Turn around

When Lin Sen was about to graduate, Si Lan had completed all her credits in Japan and received an offer from the University of London. Si Lan readily decided to go. Before leaving, she would go back to China to deal with school affairs and reapply for a passport.

Si Lan didn't want to go home at first, but she was forced to come back by her mother. Her mother said that children nowadays are like this. They stay outside all day and don't go home. You and your brother are alone, and they don't want to come back to see us when they are on vacation.

Si Lan was stunned for a while, feeling puzzled, but didn't say anything.

When Si Lan came back, Lin Sen and his parents went to pick up the plane together. When he saw Si Lan at the security checkpoint, Lin Sen felt messy snowflakes flashing in front of his eyes. Before he had time to take a small step forward, he stopped in a daze.

I haven't seen him for more than three years, and Si Lan has changed so much. He is much taller, thinner, and looks very thin. His hair has grown a lot, covering his ears a little, making his face pale.Moon white shirt, beige cloth pants, white sneakers, the whole person looks gentle and indifferent.He smiled and hugged his parents, and comforted his mother in a low voice when her eyes were red and said that Si Lan had lost weight again. In the end, Si Lan looked at Lin Sen over his parents, curbed the corners of his mouth, and shouted: "Brother— "

In the noisy airport hall, sunlight comes in through the floor-to-ceiling glass, and there are always huge dazzling overhead lights on.Si Lan had a clear face and a calm smile, and his light name was Lin Sen, brother.

After all, these years will not be worth it, Lin Sen thought.

Going home is naturally a big celebration. The family is finally reunited. The two elders are very happy. Dad is in charge. Just leave the luggage at home. We will go to the hotel for dinner. The whole family will stay in the hotel tonight and relax before going home.

Lin Sen kept his eyes on Si Lan. After more than three years, Si Lan was like two people when he was in high school. His tone of voice began to be calm and peaceful. When he talked about anything, there was no big ups and downs. , subscribed to the English versions of "Financial Times" and "Mall" on my mobile phone, only occasionally, I can still see the shadow of Si Lan when I was a child, who couldn't drink coffee, and when he laughed, he raised his head and showed his slender neck, and his Adam's apple was slightly twitching. slide.

It could be seen that Si Lan was very happy all day long, having fun with his parents, and when he was tired from playing at night, he went back to the hotel and chatted in his parents' room for a long time, before going back to the next door to talk to him late at night. and Lin Sen's room.

Lin Sen didn't have anyone, he was wearing a nightgown and earphones and listening to music. When Dylan came in and saw Lin Sen leaning on the bed, he was slightly taken aback, said nothing, and went to the bathroom to take a shower.After taking a shower, he came out wrapped in a bathrobe and asked Lin Sen, "Why aren't you sleeping?"

Lin Sen took off his earphones, looked at Si Lan, and said half-truthfully, "You have been occupied by your parents all day, and I can only talk to you late at night."

Lin Sen moved his body to fit Si Lan onto a bed. After hesitating for a moment, Si Lan made it to Lin Sen's side.

"Tell me, brother, what do you want to say?" Si Lan said pretending to be relaxed.

"Last semester, I saw "Salome" at your school's celebration, and I heard that you painted that scene?"

Si Lan was clearly interested, and asked, "Really, they still keep those two sets? Hehe, I don't know how the play is going to be. I finished the sets and left the country without seeing the official performance."

"The response was very good. It was a sensation when it was performed back then, so it was the finale of your mother's school celebration."

"yes……"

"Si Lan, how have you been in Japan these past few years?"

"it is good."

"How long can you stay this time?"

"About a week, then go back to school to go through the formalities, and then go to England. What about you?"

"After the holidays, I will go back to school as a teaching assistant, and then I will go abroad."

"Mom and Dad are going to be lonely, we're all out."

"Yes, Si Lan, do you have to stay in England for two years?"

"Well, but I try to come back in a year and a half. Dad is not in good health. If I take over the company earlier, he can have a good rest."

