when we are no longer young

Park Chanyeol accompanied Baekhyun back to the hotel he booked.

Bian Boxian's expression was wrong, he could only accompany him quietly.Any words of consolation seem superfluous at this moment.

For three whole days, Bian Baekhyun didn't eat a bite, and lay under the quilt.He developed a high fever that night, which he has continued to this day.

No matter how much Park Chanyeol coaxed him, Baekhyun refused to take medicine.He nestled there, as if retracting himself into the shell again, just like the silent and isolated Bian Baekhyun more than 20 years ago.

Baekhyun has been dreaming, dreaming of fighting with his brother when he was a child, dreaming of his mother lovingly touching his head, dreaming of that nightmarish June [-]th, dreaming of the abandoned factory full of rust and blood, Dreaming of killing children, he seemed to be standing by and watching, and also seemed to be in it.

The scene flickered and changed to the school.He was squeezed out by the children, bullied by his classmates, the whole class was cleaned up, two groups, everyone had a companion, only him, no one was willing to be in a group with him, the teacher was also very embarrassed, so he could only let him work.At that moment, besides being ashamed, he was ashamed, he wanted to rush out, he wanted to find a hole to hide himself in, he even hated himself, hated everything.

In desperation, he saw that person, and that person was caught by him like a piece of driftwood, and he dared not let go.But the person who gave him sunshine stepped him into the abyss again, and he was lying on the stairs, extremely embarrassed.

The scene changed again, and he became BAEKHUYN, standing on the stage, attracting everyone's attention, and all the fans were shouting for him and supporting EXO.But the smiling face of the fans suddenly changed, they were throwing things at them, cursing "Baekhyun is disgusting", "Baekhyun get off the stage", "Baekhyun doesn't deserve to live", "Baekhyun dies" ...

He wanted to justify, he wanted to ask why this happened, why did you do this, didn't you say you loved me?why do you hate me...

But he couldn't speak, he tried his best, but he still couldn't speak, but the cursing sound in his ear was very clear, every word pierced his heart.

The person on the bed was frowning, and the sheets were soaked in cold sweat.

Park Chanyeol couldn't stand it any longer, and forced Baekhyun to take the medicine with his lips.

He picked him up, took off his clothes, put him in the bathtub and took a hot bath, then asked the hotel to change into a clean set of luggage, and took care of Baekhyun to lie down.

After much tossing and tossing, it finally paid off. On the afternoon of the fourth day, Bian Boxian woke up.

After being force-fed a bowl of porridge, she finally showed some color on her face.

Bian Boxian was silent, not saying a word.No matter how hard Park Chanyeol pried, he didn't utter a single word.

Baekhyun thought, his light disappeared again, and Baekhyun was thrown into the swamp again.

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The first thing Baekhyun said was "Park Chanyeol, let's break up."

Baekhyun, who had been silent for six days, said, "Park Chanyeol, let's break up."

Park Chanyeol smashed the cup in his hand, "Baekhyun, no, I don't agree!"

"I know that things in your family are very irritating to you, so don't be angry."

Baekhyun repeated, "Let's break up."

Park Chanyeol said, "I apologize to you, it was my impulsiveness that caused so many consequences, you can punish me, but don't break up, please."

Baekhyun still repeated, "Let's break up."

Park Chanyeol couldn't help shouting anymore, "Bian Baekhyun! I have nothing! Stage! Members! Group! Money! Popularity! And my voice! I can no longer rap, I have nothing!

I'm wandering around like a stray dog!

But now I want to lose even you!

Then why am I making all this fuss! "

yeah...for what...

Obviously, half a year ago, they were still on the stage, the members were holding hands, the fans were shouting love, after the trip, Park Chanyeol would sneak up on him from time to time, causing Baekhyun to glare, and the members pretended not to look forward, Or coughing and snickering.

However, in the blink of an eye, they have become what they are now...

for what...

Baekhyun repeated, "Let's break up."

As if the machine was set up, without emotion, repeated without tone, "Park Chanyeol, let's break up."

Baekhyun's expressionless words and words fell into Park Chanyeol's eyes, burning with anger.

No matter where I am, as long as I am with you, I am extremely happy.

But I don't have you.What would I do without you...

I have nothing left...

"Bian Baekhyun!" Park Chanyeol forcibly straightened his head, forcing him to raise his face, "Don't scare me, okay!"

"let's break up."

The mechanical reply made Park Chanyeol almost lose his mind. He yelled like crazy, shaking Baekhyun's body, "Say it again! Baekhyun! How dare you say it again!"

"Let's break up."

The crazy Park Chanyeol roared and collapsed like a beast, and Baekhyun in his hands seemed to have no warmth or emotion, just like a doll, mechanically said, "Let's break up."

He lost his mind and tore Baekhyun's weak bathrobe.He stepped forward and moved wildly.

Baekhyun was like a puppet, lying like a dead body, not responding, even when he was in orgasm, he didn't show any expression.

Park Chanyeol was doing it like venting, every time he felt that the time was coming, he would force himself to stop, raised Baekhyun's head, and asked him, "They said we will be together! We will love each other forever, right?"

However, the answer I got was just the mechanical repetition of "Let's break up."

No amount of movement, no matter how intense the jerk, could shake this person's emotions.

His expressionless face seemed to have been drained of his soul.

Park Chanyeol didn't know how many times he did it, all he knew was that Baekhyun passed out, and he also fell asleep slowly.

When I woke up again, it was already the next afternoon.

