Actually I am twenty

It snowed for several days in a row, and the heavy snow made it a matter of great courage and perseverance to go out. Shen Mizhang has recovered since the last time he got up early and took Zhou Han out to play in the snow. He has been staying at home The state of study, Zhou Han is not as "relaxed" as her, and she has to go out to class in the wind and snow, and she is reluctant to get up early every day.

The snow on the road was trampled and then frozen into ice again, making it slippery. Pedestrians had to work hard and be careful not to fall.Holding an umbrella, she walked on the road with one foot deep and one foot shallow, taking out her mobile phone from her pocket to check background messages from time to time, her expression didn't look as gentle as usual.

Until the end of class in the afternoon, a friend in the group sent a message: "The site is short, do you have a list?" Zhou Han opened the background to confirm that there were no site shorts, and went through all the completed lists to confirm After not having my own text, my mentality completely collapsed, and I typed with my lips tightly pressed: "No, it seems that I have given another bye."

"It shouldn't be. Although your data is not as good as before, it is not bad in comparison. You are still on the gold list and more. How can there be no list?"

"My editor is a bit weird. I don't know what she ranks according to. The data income is not as good as mine. I give a good list. To me, it is either a bye or a poisonous list. There is no fuck."

Zhou Han vented in the group of friends, clicked on the background to see the income, saw the income that had decreased significantly in the past two months, scratched his head irritably, and cursed several times in his heart.

Originally, she was thinking of writing something of a different type, but she hesitated to open a somewhat cold topic, but she never expected to encounter such a careless ranking by an editor. It was twice as bad as the original one, and she was not willing to cut the outline to finish, so she could only bite the bullet and seize the time to write more every day. In addition, the postgraduate exam was approaching, although she did not reveal anything in front of Shen Mizhang, she was very anxious in private , the amount of hair loss has increased significantly.

After class, she stayed in the classroom for a long time, and the cold wind blew all the way, finally she calmed down, forced herself to cheer up, and bought milk tea and desserts to take home.

Shen Mizhang was still reviewing quietly in the study, Zhou Han knocked on the door lightly, and asked her with a smile: "I bought your favorite dessert, do you want to take a rest?"

Hearing this, Shen Mizhang raised his head from the thick book, rubbed his sore eyes, and waved to her, the little milk dog very consciously went to hug her, stroking her hair and comforting him: "Thanks for your hard work. "

Shen Mizhang buried his head on her waist and rubbed it, and asked, "Is it cold? I read the weather forecast and it will snow in the next few days, otherwise you should ask for leave and don't go out, or you will catch a cold again."

Zhou Han curled his lips a little tiredly: "It's okay, I have a good resistance, and besides, everyone didn't ask for leave, so it's not very good for me to ask for leave."

"Okay." Shen Mizhang pouted and rubbed his lips again, got up and pulled her out: "Go and eat delicious food!"

Zhou Han said with a smile that she is a foodie, and thoughtfully put all the delicious food in front of her, secretly heaving a sigh of relief.She's going to class and can get out and get some air.Her recent condition is really not good, but Teacher Shen herself is really under a lot of pressure, so she can't make her worry anymore.

In front of Shen Mizhang, she is still the optimistic and positive Zhou Han who is all well.

After dinner, Shen Mizhang went back to his study to continue studying, while Zhou Han was thinking about the outline of the next book in the living room.Thinking of the "dismal" income in the past two months, she sighed faintly, and could only comfort herself by saying that it was over after all, and it would be better if she opened a new article.

Zhou Han is used to handwriting outlines and character designs. She held a pen in one hand and supported her head in the other, staring at the white paper in front of her with a frown. The minute hand of the watch turned 180 degrees unconsciously.

Can't figure it out, don't know what.

Her brain seemed to have lost the ability to think, and she couldn't think of anything.

Zhou Han scolded impatiently, threw the pen cap away impatiently, turned around and lay down on the sofa, and sent a message to Jiang Sigui: "Ah, ah, ah, I'm going crazy! I don't know what to write next!"

Jiang Sigui quickly replied: "Don't worry, you have written millions of words this year, how can you have so many brains, don't put so much pressure on yourself."

"Now I feel a headache when I see the decrease in income. What if I can't support Mr. Shen in the future..."

"Sister Mizhang didn't let you raise her either. She makes money by herself, and you earn a lot, so don't worry! It's fine if you don't write for a year or two!"

Having said that, she still couldn't help being anxious in her heart, sighed Youyou, threw the phone away and lay down on the sofa.Ever since Shen Mizhang lost her job and had a showdown with her family, she has paid more and more attention to money. Both of them have no way out, and they must have money to make them both live well.Zhou Han felt that he had to become a Pixiu like Wang Yu, and wished he could only get in and out.

She was bored lying on her stomach, and fell asleep in a daze after a while.It's just that he didn't sleep well, and his brows were still tightly frowned. Shen Mizhang came out of the study and saw her like this, stepped forward to pat her, and said softly: "Baby, get up and go to sleep on the bed."

