This host is not very straight

Xia Yifan remembered that she almost spent her childhood alone.As long as she can remember, she has been running between the busy kindergarten and the empty home.She has no friends, no favourites, toys or books.She has a pair of very busy parents.Mom was always too serious about her and had high expectations.Dad didn't seem to like her, in fact, she realized as an adult that her father didn't like anyone but himself.

Like, she only loves herself too.

When Xia Yifan couldn't convince herself to leave Tao Mu, the aunt who loved her so much was only because of her mother's disguised threat-she said that you can only choose one, there is her but there is no me.Her father's deceit and instigation—he had always wanted to take her Mo Shi as his own.And Tao Mushi's selfless fulfillment - her inferiority complex defeated herself, so she chose to let go.

Even though she was still young at that time, Xia Yifan still clearly remembered the scene when she first met Tao Mu.She went home with her mother, and her rare father was chatting with a woman.The woman turned her face, she saw her, she is a very beautiful and very temperamental person.

At this time, the woman who kept only a distant and polite smile on her face showed a real smile the moment she saw her.It was as if her presence saved the awkward atmosphere.

"Sister, she must be Yifan."

Since then, she has been calling her Yifan.As if that would allow me to distinguish her from her parents.

There was suddenly one more person in the family, and Xia Yifan didn't feel uncomfortable.Tao Mushi is a very indifferent person, when she picks her up, she just picks her up and never asks more questions.Not to mention taking her anywhere on the grounds of relaxation.

And after she got a job, that is, two months after she returned to China, she moved out, rented a small house, and gradually bought her down.Xia Yifan knew—sometimes she also hated her own intelligence—that she would not be able to own her own house so quickly with her net income.At the same time, she also knew that Tao Mushi moved out eagerly to avoid her father.

Although she hated her father, she didn't take her anger out on herself, nor did she pay much attention to it.Occasionally, she would stay overnight in her room so that she could hitch a ride to the hospital with her mother the next morning instead of taking the bus.My mother thought about buying her a car, but she refused.

"I can't afford to give it to me."

When she said this, she was eating western food elegantly.In the whole family, she insisted on eating only Western food, and the family had to hire an extra Western cook. Her mother secretly said that she "drank foreign ink for a few years and forgot the book".Only then did she realize that there was already a gap between the two sisters.

Xia Yifan also tried western food out of curiosity. To her, the steak was undercooked and bloodshot.The portion of the dish is also very small, and the only thing she praised was the dessert.She has since pestered the family chef to make desserts.

"Yifan, don't be too gluttonous," she said with a smile when she found out. "There will be tooth decay."

"Auntie~" She begged to be let go coquettishly.

She always has nothing to do with herself like this. "Okay," she tapped her head with her index finger, "but give me a little more next time."

Xia Yifan found that Tao Mushi was always extremely relaxed when he was with him.During the contact, she discovered many little secrets of this aunt. For example, she likes cartoons very much, especially cute creatures.For a while, Xia Yifan thought that it must be because of his cuteness that he won the favor of his aunt.

This kind of life, which is warm on the one hand and cold on the other hand, has lasted for a long time.It wasn't until her year that the transformation began to take place.At that time, Tao Mushi had already been promoted to the attending doctor, and she started to take care of new people and became even busier.The two often did not see each other for months or months.Of course, another reason is that she is struggling in the college entrance examination.

On the day the results came out, my mother seemed very happy. She invited a group of relatives, friends, colleagues, and girlfriends to come to her house as guests, and she called it a congratulations for herself.Tao Mushi also came that night. She looked a little tired, but she still gave her a big hug when she saw her.

"You have worked hard, Yifan," she said.

At that moment, tears almost came out of her eyes.So many people, including their own parents, only pay attention to those few figures in the end, only she is different from others.

That night, my mother made plans for the school she would study in the future, majors, and even everything about studying abroad in the future.It is understandable that she wants her daughter to carry on her career.But as a mother, she forgot one thing, that is, her daughter doesn't like medicine, there is no reason, she simply doesn't like it.

So, she resisted.

"Sister!" In the final chaos, Tao Mushi said, "You have controlled Yifan for 18 years, isn't that enough?"

"What do you know!" Mother replied angrily.

"I don't know how to raise children." Tao Mushi, who is still single, replied, "But I can understand Yifan. She likes music. You shouldn't impose your own ideas on her."

That night, Xia Yifan left with Tao Mushi.Before leaving, Tao Muyu said to her daughter, "This is the first and last time."

