good and evil

The past is like the traces engraved on the body, which cannot be forgotten. Yang Shan thought of a lot, and when she reached her mouth, her lips moved slightly, slowly finding words to describe that period of the past.

"After I finished the college entrance examination, my parents divorced, and soon formed a new family, because they both cheated before the divorce. I knew it all the time, so I filled out the volunteer of the police academy pretty willfully. I want to choose a legal major in the direction of criminal law, but since they don’t want me anymore, I’m left alone. Being a policeman is also very good, and I’m still working hard at the first scene. They’re busy with divorce and marriage, so I don’t have time Don't worry, when I think about it, I have already received the notice."

"After enrolling in school, I played very well with a boy. He has good physical fitness and studies. We joined a club together, and we became acquainted and often played together. At that time, my rebellious period came, and I didn't listen to the teacher's words very much. When practicing, I often get myself covered in bruises. He is the class monitor, and he has the information of each of us. I didn’t fill in the names of my parents on the form. He is really a good guy. He often drags me to drink when he finds out that I am in a bad state. Persuade me, treat me like a man, although it is true that women are treated as men in the police academy, but this is also quite funny, I don’t know how to drink, I was tricked by him, and I got drunk after drinking two glasses, holding the wine bottle Crying and scolding my parents, he calmly analyzed it for me, is there usually such a person?"

"This method doesn't have much effect. It can only make me drunk and forget my troubles for a while. When I wake up, it will still be the same. Although I have grown up physically, who told you that you have to mature mentally? Four years in college, I learned Fighting hard, fighting desperately, because of my academic performance and this, I was pretty good, and I was assigned to City X, first during the probationary period, and he was also assigned to the same place as me."

Yang Shan stopped suddenly, and with a snap of her fingers, the bubbles of the soda burst out, and she drank it all in one gulp. Chu E didn't say anything. Although she found all the information, she never told Yang Shan, and she didn't know about her. Mental journey.

Yang Shan went on to say, "During the inspection, we solved a lot of cases. Although they are not very big, they are already good with the ability of our graduates. Just when we were happily preparing to celebrate for ourselves, suddenly A case came out and we went after the suspect, a drug guy who was so excited and a desperado, drove straight into him, I hit a tire on the other side, but the car didn't stop, The second shot went out again, and I killed him by mistake, and then the car hit him, he died, the suspect was seriously injured, and he was sent to prison after he recovered from his illness, but because I killed someone first, he didn't The crimes of homicide are only crimes of drug trafficking and assaulting the police.”

"Although I made meritorious deeds, I still killed him. The boss said that I was not to blame, but I also had to be punished, so I was sent to work as a police officer, and later got me back, but I have never been willing to officially become a police officer. People in the system, I killed my friends before I really entered, and I can’t make it through. I have never obeyed orders. Although the detection rate is high, I still can’t play with other people. The boss forced me to lead the team. The team cooperated, and then I was dubbed the 'captain', but I couldn't manage people well, and I almost broke the team again. At this time, I decided to leave. After all, this place is not suitable for me. After I left, I met you."

Yang Shan remained expressionless, drinking ice soda one after another, sweat dripping down her face.Chu'e handed her a tissue, without saying a word, but motioned her to wipe it with her hands.

Chu E is familiar with people's hearts. She has played with many people's hearts just to fill her stomach. She has read Yang Shan's information and analyzed her psychology, but what she said is different, which shows that she trusts herself.

Yang Shan's words didn't finish everything, and she didn't analyze herself. She just told the past, but it was enough to confirm Chu'e's analysis.

Finally tore the last fig leaf, her parents left her, wanted to vent through fighting with others, finally met good friends, eased the pain in her heart, and was destroyed by her own hands, probably at that time she was one step away from the cliff, barely If she restrained herself, she almost hurt someone again and completely gave up on herself. No wonder when she saw her, she didn't care about her terrible fighting style and self-destructive desire.

