Actually I am twenty

According to the customs here, every family has to go to the grave of their ancestors on New Year's Eve. Originally, only males could go there. Later, the folk customs became a little more open, and people no longer pay so much attention to it. They can go whenever they want.After breakfast, Zhou Han was dragged by Shen's mother to follow the uncles to the cemetery.

Most of the cemeteries in rural areas choose a place with good Fengshui nearby. Many of them are in the mountains, and there are few people on weekdays. After being nourished by rain and sunshine in spring and summer, the weeds and branches that blocked the road that were cut down a year ago have long grown. stand up.Every time you go to the grave, there must be someone who leads the way with a hatchet. The people behind should not only be careful of the rough path under their feet, but also beware of the branches that were lucky to be missed by the predecessors.

Zhou Han followed on the mountain road, and from time to time there was the sound of firecrackers, and green smoke curled up everywhere in the mountains, bringing news to relatives in the sky, letting them come back to see their family members who are still alive.When they arrived at a relatively wide flat land, they happened to bump into two families. Zhou Han took a closer look, and it was a coincidence that he ran into Shen's family and Xiaojiang's family again.This village is dominated by the two surnames of Jiang and Shen. Zhou's mother's family name is Jiang. If they really want to build relationships, the whole village is relatives.The adults exchanged greetings for a while and then moved again. The destination was the same, and they happened to be on the same road.

Xiao Jiang originally followed Shen Mizhang, and when he saw Zhou's mother, he hurried over to show his courtesy and wanted to help carry the tribute from her. Zhou's mother had nothing in her hand, so she thanked him distantly, but did not give it to him, with a very cold expression on her face. .Seeing this, Xiaojiang couldn't follow her anymore, so he had to go back to Shen Mizhang and said, "Mizhang, let me lift it for you."

Shen Mizhang politely said: "It's not heavy, I can do it myself, thank you." Then she sped up her pace a little, and caught up with Zhou Han, who was deliberately slowing down in front of her. Xiaojiang wanted to catch up and was called by Shen's father.

Zhou Han glanced at Xiao Jiang who was following Father Shen, and said disdainfully, "He's really thick-skinned, it seems that he was beaten too lightly yesterday."

"For the sake of profit, what's the shame?" Shen Mizhang didn't care, but took a careful look at her, and said with a smile: "Your eyes are about to catch up with the national treasure."

"...What can I do? I'm also very desperate." Zhou Hansheng looked at her indifferently, his eyes full of sadness.Jiang's house didn't have enough rooms, so she could only share a bed with Zhou's mother. She was used to sleeping alone, how could she sleep well with Zhou's mother suddenly added?If she hadn't slept well the night before, she wouldn't have slept soundly on Shen Mizhang's bed yesterday...

"It's a pity that you don't have time to go to my place to catch up on sleep today."

"Emmm..." Yesterday was really an accident, and she didn't want to!

Zhou Han silently moved his eyes away with a bit of shyness. Yesterday afternoon, Shen Mizhang was afraid that she would be tired from sitting and sleeping, so he took a lot of effort to make her lie down, but she didn't feel anything at all. When she woke up, it was dark ...She usually can't sleep well in a strange place, and there is Shen Mizhang by her side, who sleeps so deeply, Zhou Han wondered for a moment whether he had been given sleeping pills, but later it could only be attributed to the truth too sleepy.

"Let me help you lift it, it looks quite heavy." Zhou Han was about to go get the bamboo basket Shen Mizhang was carrying, and changed the subject very abruptly.

Shen Mizhang quickly refused, the basket in her hand was still quite heavy, and Zhou Han was not a boy, so naturally she couldn't feel at ease and ask others to help.

Zhou Han thought for a while, put the bag in his hand into Shen Mizhang's bamboo basket, held the handle of the bamboo basket with one hand, and said, "Is this okay?"

Shen Mizhang could only laugh and thank her.It was much easier for the two of them to carry it together, and they were harmonious even without talking. Unfortunately, after a while, Xiao Jiang followed up and asked, "Let me help you, you girls are weak."

I don't know if I can't rush to get in front of others.

Zhou Han rolled his eyes in his heart, listening to Shen Mizhang being perfunctory with him.There was another uphill ahead, and Xiao Jiang was still chattering. Zhou Han's heart moved, and he lifted the whole basket from Shen Mizhang to Xiao Jiang, and said with a smile: "It's quite heavy, I have no strength, so please trouble Jiang Sir, my dad always said that he likes hardworking and simple young people like you."

