wow, you finally called me senior, brother Wu Wen primary school!" Xiao Xiao showed an innocent smile, then reached out and grabbed my arm and shook it: "Senior, let me help you heal your broken relationship!"

"Not Xiao Xiao." I looked at Xiao Xiao bouncing around like a newborn puppy.

"Then I'll lie down with you!" Xiao Xiao actually climbed onto my bed by stepping on the ladder as he said.

"Senior, stop messing around!" I was really in a terrible mood, and now I didn't want to mess around with Xiao Xiao at all.

"Wu Wen, just go out with me, and I guarantee that you will be able to completely get over the breakup when you wake up the next day!" Xiao Xiao tried to widen his small eyes, which seemed to be shooting small stars at me.

I was dragged out of the school gate by Xiao Xiaosheng like this, as if I was often dragged out by him like this, and then took me to the activity room to get the microphone and plug-in stereo, I don’t know where he was going with these things, I really feel heartbroken even walking now, but Xiao Xiao just smiled and asked me to follow him. As a result, we stopped at the gate of the park not far from the school gate. He put the microphone in front of me and connected the speaker. The microphone said: "Come on, little handsome guy, sing loudly! Sing out all the unpleasant things!"

"I'm really not in the mood now!" Xiao Xiao was so angry that I lost my temper, so I could only beg him to come.

"Believe me, I'll play you an ambiguous song, and you sing first!" Xiao Xiao found a small bench from nowhere, and sat next to the stereo to help me play the song connected to the phone.

When the prelude started, Ye Qian said from the side: "Sing out loud! Don't think about anything!"

Looking at the crowd that had gathered around, including old and young, and students, I really couldn’t understand why I still stood here and sang in such a mood. I turned my head and wanted to leave, but Xiao Xiao picked up a microphone again and hugged My neck sang, and the people next to me took out their mobile phones and started recording. Xiao Xiao kept arching me and asked me to come along.

Reluctantly opening his mouth and singing without a word, Xiao Xiao nonchalantly opened his voice and yelled at the side of the road like a psychopath.

After a while, it completely turned into Xiao Xiao's open-air concert, and I still insisted on being pulled over by him to sing along, and more and more people gathered around. The originally sad emotions turned into nervousness, embarrassment, and annoyance.

"Hey! This is a park, do you know that!" A group of people in security uniforms ran towards us.

"Damn it, run Wu Wen!" Xiao Xiao shuddered suddenly and turned around holding the stereo and ran wildly.

I panicked too, and ran with Xiao Xiao like a [-]-meter sprint with the remaining cord and microphone. Xiao Xiao smiled while running, and shouted: "It's cool! It's so cool!"

The two of us ran for more than ten minutes before stopping. Seeing that the security guards had stopped chasing us, we put our things on the ground and panted heavily. I hadn’t eaten all day and even participated in such intense exercise, so I lay dizzy on the ground.

"Xiao Xiao, I hate you!" She was short of breath and could barely speak clearly.

"How about Wu Wen, do you feel much happier in your heart?" Xiao Xiao always smiled at ease, as if there was nothing in the world that could bother him.

He continued to scold Xiao Xiao in his mouth, Xiao Xiao sat on the ground laughing without fighting back at all, and found that the emotion that seemed to be stuck in his chest disappeared.

"Let's go, put the things back and invite me to dinner!" Xiao Xiao got up and raised the speaker.

"Why?" Even if you want to eat, it shouldn't be my treat.

"I helped you heal your broken relationship, why don't you thank me?" Xiao Xiao wrapped the microphone cord around me, "Let's go, let's eat~!"