Zhou Han trembled when he heard the movement, and suddenly woke up with a frightened appearance. Shen Mizhang quickly stroked her back and comforted her: "It's all right, are you having a nightmare?"

Zhou Han stared at Shen Mizhang in a daze, and it took him a while to come back to his senses. He sat up and hugged her, closed his eyes and frowned, and said, "It seems...it's all right..."

Hearing this, Shen Mizhang hugged her and coaxed her softly. After a while, when she "recovered from the shock", he smiled and rubbed her head, and said, "Go to bed and sleep, don't catch a cold."

Zhou Han rubbed against her like a kitten coquettishly, and asked, "It's getting late, why don't you go to sleep too."

Shen Mizhang glanced at her watch. At 12 o'clock, she lowered her head and kissed her, and said, "You go to sleep first, I'm still close, sleep right after reading, don't wait for me, be good."

"Okay, then don't watch it too late."

Zhou Han reluctantly went back to the bedroom, Shen Mizhang watched her get into bed, went over to give her a goodnight kiss, and closed the light and the door of the room very considerately.

The lights were turned off, and Zhou Han closed his eyes, but he no longer felt sleepy as before.

She once again dreamed of her parents, dreaming that they worked hard every day to take care of herself who was "unconscious" on the hospital bed, and dreamed that their wrinkled faces were as old as 60-year-olds.Her mother wiped her body, and "talked to herself" while massaging: "I heard that the celebrity you like is coming to a concert, and there are all these posts on the bus platform recently, why don't you hurry up and take a look? Didn't your dad transfer to work in a new place some time ago, the people there are really bad at all, especially fierce..."

She also dreamed that she was still in nothingness, alone, no matter how she yelled, she couldn't see anyone, as if she was the only one lying there alone in the whole world.

Both feelings are too real, as if they are not her dreams, but real existence.Zhou Han felt sorry for the hard work of her parents, and couldn't help but feel sour when she heard her mother's nagging, and then switched to the other side, but she couldn't find Teacher Shen anywhere, and she began to be afraid again.

Zhou Han was afraid of dreaming again, so she held back her tears and opened her eyes wide. After an unknown amount of time, she heard the soft sound of Shen Mizhang opening the door, and hurriedly closed her eyes and pretended to be asleep.Feeling Shen Mizhang nestled into her arms, Zhou Han tightened his arms, pretending to rub against her shoulders unintentionally.Holding her in his arms earnestly, finally the panic and fear in her heart dissipated a little.

Ever since Shen Mizhang went back to his hometown and confessed to his family, Zhou Han couldn’t remember how many times he had dreamed of those things. It seemed that she was under a lot of mental pressure, and there was nothing else to do but to relax herself. Other methods.

Soon it was the first test, the two of them had breakfast, Zhou Han drove her to the examination room, took out a chocolate from his pocket and handed it to her, and said with a smile: "Skillfully overcome all resistance, I got into A university after eating it , you can definitely eat this.”

Shen Mizhang looked at the familiar packaging and laughed dumbly, most of the tension in his heart disappeared. He stretched out his hand and pinched her face, and said angrily, "If this is the case, will this chocolate shop be out of stock?"

"You said it yourself," Zhou Han pulled her over and hugged her in his arms, and said gently, "Don't be afraid, you can definitely do it."

"Hoo...Okay," Shen Mizhang hugged her, breathed a long sigh of relief, finally put on a smile again, kissed her, and drove the door to the examination room: "I will definitely pass the exam."

The first test ended soon, and all that could be done was to prepare for the retest and wait for the test results. Shen Mizhang felt good, and the two of them finally put down a big stone, and they felt a lot easier in an instant.Zhou Han originally thought about taking Teacher Shen to travel to nearby cities during the New Year's Day holiday, but Shen Mizhang was caught off guard by a message from a high school classmate.

"I heard that your grandfather is ill, but I don't know the details."

After she broke up with her family, she rarely had any contact with her. No one would take the initiative to contact her. Shen Mizhang would also send herself to them to humiliate her. She only called her grandparents regularly.They didn't always answer the phone. Shen Mizhang knew that this was his grandfather expressing his position, so he simply asked a high school classmate who had a good relationship with her to help her pay attention to the old man's physical condition.

Shen Mizhang's heart skipped a beat, and he immediately called his hometown's landline, but no one answered.She had a bad heart and didn't care too much. After weighing it up, she called her stepmother, who was still mild-mannered.

"Auntie, I heard from my classmates that grandpa is sick?"

The stepmother hesitated for a while, then seemed to go to another place, and whispered: "Well, I came to the hospital in City A."

Hearing this, Shen Mizhang became more and more anxious, and couldn't help raising his voice: "What? Are you hospitalized in City A? What's wrong? What's wrong? Which hospital? I'll go there right away!"

"At the Provincial People's Hospital, I'm still waiting for the test results. You'd better not come here now. Your dad is still there. We'll meet up later and fight again. Come back when he goes back to work tomorrow. I'll send you the ward number. "

"Okay, thank you, auntie." Shen Mizhang had no choice but to agree, frowning as high as a hill, raised his watch and glanced, there were still more than ten hours before tomorrow morning.