What Comes Around Goes Around

Zong Kai felt really sad.On the way back, he received an apology text from Jiang Ke, but he didn't reply.It wasn't that he was still angry, nor was it because he didn't want to talk after the quarrel, he really didn't know what to say.

It was Jiang Ke's first time seeing Zong Kai like this. He suddenly seemed like a stranger. After staying up until noon the next day, I couldn't hold it anymore. I closed my eyes and finally sent out the message I had edited earlier: Still angry?You just think I took the wrong medicine yesterday, and it's all nonsense.

The result was still nothing, and it was not until the end of get off work that Zong Kai's news came back, saying: I had a meeting all day, I just saw it.

This kind of reply can't make Jiang Ke feel at ease, because it doesn't show any tone, and more importantly, it makes people unable to continue with the words.Zong Kai didn't mention a single word about what happened yesterday, did he not want to mention it, or did he deliberately wait for himself to take the initiative to say it?Jiang Ke was not sure, he stared at the phone in a daze for a long time.

Qin Ziyang didn't know anything about what happened after they separated yesterday. Seeing Jiang Ke's pained face, he asked with some surprise, "What's wrong with you?"

"...Huh? Oh, no." Jiang Ke replied slowly, putting away the phone.Since he can't find a word to reply to Zong Kai for the time being, it's better to let Zong Kai calm down.After all, we have to put it aside as usual. He sent a message at this time. No matter how busy Zong Kai was, he would always ask if he wanted to have dinner together, but he didn’t ask today. He knew that he was in a bad mood and didn’t want to talk. People think.

In the next few days, Zong Kai still had this lukewarm attitude. Every time Jiang Ke contacted him, he would answer whatever he asked, but he just didn't take the initiative to contact Jiang Ke.This made Jiang Ke feel very uncertain. Once, he couldn't help asking: Shall I go to you after get off work today?In the end, I just waited for one sentence: Sorry, I have to work overtime today.

Jiang Ke couldn't figure out whether Zong Kai was really working overtime or making excuses to perfuse him. After get off work, he went to Zong Kai's company in a strange way, but he waited in the coffee shop downstairs until 09:30 and didn't see Zong Kai come out.He went up to take a look, and there was no one in the company.When he came down again, he sent Zong Kai a message and asked him: Are you still busy at the company?Zong Kai actually said: Yes, it may be later today.

Jiang Ke looked at this reply and took a few deep breaths before he managed to calm down. His heart was blocked and stuffy, not because Zong Kai lied to him, but because he couldn't believe that Zong Kai would lie to him.Didn't Zong Kai say that lovers can communicate no matter what happens?Then why can't such a misunderstanding be overcome now?Don't want to see him so much?Is it worth lying about?

Are you angry?Jiang Ke asked himself.No, he shook his head to himself, he was not angry, he was just frustrated, disappointed, but not disappointed in anything.to myself?To Zong Kai?Or to this vulnerable relationship?Probably have.

At this moment, he suddenly understood why many relationships in this world, no matter how good they were at the beginning, always fade away gradually, and finally end up with nothing.Just like the two of them now.

He thought, if Zong Kai was really angry and lost his temper, it would be easy to deal with, and he just had the cheek to come to the door to ask for peace; and if he felt that it didn't matter, it was Zong Kai's unreasonable trouble, and he could do whatever he should do without caring .It is precisely the current situation where "one party does not express its position, and the other party does not take reason" is the most hopeless situation, because both parties feel powerless, so they are not in the mood to do anything for this relationship.

Jiang Ke admitted that he prefers to avoid things, but he didn't understand what happened to Zong Kai this time.On the way back driving, he thought about letting Zong Kai be quiet for another two days.He never expected to receive a call from his mother as soon as he entered the house, with a sad news: Jiang Congjun died of a sudden myocardial infarction.

For such a big event, Jiang Ke must go home.He asked Qin Ziyang for leave and bought a night train ticket for that day.At the train station, he hesitated again and again, and finally called Zong Kai.

"What's the matter?"

Zong Kai's tone was indifferent, Jiang Ke wanted to talk to him, but when he heard his attitude, he couldn't say anything.

"...Nothing, just want to ask if you are still busy."

"Well, I've been busy recently."

"Oh, then you are busy, I hung up."

"it is good."