The sun was so warm that it shone on the two of them.

Park Chanyeol woke up slowly, looked at Baekhyun on the ground, and realized how foolish he had done in his anger.

Normally, he wished he could spoil Baekhyun in his palm, how could he treat Baekhyun like this.

He promised to give Baekhyun the best happiness.

Not only did he fail to do it, he hurt Baekhyun and he deserves to be damned.

He couldn't understand how hard Bian Boxian was hit.After being hit many times, it is reasonable to say that she wants to break up with him.He should persuade and take care of Baekhyun instead of hurting him rudely.

Remedially picked up Baekhyun and went to the bathroom to wash, and put on clean clothes.After tidying up the mess all over the place, I opened the curtains.

This afternoon, the sun was exceptionally warm and intense.so dazzling.

The sunlight that illuminated the whole room also fell on Baekhyun's face.

Perhaps due to the sudden stimulation of the sun, the eyelashes of the person on the bed trembled a few times, and he woke up with his eyes open.

Bian Baekhyun opened his eyes, just staring at the sun, and didn't care about the tears being pricked out.

"Park Chanyeol, I'm a little hungry."

This was the only normal sentence Bian Boxian said in the past week.Park Chanyeol was so happy that he was about to fly.

"You're hungry, I, I'll get you something to eat right away!"

"By the way, Baibai," Park Chanyeol said cautiously, "That day, it was me...I went too far, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, that's not my sincerity, I'm sorry, I'm really sorry...won't you hit me Slap to relieve hatred, I really..."

Park Chanyeol apologized unscrupulously, the more he cared, the more he was afraid of losing.If Baekhyun doesn't forgive him, what will he do.

"It's okay, Chanyeol, I'm not angry." Baekhyun's voice sounded, it was very low but extremely gentle.

"Really not angry? Then we don't know..." He couldn't continue with the following words, and he couldn't spit out that word even if he tried it.

"No," Bian Baekhyun smiled, the corners of his lips curved into a beautiful arc, the sun was shining on him, Bian Baekhyun smiled, just like the afternoon when they first met during the trainee selection.Bian Baekhyun curled his lips and smiled, and said to him, "Thank you just now." But he replied indifferently, "I'm just idle."

It turns out that fate is doomed there.

"Chanyeol, when I get better, let's go to the ocean. I like the ocean. Let's look at all the oceans and leave our footprints there, okay?"

"Okay, okay," Park Chanyeol was so happy that he found it again, "Let's go to see the sea, and I'll accompany you there. Wherever you want to go, let's go there!"

"Chanyeol, I'm really hungry, can you go and buy me something to eat? I want to eat the cake from the pastry shop opposite the company building when we were trainees."

"...Um, but we are now in the north of the city, and there is the south of the city, the opposite diagonal..."

"Chanyeol, I really want to eat..."

The perpetrator who has just been forgiven, facing the smile and tenderness of his lover, cannot resist and is defeated.

"Okay, Baekhyun, wait for me for a while, I'll go shopping right away."

Park Chanyeol changed his shoes, took his mobile phone and wallet, and was ready to go out.

"Chanyeol!"

Bian Baekhyun suddenly called out.

"What's wrong with Baekhyun?" Park Chanyeol turned around.

"It's nothing... I just wanted to call you."

"Why are you acting like a baby?" Park Chanyeol said with a smile, "I'll be right back, don't worry."

After closing the door with a click, Park Chanyeol didn't hear the muttering of the people in the room, "I'm sorry, Park Chanyeol..."

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Baekhyun committed suicide.

There was blood all over the bathtub, and the entire floor.

The warmth touched by Park Chanyeol's hand, I don't know if it's the water that hasn't cooled down yet, or the warm blood.

Rushing into the hospital with people in their arms, the noisy rescue, and the scattering of doctors.

The doctors all left, and a doctor came out and said to him, "I'm sorry, we have tried our best, please forgive me."

Notifying the family members to sign the death report, Baekhyun's mother's legs went limp and she fell to the ground. She blamed herself for going crazy, thinking that her angry words made her son unable to bear the suicide.

She loves her son!It was just an angry talk that day... But she shook Byun Baekhyun, but the other party could no longer hear a word.

Bian's mother couldn't bear the blow and passed out. Bian's father seemed to be ten years old in an instant, and he supported Bian's mother with his eldest son, trembling, and his back was so sad.

The room fell silent again.

Park Chanyeol stood outside, just watching, he didn't dare to go in, he was afraid of seeing Baekhyun's lifeless face.That person laughed the most, but he couldn't smile to himself anymore.That person can no longer speak, I can no longer hug him, and I can no longer walk with him hand in hand.

He would rather Baekhyun say "Let's break up", even if it is a mechanical question and answer, Baekhyun is still there, Baekhyun is still there...at least Baekhyun is still here...

Park Chanyeol knelt on the ground, tears wet the floor without knowing when.He just knelt like that, from afternoon to evening to early morning, leading the sun to rise the next day.The warm sunlight shone down on the earth and hit the face of the person on the bed.For example, when we met for the first time that afternoon, the boy in the white shirt said, "Just now, thank you."

For example, that afternoon, Bian Baek Hyun-suk said, "I'm hungry, go buy something to eat." "I forgive you, I'm not angry anymore."

Baekhyun, you're lying...

You are obviously still angry.

But it doesn't matter how you scold me, you can't punish me in this way...

Baekhyun, please wake up... Please wake up, please...