"Don't work too hard, bring more money, don't go out to work."

"I see."

"Sorry, for me..."

"What did you say?!"

Lin Sen suddenly fell silent.

"What is for you? Dad told you?" Si Lan's voice was low and slightly hoarse: "Dad told you, right? Needless to say I'm sorry, I'm really not for you, I'm for..."

"I saw it myself."

"..."

"Dad didn't tell me. I saw it myself. I have read your diary."

Si Lan lowered his head, his bangs drooped so he couldn't see his expression: "When did it happen?"

"In the summer vacation of the third year of high school, when you were at Grandpa's house."

Si Lan suddenly laughed, his voice was clear and joyful, and with the laughter, a drop of tear fell on the bed.

"Why did you choose to tell me today? I'm going to go abroad soon, and you've already gone abroad when I come back. You could have done nothing. Brother, why do you have to expose me?"

After speaking, Si Lan stood up and walked outside.

"Si Lan, I didn't do it on purpose, you left the country too early, I haven't figured it out yet..."

"Brother," Si Lan said softly, with her back turned to him, "If I didn't want to inherit my father's company, I hope I could keep wandering for you, until I grow old and die, and never come back. Don't say I'm sorry, and don't thank me. , The most failed decision in my life was to go to business school.”

When Si Lan left the room, Lin Sen's hand was stretched out behind him, but he didn't touch him in the end.

Lin Sen couldn't remember how he fell asleep last night, but it was almost noon when he woke up in the morning.He freshened up and went next door to find his parents.After Si Lan left last night, Lin Sen thought that he must have gone to his parents' room. The atmosphere was awkward, and it was not easy for him to go to find Si Lan.He knocked on the door next door, but to his surprise, there was no one inside.

Lin Sen wondered where they might have gone to play, so he went to the lobby to ask, but the people in the lobby told Lin Sen that Si Lan was taken to the hospital this morning, and his parents accompanied him, so there was no time to tell him.

Lin Sen went through the check-out formalities in a daze, and took a taxi to the hospital.Si Lan is so old, he was admitted to the hospital twice, and he was not by his side, so he was the last one to know each time.

In the ward, Si Lan's face was pale, and he was already asleep. The light green liquid in the bottle flowed into his veins drop by drop. His parents stayed by his side, and when they saw Lin Sen coming in, they waved a greeting.

Lin Sen asked softly: "What's the matter, I got up late in the morning, why didn't you wake me up?"

Dad replied: "We originally wanted you to sleep for a while, but when I went down to have breakfast with your mother, I heard that someone passed out on the viewing platform, and then I knew it was Si Lan, so I went straight to the hospital and beat you." No one answered the phone in the room. I still want to ask you what's going on, why did Si Lan stay on the viewing platform all night wearing a bathrobe?"

"How is it now, is it serious?" Lin Sen asked, he avoided his father's question, because he understood why Si Lan would go to the viewing platform, but he couldn't tell his father the real reason, and he didn't want to say that he didn't know.

"Severe cold. Xiaolan's body is weak, and she may have to stay in the hospital for a few days."

Lin Sen nodded, picked up the kettle on the table, went out to fetch water, his mind was full of Si Lan's pale face.

When Si Lan woke up, her parents were not there, only Lin Sen was by her side.Seeing that he woke up, Lin Sen heaved a sigh of relief, smiled, and handed him a glass of water.

Si Lan caught it quietly, lowered her head and took a sip, waiting for Lin Sen to speak.

For Si Lan, this was like a moment of judgment.

However, Lin Sen didn't say anything.So Si Lan understood everything.He put down the glass, raised his head and smiled at Lin Sen, and said, brother, can you forget about the diary?I was young at that time, please forgive me.

Lin Sen looked at Si Lan in disbelief, and after a while, asked, "You really don't care anymore, have you figured it out?"

"Um……"

"You're leaving next week, we won't see each other for at least four or five years, don't you care?"