Xiao Jiang quickly took the basket, he had already carried the things with one hand, and it was a bit overwhelming to add this basket suddenly, but he still pretended to be calm and calm, and said: "It should be."

Zhou Han slightly hooked the corners of his lips, and pulled Shen Mizhang, who didn't know what she meant, to walk forward quickly, and said nicely: "The road is too narrow, we won't occupy space for Mr. Jiang."

The road here is still wide enough to accommodate two people walking side by side, and then it becomes a rugged mountain road that can only accommodate one person. Zhou Han took Shen Mizhang and walked a few steps quickly, complaining in a low voice: "Give him a chance to be courteous, Anyway, we don’t suffer any disadvantages, so we will mention all the things we like to him.”

Shen Mizhang glanced back, Xiao Jiang was planning to change hands secretly, seeing her looking at her, he quickly pretended to be very relaxed, and smiled at her.Shen Mizhang turned around and nodded deeply: "It makes sense, he owes it himself."

It rained a few days ago, and the road was still a bit slippery. Zhou Han walked in front when the road was narrow. Angrily, she still did not forget to praise her: "You are very considerate, your future partner will probably be very happy." Shen Mizhang remembered that Wang Yu had said that Zhou Han should be bisexual, but in fact she had never liked anyone.

"No, I'm better for girls. Girlfriends must be pampered, but not necessarily boyfriends." Zhou Han unscrewed the water and handed it to her, opened another bottle of water for himself and gulped down half the bottle. Sighed: "But I think it might be an orphan."

"You are still young, you will have it when you go to college."

Listening to her unconvincing comfort, Zhou Han complained: "I was single for 20 years in my previous life."

"20 is not that big, your gay friend is only 21 before getting out of the singles, why are you in a hurry?" Shen Mizhang looked at her with a smile, and joked: "There are a lot of little boys and girls who send you love letters at school. If you want to talk, you can talk about it." Think about it."

Zhou Han silently rolled his eyes: "...Farewell, I like people who are older than me. I despise those of my peers who are childish, let alone this group of high school students."

Shen Mizhang smiled slightly: "Your friend has talked about finding you a partner several times, and I'll help you pay attention too?"

"...Comrade Shen Mizhang, as a glorious people's teacher, how can you instigate your students to fall in love with each other!"

Shen Mizhang snorted softly, turned around and went to his own cemetery.

After sweeping the tomb, they went home separately. Xiao Jiang finally stopped pestering Shen Mizhang. He was so tired that he slumped on the chair as soon as he got home and didn't want to move. This made Shen Mizhang spend a long time in peace.

After the New Year’s Eve dinner in every family, the adults invite each other to play cards in groups, while the rest watch the Spring Festival Gala at home, the children have fireworks to set off, and the women form a dance team for their own entertainment. Jump vigorously on the square.Zhou Han hasn't watched the Spring Festival Gala for several years, and she still has no interest this year. The Jiang family's poker game was very noisy, so she just strolled out.

During the festive season, I miss my relatives a lot. During the day, it was okay, but at night, she was left alone. Looking at the laughter and laughter everywhere, I couldn't help but think of my parents, and my eyes gradually turned red.

Shen Mizhang originally accompanied her stepmother to go out and walk around to join in the fun. When her stepmother went to watch the dance team perform, she walked around, never wanting to see Zhou Han whose eyes were full of tears.

When crying at this time, eight or nine out of ten are homesick.She stepped forward and pulled her to a more secluded place to sit down, hugged her very tenderly, and said: "There is no one else, you can cry for a while, just for a while, it's not good to cry during the New Year."

Zhou Han hugged her waist tightly, resting his head on his shoulder, only sobbing, which still made Shen Mizhang's heart ache.Without too many comforting words, Shen Mizhang just hugged her, patted her on the back gently, and after Zhou Han cried for a while, handed her a tissue to wipe his tears, and said softly: "Okay, you promised me Just cry once, don't cry any more."

Zhou Han sniffed, and muttered in a hoarse voice: "I didn't promise you..."

Seriously, how could Teacher Shen bump into her whenever she was crying outside? Does she have supernatural powers?Anyway, after crying so many times, Zhou Han didn't feel ashamed, but he was a little embarrassed to see Teacher Shen's wet shoulders, so he quickly wiped her with a tissue.

"It doesn't matter, if you don't say anything, it means you acquiesce." Shen Mizhang rarely turned on the shameless mode, looked at the wet spot on his shoulder, remembered that the shoulder was also completely wet at his home last time, and joked: "Next time I will wear a leather jacket , you can wipe it off with a paper towel."

