Actually I am twenty

Zhou Han was full of anticipation, and the corners of his mouth were raised along the way. After getting off the subway, he started to walk home. The moment he opened the door, he felt a little disappointed.

An hour ago, Teacher Shen was still here.

She curled her lips in displeasure, remembering Teacher Shen's New Year's gift, and hurried to the bedroom again.When she opened the bedside table, she found an exquisite small box and a letter. She opened the box and saw a simple and exquisite bracelet, which she had not had time to buy some time ago.

The envelope was a big one with her familiar handwriting on it: To my lover.

A word of love is enough to make Zhou Han's eyes slightly warm.

She opened the envelope, and several sheets of letter paper were neatly stacked together. Zhou Han unfolded them carefully. Teacher Shen's handwriting is beautiful and elegant, which is pleasing to the eye.

"baby:

After thinking about it, I still want to write something.I have never seriously talked about this topic with you. I used to avoid it, but now I can no longer. Now that I have spoken, I can no longer make you sad like before.

I realized that your liking was taking you to City A, when you treated my wounds.It was also at that time that I realized my love for you.It’s just that I have always been a coward in terms of feelings, and I am not worthy of being a hero. I thought that if I always have to be separated from you, it would be better to never be together, so as to minimize the damage to you.

After that, I thought I had controlled my emotions very well. It can be seen that you couldn't help being flustered and distressed when you were wronged, and the impulse made you stay.

I still don't know if that decision was right or wrong.

If you didn't let you stay, maybe you don't love me now, let me go to love others.Maybe I can't help it so much, it's so hard to control myself just listening to other people call you and act like a baby.

But now, even if it is a mistake, I just want to be wrong.I love you, it is a true love from the heart, I think it will not be less than your love for me.

I read "The Island Bookstore" a few days ago, which wrote: "Because we fear from the bottom of our hearts that we are not worthy of being loved, we are alone, but it is because of being alone that makes us think that we are not worthy of being loved."One day, you don't know when, you'll hit the road.One day, you don't know when, you will meet him (her).You will be loved because for the first time in your life you are not truly alone and you will choose not to be alone anymore. '

There are many people in my heart, many people come and go, friendship, love, leave some traces, accompany me for a while.I'm not a forceful person. When they come, I am happy to welcome them; when they leave, I just sigh that there is always a banquet in the world, let them go, and wish them happiness.But you are the only one I can't let go of generously, I can only hide you in my heart secretly, unconsciously, my whole heart is occupied by you.When I met you, I was never alone again.

I always thought that I was cowardly and didn't have the courage to face the great pressure in the future. I couldn't bear to let you follow me to be sad.Someone chatted with me a few days ago, and it dawned on me, how can I place my hope on someone I don't know, expecting him to make you happy.Since we love each other, happiness can only be given by each other.If I just rely on my opinion and hand you over to others, how can I regret it in the future?

Maybe you know myself better than I do, I still remember you saying 'I believe there is always someone who can make you desperate', now it seems that is the case.I want to be for you, and for myself, to go all out for once.You have waited for me for so long, it's time for me to be a hero and work hard to hold up a piece of sky for you.

This road is not easy. My previous evasions made you worry. This is what I should do. I am not in a hurry. Let me wait for you this time. When you understand my determination, I will confess my love to you .

Sometimes no matter how beautiful the rhetoric is, it’s useless. It’s useless to say more. I just want you to watch. This time I will be a warrior with a sharp sword, and I will come to you through all obstacles.

This time, unless you speak, I will definitely not let go of your hand first.

I still have so many things to say, I want to share with you all the beauty I have seen, I want to sing every love song for you, I want to tell you all the moving words...Fortunately, we still have Long days, and a lifetime.

Miss you.

Shen Mizhang"

Zhou Han read the letter several times, wiped the tears from his cheeks, carefully put the letter away with a smile, took out the bracelet and put it on, took a photo and sent it to her, and asked, "It's nice, Mr. Shen, what do you think?" Did you really not find my vest?"

Shen Mizhang was on the high-speed rail, saw the news, and replied with a smile: "I found out, the trumpet has been following you secretly for a long time."

Sure enough.Zhou Han curled his lips, rolled on the bed, clicked on Weibo and followed the polite scum with a good outlook on Weibo.

Teacher Shen soon received the attention reminder, laughed dumbfounded on the high-speed rail, and replied to her: "youbadbad".

Zhou Han sent her an emoji back, and the two of them started chatting again. After Shen Mizhang arrived home, Zhou Han urged her to clean up. Remembering that he hadn't finished writing today's update, he quickly got up to get the computer.

Shen Mizhang drove to his grandfather's house early the next morning, and happened to meet Shen's mother.Seeing her, Shen's mother naturally didn't have a good face, and said coldly: "You still know how to come back?"

Shen Mizhang didn't want to make trouble in front of his elders, so he obediently called his mother.The weather was bad today, it just rained lightly, it was cold and wet, Shen's mother didn't want to move, and she went to the grave during the Chinese New Year, so Shen Mizhang took things to the aunt's cemetery by himself.

