Actually I am twenty

Christmas is approaching, and there are red, green and green decorations everywhere on the street. In order to promote sales, merchants seize every opportunity to stimulate people's shopping desire, and the festive atmosphere is strong.But those foreign festivals have nothing to do with the old people in the nursing home. Most of the old people don't have the slightest enthusiasm for those old people, and the nursing home is still the same as usual, and it is still in a quiet and peaceful state.

Wang Yu followed Zhou Han to the nursing home with fruit, saw that she greeted everyone very politely, touched her shoulder with a smile, and said, "You usually talk so little outside, and you have a serious face like someone owes you money." You are worth 80 yuan, so well-behaved here."

"I don't have a straight face, I'm just expressionless!" Zhou Han argued, very wronged, and complained: "I've been here so many times, I'm already familiar with it, okay?"

It's cold, and the old people don't like to hang out outside. Most of the time they stay in their rooms or activity rooms. Zhou Han greeted Grandma Zhou in advance, and took Wang Yu to her room with ease.

Standing at the door, you could hear the melodious sound of the piano. A flash of surprise flashed in Wang Yu's eyes, and he whispered, "Amazing!"

"Of course." Zhou Han raised his chin triumphantly, even more proud than she praised herself.

The two stood at the door and listened to Grandma Zhou finish playing a song. Zhou Han knocked on the door and pushed it open. He smiled and shouted, "Grandma, I'm bringing friends."

Wang Yu hurriedly stepped forward and bowed slightly, and said, "Hello grandma Zhou, I'm Zhou Han's friend Wang Yu, you can just call me Fish Ball, I've heard Zhou Han talk about you all the time, and I really want to meet you. That’s why she brought me here, your violin is really good.”

Grandma Zhou took the piano, smiled and motioned them to sit down, and said to Wang Yu, "I've also heard about your name for a long time. Han'er told me a lot, saying that you take good care of her, just like your own sister."

Hearing this, Wang Yu pretended to be serious and held his chin and said, "Well, it seems that there is nothing that a hot pot meal can't solve."

Zhou Han answered, "No, I have to eat twice."

The two were like live treasures, making Grandma Zhou laugh non-stop. The three of them chatted happily, and two hours passed without knowing it.

Grandma Zhou is used to afternoon tea every day. Zhou Han went to help her prepare it when she saw that the time was almost up. Grandma Zhou had the opportunity to ask Wang Yu alone: ​​"Yuball, the person Han'er likes is your good friend? I Listening to what Han'er said, I always feel that she likes Han'er too."

Hearing this, Wang Yu sighed heavily, her face drooped, and she replied, "Hey, she likes it, I don't think she likes it any less than Gu Pan, but she knows that her family's hurdles are difficult, and she broke up with her first love just like that. He didn't dare to let Gu Pan know that she liked her, and he was afraid that he would hurt her in the future, so he thought that the long-term pain is worse than the short-term pain, which made Gu Pan stop thinking about it."

"She asked me eight hundred times a day about looking back at Pan, and knowing what she liked, she bought it herself and gave it in my name. If something happened to Gu Pan, she would be as anxious as anything, but there is nothing I can do about the family problems, and I can't say anything. After you chatted with Gu Pan before, she was in a good state, and she accepted the love in her heart calmly. The more I did this, the less I dared to let the two of them know that they still miss each other. It's getting bigger..."

Grandma Zhou smiled lovingly, and before she had time to say anything, Zhou Han came back, and the two of them changed the subject without a trace, and while the three of them were having afternoon tea, Zhou Han asked first: "Grandma, I have a question. At that time, several gay friends I knew broke up. Some were due to personality problems, some were forced to get married by the family because of resistance from the environment, and some friends said that they must stick to their girlfriends, but now I doubt it. , Can they make it to the end...Because the environment is too harsh, our current social situation seems to be a must for gays..."

"Is the contradiction between filial piety to parents and personal happiness right?" Grandma Zhou patted her lovingly, then looked at Wang Yu with deep meaning inadvertently, and said, "Let's not talk about parents, in the current environment, including the future For a long time, the situation of the gay community will not be good. Not everyone has the courage to face the gossip and criticism of those around them.

There are also children, if you want children, in such an environment, if you want your children to grow up healthily and happily, you need to pay too much.These questions alone are enough to scare most people away and make them return to a safe limit and be a so-called normal person. Besides, the relationship between the same sex is no different from the relationship between the opposite sex. There are so many people in this world. People who are not happy enough, no one can guarantee that being with the same sex will be happy. "

"If you can overcome these problems in your heart, just like your friend who wants to be with her girlfriend no matter what, and then consider the family members, I think you are all very kind people, and I am reluctant to let love you Some people are sad, some parents will accept it in the end, and some parents will not accept it at all.

Some parents really love their children and hope their children will be well, but the happiness they think is only what they think is happiness. This is a generation gap. They don't know what their children want or how strong their children are; Parents are selfish. They hope that their children can live the life they want, accomplish things for them that they can't, and hope that their children will give them face. What they love most is themselves.