Zhou Han groaned in embarrassment, and turned away from wiping her.

Shen Mizhang looked at her like the sulking dog in the emoji, he rubbed her soft hair with a chuckle, took out a candy from his pocket, put it to her mouth, and said with a smile: "Good boy!" , my sister will give you candy."

...Is this a feng shui turn...

Zhou Han bit the candy bitterly, and turned around.

There is no light pollution in the city in the countryside. On a clear night, the stars are scattered everywhere in the dark night, twinkling and twinkling, beautiful and moving.Zhou Han looked up and watched quietly, suddenly a beam of light accompanied by sound broke the darkness, rushed from bottom to top into the sky, and scattered in a light cluster.Immediately afterwards, there were continuous light clusters and sounds, and the fireworks began.

"When I was young, my mother would take me to set off fireworks, but I liked playing fairy sticks, but when I grew up, it was fun to play cards with my family on New Year's Eve." Zhou Han looked at the fireworks with nostalgia in his eyes, laughing at himself Said: "When I first came here, I even called my parents' mobile phone, but it was an empty number. I am also stupid, it is not a world, how can I get through?"

Shen Mizhang held her hand, and could only comfort her: "You are doing well, and that is the greatest comfort to them." After speaking, she was afraid that Zhou Han would cry again, so she quickly pulled her up and walked into the crowd, saying: "I want to set off fireworks."

Zhou Han got up and followed her, and there were many young people playing. Seeing that she finally showed a smile on her face, Shen Mizhang was relieved, and opened the dialog box with Wang Yu while she was not paying attention, and typed: " Did you call Zhou Han's original cell phone before? Was it her mother who answered the call?"

"Teacher Shen, here you are."

Zhou Han handed her the lit fairy wand, and Shen Mizhang quickly put away the phone, thinking about the unsent message, hesitated for a while, and finally did not click send again.It's hard for Wang Yu to go home for the New Year's holiday. It's definitely not something that can be explained clearly in a few sentences, and there is no rush. Let her spend time with her family first.

The author has something to say: After thinking about it, I decided to popularize the cave fable and the brain in a vat. The following is excerpted from Baidu Encyclopedia. If you are not interested, you don’t need to read it.

allegory of the cave

A group of people are like prisoners, living in a cave for generations. There is a long passage leading to the outside of the cave. People's necks and feet are locked and they cannot look around, they can only face the cave wall.There was a fire burning behind them, and between the fire and the prisoners some people were walking around with utensils, and the firelight cast the changing images of the utensils on the cave wall in front of the prisoners.Prisoners can't look back, don't know the reason for the images, think these shadows are "reality", call them by different names and get used to this kind of life.When a prisoner accidentally broke free from the shackles and looked back at the fire, he found that what he had seen before was an image rather than a real thing; when he continued to work hard and walked out of the hole, his eyes were stimulated by the sunlight so that he could not see anything, just nothingness.He had to go back into the cave, but he also regretted it, hating himself for seeing everything clearly, because it caused him more pain.

Plato also told us that it is not scary to go back to this shore or to the cave. What is terrible is that when we have an insight into the outside of the cave and recognize the reality of nothingness on the other shore, we return to the cave and return to this shore.There is nothingness outside the cave; there is a load inside the cave, and there is a vacuum outside the cave, and there is no self-evident load inside the cave;... In fact, although the outside and inside of the cave have different degrees of weight, they are all unbearable.Wu Ai's "Deep Breathing" series vividly metaphors this profound fable. He is trying to ask the world: Should we get out of the cave or go back to the cave?

Regarding the pursuit of value, in fact, sometimes knowing a little is better than not knowing. Thinking and being unable to change is a painful process. Our teacher in class will also complain about this, saying that if he can do it all over again, he will become a math teacher. I think about it painfully here every day, but on second thought, it is better to be a dissatisfied Socrates than a satisfied pig.

brain in a vat

"A man (presumably yourself) has been operated on by an evil scientist. His brain has been severed from his body and placed in a vat of nutrient solution to keep the brain alive. The nerve endings of the brain are connected to the computer , this computer sends information to the brain according to the program, so that he maintains the illusion that everything is completely normal. For him, it seems that people, objects, and the sky still exist, and his own movement and bodily sensations can be input. This brain can still Being input or intercepting memory (intercepting the memory of brain surgery, and then inputting various environments and daily life that he may experience). He can even be input with codes, 'feeling' that he is reading an interesting and absurd text here. "

The most basic question about this hypothetical is: "How can you assure yourself that you are not in this predicament?"