After hanging up the phone, Jiang Ke's mood plummeted to the bottom.He felt extremely uncomfortable, but he had to face the reality again. He thought they might not be able to go on.After all, people who are not from the same world, maybe they shouldn't have started at all.

Jiang Ke lay on the train all night in a state of confusion, but when he got home, he didn't have time to think about it. He was busy with his children for almost a week.Qin Hong seemed to be several years old at once. Jiang Ke used to think that the marriage between his mother and Jiang Congjun was a union where each got what he wanted, but in fact, after most of his life, he had already lost his affection.

On the night when she was completely busy with the afterlife, Jiang Ke forced Qin Hong to go to bed early, and she hadn't closed her eyes for several days.Qin Hong lay on the bed and said she couldn't sleep, so Jiang Ke had to move a chair and sit by the bed, talking to her casually.

"Ah..." Qin Hong sighed first, then closed his eyes, "I didn't say a word when we arrived, and I don't know what he wants to explain."

"Don't think so much when everyone is gone. It's useless to think about it." Jiang Ke and Jiang Congjun have an average relationship. He couldn't personally understand his mother's sadness, so he could only persuade her with words.

"I know you didn't like him when you were young..."

"Mom," Jiang Ke was afraid that she would bring up a lot of old things, so he quickly interrupted her, "It doesn't matter whether I like him or not, and I can't go to school in the city without him. Now that I think about it, it's all...predestined..."

Jiang Ke couldn't help thinking of Zong Kai, and suddenly felt that maybe people really have past and present lives. Otherwise, all the fates encountered in this life, no matter how long or short, are connected by what?

"You child..." Qin Hong sighed again, "Knife mouth tofu heart."

"You know what you said just now." Jiang Ke chuckled lightly.

"I don't think I've wronged you..."

"How old am I, you say this..." Although Qin Hong closed his eyes, the tears that slipped from the corners of his eyes still could not escape Jiang Ke's sight. He took a piece of paper from the tissue box on the bedside table and handed it over.

"I can see that you are wronged..." Qin Hong touched the paper and wiped the corners of his eyes, but he still didn't open them. "Because there was nothing to do before, alas..."

"Okay, don't sigh if you say it's all right." Jiang Ke patted her other hand on the edge of the bed with a smile.

He originally thought that he might not be able to wait for his mother to apologize to him in this life. Although he also thought that if Qin Hong apologized to him one day and said that he had wronged him, he would probably cry, but now he doesn't want to cry at all. I feel that these are not important anymore.

Maybe the parting of relatives always makes people think a lot. The mother and son have not talked like this for many years. They chatted intermittently for more than an hour, until Qin Hong stopped talking in a daze, and Jiang Ke quietly went back to his room.

He didn't sleep well all night, and woke up very early the next day.It was rare for Qin Hong to still be asleep. Jiang Ke got up to wash up and cooked some porridge. While washing the dishes, he glanced downstairs inadvertently, but didn't take it seriously. went back.He thought he was delusional, but it turned out that the person who kept him up all night was standing downstairs.

Jiang Ke couldn't believe his eyes, why is Zong Kai here?He stared blankly at the window for a long time before he came back to his senses, went to his own room in a panic, changed his clothes, took his mobile phone keys and went downstairs.

Zong Kai turned his back to the building door, and a small suitcase stood beside him. Jiang Ke's heart beat violently when he walked over, and he didn't understand why he was so nervous.

"...Why didn't you call me?" The question was a little trembling.

Zong Kai immediately turned around when he heard the sound, and smiled in relief, "Your phone is turned off."

Jiang Ke took out his phone from his trouser pocket and pressed it a few times, but there was no response, "I forgot to charge it, I've been dizzy these days."

"Are you okay?" Zong Kai looked at him, "You don't look very good."

"Too many things, I didn't sleep well." Jiang Ke forced a smile.In fact, these days he has considered a lot of things to say to Zong Kai, but for some reason now that he sees someone, he can't remember a word.

"Is everything okay at home?" Zong Kai asked.

"It's okay," Jiang Ke remembered to ask him now, "How did you find it?"

"I asked Qin Ziyang, and he told me that you have gone home."

"Why don't you just ask me?"

Zong Kai didn't answer, and after looking at him for a while, he said, "I'm sorry."

Jiang Ke was taken aback for a moment, not knowing how to answer.

"You called me that day just to tell me you were going home, right?" Zong Kai lowered his head and pushed his glasses, and said with a somewhat apologetic expression, "I just wanted to be quiet at that time, but I wasn't busy... "

"I know," Jiang Ke interjected, "I'll wait downstairs at your company."