She wiped the tombstone clean carefully, squatted in front of her and whispered for a long time, telling her aunt what happened since the last parting, and told her: "Auntie, the person I told you that I like, I decided to marry you." If you are with her, you will support me, right? You have always spoiled me the most... Auntie, don't worry, I will have a good life and make her happy. "

When the sky was about to darken, she packed up her things and walked back reluctantly.The dark green plants are covered with drops of water, and they are wet everywhere. Shen Mizhang walks on this all-too-familiar country road by himself, and his longing is like smoke rising from a distant kitchen. All covered.

She took out her mobile phone to call Zhou Han, and it only rang for a few seconds before being picked up. She heard Zhou Han's still confused voice: "Hello, Teacher Shen?"

Hearing her voice, Shen Mizhang immediately felt relieved, with a gentle smile on the corner of his mouth, he replied softly: "Well, fell asleep?"

Zhou Han rubbed his eyes, and said vaguely: "Hmm... Just lying down to code, I fell asleep after coding..."

Shen Mizhang recalled the first New Year's Eve together, Zhou Han sat on the bed in her cute pajamas, and fell asleep after typing, looking unspeakably cute.She reached out and touched the same bracelet as Zhou Han's on her wrist, and asked with a smile, "Are you still sleepy? Sleep a little longer?"

Zhou Han put the computer aside and stretched, and replied, "I'm not going to sleep anymore, I won't be able to sleep later at night, what are you doing?"

"I just went to see my aunt. On the way back, I suddenly missed you very much and wanted to hear your voice."

"Hmm..." Zhou Han blushed silently, suddenly at a loss for such an undisguised confession from Teacher Shen, and changed the subject very abruptly: "Is it cold over there? Remember to wear more clothes." .”

Shen Mizhang could imagine her shy appearance, she was very considerate and did not puncture, and replied with a smile: "Okay, don't worry."

Shen Mizhang walked slowly, and the two chatted all the way until Shen Mizhang returned to his grandfather's house before hanging up the phone.Dinner was ready in a while, and the whole family came to the dining table. After the polite greetings, the most concerned thing was the marriage of the younger generation. Before Shen Mizhang had time to eat a few bites, he heard his grandmother ask: "Mizhang, are you looking for a partner?" ah?"

Speaking of this, Shen's mother became unhappy, and said sarcastically: "I find her a blind date and she is not happy, because she is a teacher who is too busy to work and has no money. She said that she has someone she likes, and she didn't even give me a photo. I've seen it, and I don't know if it's true or not..."

Shen Mizhang reluctantly put down the bowl and chopsticks, and said to the two elders: "Grandpa and grandma, I have someone I like, but I haven't decided on it yet, I want to introduce it to you when it is stable."

The rest of the relatives suddenly started gossiping, asking in a hurry, "Where are you from?"

"How old are you? Do you look good?"

"What is it for? What's the income?"

Except for her grandparents and Shen's mother who really care about her, the rest of the people here are just going through the motions politely. Shen Mizhang replied very politely: "He is very kind and treats me very well. He is a writer and his monthly income is quite high. .”

If someone asked again, she would push Tai Chi to other topics one by one, but Shen's mother was in a hurry. After dinner, she dragged her into the room and asked, "Tell me, who is that? Here's the photo." Let me see."

Shen Mizhang hesitated for a while before saying: "Mom, I don't want to introduce her to you for the time being, wait for a little more stability, don't worry, she is really good."

"You kid, you're going to be 26. You're so old, why don't you hurry up and make up your mind, when will you wait for yourself? Listen to mom, let mom check it out for you, if it doesn't work, let's not waste time on him. ..."

Shen Mizhang said perfunctorily: "Mom, I have my sense of proportion, you don't have to worry, I have something to do, you go out and talk to grandpa and grandma." Then, she pulled Shen's mother out of the room, leaning against the door pine Take a breath.

They have these problems every year, and they don't find it annoying.

Shen Mizhang only stayed at his grandfather's house for two days before returning to his grandfather's house. He had previously made an excuse to the family that his mother wanted her to celebrate the New Year with her. Fortunately, Shen's mother and Shen's father were in a state of indifference, so there was no need to worry about being exposed.Changed the location, still the same problem.Shen Mizhang took out the rhetoric he had said so many times and repeatedly explained it, and even deliberately called Zhou Han in front of his elders. They couldn't hear the voice on the other end of the phone, but seeing Shen Mizhang's shy expression It seemed that she believed her explanation, and stopped urging her in such a hurry.

In the blink of an eye, another year has passed. University A started school very early this year, Shen Mizhang hadn’t gone to work yet, Zhou Han was already busy, the two of them chatted when they had time, sometimes Zhou Han was busy, the two of them started the video to do their own things, no need to say anything , as long as you can see Zhou Han's focused face on the screen when you look up, Shen Mizhang is already very satisfied.

The author has something to say: Anyway, I am very satisfied with this love letter [doge]