Xia Yifan knew that this was her mother's compromise and helplessness as a result of her resistance.But she was still glad that Tao Mushi took her away.She moved into her home and spent a pleasant summer vacation there.It was also at that time that their relationship that had undergone subtle changes was exposed.

The dull Xia Yifan finally understood that the emotion in Tao Mushi's eyes when he looked at her was love.She was at a loss, but she didn't avoid it, and she was even happy in her heart. The 36-year-old Tao Mushi is well-maintained, almost the same as ten years ago, just as beautiful and elegant.Since Tao Mushi couldn't help expressing his love, the roles of the two quietly changed.

Xia Yifan became the one who took care of, and Tao Mushi became the one who was taken care of.During the nearly three months of summer vacation, when she stayed at home with Tao Mu, she taught her western food, cleaned her room, and massaged her tired body.

They have been sleeping in the same bed for so long, and finally one night the gun went off.Tao Mushi kissed her, and kissed her while weeping. She didn't know why she was crying, and she didn't know how to comfort her.She gave her body to her, and she didn't make it to the last step.

"Wait a little longer," she comforted her, "Baby Yifan."

"En." Xia Yifan replied in a low voice, and entangled again.Until the two were too tired to move.

Later, she was successfully admitted to the university she liked and the major she loved.After going to a distant place, college life was different from what she had imagined. She sat in a quadruple room, very quiet but lonely.The roommates were busy with things every day, and in the end, she became alone again.

Xia Yifan missed Tao Mushi more and more.Call or video call her every night.

"Yifan has lost a lot of weight." Tao Mushi said in the video, "Did he not eat on time?"

She didn't answer, just said: "I miss you so much."

"Well, I miss you too."

The next day, Xia Yifan received a call from Tao Mushi. She said that she was at the gate of her school and didn't know how to get to her dormitory.

Xia Yifan cried, and all the roommates looked at her in surprise.She ignored it, her heart was already filled with one person.When Xia Yifan hugged Tao Mu at the school gate, the person who said she had lost weight was thinner than himself.Xia Yifan's heart ached, she wanted to kiss her very much, so he kissed her without any scruples in front of passers-by.But she didn't.

Tao Mushi smiled softly, "What are you doing here, why don't you take me around the campus?"

"it is good."

Xia Yifan didn't go back to the dormitory at night, she became a bad student and insisted on going back to the hotel with Tao Mushi. "Don't waste time alone," she said.Tao Mushi naturally agreed.

Xia Yifan once thought that they could live like this forever, and they didn't need everyone's approval, as long as they loved each other.But that unfortunate Saturday shattered all her good fantasies.

She likes Tao Mushi because she gave her warmth, which represents her rebellious youth in her youth and is part of her memories.And Tao Mushi loves Xia Yifan, just loves her.

A long time later, when Xia Yifan saw Tao Mu again, she was no longer a doctor at that time, and she said she was too tired.She used part of her savings to open a pastry shop and sold her original house.Maybe because she stayed in the store every day, her skin became extremely pale, but her whole person became cheerful.

"Most of the people who come to my store every day are young people, and their smiles probably infected me." Tao Mushi said. "There's nothing you can't let go of."

At this moment, Xia Yifan knew that they would never go back.But she didn't expect that the person who said let go is still in prison.

At the end of the story, Xia Yifan also died of old age.Her biggest regret was not being able to attend Tao Mushi's funeral. On the dying bed, she finally experienced Tao Mushi's mood before he died. She was unwilling, indignant, and regretful.

When she opened her eyes again, she found that she was back when she was a child, on the day she graduated from kindergarten.When she saw Tao Mushi standing by the school gate, she had to control herself desperately so as not to cry.But soon, she discovered the clues. Although the aunt in front of her still had the same face, her temperament was completely different.

Xia Yifan said those words on purpose, just to test her.After all, just because she can be reborn doesn't mean her Mo Shi can't undergo some other changes.But this Tao Mushi's reaction confused her, she changed her normal and hugged her, took her to play, and even turned down the English class arranged by her mother for her.On the other hand, she still can't eat spicy food, and still likes cute cartoons.

Both like the original her and not like the original her.

In the morning, Xia Yifan woke up first.She moved up and caressed Tao Mushi's face from the air.After thinking about it all night, she could only attribute Tao Mushi's abnormality to the butterfly effect, although this kind of statement is difficult to hold after thinking about it.

Mu Shi.She shouted silently, withdrew her hand, and couldn't help kissing Hao's forehead lightly.Now when I grow up, will you still love me?

The author has something to say: It’s been a long time since I have written so seriously.Thank you for your support