Zong Kai obviously didn't expect such an outburst, he was stunned when he heard this, and he apologized again after a while: "I'm sorry, I..."

"Don't be like this, it was because of me..."

"That's not your fault," Zong Kai shook his head anxiously, "Actually, it's not because of that incident at all, I just feel uneasy. To be honest, I'm really scared..."

"What are you afraid of?" Jiang Ke couldn't figure out his thoughts at all.

"I'm afraid my feelings are a joke..." Zong Kai paused, "I'm afraid you'll play tricks on me."

Jiang Ke watched him silent for a long while, seeing more and more people passing by, he said: "It's not convenient here, let's talk in another place."

"Okay." Zong Kai followed him without asking where he was going.In the end, Jiang Ke took him to the hotel.

"I see that you have brought your luggage, so you don't intend to leave today, do you?" Jiang Ke asked him when checking in.

"Well, I took annual leave." Zong Kai said.

Jiang Ke nodded and said nothing else.The two took the elevator in silence, walked through the corridor in silence, opened the door and entered the house.Jiang Ke went in first, and walked a few steps in. When Zong Kai followed in and closed the door, he suddenly turned back and pressed Zong Kai against the door, and kissed him hard.Zong Kai seemed to have this intention long ago, when Jiang Ke rushed forward, he didn't stop at all, and immediately kissed back.The two stumbled in while kissing, and finally fell on the bed together.

After a long-lost passion, both restless hearts calmed down.

"I thought you wanted to break up with me." Jiang Ke lay on the bed, panting.

"Where do you want to go? I just want to be quiet." Zong Kai sat on the head of the bed, raised his hand and slapped his ass, "Who told you not to talk properly if you have something to say."

"Where did I not say it properly?" Jiang Ke curled his lips and muttered.

"What do you mean to say it well?" Zong Kai glanced at him, "If you are in a hurry, you will talk about everything, I really admire you."

"Don't you know that, I'm just in a hurry." Jiang Ke actually couldn't hold back his face, so he just buried his face in the pillow and pretended to be an ostrich.

Zong Kai rubbed his hair, "Actually, I'm also wrong. I said earlier that I can communicate with anything, but when you get stubborn, I also get a little angry." He smiled at this point and continued, "Both say two things. When people are together for a long time, their personalities will become more and more similar, I think I am a bit like you now, and I am not as calm as before."

Jiang Ke had been listening with his head depressed, and suddenly turned his head around, and said with a cheap smile: "Marry a chicken as a chicken, and marry a dog as a dog."

"You just owe it." Zong Kai slapped his ass again, but his tone was full of indulgence, "I don't care about you."

"You have a good temper." Jiang Ke smirked, moved closer to Zong Kai, turned over and hugged his waist, put his face on him, and sighed, "I must have accumulated great virtue in my previous life."

Zong Kai looked down at him, and touched his shoulders and arms back and forth.The two of them didn't speak for a while. After a while, Zong Kai spoke again and said, "Is it appropriate for you to come out like this? Is your mother okay?"

"I left a note for her." Jiang Ke said, "My mother is not that weak, at least she is stronger than I thought. I just found out in the past few days that I don't know her at all, but it may be that I never I didn't want to get to know her."

"Have you learned a lot in the past few days?" Zong Kai was a little surprised by his sudden inner thoughts.

"If you can't sleep, your mind will be full of thoughts." Jiang Ke sat up as he spoke, and it was rare for him to take the initiative to talk about his family. "I told you, I used to hate going home."

Zong Kai nodded and said, "You said that you didn't like to leave school when you were young."

"Not only, I thought so before I came back this time."

"how?"

"It's just our house," Jiang Ke shook his head with a self-deprecating smile, "Every time I enter the house, I feel uncomfortable all over, and I feel that if I don't run far away, I will never escape that state, that... useless, alas ... I can't tell, but I just don't like them, including my mother."

Zong Kai can somewhat understand Jiang Ke's feelings, but maybe because his dislike of family has never been as strong as Jiang Ke's, so he doesn't want to escape as much as Jiang Ke does.He prefers a relationship of mutual respect.

"They're your family, you can't hide from them."

"I know I can't avoid it, but I just don't want to be like my mother. I haven't wanted to since I was a child. I'm very afraid of living the same life as her, walking the same path as her, and finally becoming the same person as her."