She is not a saint, she was just changed by the dead person, just like Ace had to learn etiquette after Sabo "died", she also learned these kind behaviors of helping others, comforting herself, her essence In fact, he is still a person who can do everything to maintain the law, but later he will help others according to the behavior of a well-meaning person.

Therefore, any behavior is purposeful, and Yang Shan helps others to soothe her sinful heart.

Chu E understood why the director in the past asked Yang Shan to do anything, but now she was very resistant.She is lonely, she has always been, her parents didn't want her, Zou Zheng was killed by her, and once again, the director used her, she can feel that she is valuable and needed by others, she is no longer lonely , However, the pressure to kill people is even greater, leaving is the last straw.

Unexpectedly, she met herself. Chu E secretly analyzed that she gave her existence, and I was strong and would not die, which gave her a strong sense of security. .

She used to be crazy, but after getting to know herself, she gradually stopped beating so much and liked to solve things with her mouth.

Since the other party trusts her so much, it should be reciprocated. Chu E opened the soda in her hand, and the two of them sat on the curb, watching people come and go from no one to rush hour in the early morning, looking hurried, and sardines kept swarming. extrusion.

Chu E looked at all this with disgust, and said, "I never told you, the evil I smell is not delicious, I don't want you to eat the smell of a big meal, I can only taste the smell , It's like the stench that has accumulated in the sewer for countless years, sticking to everyone's body, I can only feel this, I don't like it at all, I have never liked it, but this body instinct makes me have to eat it, don't eat it The consequence is starving to the bone marrow. I can only choose to eat. It’s not that I haven’t thought about dying. Although starving to death is ugly, it’s good to be able to die. Unfortunately, I can’t die. I’m so hungry that I can’t die. It's just hungry, I didn't die, it's like a joke, God won't let me die, then I'll live, accept my fate, in order to eat that bite, sow discord, not only let people kill, but also give people reasons to kill, so that he can kill with peace of mind , otherwise everyone is sensible, who would do it. Observe their lives, use them as long as they can be used, from unskilled to conditioned reflex to use preparations, it didn't take long, and they went back to the country for a while when they were full, and they were hungry. I will do two votes in the village, and when this place is almost played by me, I will change to another place, and I will be relieved when I catch up with the war years."

"How did you get over your hunger in the first place? You could go around the prison or the army, and you would be full. But, I don't like these places very much. The people I use are not good people. What's the point of letting them be killed? Those former victims are very happy in turn, even if they go to jail and beheaded, they just need to avenge the novices. I just satisfied them."

"When I first met you, I liked you very much, but at the same time I also hated you, understand? Why are you so innocent? You have killed someone before, but you still want to lock up your malice." Chu E looked coldly looking at her.

"Then do you still hate me now?"

"What do you say?"

Yang Shan smiled lowly, "I probably hate it."

Chu E laughed briefly, but asked back, "Then what do you think of me?"

"Since knowing your true situation, I have been hopelessly fascinated. I want to change your mind and turn you into a person in the good camp. Isn't it great? Your strength is what I need, it is me Desire, I hate it, of course I hate it, every time you act is not in line with my wishes, extremely rude, although your method is correct, why not use it if there is a way that is more harmless? It is really annoying You."

Chu E narrowed her eyes and smiled, "Then why are we still partners? We obviously hate each other?"

"who knows?"

The two of them were sitting on the side of the road, looking at the endless stream of vehicles and crowds with their chins resting on their cheeks, talking disgustingly, but their hearts were quietly getting closer.

He opened his mouth to say a word, but the other party didn't respond, and then responded after a while, and there was silence again, and then a person raised the previous topic, and then responded slowly.

The slow rhythm and disordered order did not seem to disturb them. They were not affected or felt. They just got used to this frequency and enjoyed this leisurely day.

It doesn't matter what happened in the small village not far from here.

The author has something to say: Sorry, I delayed my return for two days, is there anyone else?

I haven't written for a few days, looking for a feeling...