Know you that the beloved has power over the lover.

If your parents love you more than yourself, they will always compromise in the end; if they love you more, you should remember that you are an independent individual, although your parents gave birth to you, but you do not live for them.People have to live for themselves, and those who keep saying to live for others are just making excuses for themselves, thinking that they have given everything for the other party, but in fact it is just wishful thinking, and they are just moving themselves. "

The two listened quietly, their brows furrowed unconsciously, and they thought about her words seriously.Grandma Zhou took a sip of her tea and said with a smile: "Of course, I am a selfish person. You see, at this age, I am alone. My whole life is for myself. Maybe my views are not in line with your three views." Yes, then you just think I'm talking nonsense, it doesn't matter, each of us is different, and we shouldn't impose our views on others."

"Different living environments and experiences create different three views, no one is absolutely correct, and the one that is different from yours is not wrong. Everyone has their own concerns, and there is no need to point fingers at others. Just be yourself. As long as your happiness is not based on hurting others, nothing is out of the question.”

Grandma Zhou stroked the hair of the two lovingly, and comforted them: "I hope you are kind and brave, and every decision is thoughtful, don't regret it, because it is the most useless thing, it will not change the status quo, but will Makes it even more self-pitying. You're all good boys and I'm sure you all get what you want."

After the conversation, Grandma Zhou was also tired, so she asked them to go back and come back another day.The two walked out of the nursing home without saying a word, thinking about each other.

Wang Yu returned to her home, thought for a while, and then called Shen Mizhang, roughly relayed Grandma Zhou's words, and asked her: "Beast, you really don't plan to try again? Marry someone you don't love?" ,Is it really possible?"

Shen Mizhang was touched, but he didn't know how to answer. He opened and closed his lips several times, but still didn't make a sound.

Wang Yu sighed lightly, and said: "She has grown a lot, and her understanding of feelings is quite mature. I really think that if you miss her, you will definitely regret it in the future."

Zhou Han returned home, and when she opened the door, she heard voices. She saw that they were some ministers under Zheng Qing.

"Yo, I'm back. I asked them to come over for a meeting." Zheng Qing picked up the egg tart box on the table and gave it to her, saying, "Your reward."

Zhou Han said hello to a few seniors, and was about to go back to the room when he heard his minister say, "Sister Dana, why don't you let Zhou Han stay and listen together? She is mainly in charge of this event."

Zhou Han was taken aback, so he had to obediently sit down next to the minister. A group of people confirmed every point of the event, and then discussed the dinner party after the event.Zheng Qing left Zhou Han's minister alone to discuss some things with her. Zhou Han saw that he was fine, so he went back to his room and searched out the private photos he took for Zheng Qing a few days ago.Zheng Qing met the school girl in front of her and looked at the half-closed door, and sighed softly: "Qiqi, you should change your target, she has someone she likes."

"But the person she likes doesn't like her?" Lu Qi blinked her watery eyes and said, "As long as she's not with anyone, I have a chance, don't I?"

"... Let's do it."

Although the chances are really slim.Zheng Qing had been with Zhou Han day and night for a few months, and she had a little understanding of her feelings. She couldn't imagine that Zhou Han would like or be with other people.It's just that feelings are so irrational and unclear, if they like it, let them like it.

Lu Qi smiled and rubbed Zheng Qing's arm, and said coquettishly, "Sister Dana, give me an assist."

"Your department usually has a lot of things to do, and I think you have a lot of opportunities to see her."

Speaking of this, Lu Qi became unhappy, pouted and said: "She knows all the tasks I assign, she doesn't need me to teach her at all, she has no chance to develop further!"

Two people chattered in the living room. Zhou Han didn't know anything about those things. After finishing the last picture, he rubbed his sore shoulders and shouted to the outside: "Dear! The picture has been repaired! Please take a look at me." circle of friends!"

She picked out a few sexy pictures and sent them to Moments, and other slightly larger ones to Zheng Qing privately. Randomly glanced at the likes list, her heartbeat suddenly paused for a second: Teacher Shen gave her a like.

Naturally, Wang Yu also saw Zhou Han's circle of friends and Shen Mizhang's likes, and smiled very unkindly. Thinking of the stern-faced sulking appearance of the beast, he really gloats.

After Shen Mizhang clicked the likes, he walked quickly back to the room with his long legs, grabbed the little hamster from the bed, beat it a few times very bluntly, and hummed: "Oh, I'm promising, I usually shoot some literary and mature girls Forget it, actually took the camera I gave to someone to take pictures of their private house?!"

But who is to blame?She doesn't know that you sent the camera, Shen Mizhang, can you stop being so narrow-minded.

Teacher Shen took a few deep breaths to calm himself down, but...

Hey, I'm just so angry.

The author has something to say: Jia Geng

These chapters are the transition of Zhou Han's emotional state

See you soon, the author Jun said seriously.

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