"She is your dearest person," Zong Kai said, "You can disagree with her actions, but you have to admit that you will always be affected."

"..." Jiang Ke pursed his lips and said nothing.

"You have to admit that you have something like her before you can make a different choice, otherwise your guilt will make you never get out of this vicious circle, and you will always hate her and feel sorry for her."

Jiang Ke was taken aback, then turned to look at him, "How do you know I'm guilty?"

Zong Kai pinched his nose and said, "Don't you really know that your thoughts are basically written on your face?"

"No," Jiang Ke hid for a moment, "The main thing is that I only figured it out in the past few days." He always knew that he was emotional, but he didn't expect to be able to get emotional to let others see through his own mind first.

"Then tell me what you figured out?" Zong Kai asked with a smile.

Jiang Ke leaned his head back on his shoulder again, and said in an eloquent tone: "I didn't notice it before, but after I came back this time to do the funeral, I found out that my mother was in a daze after I moved last year. There are quite a few luggage bags that have not been unpacked yet, and they are stacked in the closet..."

"Well, then what?"

"Actually, I didn't realize it at first, but then one night I suddenly realized that my mother probably didn't plan to live permanently at all, and was ready to make room at any time. During the Chinese New Year, she also said that it would be good for me to get married and live. She didn't know. I can't get married at all..."

Zong Kai didn't answer, he put his arms around his shoulders, and sighed deeply when he thought of his parents' attitude.

"She is really used to being wronged, she has never lived for herself." Jiang Ke also sighed.In the past, when he saw Qin Hong's cowardly behavior, he was very angry, especially after going to college and leaving home, he couldn't bear to go back after not seeing each other for a long time.In fact, thinking about it now, he may just not know how to face his guilt, so he can only cover it up with impatience.

"I will never be able to make her an ordinary mother-in-law, let alone a happy family. Now that my stepfather is gone, she is left alone..."

Jiang Ke didn't go any further, but Zong Kai fully understood what he meant, "There are some things you can't change, you can only learn to accept them."

"How can you always be so calm?" Jiang Ke gave him a wry smile.

"I just figured it out a little earlier than you." Zong Kai tilted his head and kissed the top of his head, "But it's also because of you that I'm really sure what kind of life I've always wanted."

"What kind?" Jiang Ke asked curiously.

"There is not so much purpose, simple life." Zong Kai hugged him closer to himself, "I said that being with you feels very relaxed, and I don't have to always be tense and wonder if I can do my best. Well, have you been compared by others?"

"You can really talk." Jiang Ke laughed at himself twice, "It's because I don't make progress, I always muddle through, and I don't like to take the initiative to fight for anything. You were right just now, but I just don't want to admit it. It’s really like our family.”

"Then you didn't take the initiative to chase me?" Zong Kai smiled.

"It's different." Jiang Ke shook his head.

"It's the same," Zong Kai said, "No matter what you don't like, as long as you are willing to look at it without prejudice, you can always find the part that is meaningful to you, it depends on what you think."

"I said you are really..."

"Ok?"

"I found that you really know how to do ideological work."

"You will make me think that I am a very boring person." Zong Kai said helplessly.

"How come..." Jiang Ke glanced at him with a smile, his expression was a little embarrassed, "I really like listening to you."

"So it's most suitable for us to be together." Zong Kai laughed, "I've seen all of your appearances, and you can listen to my boring words. We know each other well."

"I don't know much about it." Jiang Ke smiled casually.

"Of course it's clearer." Zong Kai gave him a pointed look, then turned over and pinned him down again.Jiang Ke closed his eyes, waiting for the kiss on his lips to fall.

After another entanglement, the two were still hugging each other, and Jiang Ke said without end: "Actually, I always feel that I am very selfish."

"Why?" Zong Kai didn't understand where these words came from.

"Sometimes I wonder if I'm just used to the warmth and security that you give me." Jiang Ke looked at him with a guilty expression on his face, "I don't even know if it's called it like."

"Isn't love like this? Everyone is looking for what they want, and at the same time giving what others need." Zong Kai scratched the tip of his nose with a smile, "If I have it, why should I be stingy?"

"........."

Jiang Ke didn't speak for a while, Zong Kai said again: "I want to give, do you understand? I know you are not a stingy person."

"...what can I give you?"

"You're already here."

(Finish)

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