"It's not indifferent, I will definitely contact you often, what's wrong with you, brother?"

Lin Sen didn't say anything more, just smiled with the corners of his mouth pulled, and stretched out his hands to stroke Si Lan's soft hair.Si Lan didn't know that Lin Sen's words would have come out if he had only waited a moment longer.

which sentence? "I'm sorry for keeping you waiting for so long, I'm sorry for not understanding your intentions, let's be together." This is a sentence that needs to be brewed for a long time, but Si Lan is so desperate that he can't wait anymore.

Three days later, Si Lan was discharged from the hospital, still weak, and lay down on the bed.However, Lin Sen received a call from his tutor, saying that an exchange group from a certain French university was coming to perform, and they visited the school by the way, and asked Lin Sen to go back immediately. Maybe, when the exchange group left, he could get an offer from the university and go to France with him. .

Lin Sen told Si Lan the news, Si Lan smiled and said congratulations, and also said that he couldn't see you off tomorrow, and you didn't see me off when I went abroad, so we are even.

But Si Lan didn't have the confidence to say the voice that Lin Sen wanted to hear.

The next day, Lin Sen packed his luggage. This time he might travel far, so he had more luggage than usual. His parents called a taxi and stopped directly in front of their house. They would see him off at the airport.When the date of going abroad is set, parents will also send it.

Of course, Si Lan stayed in the room. He was still ill, and his parents didn't allow him to leave the room. Si Lan himself said that he would not send him off.

The taxi left the door of the house, this farewell, I am afraid that the past will really come to nothing.However, before the car turned a corner, Lin Sen suddenly stuck his head out of the car window and glanced back.

He saw Si Lan wearing pajamas, leaning against the door and watching the taxi away. He even saw the hopeless smile on Si Lan's face.Lin Sen suddenly made a decision.

He stopped the taxi, jumped out of the car and ran towards the door of the house, hugging the limp and pale Si Lan tightly in his arms.It was their first hug as adults, sacred as a wedding.

Si Lan closed his eyes.

After waking up, I heard from my mother that Lin Sen had gone back to school to complete the graduation procedures. He decided not to stay in school but went to France. The reason was that he was already good enough. Besides, after Si Lan went abroad, it would be better for him to stay at home. Also big.Although my parents felt that it was a pity not to go to France, they also faintly felt that there was no need to go to France to study music, and they were still happy that their son wanted to stay with him.So Lin Sen persisted, and the elders happily agreed.

Only Si Lan knew what Lin Sen's decision meant.

After Si Lan recovered from his illness, he still went abroad to study as planned, but Lin Sen was the one who followed him to the school to help him with the formalities, and both insisted on letting his parents stay at home.

They stayed in Beijing for four days. During this period, the lingering memories could support them for three years.

Lin Sen said that he really regretted it. If he had confessed his thoughts to Si Lan earlier, he would have had a lot more time to eat and learn.When he said this, Si Lan was lying beside him, with traces of love on his body, half asleep and half awake, he reached out and hugged Lin Sen's waist.

Two years later, Lin Sen had already made a name for himself in the music industry and performed with the orchestra in the UK.After the performance, I kissed Si Lan who was waiting in the background, and the British staff around me whistled and booed, and gave blessings with smiles on their faces.

Another six months later, when Si Lan finished her studies and returned to China, her parents and Lin Sen both came to pick her up at the airport. Si Lan still hugged her parents first, then held Lin Sen's hand and shouted, "Lin Sen—"

Another six months later, Papa Lin officially retired, and Si Lan took over the company. At this time, Lin Sen already had a stable career. Although he often performed in various places, he spent most of his time by Si Lan's side.

Parents faintly felt that the two of them were too happy, but they didn't say anything. After all, there are no parents who don't want their children to be happy.

The two of us will surely die separately, either alone or with someone else.The two of us must not be happy, if we don't have that moment, we can't bear to turn around.

The author has something to say: it's over~~